The Guys, A New Guide and Attachments!

I'm tired today - but not as bad as I've been. Last night I slept like a semi-rock. I say semi because I don't think I've slept like a "rock" without waking up at some point since 1996 or so. Any ways - I think it's in part to the question I had asked about Bill - I got my answer.

My Question: Will Bill honor our soul agreement in this lifetime?

Monte's Answer: I feel that he's on a different path than you are and even though he loves you, I don't see that meaning that your path and his will be be forever...not in a relationship of love...but more of a Spiritual kind-ship...He's not satisfied with his life right now and wants more than you do so he's looking a lot more down the road....You're looking more in the now and you both need to be looking at what life offers for each of you along the same path, not what you get versus what he gets....What I'm saying is; Your priority should be to want the same thing or negotiate them to a conclusion so you each know what's most important.

My Response: Unfortunately for Bill and I the balls in his court and has been for the last 5 years. I have no way to contact him in the physical realm - but he stops by my blog to check in on me and he has my phone number. There's so much more we could accomplish for the world together than separate. It's frustrating. Especially since I know he's not satisfied with his life and he's looking for more. The nightly dream and daily telepathic contact is nice but....

Monte's Answer: ***This is holding you back as an attachment so 'Let Go, Let GOD', everything has a purpose so don't allow this BIG issue of yours distract you from where you need to be Spiritually....I do understand and feel your frustration at the lack of of an acceptable reason for Bill to be with you on your path, but he has work to do before he can accept a partner in his life just as you have your work to do....Release him with love and let Guidance take it from there...

He went on to tell me about his experience which was similar to mine. He told me about removing attachments and because of that one of his guides left and a new one arrived. This got me to thinking -- I haven't had a new guide in a very long time. Maybe before my divorce. Before I got divorced, I must of been doing some major growth because I had a lot of guides come and go.

Last night I decided to ask the universe to remove anyone or anything from my life that wasn't for my highest good. When I went to sleep I felt lighter. I don't remmeber Bill or Will being in any of my dreams.

In the shower this morning I remembered something that Monte said - he consciously removed the attachments. So as I was rinsing off I brought to me each of the guys - said "Go in peace, do what you have to do, and then come back." Next was my 2 exes. For them I said:  "Go in peace and never come back." Each one I sent out into a brilliant white light. All of them were rather easy to let go of but Ted. My heart chakra felt heavy, then had a vibration and a tug. He looked horrible as I let him go - but I knew I had to.

As soon as the last one was gone - some of my current guides took a bow and left: Ethan, Edward and Robert (all 3 said they would be back at some time) and Iris (who said she's not coming back). Then I heard a high pitch sound and saw a very vibrant golden light. I heard a female voice say that she was here now. I recognized the energy immedately from a past life regression I had 3 or 4 years ago. If I could figure out how to transfer the regression session from a cassette tape to here I would. Anyways -- in the regression session this soul/light came through me to talk to Cindy (the regressionist). This light was part of my star past.

I asked her name. She said it was a sound - close to what we could say is a "C". She told me to give her a name if it made it easier. So I called her Gloria. She told me I was one of the Star Children - Ted and I. This was something I already knew. Then she said that my son is also a Star Child - he was Ted and I child - and becaue he is a star like me, it's one of the major reasons he and I butt heads. His soul is almost as old as mine and like me - he's a leader not a follower.

Gloria then went on to say that I sabatage myself because I'm not like everyone - and I want to be like everyone. So I do what I have to in order to remain - normal. Well as normal as I can be :) She then showed me a diagram...went something like this:


STAR PEOPLE (1% of all souls)

                               MOST OF THE SOULS (98% of all souls)

                                                                        DARK SOULS (1 % of all souls)

She went on to explain that if I deny who I am - then the scale tips in the Dark Soul's favor. Especially since Ted and my son have no clue about their light - yet.

I asked if we're all stronger when we're connected - then did I do the wrong thing by releasing the attachments to the guys? She said no. Even though on the physical plane the attachments were cut, on the spiritual plane we're all connected. On the physical plane they were (unconsiously) draining the light from me. In order for me to "shine" then I have to refuel and allow my light to shine through. When the guys are all strong enough on their own - that means they completed their tasks - and they will all be back (with the exception of the exes, of course).

I ran a few plans past Gloria and she liked them. When I go to impliment them into GA or OBE, I'll let you guys know:) Since our convo this morning - she is off my right side - the light is constant and strong. I know there was much more said during our talk, but right now I don't remember all of it.

Off to the side of the blog I put links to my Twitter page and my new Facebook page.

It feels nice to be writing in the blog again.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Little of This and A Bunch of That!

No -- you're not imagining things. This is really a post by yours truly. You guys are so sweet to have missed me. I can't tell you how many emails I have received asking me when I was going to post again. It really is nice to be missed.

I have to switch this from Blogger to Wordpress by my birthday (May 2nd). Someone don't let me forget:) Email me by April 15th and remind me. I'd greatly appreciate it.

As you all  can imagine - A LOT has happened since my last post. So go grab a cup of java, tea or a glass of wine and come back to read.

Brodie died Jan 7th. It broke my heart. His nose had started to bleed more the day before and I couldn't stop it. I knew something was coming. He needed to go outside to the bathroom. He went and then immediately had a stroke. It was horrible - just heart breaking. The tumor had pushed through to his brain. Oh the pain he must of felt. Thank God my neighbor Bob was home (who Brodie adored more than anyone). Thank God through my sobbing he knew what I needed. He helped me carry Brodie to the car - not easy seeing it was 100 lbs of dead weight. Bob had a hard time saying good bye so I could drive off. By the time I finally got him into the vet - his passing was quick and painless. Everyone at the vet loved Brodie and all stopped what they were doing to be there when he passed. I miss that dog so much. But seeing how protective he was in life (he chased away two bible thumpers 15 min before his stroke) I'm sure he's still close by. Gimli had a very difficult time with Brodie's passing. Countless hours were spent outside looking for his friend.

Gimli is doing fine now - he's turning into a good dog. He still eats things he shouldn't - but he's left my couch, carpet and table alone.

School is kicking my butt. Social Psych and Sign Lang 2 are going great. Stats hurts my brain (but I think I have a B in  there) and Ethics is killing me. I'm doing piss poor in that class - but so is most students. That class may ruin my dean's list for this semester. I'm still part of a research team at school and I like doing this. I discovered that I won't be able to graduate till May 2011 instead of Dec 2010. I have 2 classes that I can't fit in - 7 classes in a semester is a recipe for disaster.

I don't know if I mentioned that I was going to get my certification in sex coaching. Even though I have been ding it awhile - I thought it would be nice to be certified. This is going well. I love learning about this - educational and fun:)

I had a part time job and lost that same part time job. They are trying to talk me out of quitting - which is nice. But I don't think I do well as a follower. I also though to myself -- is this the best use of my time? No. I love to help people - period. This job wasn't even close to it. So I told myself that if I dedicated x hours a day to that job. Then I could do the same back at Gypsyadvice and Keen. That's what I'm doing.

After I post this -- I'll be doing the podcast and the OBE blog. I know - shocking:) I do have some surprises coming up for the OBE site that I'm excited to implement. When it's ready I'll let you know.

It's a shame I wasn't betting in an Oscar pool last night - I got them all right but the winner for editing and short film:) Speaking of which - screenwriting has taken a back burner. I honestly don't want it on the back burner - even though I guess I can't write believable dialogue to save my life. I think I'll take a break from rejection for a bit. I'll keep rewriting THE BLACK TRIANGLE when I have time. This is a must-do script.

I wanted the movie AMAZING GRACE over the weekend. This is a song that I always sing and I have no clue as to the why. So I'm watching this movie and it brought up a whole range of emotions that make me think WTF? As I kept feeling these strange emotions - esp when I watched the main character William and his wife Barbara - I kept thinking that dang, William is someone who I would be attracted to - why can't I find someone like that? Then Bill's face popped up. I thought - yeah, he's a lot like Bill. But Bills face wouldn't leave. So I thought again WTF? The it was like Iris hit me on the head -- you big dummy, Bill was William in a past life -and I guess that made me Barbara. Ahhhh....then it dawned on me - lol. But Iris quickly jumped in and said that the real William and Barbara were not exactly how they were portrayed in the movie (gee - hollywood taking a creative license about a true story - I'm shocked). At some point in time I have to read more about William and Barbara.

Bill has been around a lot. He never really wants anything - just to show that he's here. He's in my dreams too. Every night without fail.

Someone else is in my dreams every night - but I can't make out who they are. The set up though is always the same. He's wealthy - lives with his wealthy parents. The house is modern, well kept with modern furnishings. There is a huge wall of windows that overlooks the ocean. I'm friends with his parents but his father wouldn't approve of our relationship (or would at least have a hard time) and he's sick - so we can't approach him with our situation. He has cancer. This guys bedroom has a really big bed with a red comforter. A couch is in from of the bed with a flat screen TV. Not a lot of clutter is on the dressers. The adjourning bathroom is huge and marble (plus very tidy). He likes to sleep on the same side of the bed I do (if you're looking down at the bed from the foot - it's the right side) but I don't mind sleeping on the left side. They have a dog - I think it's a yellow lab like Gimli. I have no idea why I keep showing up here and who these people are. But I'd like to find out.

I'm going to be at the Universal Light Expo again this October. The topic of my workshop will be Sexual Energy:)

My son is doing ok back in public school. He's had some bumps - but overall he's well.

I keep catching a spirit or maybe an astral body floating around at all hours of the day/night. I'm thinking this is either Bill or Will - maybe Vincent. All the guys are still around - I find myself being drawn into thinking about them. But I don't allow the connection to last very long.

Because I don't allow the connection to last - I don't get the full benefit of being connected to them. I'm not talking about sex here - but the benefit of their energy - their love. I miss that closeness. But I also do not want to get sucked in (so to speak)- I have too much to do.

I know there's more to talk about - there has to be. But I'm out time if I'm going to do the podcast. So I'm going to boggie out.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Little Bit of This, That and the Other Thing.

Well hi there! Long time no talk. I hope everyone is having a happy holiday season. Thank you for all of the holiday messages that arrived in my inbox, FaceBook and here on the blog.

Humm....where should I even start with this update? Better grab a cup of coffee and get settled in -- I have a lot to chat about.

College - ended up getting 3 A's and 1 B+. Landed on the Dean's List again (yay me)! Classes are out until Jan 10th. Another year of full time classes and I should have my BA by this time next year.

I'm also going to be enrolled in the Sex Coaching Instutite. I know - I know -- seriously, how much can I cram into a day? No worries as my son is going back to his public school on Jan 4th. He had to realize that being with me all day long was not a good thing. I'm a lot more strict than the teachers. Now that he realizes that being with mom is not the best thing in the world, he won't act up (on purpose mind you) in school so that I have to take him out and homeschool him. Fingers crossed that my plan has worked:)

Brodie has had some really rough days. I feel horrible for him - but he doesn't want to give up yet - so I'm not putting him down for the time being. Gimli on the other hand is eating my house one piece at a time. The carpet, wooden floor, couches....SIGH. He's just luckly I love animals.

My dreams have been so active and really messed up lately. This has been going on the last 6 months or so - but over the last 2 months it's really intensified. In my dreams I'm working for a secret gov't agency. We interagate people in their dreams. Now I'm good at shifting my dreams when I want or need another dream enviroment. But with this - I bounce right back to gov't work. I'm very good at what I do for the agency and I'm told (in the dreams) that I'm not going to be going anywhere any time soon. I'm too valuable. SIGH. So I've bene waking up just as tired as when I fell asleep. When I try to shift the gov 't dreams - I keep landing in Atlantis. All I want to do is stay there - but even Atlantis can't keep me in Atlantis.

The bathroom dreams are also back. Big rooms full of toliets with no walls - hundreads of people around going to the bathroom. But  this time in these dreams - I find the one private bathroom there is -- and everytime I enter I'm told that this is where I belong. Seperate - yet connect - to the world.

Now - in the waking world it's also been very interesting concerning Atlantis. I could be in the middle of something (like driving) and all of a sudden Atlantis is there. I'm not "in" it - but I can reach out and grab it (so to speak). It happens all the time now - even when I'm in the middle of a conversation. I have to stop what I'm saying (I loose my train of thought completely) and restart. The last couple of weeks it's been really intense.

The reason it's so intense - I think - is that an old friend has come back into my life. This is a friend that I'd walk through fire for in a heart beat - but everytime we've been together (in the past) he has broken my heart in a million pieces. I have a wall so thick around me where it concerns him (and really anyone else who has hurt me) that it's difficult for him to get through. BUT -- he has an abundence of spiritual gifts that are just fabo - and he can still break through this fortress without even really trying. He's come to me for help in understanding his gifts. Like me - he's a logical thinker by nature - and he's trying to logically figure this out (something Bill has been trying to do for years). There's no logic to this -- I've tried.

In order for me to really help him, I have to let my walls down completely. I know this - he knows this. Iris is being very forward about me doing this -- that I have to. I know I have to -- but I'm scared. He can get to places within me that no one else but Bill can. The difference my friend wants to be in those places where Bill has said no way.

So anyways my friend - Kevin - thinks he's Vincent. He's not - but what is so interesting about him saying Vincent out of all of the men I'm connected to is that at the ULE I got a couple of readings. All described Vincent as being in my energy - but it wasn't Vincent. It was someone LIKE Vincent. Someone with the same protective energy as Vincent - someone who can love me in ways that no one else can. So is Kevin the Vincent that the readers mentioned? I try to figure it out, but I know I can't figure it out. I have to go with the flow and see where I land.

Kevin says that I have an enormous power within me -- like he does (I said the like he does - he didn't say that) -- that has to be tapped into. I'm only skating on the surface. By allowing myself to be fully immersed in my gifts - I can help more people (which is what I love to do).

I can feel the guys closing in ranks around me - not wanting to let Kevin close to me. Between my wall and the guys - it should be damn near impossible for Kevin to get through - yet he still does. Since I saw Kevin last night - I can't stop the energy tremors. What he and I need to do (I feel) is spend some time alone without the outside pressures of life - if only for a day. This way we can get a handle on what's going on.

I'll try to keep you updated.

Starting at the start of the year, I will no longer be offering free follow up questions for the readings. I just cannot keep up with them all. I'll talk about it more in today's podcast.

Also in the last couple of weeks I started to watch (and got caught up with) Heroes. I was going to watch it when it 1st came on TV - but my guides told me no - I wasn't ready. I wasn't sure what I had to be "ready" for -- but I think it has to do with the acceptance of who I am. The ability to focus in on my gifts and use them to make a difference in people's lives. I know that so far I've only scratched the surface on what I can do -- and it'll take a big leap of faith to see what else I'm capable of.

But isn't like that for most people? That we only scratch the surface of our possibilities - scared or fearful - to go outside of our comfort zone? To push our limits. When we push - when we tap into what we're capable of -- our world changes. It can't help but change. For the most part people just do not like change. It doesn't matter if it's you that doesn't like the change or the people around you don't want you to change - if you change then you push them outside their comfort zone.

I'm going to be making some more changes in 2010 (I think). No more Gypsy Magic or Gypsy News blogs. I'll leave them there but no updates. No more monthly Numerscope. OBE blog, this blog and the podcast stays.

Major changes to the OBE site on the horizon. I can't tell you about it now - but will as soon as I can. I know you'll like the changes:)

Mercury is in retro until Jan 15th. 

I know there's more to update you on -- but I have dogs that need to go outside.

Hope all of you have a wonderful and safe New Years Eve. Here's to a loving - prosperous 2010 for all of us!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Iris, Andrew and Ethan!

Butterflies in my heart chakra. For me -- this is a new one. It's been there since yesterday -- not leaving - not even for a second. I'm not sure who had the breakthrough. Mark is here - and pretty persistent on having me open up -- everyone else just hangs out on the fringe of my energy. Cheryl suggest on FB that it's Vincent. That would be great if he did have any type of breakthrough -- he's about a year overdue.

I've noticed that "blankness" about me over the last two days. Not so bad this morning -- but Friday and Saturday it was pretty bad. That's what happens when a new energy comes to me (I should say an energy of major importance like Mark, Vincent, Will, Bill and Ted) - I have a blast of energy and then it's nothing. And when I mean nothing - I mean that my mind is just blank. I can't hold a thought for over 20 seconds. When this happens it doesn't effect my ability to do a reading - but the ability to get to a reading. When I'm blank I want to do zero -- and I mean zero. As you know - doing nothing is really not part of my daily routine (although I do set time aside to relax every day).

I don't know what in the world I did to my right shoulder -- but it's killing me.

I still cannot tap into my past lives with Mark. There's a block and it's driving me crazy. I know - I know -- maybe I'm not supposed to know yet. Or I'll know if and when we ever meet. (LOL - Iris is right beside me - when I wrote the if & when she said - what do I look like - chopped liver? I guess that means when and not if.)

Iris is now talking in my ear - over my son's voice - game and the music that being pumped through my headphones. I guess this is something I need to hear.....

Iris: You and Mark will meet under unusual circumstance - you will turn and just be "there". The first look you give one another is that of shock - he has complete disbelief on his face while you are wondering if he is just a vision or real. You turn and quickly move away from him -- he follows. You go into a store - turn and there he is. He asks if you two know one another. You answer that it's not as easy as yes or no. He offers to buy you a coffee . You agree and engage in deep conversation.

I ask Iris what is the "unusual circumstance" - she replied that I will be in a place where I never expected to be. One that I hoped for - but never really expected to be. This will happen rather quickly. The ball is already in motion. I have something that I have to do 1st. Of course I ask - what is it? She said to complete the outline of my horror script. Although writing horror is not for me and I will not make a career out of it -- this script - more importantly the outline - is what gets me to where I need to be. So how long or how short it takes is in my hands.

I ask Iris - how does she expect me to get everything done? Her reply - get my head out of my ass.

Iris is the only guide I know that cusses.

Ethan's here -- he says that I have to focus. I have a window that I must go through. Everything that has happened to me - including my financial woes - has been put in place to get me to this window. I of course have to ask -- couldn't there have been an easier way? For you - Ethan replied - no. For some reason you and everyone you are karmic connected with are incredibly stubborn. Disaster has to happen before you make the shift needed.

So -- Mark -- his lose will be the death of a loved one? Ethan steps up to reply - Iris beats him to it...yes, that has to happen. I ask about his wife (who is a wonderful and kind person). Iris replies that she and Mark are the best of friends -- best - best of friends...but they are not - or have not - been man and wife for a very long time. They each lead separate lives. However - they'd take a bullet for one another.

But.....

Andrew pops up before I can say anything more.

Vincent -- that's all Andrew says.

What about him?

He needs you.

Vincent is a big boy - he can pick up a phone and call if he needs me.

Andrew shakes his head - no good. You have to strengthen the energy around him -- it has to be now.

Why the urgency?

His life has just fallen apart - so apart that he can't piece it back together again. He needs to feel a burst of your energy.

Okay guys (Iris, Ethan, Andrew)...let me get this straight. I need to write my outline for the horror script, study for my tests, write my paper, deal with my financial nightmare, take care of my son - the house - the animals, take care of my clients, strengthen my energy with Mark because he's about to go through hell, strengthen my energy with Vincent because he is going through hell and you need this all done what -- yesterday?

I hear a three "Yes".

Piece of cake -- I can do this in my sleep.

Iris : What do you think you've been doing in your sleep? She laughs.

Just so you know -- Ethan says -- your financial nightmare has taken care of itself ever since you made the decisions you did a couple of weeks ago.

SIGH - I'm tired already and it's only 9:00 am :)

Better get to work.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Mark, Karma and Iris!

I was going to write about Mark last night -- but by the time I got done with my work it was 2:30 am. I was pooped. I still am.

Tuesday night's dream continued into Wednesday's nights visit. Mark and I were sitting at a picnic table - one in the middle of a park. No one was around. he and I were drinking black coffee -- it was very strong as if it was brewed a week ago and it just sat there until we drank it. I remember thinking that he and I needed this leaded coffee so that we could keep going -- the difficulties are before us.

Mark asked me how to stop the train. I told him that everything was already in motion and there was no stopping things. He sighed - looked really sad - and said that he wished things would be different. That he didn't have to go through the pain he will have to endue in order for him to move forward in this life. He added that he was happy that I was the one who would help him through this -- and in return he would fix his karmic debt to me. I asked him what had happened in the past in order for him to have this karmic debt -- and this must be a major debt as he needs to clear it in order not to have to come back as a human. He smiled (he has the most amazing smile I have ever seen) and said - yeah, I fucked up a few times. With me - I asked? Unfortunately he replied. What did you do? (I just had to know). I don't have a clue - was his reply to me. I wish I could remember. The thing is Al (he called me Al) is that in order for me to fix the past, you have to open up and let me in. Can you do that? I stared at him - slammed my hands on the table -- woke up.

Last night it continued.....

Mark's at my house -- he's looking around -- you need new carpet - new furniture - and a different car. I nod and say it'll all come eventually. He replied - let me get it for you. I answered - no. Al...he said...I have more money than I need....let me help you. Why? I asked. So I can owe you? No, he said, because I owe YOU.

So this is how you'll pay me back..with material crap? No - he cups my face in his hands - but it's a start. I turned from him and say that Brodie needs to go outside potty. He yelled at me -- don't shut me out. The dog and I go outside. Once outside Brodie was not there -- and I'm in the middle of a forest.

I turned around and Mark was there -- on the ground is a tent, camping equipment and a burning fire. You still like to camp - he asked? I turned away from him and was about to walk the opposite direction when he appeared in front of me.

I'm not Bill, Ted, Vincent...and I'm sure as hell not Will. I'm not them! I found you. Who do you think put the thoughts in your head for you to find me?

Yeah -- just like Will did -- and where did that get me?

NOT like Will -- it took you months to figure out that he was calling you - it took you a couple of weeks with me.

But you've been in my energy since 1979. A lot longer than Will or any of them. So actually - it took you 30 years. I turned again to get away from him and he grabbed my arm - yanked me to him.

I'm not one of the bad guys.

Time will tell -- I yanked my arm away.

All of a sudden this blast of light and wind made us both stumble -- it was blinding.

Iris!

Stop acting like children! Mark -- you need Allie and Allie you need Mark. Allie -- do you want to go through these same lessons with relationships - AGAIN? Mark -- do you want to live through the same pain that you are about to experience -- do you want to come back AGAIN?

More important -- do you want me as your guide AGAIN?

We stay silent.

Iris glared at both of us -- and fades from view.

I look at Mark - he looks at me. Without a second of hesitation - he grabbed me -- kissed me -- very soft - seductive -- very nice. He pulled back - smiled. I could hear an alarm in the background. He said -- it was time to wake up.

So we did.

Mark and our karma is going to be harder than I thought.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

And Mark Rolls On...

I'm so tired -- it's almost midnight. But I had to write this post first.

On the way to classes tonight - I felt someone kick my chair as I was driving. Then that "person" touched my face. I FELT a hand rest on my right cheek. Like when a person cups your face before they kiss you - that's what it felt like - but only one hand, not two. I almost freaked out as I drove.

I'm like -- who in the hell was that? Mark's blue eyes popped right in front of me - then his wicked smile. Andrew & Paul show up and I asked -- where in the hell have you two been? Andrew said they are working with Vincent. I asked what about my love life?

That's when Ethan stepped up and said it's bigger than your love life. So I say - WTH does that mean?

That's when Iris stepped forward and said - I'm back! Oh no -- heavy stuff happens when she's around! So I have to ask.....was that Mark who was in the car? Iris gives me that "look" like I just said something really stupid. Yes she replied. And - I ask - what does he (or you for that matter) have to do with me now?

Iris said - I told you I'd be back when something major was going to happen -- and here we are. So what does Mark.....I'm his guide too - Iris jumped in.

Oh Lord I said.

You two have work to do - she said.

What about Will? Bill? Ted? She waved her hand - they blew it - wasted their chance. Next life we'll get caught up.

So -- what kind of work do Mark and I have to do? All you need to know is that it's karmic and necessary so that Mark does not have to come back in human form - ever - unless he wanted to of course. Then Iris chimed in...why anyone would choose to be human is beyond me.

SIGH.

So we'll see what tonight brings if I can ever get to sleep to dream visit with him.

Night Night!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

PS: Iris means big change (whine - whine - sob - sob)!

PPS: Iris didn't mention anything about Vincent missing his chance - whoo hoo.

PPPS: She also didn't say that Bill, Ted and Will couldn't be friends with me - or that we'd never speak again in this life - just that they @ucked up and our work together will have to wait.

Yep - I'm Still Kicking!

Boy oh boy -- where to start? Humm...

Obviously I'm not dead, injured or on the lam. Be my friend on Facebook and you'll know what I'm up to if I'm not posting on this blog: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1402733541
Although I may have ot be careful what I post since one of my sisters is friends with my ex and they're buds on FB. I certainly don't want him in my business. We'll see - she put some blocks into place on FB on him. Don't know if it'll work or not.

Summer classes are over - yay! I managed to get 2 "A" and 2 "A-" - not bad for a 13 year break from college. Fall classes start on Aug 24th! Taking another full time load of 4 classes. I'll be FT until I either graduate or my brain falls out - whichever comes 1st!

All of my son's homeschool stuff is here. Wow - there's a lot of stuff. His two favorite items were the art & math stuff that we opened. Classes for him start on Aug 17th. I have to figure out where to put everything!

Until classes start I will be on Keen every day - times vary. More morning/afternoon hours than evening hours. If you want to chat and I'm not there - "Arrange a Call" with me and I'll get right back with you.

I'm going to be back doing sex toy reviews for a web site. Whoo Hoo! Not sure when the start date is - but it'll be soon.

I have to update my Personal Appearances:

- Every Tuesday I'm on the Maria Shaw show on Empower Radio in the 1:00 hour.

- Next Wednesday I will be on Live Your Dreams at 7:00 pm with Betty & Holly on Empower Radio.

- Next Thursday I'm a guest of Susan Norgren's on Psychic Buzz at 10:00 pm EDT.

Gypsy Girl Press's web site is no longer. I forgot to pay the fee and the canned the site. I moved the Gypsy Magic and Gypsy News blogs to Gypsy Advice. Make sure you change your bookmarks. Over the week I'll get the information up about the Gypsy Magic book series and links to where you can buy them.

Dreams have been a plenty - but I've been so set on sleeping that I haven't written anything down. Last night Michael was pretty prominent in the last dream I had before I woke up. He and I were lying down on a bed inside of a small RV. I was kind of a sleep and he was watching me sleep. Then I sprung and tickled him - lol. He mentioned about me being bold. LOL.

My guides have just been hanging back - which I find interesting. Iris did step up once and tell me a couple of things - but she also told me not to put specifics here - lol. Overall - it was about my future and the visions I had had about a clinic - stones/crystals and flower essence. They are combined with my sex coaching/therapy. It's an interesting road she's directing be down.

I was guided though to watch the Celestine Prophecy. I had read the book back in 1997 and honestly haven't thought about since then. The DVD was a good refresher and a reminder about past lives, intution and what will supposed to be will be - regardless of what you try to do to stop it. My son really enjoyed it.

There was a cay hit and killed close to my house a couple of weeks ago. It wasn't Raisin. But I haven't seen Little Black Kitty at all since then :( Someone hit the cat and kept driving - another car stopped and picked the cat up to take him to a vet. That's when I arrived as the lead car was putting the cat in the car - never saw the color of the cat.

I've caught up on my backlog of email from all my email addresses. If you haven't heard from me by now (and obviously you sent an email) then you're not going to. If it was important - please resend.

Better go check on the kid -- he's too quiet!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Making Amends, To-Do List and Subconsious Reality!

I swear I have no idea where my day went. Granted, today was running errand day. I still have one more stop - but it'll have to wait till Friday. It was a nice sunny day here in Ohio and I figured - why not? Besides - was sooooo tired of sitting at my computer. I also worked on my college financial aid forms and my scholarship applications.

I've used a good portion of brain power on my "to do" list which as I told you guys - I'd be accountable for here in the blog. Working on the BT I have hit a road block that I have to find a way through. The original plan in the script was to have an SS officer and a gypsy woman leave the camp in search of something by orders of Mengele. But the powers that be think it's too far fetched - so I have to have all of the action that I had on the various trips confined to the concentration camp. I've been studying Birkenau for hours -- going over maps - looking at buildings. I have to have an idea of what I'm going to write - and then I'll fill in the details as I'm writing. But I can't find that overview to start with......I have 1 month until this script is due and I have to have it done. I know I'll figure it out - but in the meantime it's unsettling.

That said -- I was able to work out a couple of scenes that I want to add. So that was cool. OBE I got no where with. I just ran out of time.

For those of you who voted in the Start-Up Nation contest - thank you. Winners will be announced in May. Fingers crossed.

My dreams are still really out there - and so *&^% busy. I mean WTF? On top of it I can't remember a dang thing. I asked Ethan why can't I remember when I'm usually pretty good at it. He told me the good stand by "You're not supposed to know". I sighed - I couldn't help myself. He told me that if I consciously knew everything my subconscious knew - then I'd be overwhelmed and I'd shut down. The nice thing about a subconscious he said is that it has no distinction between the physical realty and the other worlds/dimensions. So it operates under the assumption that what is going on in the subconscious is your reality. Hence why the thought process and habits are a huge part of our reality. Humm...if I could get my subconscious to believe that I was actually in a physical reality friendship with Bill, Ted, Vincent and Will - would my reality shift to accommodate the world that my subconscious lives in? Or would my subconscious and reality be at war with one another - thereby creating a hell of a lot of inner turmoil?

I must admit - there's a small part of me, I'm ashamed to say, is convinced that I'm not supposed to be in any kind of relationship with anyone in my soul cluster in this lifetime. If that is indeed the case - I must of really screwed up in past lives in regards to these guys to have this happen now. In order to make amends (if there are any to make) would I have to do it in person by having a physical relationship with them? Or could I make amends via our energy fields & souls? Would that heal whatever it is we're stuck in? I should be asleep - but I'm up pondering these things.

I mentioned to Ethan that I have not seen or felt Andrew in along time. He said that Ethan is off working with Vincent. He does stop in daily to see how I'm doing - but Vincent really needs him right now. I'm thinking it's time for some chick power: Iris, Jezell and Brigit. As soon as I typed that I heard Ethan say I was crazy - lol. So what's his point?

Seeing that I will be a pain in everyone's rear end if I do not get to sleep - I'd better scoot.

Samatha and AJ - how did you do on your projects today?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Being Accountable, A WTF Dream And Keen!

If you still haven't written me the letter explaining why you've used metaphysical/spiritual advice and why you need that genre of advice - you still have time. It doesn't even have to be advice - it can also be alternative healing, color therapy or Feng Shui. I need them by April 5th -- please!

Keen is going well - I've been on Mon - Fri. A minor miracle:) I find I do well being on 10 am - noon. And then depending what's going on 1 - 2:30. I'm trying to condition myself to do the sex advice at Ingenio (http://www.ingenio.com/Allie%20T) from 10 pm - midnight.

For whatever reason - my guides keep having me watch "Under The Tuscan Sun". I can't get what the message is. I'm thinking it's that my life is going to transform like the lead character Francine's did. Although I wasn't nearly as devastated with my divorce as she was hers. It could be a new start, maybe a trip to Italy (I wish), could be meeting an Italian man (boy do I really wish) - or even standing at a crossroads. I'm sure after the 10th time I watch it something should kick in:) At least I hope so.

If you sent me an email - I know it's here. No need to remind me.

My dreams have been really wild the last several nights. The dream that really stands out is the one from Sat night. I can remember being in a room with a bunch of people - we were discussing my life and lack of love life. I come across 3 guys - all of who I know , 2 I can't remember who they were - but the 3rd was Sawyer. He's pissed at me - he's holding his baby in his arms (in real life Josh and his wife either just had a baby or they are about to) I ask him what's the matter and he says, 'Visions - you have visions? You never told me that.' Before I could say WTF - the guy laying down on the beige couch said 'And she writes in the blog!' The 3rd guy shouts out 'For everyone to read!' I walked away perplexed at why it would shock them now. They all knew about everything. So then I started thinking that I should password protect the blog and only give the password out to people who ask. This way I'll know who is reading the posts. But another thought popped in and said - but Bill, Will and Vincent won't be able to read it then - they'll never ask for the password.

SIGH - I woke up.

I'm having a difficult time coaching myself. I have a huge list of things that I have to do and I can't get anything done because the list is too big. I'm trying to prioritize - but for me it's difficult to do if everything that is on my list should have been done already. Maybe I should go with what is nagging at me the most - besides the scholarship applications I have to finish. That would be Black Triangle and the OBE book. BT has to be rewritten by May 1st so that I can enter it in 2 important contests. OBE book is a huge part of the path I am to take - so it is vital that I get it done. Or at least done enough to send off to a publisher as a book proposal. Time is of the essence with both because as soon as college starts on May 18th - any extra time will be spent studying. So how in the world do I whip my own ass into shape? I know that I do well when I have deadlines and I have to be held accountable to someone. So here's a thought....why don't I just report to you guys? Every day I have to post that I did something...even if it's more research for BT or outlining chapt 1 for OBE.

That would make me accountable. Anyone else out there want to do something that they are having a hard time doing because they are not accountable? Why not post here with me. Leave a comment every day after my posts to what you have done. So what do you think? This will go from April 1st - May 1st and no - the April 1st start is not an April Fool's joke. I like this idea. How can I help people if I don't practice what I coach?

After May 1st - we'll see where I'm at and what needs tackled next.

Off to make dinner!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Atlantis, The Meadow And Dream Time!

Grab a drink and get situated -- this one's kinda long....

This week just has not gone as planned - same as last week. Hell - the whole month of February has been a huge problem not only for me, but for my poor son. He now has the flu - the nasty flu with the high fever, body aches, headache, nausea...I am just praying to anyone who will listen in the universe for me not to get this. I'm trying to push through with the bronchitis I think I have - thank you very much. I don't need anything else.

But what I've been doing with my congestion and nasal snafu is sending white ball of energy to help speed up the healing process. For my lungs I imagine a nice big ball of white light going into my lungs, through the back, and back in again out the front. I do the same with my throat and my sinuses. Anytime I do this, I feel much better afterwards. So I'm trying to send the light through several times a day.

I don't quite get 2009 yet - what it has in store for me. It hasn't gone as I thought it would. Thus far all scripts and what not have been turned down. I'm about as creative as a barn door - which isn't very helpful in the rewrite process. Readings aren't there - readings on Keen & Live Person haven't been going very well - the people I do help (not very many) that don't know me or how I work - give me bad marks. Those that have used me before for a reading (not just an email exchange) - I've been fine with - they know how I work. The one thing that has worked - I guess - is the Wake Up Your Orgasm podcast. My Ask Allie podcast gets about 500 - 600 faithful listeners a week. The WUYO podcast gets about 3000 - 5000 a week. I know - how crazy is that? It's normally in iTunes "Top Audio Podcasts" for sexuality.

I did ask my guides to show me what direction I should be heading into -- and it looks like sex advice is it. Although they are telling me not to give up on my scripts either - that I have to keep pushing that right along with my OBE book and the WUYO podcast. But since I know I can't concentrate on two things at once - I have to pick - book or script rewrite. They pull on me the same.

Which brings me to a radio show. I want to do one radio show, once a week to start with. Now since sex seems to have caught on - do I have it be a sex advice themed show? Or since the majority of people I know work in the metaphysical/healing fields - should it be more like Ask Allie? Or - should I mash them both and do a "Allie Theiss" show that encompasses all of it. But I think that would be too wide spread - don't you think? I like the being a sex psychic and I like promoting that part. It's easier , I think, to bring the psychic part into the sex than it is to bring the sex into the psychic part. Does that make sense? I know it'll be clearer the closer I get to actually doing this. But I should would appreciate some clear cut answers every now and again. Answers that are extremely obvious and leave to room for interpretation.

All of the visions I have of me giving workshops in a large arena deal with the Wake Up Your Orgasm theme. So again, I suppose, that's another sign. I can see the whole thing - a large gathering with me giving a WUYO talk 3x over a course of 3 days. Then there are smaller workshops that people can sign up for and get the know on different kind of fetishes, toys and of course OBE sex. There are also a host of vendors there to sell their fetish products, clothes and toys. Wow - I just got all of that. Pretty cool.

I keep getting a push to go back to the meadow. For those of you who don't know what the meadow is - it's a place that Bill, Ted and I used to meet quite a bit several years ago. Then the woman who actually owns the meadow in the physical world - we had a major falling out - and we've only been back once since then. I'm getting really bothered by it right now. Oh hell - I'm going to grab my healing want and see what happens - hold on.

Okay - first of all when I grabbed my healing wand and closed my eyes - it felt so strange in my hands, like is was bendable - like one of those bendy kid straws you see. As I was at the meadow - it felt like I was bending it, reshaping it, but when I was done at the meadow it was feeling very solid again.

Now at the meadow I was greeted by both Bill and Ted. They looked pretty good - run down, tired, but overall good. The meadow was lush, green and full of vibrant energy - like it had once been. Several hundred feet away I spied a woman. I knew immediately that she was the woman I/we had the falling out with - the one who owns the meadow. I didn't want to go anywhere near her. But then Jesus showed up (this seems to be a favorite place of his as well) and told me that I have to walk over and see her. We need each other right now - I/we need the meadow to move forward in our lives and she needs us in the meadow so that she can move forward with her life.

I told Bill and Ted to stay put and I walked across the grass - felt very velvet like on my bare feet. I was close to her and I just stared at her. She held out her hand, but I didn't take it. She repeated what Jesus had already said - we need to make peace in order to move forward. I shook her hand - but I told her to stay away from us. She nodded in agreement - and she was gone.

I went back to Bill and Ted and let them know that we should be able to come here again without any problems. The large oak tree that Bill and I used to travel up in to reach the heavens had a white glow up top. I could also hear some angelic calling. I looked at the guys and said that they want to talk with us. Now Ted had never been up there with Bill and I. And he didn't want to go. He said he wasn't ready - such a look of fear in his eyes. I told him that if he wasn't ready he wouldn't be here. He didn't care - he said he'd do this later. With that he disappeared.

I looked at Bill and asked if we really needed to go up? I could feel the tug so I knew it was important - but like Ted I just didn't feel like it right now. Bill said no - it can wait until tomorrow. We laid down under the oak tree, I wrapped myself around Bill, he put his arms around me. I said that I missed these visits - he agreed - he did too. I mentioned that the powers that be will snag us in our dreams. He laughed and said - of course they will. And with that the connection was broken.

What does this all mean? Specially I don't have a clue. But I'm sure it has to deal with the increased time I have been spending in Atlantis during my dream time...

Each time I have visited Atlantis over the last week, I have been clothed in a very deep purple or violet flowing robe or maybe it's a dress. But it's very light feeling, like I have no clothes on. Bare feet with nothing on underneath this dress. There is a gold belt or sash around the middle. My hair is up - I have no jewelry on. But I do notice a star tattoo/birthmark inside my left wrist. The star is a light red/purple in color - too light to be a tattoo I think. Maybe times I go from person to person, giving them some sort of clear liquid from a crystal vial. They open their mouths and I pop a few drops in. It's like their daily wellness drops. Then I'm at a clinic of sorts. When people come in, they put their palms on a crystal scanner - after they are scanned, they are allowed into the next section of the clinic for treatment. I'm told that this security was put in because people from other sects were trying to sneak in and have us heal them. Seems that the other sects already began to fall to the dark side ( I feel like I'm in Star Wars) and our sect was one of the few remaining that was all light.

Last night though - it was interesting when I walked deep into a cave. There were no lights in the cave, but I made my way without missing a step. I emerged into this large cavern that was aglow with thousands of crystals (although this was not the Crystal Cavern I've talked about before). In here, were dozens of people from not only our sect, but many others, engaged in an orgy. But it wasn't an orgy like you would think about now a days - it didn't have that negative aura surrounding it. During the time of Atlantis, love was given and received freely - pleasuring one another in a group setting was the way we spread the love (so to speak). I kept hearing that we were vessels of love. That having a physical body to make love to was a new experience for a handful of us who were born just as energy - myself included. When we came to Atlantis through the portal - that is when we received a physical body. Although the pleasure derived from merging energy with energy was greater - the physical aspect of connecting proved to be not only interesting but fun. I could feel though that this form of sexual expression would frustrate me at times as I always wanted to strive for that orgasmic punch I had when I was pure energy.

Anyways -- more on the Atlantis orgy at Out of Body Ecstasy.

It just dawned on me - -just now. Why I'm here - one of the main reasons. Oh hell - sometimes I am just so slow. The more times souls spend in the physical body - the less they remember what it felt like to love outside the physical body. That is what I'm here to do (in part) is to have people reconnect with love & sex outside the physical body - to help them get in touch with who they truly are - their soul - and not that physical body they're in. For the most part, very few people can remember the orgasmic qualities to being pure energy and having sex. Hence - here I am. To help people with their sex lives by using their energy bodies. Also to get sex out of the closet. It's not a dirty thing - it's a wonderful, necessary process for our souls. I guess this just answered my radio show question - didn't it?

Can you believe it's been a year since I met Will? God how time flies. What I wouldn't do to meet him again. How I wish he would've called like he said he would. I wonder what part of me scared him? Was it that I knew him in a different light than everyone else did? Maybe he was worried that by knowing me he'd mess up his current relationship? He could be fearful of change? Whatever it was - I only wish that he showed the same faith that I did when I hopped on that plane to see him with my son. Just a little bit of faith - that's all. Which makes me wonder how Vincent will act. And even if I want to risk being rejected by him.

Today starts the Telepathic Connection e-class. If you haven't signed up yet, you still have time to do so!

BTW..I'm still not HOT yet with the Start Up Nation's Mom Contest <--- Keep voting please!

Kirk - email me - I can't find your email address anywhere.

I need to know from the people who read this blog if any of you would be interested in being a moderator for a GA board I'm starting. I need someone for magic/spells and another one for OBE (astral travel, not sex), dreams and telepathic connections. If anyone is interested - email me . I can't pay you, but it will be exposure for yourself and if you have a business.

I know that there's more to tell you - but right now I haven't got a clue to what it is:) Besides - I think that this is long enough!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Vincent And No Wasted Time!

I'm almost caught up on my emails and the readings from the special back in December. Whew. The screenplay - still working on it. Once I have a chance to write - it flows. I just have to be able to work on the darn thing - you know?

Little Black Kitty is back outside. He drove me batty yesterday with the clawing at the door and the crying. I put him back out last night. He seems to be doing fine with it. But I do suspect that he'll be asking to come back in before the day is out. He can - for a few - then it's back out again. Samantha is not doing too well. It was as if she aged 5 years overnight (she's already 13). She's still eating, drinking and cleaning herself. But that's it. No more playing - no more nothing but sitting there. It breaks my heart. If I pick her up - she wants to be glued to me - permanently. Trying to detach her from my clothes is tough. I just hope she's okay health wise. I just couldn't take it if something happened to her - not so close to Indy dying.

Will's back:) I could feel his energy close yesterday as I worked. Almost like he was just sitting there watching me. I love it when he's around. Not only because I like the feel of his energy (it's always very high - I would call it jazzed) but he's my muse. When he's around, I just write better. As I was writing the script yesterday, he did make a connection for telepathic sex which I wrote about it in OBE. Last night as I was falling asleep, I could feel him around me. When I was walking down my path to enter my dream portal - Ethan was there as always - he told me to expect the past to be back but with a twist. I asked Ethan what he was talking about - he said that I know he can't tell me more. But that I have to put my nose to the grindstone and keep plugging away. No wasted moments - no sitting idle. I told him okay - and moved on. Further down the path was Will. He was in a long white flowing robe. Around his body is vibrated a wonderful golden energy. I asked if he was going to step through the portal with me. His reply - I'm already there. I stepped through and he was - at the Willow Tree by the river. I don't remember anything else - except that when I saw him I ran to the tree:)

With Will usually comes Merlin at some point in time and sure enough Merlin has been on my heels since I woke up this morning. In fact - he was the last thing I remembered about my dreams from last night. He and I were working in the magical space in the cave. Will was somewhere in the background. Next to me I had an enormous faden quartz crystal. I was putting mugwort around it - Merlin was putting candles around the ring of mugwort. There were 9 candles - 5 violet and 4 blue. During the day today - I keep hearing him tell me we have to get back to work. I have no clue what we're working on - why the mugwort, crystal and candles.

I asked Andrew today - where's my love life? He laughed and said I know where it is - and it isn't in Wooster. I know;) I took down all of the dating ads and what have you that I had online. I've washed my hands of it as long as I live in Wooster. Will I change my mind if I'm still here past July? I might. But lets put the energy out there that I'm moving forward! Any ways - Andrew says there's much more going on behind the scenes of my life than I'm privy to. So keep the faith - keep working and it will all shift the way it's supposed to. He says that January and February are all about work - lots of it. The work will transform not only my career - but my love life - so I must not stop. No wasted time. I tell Andrew that this is what Ethan basically said - no wasted time. He replies- there's a reason 2 of your guides tell you the same thing - listen to our words. And I have:)

LOST is back tonight!! Whoo Hoo! Okay - so since I can't watch it till tomorrow morning - no one email or post about what happened on LOST - okay? Don't tell me! Ahhhh...Sawyer:)

Oh -- I almost forgot...Will and Vincent know one another now. Yep - they met. Don't ask me how I know - I just do:) So now Bill & Ted know one another and so does Will & Vincent. Things are aligning up for me to come on board:)

Vincent is going through a very deep thought process right now. He seems to contemplate everything. He's so deep in thought that I don't dare disturb him. What is he thinking about? His life. What he needs to do and how he's supposed to do it. He's looking at all angles to see what is best for everyone involved.

Back to work I go....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Holiday Catch Up Time!

(Just an FYI - I've been trying to get this to post since Sat. late morning)

Happy New Year! Sure - I'm a few days late - but I mean it just the same:) I hope that 2009 brings all of you what you need.

I honestly have no idea where to start - even at the beginning doesn't sound right. Silly huh? So here's a quick run down....

These past two weeks have been so busy - so silly busy - it's unreal. First, as you know, my son is home from school. His dad - being the "whatever" that he is, has decided to be MIA. So with the exception of Christmas Eve - he hasn't stopped by to get his son when he was supposed to - nor has he called him. The SOB is alive and well. He's just being - well...him. Needless to say, my little guy has been very disappointed, which in turn makes my life more difficult. The plans I had for myself all had to be canceled. Which of course is disappointing - but my disappointment doesn't come close to my son's - so I try to keep things in perspective. I've also been lying and making up excuses to my son - so that he won't think his dad has forgotten about him - as he did. That man is going to regret being such an ass when his son lives 2000 miles away instead of 5 min. Yeah - that's what I said - 5 min. Grrrrr.....Of course he finally did email me after I sent the latest asking if he was stopping by - seems that he's been "sick" and can't see his kid this weekend. Yeah - whatever.

So my son has made things very interesting - and stressful - here at the Allie ranch. He and Brodie (the black lab) fight like they are little girls. The kid yells at the dog - the dog barks back at the kid and it goes on and on. I had to banish Brodie to the back room and my son to his room just for some peace and quiet. Overall - the last two weeks have been fine with my son - he's 8 - he acts like an 8 year old. The longer he doesn't see his dad, the more rambunctious he gets.

Iris has been here - as busy as can be. That woman. She has promised me that she's not about to leave my side again. I don't know if I should be happy or scared. She did say though that she's in the background - Andrew is still "in charge" at this point in time. Andrew was talking to me yesterday and my grandmother came up and kissed him. I'm like - not in front of the children!

Now that's it's Jan 3rd, only 18 days till LOST! God I can't stand it -- I have major Sawyer withdraw.

But Iris gave me an idea in the shower - it's about another podcast called Waking Up Your Orgasm: http://wakeupyourorgasm.com/ the site is FAR from complete. My hope is to have the podcast up and running by next Friday (and Friday's from that point on) the 9th. It'll be in the same simple format as Ask Allie - with Q & A sex questions, toy reviews, aphrodisiacs and so forth. Well, I don't know what the "so forth" is yet. Sexual positions and sexual energy I deal with in the OBE newsletter (when I have time to write it). Any ideas? I only want to keep it 30 min or less. I'm also going to do the listener appreciation by giving discounts on the OBE web site.

Dreams - man have they been wild. Ever since I Feng Shui my office (and found about a dozen or so tiny Herkimer Diamonds that I placed on my Faden Quartz next to my bed) they have really been eventful. Bill has been in many of the ones I remember. Two of the visits I've had to entered into his dreams as I remember just standing back watching him pour over books. He's at a round table (both times)...

Okay - I have to interrupt my story for just a moment -- this still has to do with dreams, but....

Earlier last week (can't remember which night) - I had a dream where I was sitting down on a couch, that was a step lower than the room it was in - a sunken couch. An African American man (in his lower 30's I guessed) walked in and it was just as two old friends who haven't seen each other in a while. We hugged, gave each other kisses on the cheek and sat back down on the couch. I was leaning on him, his arms wrapped around me - and he started to tell me how he's been able to write - that he's releasing a new cd. I told him that it was great, I was excited for him (he seemed really pleased with himself) - kissed him a few more times on the cheek. Then I woke up.

Now I had no idea who this person was - never saw him before in my waking life (had no idea if he was alive or not) - had no idea why I would meet up with him - but there has to be some sort of past life/karmic connection. I thought about it after I woke up - couldn't figure it out, so I filed it away. So today I'm thumbing through some online sites - just looking around - and there he was. I was floored. I must of sat there for 10 min just saying nothing. I did find a page for him on MySpace - I sent him a friend request - no idea if he'll say yes. But what the hell - right? Still no clue on the "why" of the dream visit. I'm sure some day I'll figure it out.

Now back to the other dreams and Bill -- so he was at a round table. Books all over the place - most of them open - he had bookmarks in several places in each book. He had a notepad - a journal - where he was writing everything down. I walked up to him and asked how it was going. He's all excited saying he found the portal to Atlantis - but he can't figure out how to get to the portal. Seems that you have to take tunnels and what have you in order to get there - and he can't figure out where the tunnels originate. I asked - isn't it in the bottom of a Mayan temple in Mexico? He stops and stares at me for a spilt second then says - I don't know, they haven't discovered the room yet and when they do, it'll look like an ordinary room. But this (and he points to the triangle inside of a circle) will be in that room. I looked at him again and said - Mexico, it's in Mexico. He replied - but Atlantis's portal isn't in Mexico. I said I know - it's in Belize. But we get to Belize through the Yucatan Peninsula. He stared - it seemed like forever. Then it looked like a light bulb went off because he yelled - now it makes sense and grabbed a book. I woke up. We went through this same scenario twice - and I woke up each time. So I have no clue what he showed me.

Another dream visit we were at my mom's house. My sister's were there along with my brother-in-law, nieces, my son and my mother. Bill was in the basement with my son - I was upstairs watching a large category 3 tornado come towards us. I kept yelling for everyone to stay in the basement - the tornado would spilt off into three smaller tornados, and then regroup into one. The color of the tornado was brown - but when they split apart, 2 of them were gray. I knew my son was safe because Bill had him. My brother in law wasn't listening to me and would not get down stairs. When it got close - he and I ran down. In the basement - I could hear my dog Brodie upstairs. Before I could run up to get him, I woke up.

Vincent has been around during my waking hours. I can feel him move with me. He reminds me of my own astral body guard:) There have been a few instances where the connection was tight and clear - I could see him smiling - laughing. It was nice to be able to feel him feel something other than unhappiness.

Will - he's always around too - but not as close as Vincent - Vincent won't let him. I had a flash visit of me, Bill, Ted and Vincent in a hotel room - chatting. I announced that I want Will here too. Panic spread on their faces and they all said no at once. I told them tough shit - if they want me here - then they'd better go get Will. LOL.

Samantha went back to the vet - her thyroid is still a little high - but all other worries are now gone:) That was so nice to hear. Even though she is not happy to get her pill 2x - she takes it. I'm happy to have my Ninja cat back!

My lower back still kinda hurts - and I noticed a fine crack in my son's tooth. I'm using a heating pad and he goes to the dentist on Tuesday.

I managed to get some medicine in Little Black Kitty's eye last week - only problem is that he hasn't been back since :(

For some reason I'm obsessing over Sex In The City. No idea why. I never watched it on HBO or the reruns - never went to see the movie. But all of a sudden I have to watch it. Very strange.

I got my spring seed catalogs in the mail today - whoo hoo! My kid eats apples like you wouldn't believe - so I'm getting 2 apple trees to put in. Of course I won't see any apples for a couple of years - but I'm still doing it! It goes along with my grapes, blueberries, raspberries and strawberries:) My way of thinking is if I plan it - it better feed me or bring me some luck. There's always that chance that we won't even be living here by even summer - but I do plan on keeping the house. After I win an Oscar I'll put the house up for sale on eBay - lol!

I know there's more going on - I just can't think what else right now.

Have a wonderful weekend!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Guide Ambush, Energy Healing And Progress!

Man is it cold here. Last night it was 1 with the wind chill - 22 degrees F. Granted - not as cold as Minn or maybe the Dakota - but dang it was still cold. I felt so bad for Little Black Kitty (I really should just call him Salem). He wanted to come in so bad last night - and who could blame him? But I can't let a sick - un-neutered male - into my house. Thankfully, his eyes are starting to look better because of the garlic & vit C that I've been giving him.

I was certainly busy on the Winter Solstice. A lot of cooking baking, present wrapping and some more decorations up and out. By the time the day was over - I looked like a bag of powdered sugar exploded on me - lol!

When the day was over and I was looking forward to some shut eye - I was ambushed by my guides. Yep - ambushed. Before I knew it I had Andrew, Paul, Ethan. Edward, Robert, Jezell, Brigit and Iris. I'm like WTF?

I asked what's up? Before anyone could say anything - Iris stepped up. I said - don't get all over about the Cheryl situation. I can't help it. She said for me not to sass her. SIGH. I said fine - but that she didn't have to yell at me. She said she wasn't going to. Just that she'll be popping in and out because my life is about to do a 180. I asked if it is supposed to be a good 180? Because life isn't a bowl of cherries right now - I'd hate to see things go south even more.

She said no - not bad. It'll be like a dam breaks, and it'll take all of them - including her - to keep me on the straight and narrow. Sheesh - what in the hell is supposed to happen? Iris showed me a quick glimpse of airports, meetings, workshops and hotels. She said that's all I need to know. Iris said she'd be back and she left.

So I "looked" around to the rest of them - and Edward stepped up. He said that I need to keep sleeping now - and to work on my dreaming skills - to advance them even more. That's when Robert stepped up and said the OBE book needs to be done - the outline. It's overdue. That brought Jezell up to tell me to work on my manifestation skills and to be very VERY careful on where I decide to place my thoughts. Brigit was next and said that I have to start offering my healing - to which Andrew agreed. Paul told me to get ready because a new love is about to enter my life - Andrew agreed.

Andrew then said that something will happen before Jan 15th that will start the ball rolling in my direction. Ethan stepped forward and said he wanted me to write my affirmations in my journal - which I did.

All I have to say is we'll see what happens:)

The healing part I put in today's podcast. Healing and attunement information before I list it on the site at the start of the year.

It's so difficult to work with an 8 year old in my ear - lol.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Vincent And More!

It is so drab, dark and rainy here. Yucky - Yucky - Poo. Seriously.

The meeting of Santa Friday night went well. My son was so excited - just waving and jumping up and down to the Santa. He wanted to go say hi to him again this year. Santa was approaching us and I could tell he wasn't going to say hi to my son again so as he was right in front of us, I smacked his elbow and yelled - Hi Santa! He turned and shook my son's hand. The kid was on cloud nine for the rest of the freezing evening. It was so cold out - but he was so happy he didn't even notice.

The weekend was cold - but went well. I got some work done on the horror story - but not much. Robert is here bugging me to get the OBE outline rewritten. Andrew happens to agree with him -- and Paul just sits back and smiles. Paul smiles a lot. Last night he was in a dream of mine. My son and I were on this ultra luxury private jet. It was decked out. We were being shown around - when the pilot wanted to show my son the cool games on the plane. While they were doing that, I took a turn and ended up at this mini bar. Seated there was Paul. He looked at me and asked - how do you like it? I told him it looked great - pretty comfortable and appears to have everything anyone would want. He smiled - said Good - get used to it. I woke up. The image of the inside that plane stayed with me after I awoke. It was a white interior with blue trim. Besides that dream - I tossed and turned all night. By the time I did get out of bed I was pooped.

But back to the OBE book. As I was working on the outline I thought of a killer second book dealing with orgasms and sex. The 2nd book has Oprah and The View written all over it. I already have a title and actually I saw the whole workshop tour unfold before my eyes. It was so fricken cool. But I have to get this book done first. Mums on the title for #2 or what's it all about - one thing I will say it's good:)

Over the weekend I came across my old diary from high school. In it I found my old musings about moving to Asheville, NC. I always wanted to live there - been there several times and just loved the warm feeling. No matter where I went I felt a surge of positive energy. As I was reading my diary - for some reason Will popped into my head. Once there - he stayed for most of the day. He acted like a comforter, his energy being comforting, but not invasive. Later on that evening as I laid down to go to sleep, I felt him calling me into a session. I went and sure enough - there was that willow tree right by the river. Will was leaning against it, smile on his face. You look good - he said. I am good - I replied. Are you happy, Will asked. For the most part - I said - if tinsel town could get from 1st gear to 2nd, I'd be a lot happier. Will laughed. That's the way that part of the world works, he murmured, you either live with it or you don't and walk away. There is no in between. Well I guess I'm stuck - aren't I? He chuckled - sure looks that way. Go to sleep - Will said - and we'll catch up later. And that's what I did - went to sleep.

Vincent did stop by today and tell me how tired he is. I know he's tuckered out - which is why I haven't been pushing to make any sort of connection this last week. I could tell he needed some chill time - and could still use another week or two. But I told him that if he needs me - all he has to do is call.

There have been a ton of new people who have found this blog over the last two weeks. Seems that people are confused on who is what and if anyone is actually real. So here's the skinny for the newbies - everyone is real. I don't make anything up. If there is a connection to another person that I do not physically know in this lifetime (as in Will, Vincent, George, Bill or Ted) I confirm what I sense with a couple of other people before it ever makes this blog. I'm the type of person where something has to happen to me many times over before it causes a blip on my radar. And then I still need some sort of confirmation. SO what I write here are not elaborate fantasies to entertain you. If that's what you're looking for - you need another blog. I write what I do because there are people out there who have occurrences like I do - not exactly the same - but similar. Plus I know (intuitively wise) that Bill, Ted, Will, George and Vincent have al been to this blog at least twice. I also write so that they can find the blog - and compare the experiences to their notes.

Quick rundown:

Bill, Ted, George, Will and Vincent - soul group
Andrew, Paul, Robert, Jezell, Iris, Brigit, Ethan - spirit guides
Sean - new friend who Allie is fond of
Tracey, Sky, Gab and Maria - my psychic posse

And that's that.

I added Sexual Coaching to my list of services (and no, that does not mean I sleep with you) along with 2 new tiers of coaching - One Time Coach and One Week.

My sister is in New Orleans - I hate her (not really) she's having a great time......

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Hotel Rooms, Ted And Will!

I cannot believe how tired I am. Seriously. I'm so tired that I could sleep for 48 hours easy. My dream travels are really kicking my butt. I'm back to the hotel dreams. Remember I had those before my divorce? Well this signals another major change on the horizon. Last time the hotel rooms were crowed, small and in disarray. Now they are large suites, plush, with all the trimmings. I'm hoping this means my very long phase of being broke is over. I could use the shift - as I'm sure many of you could use as well.

The dreams too for the last couple of nights, I would wake up and it would still feel like was floating about in the dreamscape. I don't know how to describe it really - I would wake up, but it didn't feel like I woke up. Almost like waking up in dream that was still a dream. But I could see what was going on in my room in real time.

BT was received well by my manager's boss. I had some minor things to change but that was it. Now it's off to make its rounds in Tinsel Town. Fingers crossed. No new words on Dreamers or GG as of now. Again - sometimes no news is good news.

I'm going to be kicking the OBE sex book into high gear this weekend. I've cleared the whole weekend to work on that and my yard. My yard has some serious leaves on it. I'm looking foreword to jumping in to the OBE book - my guide Robert is very eager to see that it is done. He has been hanging out lately throwing "Obe" in my face (so to speak) so that I get with the program. He and Ethan are very happy that the BT is done. In fact, Ethan let out a side of relief. I asked him if he'll be around more often and he said - no. But he's always near by if I want to chat.

So I asked Andrew, since he mentioned that having BT done would help things along with Vincent - has anything changed. His reply was that things are moving behind the scenes. If Vincent would wake up to the signs that are right in front of his face and now wait for a nuclear meltdown to realize what was going on - things would move faster. But it seems that he is a stubborn soul (gee - what a surprise) but he will come around . Just like with Will - you (as in me) will be put in front of them until they do something about it - even if it's friendship or a business partnership. Something will have to be done. But - Andrew says - in Vincent case, he won't be able to rest until a romantic relationship ensues between the two of us.

My only reply was - ok, just wanted to know if things were moving. I guess they are:)

Will surprised me today - I wrote about it in the OBE blog. It was nice to feel his energy so close again.

Ted's back --I can feel him. I'm sure something will come of this over the next couple of days. I sure hope he ditched that bitch of a wife. I don't say something normally so horrible about a person I haven't physically met - but her energy is heavy and just pure yuck. I hope he actually visits soon.

Better get back to work!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Happy Birthday Bill, Dreams And An Energy Shift!

Another day of "where to begin".

I know -- HAPPY BIRTHDAY BILL. He's 50 today and just as sensual and as hot as ever. I connected to him to wish him a good day and happy 50th. We had some small talk - how are you, what have you been up to, etc....he then tells me that we'll cross paths again soon. I'm like - we will? How - when - why? He smiled (God he has a nice smile) and said that he doesn't know that details- only the overall picture. At that moment Will's energy came through - kind of like a "you're not talking to him without me around" type thing. I asked Will if he could excuse us and he said no. Just flat out no. I could feel my energy level really starting to ramp up. I could also fell Ted's energy attached to us all - but his energy isn't as strong as the others due to his drug and drinking problems.

So not I have these two really fired up energies - and Ted - connected to me. That's when Vincent comes in -- and that whammed my nervous system. Will and then Vincent were on "this is my territory" mode so their energy was high. Bill has been working extensively on his spirituality and has made significant improvements - so his energy was high. Because I had all of this energy zinging trough me - my body shook - and it was a steady shake for at least 20 minutes. During this same time I was wired and kept pacing around the house.

As I'm typing this out - it's all starting over again - all 4 are "right there" and my body is doing this all over again. Dang it all......

So Vincent and Will have been center stage all day. I keep trying to connect better to Bill - because I want to keep talking with him - and every time I do Will and Vincent converge. So I gave up - for now. Bill looks really good. His energy colors are balanced, he looks healthy inside and out. He has gotten himself into a really good place and I hope he can keep it there. Being 50 seems rather Zen to him.

It's now Monday evening - I have been trying all dang day to do this post. I don't know what'll kill me 1st - the kid or my pets. DOUBLE SIGH.

Okay - so Vincent and Will have been playing double duty all day. It's been insane. Will connected because Bill did. Vincent connected because Will did. Bill left because he didn't need the headache. So now Vincent and Will seem to be seeing who can hang around longer.

I think that this insanity started last night -- let me explain. Vincent and I are connected always (like with the other guys) but with him I do not have to manually have a telepathic connection - I don't have to seek him out - he's always there. But last night I decide to take up a notch. I asked Andrew how can I get Vincent over his apprehension about contacting me? Lord knows I don't want another Will when it comes to this. He told me that I have to make sure my light is the brightest. It always has to be on. If I'm feeling down - get rid of it by letting the light in. He'll be attracted to the light - there's no doubt about it. So I ask - won't the other guys be attracted too? He said yes, but none of them will do anything about it - Vincent will.

Okay - so that is what I did starting last night. Made the light brighter (and in turn did not fall asleep until 2:00). Then I manually connected to Vincent. And it was such an odd experience. When I was making the initial connection stronger - it was as if the world was spinning and there was a kaleidoscope of colors flashing through my mind's eye. Very cool. Then I connected. He was surprised. He kept saying he didn't know what to do. I told him that if he needs me for anything let me know. For some reason (even though I meant it) I kept saying - I won't let you fall -- I won't let you fall. It was important, for whatever reason, that he heard that. He reached over and kissed me - kissed me again. Then I say bye and broke the connection. The headache I had in my third eye was astronomical. It hurt just to exist.

Damn it - just had another connection to Will - and the shakes start again. This is just so weird.

So let's cut to now - the light from last night attracted everyone like I knew it would. And if I am to keep this pace up with the light - I have all 4 of them dancing about, I find it interesting that there is no sign of George. Andrew says he's in the other soul cluster and that's why.

Ohhhh...the dream I had last night. Sheesh - how could I forget THIS?

I'm in a restaurant in NYC - again I think it's that Frank's (I so have to go there in person just to see this place). I walk in - ask for a table for 1. I'm told it's going to be a few minutes. I ask where is the restroom and they point me to it. As I'm walking I hear someone say - are you Allie? I turn and it's an older woman. I say yes. She tells me that she listens to my show, read my book on OBE sex - etc.. and asks if she can have my autograph. I tell her that I don't have a pen on me. I hear a voice - here's one. I turn and sitting in a booth is Bill, Ted, Vincent and Will. Bill and Will on one side (Will inside) and Ted & Vincent on the other (Vincent on the inside). Despite the fact I almost had heart failure - I took his pen, signed the book (as I'm signing she's going on about Bill, Ted, Will and Vincent with what I have written about them - not knowing that they were all right there) and sent her on her way. I stood there for a second - took a deep breath - and turned around to give Bill back the pen. Vincent told me to have a seat. I told Bill to get out so that I could sit between him and Will as I didn't trust the two of them sitting next to one another. But before I could slide in I knew I was about to wake up. I look at Bill and say - my dream visit with you are either at a party, in a library or a bookstore. No matter what there are people and books. I look at Will - with you it's a river and a willow tree. If I see a willow - no matter where - I just start looking for you. To Vincent - you it's beaches, lakes, parks, trains. To Ted - with you it's parties and castles. I have to go now - but I'm sure I'll see you all later.

Will chimes in - we know you're giving a workshop tomorrow night. I look at all 4 -- don't tell me you have tickets? Vincent said - front row - right guys? All 3 are like - yep. I'm like shit -- you're my examples. My examples aren't actually there - that's how I can use them as examples. Bill smiles - get used to it.

And I woke up. All I could think was - holy shit they're hot. LOL.

I found my ex husband's (as in #1) dog tag today. I didn't think I had it any longer. My ex #2 made me throw out everything of #1 several years ago. He was still pissed I had held onto it from high school till my mid 20's. Funny enough as soon as #2 moved out everything that dealt with him was in the trash - everything - pictures,letters, cards, wedding crap, paintings, fountains etc.... Any ways - my son wants to be an Army Commando for Halloween so I went looking for the dog tag and it was real easy to find. It was where I last put it - in my jewelry box. I also discovered I had my pre-engagement ring that he gave me when we were 18 :) I was so proud of that ring when he gave it to me:) The one ring was the only thing someone gave me that I didn't pay for (I paid for my engagements rings and wedding sets - plus any other jewelry). He and - we were such stupid kids. Had we stayed in El Paso after he was discharged from the Army, we probably would have never gotten divorced.

I was amazed on how much anger I had towards him all these years. I don't have it any longer. I don't know when I let it go - but I'm glad I did. We could never go back - and if he were to show up again after all this time we'd never be romantic again (Allie does not move backwards) but it would be nice to be friends.

I haven't had any dizzy spells lately - which is nice. Now I just have some headaches:)

Off to get my shower and then to bed!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Is There A Jeff In The House, Vincent, Will and More!

Earlier in the week I found out that the guy who gave me my 1st real kiss had a massive stroke - he's 41. Devin had been a body builder - Mr. KY at some point in time. He was in great health - had a great life with a wonderful wife, a good job and children. But in Nov 2007 his whole life changed -- and I just found out about it. I just discovered his battle not only for his life but with the insurance agencies - and with his trip to China for alternative health care. I'm trying to stop beating myself up for not knowing what happened to him - but I think about the dozens of times since we graduated in 1985 that he asked me to stay in touch -- and I didn't. I haven't had a chance to tell him how sorry I am for my lack of friendship - that even though I didn't get in touch, that I have thought about him quite a bit over the last 20 + years. Hopefully his wife and brothers will allow me to send a card or something at a later date. Even though he had a stroke - I know he'll remember me.

So that's been on my mind lately.

My son seems to be doing better today (probably because there was no school today) and yesterday too in regards to Melanie. She's moved up on the transplant list. We'll see. I hate to be excited for her to get a heart because that means another child must die in order for that to happen. But I still want her to be okay. My son just came up and got me saying - I tried to be strong and say I could do it, but I can't! So I asked - what? Spiders! He wanted me to be string and go get a couple of x-box games that fell behind the TV and into the spider web zone. LOL. I did. He then said that his wife will have to be strong because he just doesn't like spiders.

I have been down right exhausted all week long. No matter how much sleep I think I get - it's not enough. I'm in a good mood - just damn tired. I saw a picture of Vincent today - taken yesterday I think - and he looks like hell. Andrew tells me that during dream time Vincent and I spend a majority of our time together and if we're not together than we spend our time looking for one another. It's no wonder we're both so tired. He also tells me that neither one of us will get a good night's sleep until we talk - either in person or on the phone. Because once we do that - we'll still be drawn to one another when we sleep - but it's not such a longing that we're that always active. Lord - I hope this doesn't take forever. Paul chimes in and says if I finish BT again that it will go faster. So I ask - is BT a condition that has to be met before I chat with Vincent. I'm told no. But things will move faster if I do. PLUS - I am told -things will be smoother all the way around if I get my OBE book and in person workshops up and moving. Is that also a condition? No - I am told, but financially I won't be as stressed which will make my energy better all the way around.

Okay - got it. Maybe I need a coach to get the OBE stuff done. That is a thought. Anyone know a good coach that can help me with my book & putting together my workshops that won't break the bank? Let me know.

So last night I'm in dream time and just moving about the dreamscape when I come upon a NYC diner - FRANKS. I walk in and I hear someone to my right clear his throat. I turn and it's Vincent, Will, Elliot (remember him?) and a new one - Jeff. I stare over at the group and say hi to Will. He goes to intro me to the rest and I say I know who they are and say hello. Vincent & Will are are one side of the booth (Vincent on the inside) - Jeff and Elliot on the other. I can't remember what is said - but I hurry up and say - well you two (V & W) are always on my blog - you're V & W. I mumbled something else and turn to walk back out in a hurry. Will has my arm and is pulling me back to the table. Vincent says to join them - Jeff says I can't wait to hear about this - and Elliot smiles. So I slide in and am now sandwiched with Vincent on my left and Will on my right. All I can think is how in the hell am I going to explain this - will they actually believe me.

So Jeff jumps in and says to tell him about all of this -- he extremely interested. So I try to explain energy and how we carry the same energy signatures - etc....and he's kind of getting it. So I tell him to put his hands on the table - palms up. He pulls his sleeves up a touch and does just that. I hold my hands over his - maybe about 3 inches away and just let the heat flow. He can feel it - boy can he. His eyes are wide, he's grinning. I pull my hands away and he's like a kid in a candy store - tell me more - tell me more.

Will chimes in and says - you mean to tell me that in your Vincent Rambles 2 - I'm the Will you're talking about. I say yes. He says - I would hope that I have more control than that - I replied - I wish the same too - but that's what they said. I turned and we stared into each other's eyes - I could feel my blood pressure starting to rise and other things well - starting to get turned on. That's when Vincent put his hand on my shoulder and got my attention. You and I need to talk, I've been looking for you for a very long time - is what he said. Yes I replied back - and the sooner you physically get a hold of me the better. I was yanked out of the dream by a cat jumping on me. But as I woke up I could hear Jeff still saying - we'll talk more - I can't wait.

Now speaking of a Jeff - but not this one - I had another dream the night before with a guy named Jeff. He had on a teal long-sleeved short - well built - American Indian. I was a doctor and he was a cop. We were discussing a patient's injury's. I remember grabbing his arm and having a wondrous feel of safeness come over me. I'm thinking that Jeff was really Vincent and his name was Jeff in a past life or maybe in a future life we haven't gotten to yet.

And not to get too confused but there's a Jeff back from my posting in Oct 2006: http://www.gypsyadvice.com/alliestwocents/2006_10_01_archive.html

Geez....

So to wrap:

Jeff in dream with Vincent, Will and Elliot - Jeff is his actual name
Jeff in dream where I'm a doctor - I think that it is Vincent in a past life
Jeff from Oct 2006 is a fake name - his real name is Kyle.

This is why fake names just don't work with me any more - I get too confused.

George made a stop in my dreams last night. I was sitting around a fire talking to him and another girlfriend of mine. We're just chatting away while my friend's guy just sat there and stared at me - just stared. Even tough he was far away from us - he knew everything we were saying -- really intense energy.

Over the last week I've had 6 people ask me about writing and/or casting spells. And every time I opened one of those emails - Merlin was right next to me saying - yep, I told you so. Fine. I added back into the site: http://www.gypsyadvice.com/gypsy_magic_spells_personalized.htm

And on that note - I'm tired. Time to head to bed and MAYBE get some real sleep. Although I doubt it.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Vincent Rambles #2

Allie rambles about Vincent - with a mixture of Will, Andrew and Paul. Plus an interesting experience at the Universal Light Expo.

But she does ramble - you have been warned:)



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Dreams, Vincent And ULE 2008!

Wow - what a productive weekend I had. I finished BLACK TRIANGLE and it is now sitting on my manger's computer. Hopefully the changes will be minor. I also worked on the yard, took care of cooking down a ton of tomatoes and did some other bulk cooking. No wonder I was tired when I went to bed Sunday night. I did the busy body stuff when I needed a break from BT.

I started my Vincent Rambles 2 last night - and wouldn't you know it, my ex brought my son home an hour early. So I stopped - deleted it - and hopefully I'll be able to do it again and actually finish it.

This morning I'm getting my son ready for school and he says -- mom, who are you going to pick? My mouth was full of toothpaste - so I muffled a "what"? Who are going to pick mom - you know - to kiss? Will, Vincent -- I jump in - Vincent. Bill -- Ted -- he said -- Vincent. Vincent - Vincent - Vincent - was my reply. He looked at me - mom, why did you say his name so many times? Because - I said - no matter who you say it's still Vincent. What about Bill - he said? What about him -- we'll be good friends I hope. And Will - he asked. Don't worry about Will - trust me - he'll be in our lives - you'll still see him. He said - I'd better -- and I want to hurry up and meet Bill, I've waited long enough. I had to smile. But I assured him that he'll meet whoever it is he is supposed to meet. And I had to assure him again about Will. If Will does decide (later on) not to be in our lives at all except on a professional level - it'll just crush my son. I've never known a child to have such a strong attachment to a person they met once. But of course their attachment is past life lives.

He then went on (he was chatty this morning) that if Vincent is so much taller than me - how am I supposed to kiss him? And how is my son supposed to hug him? I replied that I'll stand on a stool and he can stand on a piece of furniture. He said I was being silly -- I was serious:) In fact in a dream visit last night I did just that - grabbed a stool and stood on it to hug him. This way I could get the full-body hugging experience.

During the dream visit last night - I was walking through a large crowd of people - it was all in slow-mo. Everyone was laughing - chattering - having fun. I'm at a table looking at something - don't know what - when a surge of energy went right up my spin - the hairs on my neck stood up -- and I just "knew". I turned and there he was - Vincent - several feet away from me. Our eyes met and the instant it happened the slow-mo people were frozen in motion. He smiled - winked at me. His grin was huge - and it was soooooo cute. Man - he was so handsome. I blinked and all of the activity picked up to regular speed - and he was still there - but now he was walking to me. As soon as he reached me - he hugged me. When we pulled apart, he had my face in his hands. He started into my eyes and said - You're more beautiful than I imagined.

My alarm went off - I woke up.

But I laid there feeling his hands on my face - the movement of his thumbs as they caressed my cheeks. HEAVY SIGH. What an image to wake up to - his handsome face looking at me.

Speaking of handsome -- Paul Newman. He was with me a good portion of the waking hours of my weekend. Seems that Andrew was his guide as well and brought to him his wife Joanne. Andrew and Paul just smile -- what goofs. Paul looks the age he was in Butch & Sundance. Oh - and the comment he made after I heard him was: If I knew being dead was this great I would have died a lot sooner. Ha! But he says he's working with Andrew on the Vincent project (project is Paul's word). He was with me all weekend helping me with BT. He is a very opinionated man. He said that's it important to get it right. I agreed. When he got here Friday night - Heath Ledger came with him. Those two are hanging out. Actually - Heath brought Paul to me with a "see I told you she could hear you". Paul also seems to like the song "Amazing" by George Michael. I have no idea why - but when it's on I swear I can feel him dance.

Last year - or maybe it was the year before - Kal and I were at the Groves City Holiday Inn (our yearly accommodations for the ULE) and in the parking lot was the Oscar Myer Weiner-Mobile! I was instantly a kid again. It's amazing how fast that Oscar Meyer wiener song can come back:) Every year we look for it - hasn't been back yet. Don't forget that at the ULE I'll be at booth 894 and my OBE Sex chat will be on Sunday from 11:00 - 11:50 am in room 201. Stop by and say hi so poor Kal doesn't have to listen to me jammer her ears off with my rambling:) The main focus of the booth is the Gypsy Magic books - but I'm also going to be doing readings and writing personalized spells. I just can't really advertise the readings & the spells - but I can do them both:)

And on that note - better get ready to go get my son.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)