Dreams, Death, The 1920's And The Crystal Skulls!

This is the 2nd time I've tried to write this post. The first time - when I was almost done - my computer crashed and I lost it. That's how my day has been moving along. Two steps forward and three back. So being pissed at losing my last entry - I took a long break before I tried this again. Plus -- all day I have not been able to post to my blogger account. I've had to switch to the blog being hosted on blogger and then switch back to it being hosted on gypsyadvice in order for anything to show up. What I've been trying to do today is find another blog template for Allie's Two Cents. This one bores me to tears. I wasted half the day looking around and trying to find one that would work with blogger & my site (and yes, I did a search for blogger templates - but they have to be the classic style and not XML) and I gave up. I have been thinking of switching it al over to Word Press since it is a better platform all the way around. It's just going through all the steps of setting up the blog and then transferring all of the current content over (as I say a little prayer).

The last dream I had this morning was my ex husband #2 and I in an airplane that looked like the Enterprise from Star Trek. In the "captains" chair sat a man - I have no idea who he was as I never saw his face, only heard his voice. The windshield of the plane has a shield over it so we could not see outside. It felt like we were flipping back and forth - the man told my ex that he has to get over there and fly the plane. He said no - he can't do it. The man said that he had to - my ex was frantic - couldn't fly the plane. I could feel us spiraling down, he still wouldn't take the controls. I tried talking him into it - but he never would listen to me, so he didn't here either. Next thing I know the shield slid open and I could see the rapidly approaching runway. The inside of this plan was now a Cessna - with someone in the pilot & co pilot seat. Behind them sat my two sisters, behind them my mom and my son, and lastly - my ex and I. I hear the instrument warnings go off. I glance out the window and see the runway under us. I brace for impact -- which was rough and bounced the plane all over the place. I heard a voice yell to slam the brakes as the end of the runway was coming up. I leaned so that I could see and we were at the end of the runway. My son reached his hand back, I grabbed it, We all ducked and closed our eyes. I could feel something go through us. The pain - also went right through me. I could hear the fire trucks coming towards us. My dog Brodie barks and wakes me up - I yell at him to shut up and I fall back to sleep. I open my eyes to see what's going on and I'm outside the plane. The plane is totaled. It's smashed. I know I'm dead. I look around and no one else from the plane is with me - so I figure they are all still alive. As I I move towards the plane, time speeds up so that when I get to the plane everyone is on a stretcher and being carried out. They are trying to revive me. I sense someone next to me -- they tell me that I have to go back. I don't want to. She says that I must -- then she adds in, do you want your ex to raise your son -- good point. You still have a lot of work to do - you need to assemble the council. The council? I ask. She says - you'll figure it out. Next thing I know I'm opening my eyes in my body - I do feel the pain now -- and that pain causes me to wake up.

Now - I laid there for awhile and thought about this dream. The first part felt like I was in my ex's dream. My family was his family for so long that it doesn't surprise me that he would have had them in his dream. When the dog woke me up I glanced at the clock - it would of been time for my ex to wake up for work. So when I feel back to sleep his dream had shifted to my dream. I wish I could remember who the woman was -- I feel she was Iris, but when I ask Iris, she doesn't say anything. It wasn't a dream that worried me or scared me when I finally woke up - just the opposite really. I got the message that I have something important to do and no matter what comes my way - I have to do it. Push ahead and persevere.

I just got an email with the subject heading "Update your penis". Snicker. What would I do if I had one? Stick the tip into the USB port and download something new and amazing? LOL. Spam -- it cracks me up.

Monday night I had a past life dream of the 1920's. It took place in NYC (as all of my past life 1920 vision have) in a Speakeasy. I was in a far corner at a table with two socialites - we were discussing money - main I was giving them a reading on how to advance their fortunes. Bill and Ted were a couple of tables over. An alarm went off - the Feds were here to raid the place. Within seconds the booze was gone - I heard a bunch of bottles drop. I knew that they were swimming in the sewer system. By the time the Feds got in, it looked like a respectable diner. After they came in, Will pushed through the crowd. He might of been a Fed - but just the feeling I got was that he played both sides of the fence. He walked right over to me and grabbed my arm. Bill and Ted stood up. I had a flash vision of this place being turned into a blood bath - so I quickly told the guys to sit down, I'll go with him. As Will lead me from the place -- I woke up.

Both nights I can remember fragments of dream visit with the crystal skulls. In each dream the skulls were present, as well as a very large waterfall and a crystal & stone temple. I can see myself going into a cave, crossing an underground river. But I can't remember any more than that.

Also Sawyer showed up -- we argued about what we were going to go see. I wanted to check out some island - he said he had enough of those - lol. So I suggested going back to the past and looking around - oh no, he wanted to move to the future. I suggested another planet - he wanted another galaxy. So what did we end up doing? Sitting at a bar during the 1940's and drinking some strong shit.

I'm surprised lately how much of an effort Ted is making to telepathically communicate with me. He's been asking - are you there? Have you left? When can I see you? Ramblings on about how crazy his wife is (hell, I could have told him that). I've told him not to be such a stranger and he promises that he won't be. He said that he feels stronger when his energy is connect to mine - I tried to explain why, but he was gone.

I had a moment yesterday where I felt Will link to me and through his eyes I could see him looking at my business card. It gave my energy field a nice rush:)

What else happened? Oh - yesterday I was sitting on the potty doing my thing, when an upper tooth on my left side started to ache (again - an ongoing problem) I asked for some help here - I have no time for pain. I sensed Archangel Michael on my left - then my friend Dave showed up. He told Archangel Michael that he's take care of this. I got so emotional when Dave showed up - I have no clue why. But I could feel his hand over my left cheek with my left cheek getting very hot. It was all very cool (so to speak). He and I chatted a bit - told him thanks. And I could of sworn he tried to hug me but he went right through -- a very funky feeling. My tooth did feel much better.

Off to hopefully get my shower and then call it an early evening. I got my changes back for THE BLACK TRIANGLE and I have some work to get going on starting tomorrow.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Atlantis, The Crystal Skulls And My Son!

No need to send out Special Forces - I am alive and well. I've just been very busy. The doctor's appointment with my son went as planned- he has the problem with his eyes that we suspected - he has to work 300% harder to focus than the normal person. Explains the headaches, short attention span. We start therapy in June. If I can get to him to do exercises at night (as therapy will cause him headaches) then we'll be in it 3 months instead of 6. And - I hope - it will cost me a lot less.

Finished DREAMERS over the weekend. It got the two thumbs up from my manager - not fingers crossed that the powers that be like this version. I also wrote a rough draft of a treatment for a Nickelodeon TV show. I was surprised how easy it came together. This week I start my rewrite of THE BLACK TRIANGLE and finish up on the unnamed Nick treatment. But the Nick show I set in NYC as I did DREAMERS. I figure if I'm there - would be better to have the two shows close to one another.

But in rewriting DREAMERS I've had some funky dreams about the crystal skulls and Atlantis. In the dreams Bill has that brown leather covered book and he and Ted are arguing about which way to go. I'm off looking at a symbol (A crystal skull in the center of a triangle) on a wall (I believe we're in a pyramid) and call Will over. He and I discuss where we've seen it before - I go over, grab the book out of Bill's hands and flip through it. This symbol is carved over the entrance to the room that houses the Atlantis Time Capsule. Bill and Ted place some big stones under the entrance of our current room (yes, we have seen too many movies). I fish out of my back pack a crystal skull which was wrapped in a purple cloth. I hold face the skull to the symbol on the wall. There was a light exchange between the symbol & the skull and the wall fell back.

We move into the next chamber and there is a thin, stone table in the center. In this table (or actually a pedestal) are three large notches. Bill and Ted took their crystal skulls from their back packs. We told Will it might be better if he stepped from the room - he said not a chance in hell. Us 3 put each of the crystal skulls into a notch with the front of the skulls facing inward. Once we did that the pedestal started to turn clockwise and lower. I remember my stomach feel very queasy and getting very lightheaded. It felt as if the floor dropped out from under us -- and that caused me to wake up.

This happened three nights in a row with each time the floor dropped (I think) it woke me up. Each time I woke up my heart was pounding something fierce and I was too energized to go back to sleep.

I am a firm believer in the crystal skulls and in Atlantis. I base my belief on my dreams, meditations and past life regression sessions. I personally do not think any of the 13 skulls have been found yet. Despite what has been written. I do think that the skulls that have been unearthed thus far hold a wealth of positive energy. The natural disasters that have been happening over the last two - three years, I feel, is to help uncover the skulls. If the skulls had been placed where they were not to be found until the time is right -- it would have had to have been some kick ass hiding places.

I find the legend of the 13 crystal skulls fascinating as I do the myth about Atlantis. It doesn't surprise me at all that the new Indiana Jones flick deals with a crystal skull.

Because I've been writing during my free time instead of writing in the blogs or returning emails -- by inbox is a natural disaster of it's own.

I still haven't uploaded the orb pictures to my computer -- I know, I know -- I'll get one it:)

And on that note - back to work I go:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

NYC, Bill And A Book!

Will. Boy - is his energy strong. I'm so tempted do go rummaging around that mind of his to discover what he's up to. But he'll know I'm there. And he'll probably be a bit upset with me - so I won't. But let me tell you the temptation is strong to do so. I'm so damn curious:) But we know what curiosity does, don't we? It either kills us or makes us stronger. I'd like to lean towards this would make me stronger, but I won't let the temptation get the better of me.

My son is soooooo happy. Why? Because my TV pilot DREAMERS was based in Mass. Well, I changed it to NYC and he is beyond excited. I told you we were going to move there!! He shouted that over and over again -- see mom I am psychic:) LOL. That kid. But I've been working on it - not much time for anything else like writing in the blog or returning emails. So if there's an email from you in that inbox of mine -- don't hold your breath. I have until Friday evening to get this draft done. And now that I switched it to NYC - things are flowing a lot easier.

Tomorrow I take my son in for his series of eye tests. Wish me luck that the sensor motor problem he has isn't as severe as they think it is.

My sister is flying to London tomorrow to go to a concert. A concert. The only reason she's going across the pond. Am I jealous? Heck yeah. She's seeing my 80's groups dog gone it! Rick Astley. Go ahead, roll your eyes, but I just love that guy. Besides, I've always wanted to go to the UK. Hopefully I'll get to go in 2009! You know me and British guys - just love them.

Since I've been back home I'm sleeping better. I still have some of my headache - but nothing like last week - nothing. So the shift did occur over the weekend like it was supposed to.

Bill has been around lately. It's good to feel more of his energy. He has such a way of pushing my buttons - both good and bad. He has been showing up in my dream visits. He keeps showing me this leather bound book that reminds me of one I had in a vision of him, me and Ted about Atlantis. He very insistent that I memorize this book. There are a lot of hand drawn maps, notes and symbols. But when I wake up - no matter how much I program myself to remember what he shows me, it skips away. All very frustrating. I guess when the time comes and I do run into that book in the physical sense, I will have one of those "moments" that click. Besides the book, I keep trying to find Bill. One second he's there in the dream - and then he's lost in a crowd and I run around trying to find him. When I do - it's back to that book which he keeps under his arm. Then he's gone again. Why does he have to jump in and out? Can't he just stay? SIGH.

But with him arriving more often - it feels to me that the stay of contact with me, him and Ted is coming to a close. All I have to say for that is thank goodness!

And on that note - time to get my son, go to little league and then work on DREAMERS!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Off To MI, Spider Sense Is On High Alert!

My headache has been full tilt all week. It has just been nuts. I know that Will is not "in" my energy like he's my astral body -- but he is still very much here. And I mean he has zoned in big time. I have no idea what he's doing - but it's something that has me under consideration.

That said - my spider sense is on high alert. I know this weekend will bring a love into my life. I just know it with every sense that I have. I have been seeing me walking around the corner and my heart stopping in my throat. It's a vision that I've had repeatedly all week long. I have no idea who I am running into or being introduced to - but it is someone who will take my breath away. It's a major - holy shit - happening.

And no - I honestly have no idea if it is Will. I mean - what would he be doing at a hoedown in Detroit? But I asked the universe to please send me someone as I'm tired of being alone. And if Will doesn't want to step up - then please send someone. I've been alone for over 10 years and I'm tired of it. Just because I was divorced only last year doesn't make me alone for only a year -- trust me, my ex and I have been apart for a very long time. I think that's why I was so surprised that my son was conceived. I was like - how'd that happen - lol.

It's also not Bill, Ted, Matt or even Sawyer who I will run into:) And BTW -- Heath and I have come to a mutual satisfying resolve about him popping in and out to chat.

Any ways - heading out the door now to go to my niece's 4th b-day party and then it's off to MI. I'll have the crackberry with me - so when I'm swept off my feet, I'll tell you about it -- much later:)

If all else fails and there's no love this weekend -- I still know that I'll have a good weekend as I'll be spending it with people I both like and respect -- and I know they return the feelings.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Psychiconair.com, Maria Shaw And Atlantis!

I was actually going to do a few readings first and then write this entry. But Iris was being very particular to get this done now. So here I am.

I made a stop at the Maria Shaw show this morning on Psychiconair.com! I was on from about 10:10 am to 10:26 am EST. If you want to listen to the segment where I discuss connecting with a famous person via OBE sex - it'll be rebroadcast tonight from 10:10 pm - 10:26 pm EST.

Atlantis keeps coming to the forefront of my mind's eye today. Last night I had a dream visit with Atlantis. In it, I was in a circle of people - men - who were my peers. And they were throwing stones at me. I was trying to have a discussion with them and they just kept throwing things. One hit me in the side of the head - my left jaw - and I woke up immediately in so much pain on my left jaw. It was throbbing. Pain killers wouldn't work - I tried energy balls (usually helps when I'm in pain) and it only made it worse. Finally I got back up - and grabbed some lavender oil to rub on my jaw. After it was applied, I placed my pipestone over my jaw and laid back down.

Iris was there and she told me that I had to connect to Will now. I kept trying to walk down the path to my portal, but every time I tried the pain kept knocking me back out of it. By the time the pain went away - I drifted off to sleep.

I was surprised to wind up right back in Atlantis with Will tending to my jaw. We were next to a natural hot spring and he was applying the healing water to my jaw. I kept hearing him say - you have to go along with what we want - if you don't you'll die. But whatever it was, I knew that I couldn't do that because it was against everything I believed in.

Woke up after this visit -my jaw wasn't hurting at all - and went back to sleep. I don't remember anything after that.

But Atlantis is just right there - rumbling around in my brain. I have done a bit more research in on it - and have had some people email me things about Atlantis that they have cone across (thank you) but nothing stands out as new. Things are told a bit differently with a twist here and there - but basically it's been the same. The main thing I guess that stands out is the literature that says Atlantis was governed by a counsel of all men. I keep seeing women involved. So I don't know....

What I do know is that Iris wants me to grab my healing wand and head into a session....

First thing that I noticed is that I was in a violet robe that hung down to the tops of my bare feet. I was walking along the grass when Bill came out and got me and said it's time. I shook my head and said that there had to be another way. He replied that I have to look within my soul to realize that there is not. I asked about Will. He gave me that look - and said he chose his path. He turned and dashed between two large Eucalyptus trees. I had a vision (inside of this vision) of the portal to the other worlds (like a star gate) had been shut from the other side. We could not get back through to go "home". We had to stay here on earth and handle the situation.

I followed where Bill had gone and there was Ted. He grabbed my hand and told me to hurry. We could feel the earth shake under our feet. Someone asked me how exactly this was to work. I told them that we are to place our memoires of Atlantis and beyond into each our our skulls. Once we transfer the information, we will be mortal (like the rest of Atlantis) and have no memories of our time here. It will be like trying to remember a dream - it's on the tip - but not quite there. Until we are supposed to know in a future life -and that is when us and the skulls will come back together. The skulls will then transfer our memoires back to us and we can once again help mankind from their own destruction. At that time, the star gate (for lack of a better word) will open again and we can go home.

We each took a sharp crystal and pricked our fingers. It wasn't blood as we would see blood - all red - but a white substance that dripped from our fingers and onto our crystal skull - each skull was just that - crystal. After the substances went into the crystal - everyone there placed their hands on the crystals. Now instead of a participant, I'm an observer - as the energy & information was transferred - our bodies shook - like we were having convulsions. When it was over, it looked like we had all passed out. The crystal skulls lowered themselves down into the ground.

I went back to being a participant. Bill jumped up and grabbed my hand - said something about the time capsule - that we had to do it now before we forgot. And the session ended.

The session stopped with me having a hell of a headache. I could feel Iris being there during the entire vision - but I couldn't see her anywhere.

I bought tickets to go up on the Empire State building next Thursday night. I thought it would be cool to see NYC at night - all the lights. My son is scared to ride into elevator - he asked if we could take the stairs. Ahh -- no -- elevator. I think I had him convinced to give it a go.

Back to work...

Crystal Sunhine!
Allie :)

This Woman Does Not Chase!

I have a stick so far up my ass today that it's tickling my tonsils. Thankfully it hasn't slowed down my work at all. So what caused it? Will. Yeah - I know - huh? This is a first -- and it is. So what set it off? My radio reading yesterday with Maria. As soon as I asked about Will I knew I shouldn't of. Bottom line to what she said is that I have to keep putting myself where he is - because I guess I've been forgettable. If I show up a few times, then he might notice and take an interest (yeah, like I'm a stalker). When she 1st said it - I barely heard her on the radio - so I listened last night to hear all of it. My 1st thought was hell no! And that went on to be my final thought as well.

Will reads this blog and I have made it obvious that I would like to have some sort of relationship with him - whether it be romantic, business, friendship or a combo. And he's been to this blog - several times - I've seen it (psychic speaking) Tracey has seen it and so has Maria. He has my contact information. The ball is not in my court any longer and I'm not going to keep it there. I don't chase - I don't care who it is. If someone is interested in me - fabo - if not - well - I'm a great person and it's their lose.

But the chasing Will part really got to me last night - I mean really. With the words that were coming out of my mouth - it's hard to believe I kissed my son good night with the same potty mouth.

As I'm cussing up a storm last night - guess who comes into my energy field? Ted. That man sure knows how to argue -- and he was defending Will. I told him what I thought of that -- and that brought Will into my energy. These two yammered on until I went to bed - and it still continued until I threw them out and threw up my energy shield. The shield's down - but they haven't been back.

Eventually I may not be so pissed. Eventually....

But any ways....I've been thinking about adding a service to help people with their sex lives. You know, help rev up their sex lives or if they don't need revved, maybe add a twist in there. And before any smarty pants emails me - no, I'm not going to be physically involved with the people I help - ha. But more or less be an sex psychic advisor - maybe one person can't please their partner and doesn't know why. Or to help integrate OBE sex into someone's life - with help discovering the right sex toy or sex toys right for them and/or their partner. So I go in and find the problem (if unknown), help develop an OBE solution and give advice on props. But what in the heck do I call this -- or me -- OBE Sexpert? Just plain Sex Advice? I'd like something catchy but not over the top like I'm running a porn shop.

Plus I've been tossing around the idea of an OBE matching service. For those who want the OBE sex experience but don't want to find someone at random on the astral/dream planes. Any idea for a name on this? Any idea about any of this? Weigh in please...

Iris wants me to research more about Atlantis. I'm not sure why - what there is that I haven't already figured out on my own. But she's pretty adamant about it.

I wish Iris could show me where I've got the time to do everything....

Speaking of which - better run.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Being Married, Will And Dream Visits!

Will was dead center in my mind last night. No matter what else I tried to shift my brain power to, it kept bouncing back to him. So after awhile I stopped fighting it. I figure, if it's this stong - there must be a reason for it. So about 11:30 pm I let the thoughts just come in. There were so many images, words and mini movies - all spinning what seemed like out of control. It reminded me of a kaleidoscope and with every turn of the view finder, there was something different to see/hear. But I wasn't the one turning the view finder.

There were a lot of "what if" scenarios - almost as if Will was "what if'ing" the connection into the ground. Then it would shift to an exuberant happiness - then down to an overwhelming sadness. And it continued. Any time there was happiness - there were images of he, myself and my son together - even if it was eating popcorn and watching a movie on TV. The sadness was always when he was pacing in his apartment - alone.

Finally about 1:00 am I had enough and told Will that I'll meet him in dream time. I walked down my dream path (as I like to call it) towards my dream portal/workspace. My path is always through a pine forest - I love the feel of the pine beneath my bare feet and the smell. As I round a corner - there is Ethan. I went over and gave him a big ole hug. I asked if he was back to help. He shook his head no - this is just a visit. We both could feel Iris in the background - just watching. I leaned into Ethan and asked - is she always like this? You mean a control freak? - Yes Ethan replied with a chuckle. But she gets results - her charges always travel down the path they are supposed to. I guess that's comforting - I said. He replied - it should be.

So we're walking and I asked Ethan if I'm doing something wrong? Is there something I'm meant to do that I haven't done yet? He shook his head -- no -- the ball is in Will's court. It's completely up to him. I asked - why is this so difficult for him if he "knows". Ethan put his arm round me and answered - because change is difficult, no matter matter much you want it (this sounded very familiar to me - AKA my divorce last year) and you add to that shyness and an uncertainty if this is all in his head -- and there you go. Is this something that he'll get over. Ethan shrugged - he has to or this will repeat in the next life. And quite frankly - there isn't time to repeat this - you two have to be together so that the next step happens. So this is a must for him. His guides will keep putting things, reminder, in front of him so that he takes that next step.

The next step - involves Bill and Ted doesn't it? Ethan nods - also Clive, Peter, John, Larry and a woman and her partner that you have failed to explore yet. I don't have time for her right now.

(update - I have written about her before - I called her Jo:
http://gypsyadvice.com/alliestwocents/2007/03/stuff-ted-and-new-one-named-jo.html)

Well, Ethan said - just like Will will have things in front of him about you - you will keep having things in front of you about her. This isn't something that can be put off. Since she and Will know one another - do I meet her before Will calls or after? Ethan replied - that hasn't been written yet.

Something catches my eye off the path and I go get it - a cell phone. I'm giving this to Will during our visit. Ethan laughed - of course you are.

I entered my dream portal and Ethan stayed behind.

I'm on a train with many people - but it's not overcrowded. I'm at one end of a small car, Will is at the other end. To my left sits a woman who I am friends with in my waking life. Her partner is sitting next to Will. I see him lean over to Will and start to talk about me. I can hear what is said, even though I shouldn't be able to:

G = Guy W = Will

G = You know Allie?
W = From Gypsy Advice? Yes. Her and her son.
G = Word is that she's obsessed with you.

Will arises his eyebrows on that one -- and this guy is looking right at me -- I'm staring at him trying to say with my eyes - WTF and shut the hell up. But he goes on...

W = You don't say.
G = She thinks about you all the time.
W = I see.

I look over at this my friend and ask - what in the hell is he doing? She shrugs. Make him stop - I said.

Next thing I know, Will has a magazine in his hand and he sits a couple of rows behind me. I can feel him staring at me -but I refuse to look over at him. He is now sitting behind me - his left hand is on the back of my chair - he's tapping his fingers. I look and he's wearing a brand new shiny wedding ring.

I look over at my friend and say - hell no. I stand up and I'm cussing to myself. A lot of - WTF came out. I started to walk away in the opposite direction - she asked - where are you going? I yelled - this is whacked - I'm waking up. So I walk through the cars shouting at myself to wake up and I finally do.

I laid there in bed -- what in the hell was that? I talked to myself: Why was that scene there? He's not married - I know he's not married. But the ring he had on - looked just like (my ex) when we first got married, same ring. Will has been in an on again off again relationship for over 10 years - maybe she feels that they are married even if they are not? And I'm not obsessed. I have a life - and he's not center stage.

I gotta go back into that dream. So I did...

The train came to a stop and we all got off and went into a huge formal garden - the kind you would see outside of a castle. I'm on a balcony and I see Will. He sees me. I turn the opposite way and go inside this room made from shrubs. There are a bunch of people in there and someone asked me if I was okay. I try not to cry - because I'm very angry and frustrated. I said - no I'm not okay. So I go back out of that room and into where Will is still at. I have two ways to go in order to get to the other side of this balcony- I see Will walking towards me on one side - I start to walk the opposite - but then think -- nah...and I walk right past him - it takes everything I have not to look over at him. But as we pass he said - Allie - wait -please. I stop. He's alongside of me -and it's automatic - I thread my arm through his and we walk.

I need to know - he said - I need to know if I have a chance.

I look over to him - you're the only one.

We're silent for a few steps.

Do you understand what I mean? He nods. There is no one else - no one.

Will smiled and let out a sign of relief.

But I don't do the married thing - I'm not playing second fiddle. I'm not someone's afterthought. I went through two marriages where I was the afterthought and was cheated on -- I will never do that to another woman.

But you have - he replied.

Yes - in my early 20's. I learned that lesson by being on the receiving end twice of men who didn't give a crap about me. And I will never do that again - no matter what I feel for the person. I deserve better.

Will replied - understood. But you'd never be second fiddle in my life.

I reached into my pocket and pulled out the cell phone - and handed it to him. Then first work it out with your ex, she is an ex right?

He nods - but she doesn't see it that way.

Find a way to make her understand and then call me. And could you hurry up, we're not getting any younger.

Then I woke up.

As strange as it sounds - when I woke up I felt Will reading my blog to see if I wrote about this dream yet. He'll check back until he reads this - and then his uncertainty won't have such a hold on him. I feel this is why Iris was adamant about me posting this entry today and not waiting until Monday.

And I must admit - it is very strange to feel that you'd take a bullet for someone in a heartbeat when you have only met them once (in this life - obviously). It's an unconditional sacrifice - just like it would be for my son. There's no thinking about it - it's automatic.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Where Do I Begin?

This week has been well -- a learning experience to put it mildly. My son's pediatrician called me and asked me if I knew about the letter that he got from the school. I said that yes, I knew that they were sending one out. But have you read it? The Dr. asked (mind you this man has never called my house). I said no - I had not. He said - well I'll have my nurse make a copy - you really should read it. Okay - I'll stop down after I take my son to the eye doctor. Fine.

Now at the eye doctor I thought this was going to be a routine examine and he would need glasses. He had complained that he couldn't see the board. But oh no - nothing routine about it. Come to find to that they think he has: Convergence Insufficiency. Which means (doc definition): a sensorimotor anomaly that affects the binocular visual system and is characterized by an inability to adequately coverage or sustain coverage for visual tasks at near. So -- my son has to work 10x as hard to read what is in front of him than the normal child. When I told the doc that he is at a 3rd grade reading level she couldn't believe it. Usually children with this do not like to read and fall way behind. I always knew he was smart:) So -- I have to take him in for a series of tests and then start him on visual therapy.

Moving on...

Stopped at the pediatricians' office and got a copy of the letter. It is two pages of what kind of monster my son is. And I mean monster. Two pages of rotten, horrible things that have been taken grossly out of context and not one kind word about the boy. Labels were stuck all over him without actually putting a label on. I'm not exaggerating at all - I showed this to a few people and they couldn't believe it. The doctor said this was the 1st of its kind in his office in over 40 years of practice. My kid's an empath with a heightened sense of awareness. But no one here gets that. So......just to rule out that his brain isn't @ucked up - now he has to go see a neurologist for a consult. If it warrants it - then testing. But I am really going to have to be convinced before any tests are run.

SIGH. Which brings me to...

School. I don't want him to go back there. If that is how they view my boy - the hell with them. I talked to my son about home school. He jumped all over it. In fact - he's been wanting me to do that since Kindergarten. I told him that he wouldn't see his friends at school. He said mom, you're my only friend. That broke my heart. Then he launched in to how the kids make fun of him and call him weird. We all know how cruel children can be -- and my son is ultra sensitive - doesn't help him being a Cancer. So I looked into home schooling and discovered that Ohio has a public school online. It's a virtual public charter school. It costs me nothing - and they send the school books, supplies and a computer if we needed it. Plus he has teachers online and I would be a teacher assistant. This follows the K12 program which is supposed to be top notch.

Last year Tracey did a reading for me which in it said that once Will was in our lives that my son would not be learning in a conventional manner. It doesn't matter where in the world we are located - we just have to log into the computer on a school day before 11:59 pm to complete the assignments. So for traveling - this is great.

But how do I take care of my home, animals, child, myself - everything that is involved there - plus work and home school? I'm going to lose my mind. I'm strong, I can do a lot -- but I'm not sure if this is over the top or not. But what I do know for my son's sake is that I have to try to make it work. My ex about had a cow when I told him about everything including the home school. I'm like - it really doesn't matter what you think because you don't do anything anyways!

Like little league starts on Saturday. My son is sooooooo excited. My ex is supposed to take him. Well, wouldn't you know him and his GF are going away for the weekend. So I'm taking him and the kid is heartbroken -- again.

If there was ever a time for Will to pick up that phone - this would be it. I could really use a pair of shoulders right now. Mine are too heavy and tense to move. Really - really could use that shoulder.

So that's that for now.

On May 11th I'm going to now be in Detroit at the hoedown:) Maria Shaw is having a booth there and several of us readers are showing up to do well -- readings. I wonder if I'll remember to eat between 11 am - 7 pm? LOL. I need to find a place to crash Sat night - any suggestions for a safe and economical place in Detroit?

I have been experimenting the last couple of weeks with vitamins and specifically with calcium. Calcium "600" (from oyster shell; Vit D3 - 600 IU, Calcium - 1200 mg & Sodium - 15 mg) made by Solgar. I have found that if I take the correct dosage (2 pills) right before I go to bed - my dreams are much more lucid AND I remember them better. Much...MUCH better.

Now yesterday (April 17) was Ted's 49th birthday. In 20 years I haven't forgotten his birthday until yesterday. It dawned on me before I went to bed. Luckily for me, I had a chance to make it up in the Dreamscape: Ted and his wife were sitting at a round table with a white table cloth enjoying a birthday dinner. He kept looking at me and vice versa. Finally he came over and introduced himself and asked if we knew one another - I said of course we do. He said how? I told him to think about it for a bit - that door has closed on him and he needs to think about it in order for it to reopen. He went back to his table and talked to his wife - she glared at me (oh please). I could tell he was really thinking about it and it dawned on him -- a "oh shit" moment. I took that moment to go introduce myself to his wife and to assure her that I was no threat to her marriage. I'm not meant for Ted - at least not now.

She bitched about something and was getting really drunk. He told me to wait at my table and he would be back. I assume that he put her in bed at a hotel - because it didn't take long and he was back. He really looked good. His hair was really light - he was tan, the hair came down to his shoulders - almost. He was scruffy and he just looked soooooo good. Anyways - so I told him happy birthday and that I was sorry I forgot. He smiled and said that was alright - he had forgotten everything about me - about us - until now. He wanted me to walk with him...so we go outside.

Walking through what reminded me of a royal garden - he looked at me and asked - who's left? I replied - Bill, we need Bill. He kind of frowns and I say - Ted -- you're the only one he'll take a call from. He nods and goes on with -- tell me more about our soul cluster. So I fill him in on me, him, Bill and Will. He asked where Will was -- I told him that I'm working on it. He smiled and said - lucky bastard. I asked - if you can help out from this side of the dimensions - I'd appreciate it. He said - I'll see what I can do.

The visit was very light hearted and friendly. We talked and we talked about past lives, soul clusters - he and I - he and Bill, me and Will and so forth. Finally I told him that I had to go to the bathroom. He said - you'd better wake up and go then. I said - but I don't want this to end. He said - no worries, we'll do this again and now I won't let anyone make me forget about this. He kissed me on the forehead and said - I love you Allie - now go pee. He chuckled at that last part and I woke up. And sure enough - I had to go - in a hurry too.

He was so tense around his wife - and so much at ease around me. It was sure nice to be with him again. I hope he's right and that we'll have another dream visit soon.

Back to work I go! I hope next week is more of a move forward week - with little stress instead of one with learning experiences! Because of the week I've had -- I am wayyyyy behind in email- just to let you know.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Will, Ted And A Disturbing Dream!

I woke up Thursday morning with the most horrible dream image in my mind -- my first thought was why? I was at my mother's house - but it wasn't my mother's house. It looked like mom's - but she didn't live there. I came out of the front door, and there hanging from a wooden pole was a 4 year old girl. She had a rope around her neck, her hands were groping at the noose. She had shoulder length dark hair and a red velvet dress on that came down to right above her knees. White stocking, no shoes. I'm shocked when I see her, I turn make a move towards her and I hear a gun engage. I turn around and it's my ex father in law (who is deceased) pointing a rifle at my head. He says if I go near her, he'll blow my head off. I push past him and go back inside the house - pass my ex husband and ask him what in the hell is going on? Where's our son? Why did he let that girl get hung? All he said was that she was bad. I grab the largest knife I can find and head back outside. As I approach the father in law, the ex yells that I have a knife, he turns and points that rifle at me again, I brush past him and head outside. I can tell that this girl is still alive - barely and that I have to get her down.

I walk down the driveway and there is my son. I grab him and tell him to walk with me in the road. In this road there are hundreds of people walking in front of this house, with a plain view of the little girl. I told my son that his grandpa has a gun pointed at us and for him to keep moving. Don't look over and don't look back- no matter what. He asked what the girl did wrong? I then had a vision (in the dream) about her grandpa (my father in law) tickling her and her laughing. He makes a move on sexually and she cries. Then he stops and starts to tickle her again. She laughs -- and that is when he puts the noose around her neck. The girl's name is Danielle. I told my son what I saw -- as we approach the end of the property - there is a huge deep ravine there that I have to master to get to the girl. I push my son to go on and no matter what - don't look back.

As I turned to go to the ravine - I woke up. That disturbing dream stayed with me all day. My ex is an idiot , but he wouldn't let someone else harm a child and my ex father in law was a bastard and a half - but no child molester. And I know no Danielle's. So I am baffled by the dream. Her hanging there in the dress just kept haunting my day. I tried to get back to the dream last night, but couldn't.

Will hit me head on yesterday, It started about 11:30 am and lasted until 4:00 pm or so. His energy was very erratic - a lot of pacing and wringing of his hands. I could feel him rubbing the top of his head and having an overwhelming fear of rejection. He was very in my face - extremely clingy and needy. But at the same time would become very distant - then right back again. The sexual tension was off the boards and I'll write about it a bit later in the OBE blog.

But I wrote Tracey to see if Will went to see her again. Here's a copy of her reply and my original email:

Sent: Thursday, April 10, 2008 4:39:21 PM
Subject: Re: Will


Hi Allie, Good afternoon. I laughed when I signed in to discover that you sent me an email with the subject Will.

I just woke up from a nap with a horrible headache and its all Will's fault. LOL

In the visit - he was pacing a lot - moving back and forth and talking. He was saying that he was feeling a bit worried that he was being too presumptuous that you would be accepting of him and want him in your life. There are feelings of insecurity about the leaps of faith he is taking in his life to prepare for you entering into his life. He is fearing that you will say no, that you will reject him. He really seems to be distraught and questioning himself and what he is doing. He was talking so quickly - and he was not listening - its like I would try to get in a word and he would talk over me. I tried kind of interjecting things when he breathed but I realized that there is a part of him that needed to do this ranting and raving - like he was releasing while he was going on so I stopped trying to battle him. When I started listening rather than trying to help guide him he seemed to slow down more and to come to some positive feelings and thoughts. However, his fear would sort of overshadow those and he would start talking about being rejected again and questioning everything he was doing, the connection and so on. Then he got kind of frustrated and said oh - man - I have to go to work......and that was it - I woke up from my nap with this horrible headache.

I am drinking a venti mocha frap. from Starbucks in hopes it will help the headache and not throw my diabetes into a coma state. lol


In Divine Love and Service,
Tracey


Sent: Thursday, April 10, 2008 2:09:20 PM
Subject: Will


Hey Tracey,

Has Will come to visit you lately? It seems as if today he has broken through someone sort of wall (not sure if it was mine or his) and is very touchy - feely. But I also get that there is a worry of being rejected by me. So I was curious to see if he showed up to you for more advice/talk or if he went elsewhere.

Thanks!
Allie :)

-----END-----

Now when I emailed her last night to see how she was -- she still had that horrible headache. I emailed her this morning - about 11:30 that Will was back and his energy was about the same - and for her to hold on. I got an automated reply from her email - meaning she took the day off. Her headache must be killing her.

I kept getting a lot of flash vision yesterday and today. Mostly of my son and I in NYC in May. We are in a coffee shop, or maybe a restaurant and I hear my son's name called out -- we turn and it's Will sitting there with a woman. We have some small talk, I introduce myself to the woman. I can tell that they were not having a very good chat before we arrived (it was his recent ex girlfriend) - so I dropped hints about what my son and I would be doing the next day:Central Park zoo. We excused ourselves and sat at our table. I could feel his eyes on us many times. At one point the woman stood up and threw her drink on him - marched out. My son got right up (before I could stop him) and went and got Will and brought him to our table.

I had a vision of us at the zoo. My son had to go to the bathroom and Will took him. I'm out looking at the ostriches when a man approaches me and we strike up a convo. He's handsome and interested. He sees Will and my son approach and he gave me his card and left, Will knew what the guy wanted and that I put his card in my pocket. Later on I make a point of cleaning out my pockets in front of Will, and throwing the card out.

Will reading my son a story.

The two of them playing army with Nerf guns.

And several more fast glimpses.

I can understand Will's freaking out about consciously discovering what has been going on - our connection etc....I did a total freak out when I discovered the connection with Bill and then Ted. I even freaked with Will. There's a lot of internal dialogue going on - am I imagining things? Is this wishful thinking? Does he/she know to? If not, will they? What will they do? Am I crazy? Can he/she hear me like I can her her/him? And the list goes on and on. It took me over a year after discovering Bill to mention it to another person - a whole year. Hopefully it will not take Will quite as long. I don't think it will since me - being the other part of the connection - is very open and accepting of it.

I wonder though if I will have to teach the man how to dial a phone?

Bill and Ted have both been sitting on my energy. They are both very much there without being THERE like Will.

Humm...so many thoughts to ponder!

Time to go pickup my son!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Ted And Will!

Today's appearance went great on Psychiconair.com! I was on around 9:15 am EST and stayed on until 9:40 am or so. We chatted about astral sex -- had a fun time and I do like discussing things with Maria, Matt and Joe. If you missed my radio appearance, it will be on again this evening from 9:15 pm - 9:40 pm EST.

I've spent most of my day writing - writing - writing the OBE sex book -- and my Ask Allie column. Tonight I hope to get to the next draft of DREAMERS. Every draft gets better than the last. Maybe with this one I'll almost be there...

Bill, Ted and Will have all been hovering close lately. Will closer than the other two. I find it odd. Not sure why I find it odd - but I do. Maybe because I haven't felt all 3 of them this close in a very long time. Not since that day when Bill & Ted said bye - that they were stepping back until Will and I had a chance to meet. Okay - duh moment. Will and I did meet - and these two come back. So now what? Will and I are not together - so why group together now? What's the purpose to close in rank (so to speak)? None of them really say anything or have a whole lot of interaction - they're just there.

I can feel another shift coming - but I have no clue at what it's in. Could be Will - could be my career. I can honestly say I'm in the dark about the "what" - I just know it'll happen. But I want someone to shine a big ole flashlight on the "what". Oh well -- time will tell as usual, won't it?

Will's has been connecting to me telepathically - but they are short connections. Almost as if he is trying to connect during a break and that we are in different time zones. Every time he connects though - he smiles. Which, of course, makes me smile. I love his grin.

Too bad I won't have the chance to do any retreats this year. Remember last year when I mentioned I wanted to do a couple of workshops/retreats of my own (meaning I host it and people show up) - doesn't look like it's going to happen. But then again - it's only April.

Have a good evening!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Will, Ted And Psychiconair.com!

My day completely got away with me. This morning everything was going along as planned - on schedule and all. The Maria Shaw Show on Psychiconair.com went great. We talked mostly about OBE Sex. I emailed Maria to thank her and this was the email she sent back " you were great! The big boss was listening and said it was great!!!! We will have you on again " so that was very encouraging to hear. Had I wrote this when I wanted to this morning - you would have known that if you missed me at 9:15 am EST - you could have heard me at 9:15 pm EST as they repeat the program at night. At the end of this blog entry, there an 8 min file of my radio program (thanks David) - the whole talk isn't there - but there's a snippet anyways.

One of my son's classmates died over the weekend - his name was Kristopher and he was only 7. All I know so far is that the little guy got a virus and died. They're doing an autopsy on him. His poor parents - I can't even imagine. My son was friends with him. He's doing "okay" with it -- if he thinks about it he's 1/2 sad and 1/2 mad. The school had a crisis team to talk to the children. We couldn't have started to see the psychiatrist at a better time starting tomorrow. Timing is everything - isn't it?

Speaking of which, I had to go pick my son up at school today. He has been getting headaches now for a couple of months and they seem to be getting worse. Today he had to go lay down at the office so I went and got him. Nothing wrong with his noggin - thank Goodness - so I have to keep a headache journal so we can try to determine if they are stress/tension related or migraine. He sways both ways right now. I'm sure the death of one of his friends hasn't helped his head much.

I turned in THE BLACK TRIANGLE over the weekend to my manager - yay me:) So that is now out of the way -- for the time being. Now to do some rewrites on DREAMERS and when she's done looking at BT - I'll be back on it again. Just got the rewrites for DREAMERS - more than I thought there would be. But that's okay -- I'm forging ahead! Each draft is better than the last!

I had a couple of interesting visits over the weekend - Will's guide Sarah and Ted:) Will's guide visited me in the shower Friday night:

Iris pops in to see me and I tell her that I need a sign that things are going in the right direction with Will - that things will move. She asks me what sign? I tell her that if my evening went a certain way than he will call me by the end of next week -- and if doesn't go like I hope, then by my birthday 2008. Because -- I promise that I will have this versions of BT to my manager by Sunday night.

She thinks about it for a sec and says - okay.

Next I can feel Will's guides around - so I'm like -- hey, can you come here? This one with long curly thick red hair shows up and I'm like - what the heck? She says that Will has been fidgeting around - wanting to call, picking up my card, thinking about things -- but when he's about to, they through something in his path to make him do something else than call. Why? Because they are waiting for the okay from Iris. And from what I hear - Iris is high up on the guide chain - you don't cross her. But the man certainly wants to call.

And I ask -- and he had the breakthrough I felt he had -- oh yeah she says -he sure did. Now he's just trying to get a handle on it all. I ask - so is the reason he likes women with red hair have to do with your red hair? She smiles and says I have known him for awhile -- but not as long as you have. No - he loves red hair because that is the color you've had in so many lifetimes -- my hair is truly strawberry blonde (and her hair changes color).

Iris come in from the right and this guide says - I've got to go. I'm like - wait -- what's your name? It's Sarah. And she's gone...

SIGH -- and my night DID NOT go how I wanted it too. So I'm looking for him to ring around my birthday. I'm hoping that means this birthday and not 2009. If he rings up in 2009 for the 1st time -- I'm not answering.

So then here's Ted last night. Man have I missed though gorgeous green eyes and kick ass British speak. Seems he's had it with his wife already (gee - like I'm surprised). He was dressed in a long sleeve white sweat shirt, jeans and tennis shoes. He was leaning against a tree - looking well -- so Ted like. We had some small talk - he let on how abusive his wife is and how hot tempered he is at her. That they'll either wind up in matching holding cells or maybe his & her rehab. I tried to get him to talk about drug use, but it irritated him immediately and he clammed up. He said - that Will, he's a fine man. he'll be good to you. I asked - you think so? Aye he said -- and I can't say that I'm not jealous, cause I am. Maybe some day....

He was quiet and I asked him -- so what do you want Ted? He let me know - short sweet and to the point. I put it in the OBE sex blog.

The Maria Shaw Show asked me to come back Tuesday morning to continue our chat (just got the email) unfortunately I will be at the doctor's with my son. It's a good feel to know they would want me to come back the next day. Maybe next time:)

Just had a bang of an idea for DREAMERS. Dang -- my mind is a whirl now. I wonder how much sleep I will get? Any of you guys who read this blog a grad student or have been one? If so - email me -- especially if you were a psych major. I was never a grad student - and I have to know how their days progress - just an overview.

Will visited Tracey the other night in a dream. She sleeps at the oddest hours - like he has been doing. So I guess it's no wonder they connected. She and I had a chat about it and this is what she said happened:

yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:01 PM): I was sleeping at my desk
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:06 PM): and kept waking a bit
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:08 PM): thinking
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:11 PM): I need to go to bed
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:17 PM): but I did not want the connection to stop
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:19 PM): soooooo
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:21 PM): anyway
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:24 PM): this is what happened
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:31 PM): First
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:43 PM): I am in these beautiful woods in a mountain area.
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:02 PM): I climb up in a tree and there was a deer stand type thingy I guess cause I sat on this platform
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:12 PM): it was in a tree but the branch was hanging over a cliff
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:18 PM): I looked down over the cliff
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:21 PM): and there was Will
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:26 PM): and he said Hi
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:34 PM): I said hi - you scared the crap out of me
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:41 PM): he said sorry did not mean to
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:49 PM): he said I am glad you finally arrived
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:55 PM): been trying to get you here for awhile
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:59 PM): I said oh?
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:01 PM): why?
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:04 PM): he said well
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:08 PM): I will show you
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:15 PM): So, then this opening came
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:18 PM): like Sliders
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:22 PM): lol if you know that show
Allie (4/6/2008 5:33:26 PM): I do
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:28 PM): and we went into the opening
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:33 PM): and we were at this old house
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:38 PM): like back in time
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:39 PM): time
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:47 PM): and it was Will's family home
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:52 PM): (in the dream)
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:56 PM): I don't know if it really was
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:58 PM): but anyway
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:02 PM): his dad came out
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:06 PM): and he said to us
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:11 PM): your grandmother
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:30 PM): has made some rice and gravy, roast, fresh veg's out the garden - and cake
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:39 PM): you should wash up and go into the kitchen
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:41 PM): so we did
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:45 PM): and we both realized
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:48 PM): we were kids
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:54 PM): and we laughed about it in the dream
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:56 PM): his grandfather
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:02 PM): had on suspenders
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:09 PM): don't know why but it struck us as funny
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:19 PM): so then he took them off and put on a robe and slippers
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:23 PM): we laughed again
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:28 PM): so we are sitting at the table
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:37 PM): and Will's cousin's (2 boys) come in
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:42 PM): and are rowdy playing around
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:48 PM): and they knocked the cake off the counter
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:53 PM): and it fell to the floor
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:55 PM): all messed up
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:00 PM): and they were like oh no!!!!!!!!!
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:05 PM): she said really softly
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:08 PM): no problem boys
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:10 PM): watch this
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:13 PM): she got a plate
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:17 PM): and put it on there
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:24 PM): turned it upside down on another plate
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:28 PM): so that it was right side up again
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:33 PM): and smoothed out the frosting
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:40 PM): and with the exception of a few imperfections
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:44 PM): it was as good as new
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:48 PM): and she said shhhhhhhhhhh
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:51 PM): don't tell anyone
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:57 PM): and Will started to tear up
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:59 PM): and he said
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:00 PM): to me
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:02 PM): that's how she was
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:07 PM): so I am assuming
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:11 PM): grandma is in Spirit
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:22 PM): and then he took me to visit some other people
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:27 PM): they were very down to earth
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:32 PM): just like his grandparents
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:35 PM): like Mayberry
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:37 PM): but he called it
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:39 PM): willberry
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:41 PM): to be funny
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:47 PM): its like they all lived close
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:49 PM): we walked about
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:51 PM): it was nice
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:58 PM): he talked to me about all kinds of silly stuff
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:02 PM): about when he was a boy
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:04 PM): so anyway
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:06 PM): I said will
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:09 PM): why I am here
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:12 PM): I don't understand
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:16 PM): and he said well
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:28 PM): because you need to know this so you can tell Allie
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:31 PM): that underneath
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:35 PM): I am just a plain
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:38 PM): good old guy
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:42 PM): with not much fluff
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:47 PM): and who appreciates
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:49 PM): small things
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:51 PM): and really
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:54 PM): I am kind of a quiet guy
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:57 PM): sometimes even shy
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:59 PM): though
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:39:03 PM): I have learned to be bold
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:39:09 PM): but I still struggle with
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:39:45 PM): coming out with things - like being forward even when I have made up my mind to do so - I am underneath a really simply laid back salt of the earth person - stuff and money means nothing to me
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:39:49 PM): and he started to cry
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:39:51 PM): and he said
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:39:59 PM): that his time with his grandma for example
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:40:06 PM): means more to him than anything he has today
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:40:11 PM): he would give it all for that time again
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:40:18 PM): so I said okay
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:40:20 PM): I will tell her
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:40:23 PM): and he said
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:40:24 PM): tell her this
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:40:29 PM): once I promise her
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:40:35 PM): and seal it with a kiss
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:40:39 PM): then it is done
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:40:41 PM): it is so
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:40:45 PM): and there's no going back
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:40:47 PM): like the mafia
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:40:50 PM): you don't get out
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:40:54 PM): and he laughed
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:40:57 PM): and smiled
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:41:03 PM): and he turned back into a man again
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:41:09 PM): and then I noticed I was a girl again
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:41:12 PM): but then he said
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:41:18 PM): tell Allie that the place you saw
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:41:21 PM): is our place
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:41:24 PM): I said what place
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:41:28 PM): your grandma's house
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:41:30 PM): he said no
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:41:32 PM): the first one
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:41:38 PM): I said in the mtns?
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:41:41 PM): he said yeah
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:41:45 PM): do you think she will like it
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:41:50 PM): I said I think she will love it
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:41:53 PM): it was beautiful
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:41:56 PM): he said good
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:01 PM): I am buying 2000 acres
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:05 PM): and building a place
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:08 PM): for her work
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:13 PM): I said her work
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:16 PM): what do you mean
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:18 PM): he said well
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:22 PM): whatever she wants to do
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:29 PM): when she feels like working with you guys
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:32 PM): she can do retreats
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:36 PM): when she wants to write
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:44 PM): she can have an inspirational place
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:48 PM): when we want to hide
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:51 PM): no one will find us
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:55 PM): and then
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:57 PM): he said
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:42:58 PM): and tell her
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:43:02 PM): I will even get horses
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:43:06 PM): for her Texas friend
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:43:11 PM): for her to come to see and work with
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:43:13 PM): and I said
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:43:17 PM): Allie and horses?
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:43:22 PM): that should be interesting
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:43:23 PM): he said
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:43:27 PM): she can do anything
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:43:33 PM): and that's all I remember
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:43:35 PM): I know
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:43:38 PM): too much information
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:43:45 PM): but it was so clear and vivid
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:43:50 PM): and I could not sleep

Funny enough - I love horses and have ALWAYS wanted a stable full of them -- with a house up in the mountains. Tracey - knew none of this about me -- so when she mentioned this, I had to smile.

Okay - I have got to try to quiet my mind down so that I can sleep!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)


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Guides, Three Goddesses And TMI!

TMI = Too Much Information for those of you who aren't up on the lingo. So much going on in the last 12 hours - I hope I can remember everything. Plus - every time I go to write - something else comes up.

As I was eating my bowl of ice cream (yeah, I know - good lunch), it dawned on me my dream visits last night. I forgot everything as soon as I opened my eyes - not even a fragment. But then as I was watching Las Vegas (TV series), a character reminded me of Montel Williams. Then it went from him to Sylvia Browne -- this is when a dream visit started to come back. I am in a large room with lots of tables - I know that I'm there to do readings. In walks Sylvia Browne - she had on a yellow dress - I called it a moo moo dress, which sounds really condescending - but I think that's what it's called. Anyways she says - you're Allie. I nod. She said - I need to talk to you. My 1st thought was - oh God, is something going to happen and she has to tell me about it? But no -- she sits down, I sit across from her and she puts out her hands. I hold her hands -- and just look at her. No one says anything -- then she says - well? I take it you're not here to tell me anything? She said - hell no. Come on, your psychic - why am I here? I take my hands away from hers and tell her that I don't have to hold her hands to get a vision. Then I tell her that I'm not going to tell her when she's going to die. Go look at her own records if she wants to know. She gives me that "look" - then says, quit being a smart ass. If they would show me then I wouldn't be here - would I? Now tell me because I'm not coming back again and I want to have time to tie up lose ends before I go. I tell her the date June 2011 pops into my head, but something will happen around June 2010 as well. She tells me - the June 2010 is you dear, and that is when you enter my physical life.

The next thing I know Montel Williams comes strolling in and I'm excited because I've always liked MW. Sylvia introduces us and tells Montel that this is the woman (meaning me) that will replace me. I looked at her and said - WHAT? She goes - you're not deaf are you? What about your son? I askd. He'll have his hands full running my church and the foundation. What about your daughter-in-law? She can write. A moment of uneasy silence. Okay -- and I start to walk away -- this is too much information for me right now. I see two teenage girls come in -- as I walked towards them I turn to Sylvia and said - the next time I see you, how about a little insight my way? She replied -- you and Will will be fine. I looked at her for a spilt second and smiled. I went to the girls who have sat down at an empty table for a reading. I ask them what I can help them with -- and the one teen girl with long dark hair reaches into her pocket and pulled out a handful of gold coins. I stared at them -- not really getting why she is paying me in gold. She puts her hands back in her pocket and keep bring out gold coins.

Then I woke up.

I may call these three - Jezell, Brigit, Galadriel - the trio of annoyances. Although they are not in my face as Edward and Ethan - they are still always "there" - saying stuff and giving me flash visions so that I know what's coming up. I don't know if I want to know all that is on the horizon -- it's getting pretty overwhelming. I can't even go to the bathroom without someone saying something. Do you know how irritating it is for someone to be whispering in your ear while you're trying to poo? I told them if they want me constipated, they're on the right track. They found that funny -- I wasn't being funny.

As I finished writing the above - all three arrived and said that they had to take me someplace. For some reason it felt like they were going to take me to someplace vitally important -- and I was right. We were in the meadow. My meadow - where I've only been there once (maybe twice) in the last 18 months. I asked why am I here? Jezell said that I have to be here - Brigit chimes in that this is my portal. My soul clusters portal. I reminded them that the woman who actually owned this land - and myself - do not speak to one another nor do I want to. I want another place as my portal -- not here. Again I am told that I have to be here -- that Will and I have to visit here - the physical here. I told them no @ucking way am I coming here with Will or with anyone else. The woman who owned this would not let me on the land and I'm not about to sneak on. Why - oh why do Will and I have to be here? Because this is where you lived in your last life together - said Jezell. What? I thought it was outside of Salem? This is outside of Salem, Brigit replied. But isn't it TOO far outside of Salem? No - Galadriel said, people came far and wide for your services. There wasn't a place in the New England states that didn't know about the two of you. Why do you think that the plants and flowers grown here now for flower essences work so well? Why do you think there are guardians? Why do you think that the right caretaker is here to service the light?

My head's spinning and I sit down against a tree. I do not make nice to anyone who tries to hurt one of my guys - it just isn't who I am. Jezell sits down next to me -- and she is not about to make nice to anyone who would harm the light she has been entrusted to watch over. But you are both wrong and eventually - you two will realize that. Do you not like her friend? The other one who does flower essence - I asked? Yes - her. Yes, I like her very much - she warm, loving and full of light. This one is condescending, full of herself and a know it all. There's a difference. Jezell smiles - you will both see the light, there is no other path to take. Great -- I murmured to myself. But she will not let us be here.

She will - in time - and you will not have to deal with her one on one - Will will be here and she will let you two roam long the meadow and respect your distance and privacy. Trust us - there is no other path to travel for this lesson. At this point there is no part of me that is happy with this realization. I start to object yet again when the earth opens up and rising from it is -- well, for lack of a better way to describe her - Mother Nature. She's tall, yet robust. She's clothed in white, long dark hair & eyes -- with a crown made of grass, twigs and flowers. A Robin sits on her shoulder (no idea where it came from). Her voice is low & soft, but commanding. She said - all of this earth which is mine and mine alone do I share with the earth dwellers who are determined to see it destroyed. There are many who have been called into service to protect the earth and all of it's inhabitants. She, the one on this meadow, is one of those light workers. But she does not own the land - I own the land and it is up to I who steps on a parcel and who does not. If someone steps on a portion of land where I do not want them, I unleash the weather and the bugs to show my wrath. No wrath will befall you or Will as you make haste to this parcel of my soul. You are welcomed here as it is part of your being - part of your light. She will allow this - the light keeper of this land - when the time is right.

From Mother Nature's right the goddess Hathor shimmers into view, on her left the goddess Isis. Brigit goes and stands among them - Mother Nature tells me that it is with these three goddesses am I to ascend to the next level. I'm to work with 3 goddesses? At once? Hathor told me not to panic. Who's panicking? I replied.

Jezell grabbed my hand -- come with me. We walk through a tree and now we're behind a stage. I could hear a lot of people. She points and I can see Will and I. Jezell said that this is the play that I envisioned for Will and I. People far and wide come to see this play based on eternal love. I watch Will and I go out of stage - Jezell whisked me through a wall and we end up behind another stage. She pointed towards the curtain and I peek through -- it's me - and the place is HUGE and packed. I glanced over at her as if to say -- no way am I doing this. She smiled and said - oh yes you will. What am I talking about - I ask? This particular one is about OBE sex - the one last night was dreams and tomorrows talk is about soul mates. It's a three-day sold out event. You talk 3 days in a row for 4 hours each time. You will combine all of this into one 6 hour show that will always sell out -- and at a high price I might add. You do have another show about telepathic connections, psychic gifts and astral travel. But it's way too much to cram it all into one weekend.

I have a headache just thinking about it all......

Jezell grabbed my hand and through a wall we go. Now we're at a set. This is DREAMERS Jezell said - this is what starts it all. You'll never stop making TV and movies - never. You always find a way to do this intertwined with your books and workshops. Rest now - because it's all about to go crazy.

Now we're back at the meadow.

Brigit approached me -- we've given you a lot to think about - and there is so much more to know - rest now and we'll talk later. They all disappear from view.

I sit down against the tree and let the sun shine down on me. Then I hear -- hello Sunshine. I open my eyes and it's Bill. I smile - hi Bear. He sits down down to me - never thought we'd be here again - did you? Part of me knew - I just hoped.....

I know, Bill said, but you want Ted to be okay, don't you? I look over at him - that's a stupid thing to say, of course I want Ted to be alright. Have you had any visits from him lately? Bill asked.

No - I don't think any on purpose -- but I was drawn to him late last evening. I could see him sitting on top of a castle ruin (like in a run-down tower) just staring off into space. Then he kicked the stone wall a few times and screamed at the top of his lungs - why do I keep fucking everything up? Huh? Why can't I choose correctly? And he was sobbing. Then the vision faded and I haven't heard anything. You?

Bill nodded -- this morning -- I saw him at my feet begging me for help before he goes too far and this kills him. What kills him? I asked. Bill shrugs - I don't know. But I tried to call him and he hasn't answered. Bill looks off to his right. He glances over at me and kisses me on the forehead. He gets up and said - Will's a good guy. He won't let you fall. I know - I replied. Bill gave me a nod and disappeared.

I know there's more that has happened - but nothing else is coming to mind right now. I wonder what the next 12 hours will bring?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Guide Change, New Cycle And Dream Counsel!

Last night I had a dream visit with s