A Little of This and A Bunch of That!

No -- you're not imagining things. This is really a post by yours truly. You guys are so sweet to have missed me. I can't tell you how many emails I have received asking me when I was going to post again. It really is nice to be missed.

I have to switch this from Blogger to Wordpress by my birthday (May 2nd). Someone don't let me forget:) Email me by April 15th and remind me. I'd greatly appreciate it.

As you all  can imagine - A LOT has happened since my last post. So go grab a cup of java, tea or a glass of wine and come back to read.

Brodie died Jan 7th. It broke my heart. His nose had started to bleed more the day before and I couldn't stop it. I knew something was coming. He needed to go outside to the bathroom. He went and then immediately had a stroke. It was horrible - just heart breaking. The tumor had pushed through to his brain. Oh the pain he must of felt. Thank God my neighbor Bob was home (who Brodie adored more than anyone). Thank God through my sobbing he knew what I needed. He helped me carry Brodie to the car - not easy seeing it was 100 lbs of dead weight. Bob had a hard time saying good bye so I could drive off. By the time I finally got him into the vet - his passing was quick and painless. Everyone at the vet loved Brodie and all stopped what they were doing to be there when he passed. I miss that dog so much. But seeing how protective he was in life (he chased away two bible thumpers 15 min before his stroke) I'm sure he's still close by. Gimli had a very difficult time with Brodie's passing. Countless hours were spent outside looking for his friend.

Gimli is doing fine now - he's turning into a good dog. He still eats things he shouldn't - but he's left my couch, carpet and table alone.

School is kicking my butt. Social Psych and Sign Lang 2 are going great. Stats hurts my brain (but I think I have a B in  there) and Ethics is killing me. I'm doing piss poor in that class - but so is most students. That class may ruin my dean's list for this semester. I'm still part of a research team at school and I like doing this. I discovered that I won't be able to graduate till May 2011 instead of Dec 2010. I have 2 classes that I can't fit in - 7 classes in a semester is a recipe for disaster.

I don't know if I mentioned that I was going to get my certification in sex coaching. Even though I have been ding it awhile - I thought it would be nice to be certified. This is going well. I love learning about this - educational and fun:)

I had a part time job and lost that same part time job. They are trying to talk me out of quitting - which is nice. But I don't think I do well as a follower. I also though to myself -- is this the best use of my time? No. I love to help people - period. This job wasn't even close to it. So I told myself that if I dedicated x hours a day to that job. Then I could do the same back at Gypsyadvice and Keen. That's what I'm doing.

After I post this -- I'll be doing the podcast and the OBE blog. I know - shocking:) I do have some surprises coming up for the OBE site that I'm excited to implement. When it's ready I'll let you know.

It's a shame I wasn't betting in an Oscar pool last night - I got them all right but the winner for editing and short film:) Speaking of which - screenwriting has taken a back burner. I honestly don't want it on the back burner - even though I guess I can't write believable dialogue to save my life. I think I'll take a break from rejection for a bit. I'll keep rewriting THE BLACK TRIANGLE when I have time. This is a must-do script.

I wanted the movie AMAZING GRACE over the weekend. This is a song that I always sing and I have no clue as to the why. So I'm watching this movie and it brought up a whole range of emotions that make me think WTF? As I kept feeling these strange emotions - esp when I watched the main character William and his wife Barbara - I kept thinking that dang, William is someone who I would be attracted to - why can't I find someone like that? Then Bill's face popped up. I thought - yeah, he's a lot like Bill. But Bills face wouldn't leave. So I thought again WTF? The it was like Iris hit me on the head -- you big dummy, Bill was William in a past life -and I guess that made me Barbara. Ahhhh....then it dawned on me - lol. But Iris quickly jumped in and said that the real William and Barbara were not exactly how they were portrayed in the movie (gee - hollywood taking a creative license about a true story - I'm shocked). At some point in time I have to read more about William and Barbara.

Bill has been around a lot. He never really wants anything - just to show that he's here. He's in my dreams too. Every night without fail.

Someone else is in my dreams every night - but I can't make out who they are. The set up though is always the same. He's wealthy - lives with his wealthy parents. The house is modern, well kept with modern furnishings. There is a huge wall of windows that overlooks the ocean. I'm friends with his parents but his father wouldn't approve of our relationship (or would at least have a hard time) and he's sick - so we can't approach him with our situation. He has cancer. This guys bedroom has a really big bed with a red comforter. A couch is in from of the bed with a flat screen TV. Not a lot of clutter is on the dressers. The adjourning bathroom is huge and marble (plus very tidy). He likes to sleep on the same side of the bed I do (if you're looking down at the bed from the foot - it's the right side) but I don't mind sleeping on the left side. They have a dog - I think it's a yellow lab like Gimli. I have no idea why I keep showing up here and who these people are. But I'd like to find out.

I'm going to be at the Universal Light Expo again this October. The topic of my workshop will be Sexual Energy:)

My son is doing ok back in public school. He's had some bumps - but overall he's well.

I keep catching a spirit or maybe an astral body floating around at all hours of the day/night. I'm thinking this is either Bill or Will - maybe Vincent. All the guys are still around - I find myself being drawn into thinking about them. But I don't allow the connection to last very long.

Because I don't allow the connection to last - I don't get the full benefit of being connected to them. I'm not talking about sex here - but the benefit of their energy - their love. I miss that closeness. But I also do not want to get sucked in (so to speak)- I have too much to do.

I know there's more to talk about - there has to be. But I'm out time if I'm going to do the podcast. So I'm going to boggie out.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Universal Light Expo and Updates!

Hi Everyone!

I didn't forget - Bill turned 51 on October 20th! I thought about him for most of the that day. He is still such a sex - sexy man. Good thing I have an eternity to meet up with him. Until then we'll keep meeting up in the dream state. When he's in the US we dream visit nightly. If he's traveling around the globe (which is what he usually does) we still connect during the day. The connections are brief - just like a "Hey, how ya doing? Miss you. Ciao." But I'll take what I can get.

I know - it's been awhile since I posted anything. Sorry about that. But I did warn you that while classes are going on my postings would dwindle off - there just isn't enough time in the day for it all. Especially since now I've been allowed to be a part of a research team. Granted - I'm just an assistant and get to do all the low level stuff - but it looks good on my grad school application.
College is going fine -- homeschool with my son is a challenge, but we're getting there. If he would just realize that writing things is a needed skill in life. Not everything mind you - but you do have to use a pen/pencil to paper - probably daily. Until then he spends a lot of time being grounded and I'm stressed far more than I should be.

Brodie isn't doing very well. If you all could send him healing light - I would (and so would he) appreciate it. The tumor hasn't made his nose malformed yet. But he has a hell of a time trying to breathe and his nose bleeds are horrible. Hard to believe it's been a year since Indy passed away. Man I miss that dog - so does Brodie.

Brodie - more than money - is the reason I'm not doing Maria's Cosmic Convention next weekend. I refuse to be gone when Brodie dies. I still feel horrible about Indy passing away in that vet office without me there. I just can't let it happen again. So for all of you who are going to the Cosmic Convention - I'm sorry I won't see you. I hope to be able to go in May - as long as it jives with my finals schedule.

The Universal Light Expo was great. I met a lot of new people, saw many familiar faces. A few people came down from MI (and who I usually see at Maria's fairs) to see the expo - stopped by to say hi. It was fabo to see them all. I had a family from Romania (who lives in Cleveland) stop by. They drove down specifically to see me. That was really nice of them. I sold a lot of books - did many readings - a very good weekend in all.

BTW - for all of you who have emailed or called to see how I'm doing because I haven't posted in a while or did a podcast - your thoughts and concerns were/are very appreciated!

The last several months I've had my feelings really hurt by a couple of people who I thought were my friends. One person I told everything to - everything - and that is not a easy thing for me to do. I'm usually very guarded and tell people & my friends only the parts that I know they'd want to hear or that they can grasp (if that makes sense). So very few people have ever known all of me - in fact - I can count on one hand how many (with fingers left over). Everyone of these people ended up stabbing me in the back one way or the other. It sucks. But since I'm in a 9 Personal Year - those people, places and things that are not in my highest good drift away. So in a way it's good. But it still sucks. Sucks even more that I miss them. But I don't allow myself a lot of "missing" time. That heart chakra of mine just keeps getting stepped on. Sheesh. I want it opened up and accepting - not closed off and defensive. Onward and upward!

Love life is still zero. I haven't found anyone that even peeks my interest a bit. Had a neighbor that did - but he moved and we could never find time to connect.

I stopped screenwriting. My heart just isn't in it any longer. I'm tired of my ideas sucking or my writing being less than desirable. Eventually I'll work on The Black Triangle again - because I know I have to - it's a Destiny Marker for me.

Of course Will was a Destiny Marker for me (and I for him) and we saw how well that worked out. Like with Bill - Will and I have eternity. But I would like to cross some things off my list.

Even though I'm not posting here in the blog or doing podcasts often - that doesn't mean I'm not doing readings. I've allotted myself time every week just for that. So please keep me in mind for your reading needs:)

I've had many people ask my opinion on 2012. What do I think will happen? My personal opinion is don't believe all the hype. The hype - as in the world is coming to an end. Granted someday it will - but not for a very long time. What I think will happen is a shift in consciousness. Instead of being more greed, material - earth bound based -- it'll be more spiritual, love, accepting based. I also feel at this time, what crystal skulls haven't already been awoken - will wake up. The skulls will help the shift.

On a completely separate adult note: when I stopped my sex radio show & podcast - I took down the adult store that went with them. Well, I just revamped it making it better than ever with a lot of products: http://www.thepassionzone.com/ I have no idea it's you if you buy. So no worries!

I just remembered the other night - when I lost my site Gypsy Girl Press, I lost the years of data that I saved in regards to Bill and Ted - mainly Bill. All gone. I had saved it all on the GGP server thinking it would be safe. SIGH. If we were ever to sit down and talk - I don't have any notes/dates to compare to him.

I had two readings at the ULE - both psychics picked up on Vincent. Oh yes they did. If (though his free will) he's going to show up in my life at all during this lifetime - it'll be before the end of this year. It was amazing how they both described him to a "T". I'm always open to the possibilities.

Vincent did visit me the other night for a fun dream visit! I wrote about it in the OBE blog.

Better get going. Need to do a few readings, my podcast, laundry, write a paper and carve some pumpkins!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

And Mark Rolls On...

I'm so tired -- it's almost midnight. But I had to write this post first.

On the way to classes tonight - I felt someone kick my chair as I was driving. Then that "person" touched my face. I FELT a hand rest on my right cheek. Like when a person cups your face before they kiss you - that's what it felt like - but only one hand, not two. I almost freaked out as I drove.

I'm like -- who in the hell was that? Mark's blue eyes popped right in front of me - then his wicked smile. Andrew & Paul show up and I asked -- where in the hell have you two been? Andrew said they are working with Vincent. I asked what about my love life?

That's when Ethan stepped up and said it's bigger than your love life. So I say - WTH does that mean?

That's when Iris stepped forward and said - I'm back! Oh no -- heavy stuff happens when she's around! So I have to ask.....was that Mark who was in the car? Iris gives me that "look" like I just said something really stupid. Yes she replied. And - I ask - what does he (or you for that matter) have to do with me now?

Iris said - I told you I'd be back when something major was going to happen -- and here we are. So what does Mark.....I'm his guide too - Iris jumped in.

Oh Lord I said.

You two have work to do - she said.

What about Will? Bill? Ted? She waved her hand - they blew it - wasted their chance. Next life we'll get caught up.

So -- what kind of work do Mark and I have to do? All you need to know is that it's karmic and necessary so that Mark does not have to come back in human form - ever - unless he wanted to of course. Then Iris chimed in...why anyone would choose to be human is beyond me.

SIGH.

So we'll see what tonight brings if I can ever get to sleep to dream visit with him.

Night Night!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

PS: Iris means big change (whine - whine - sob - sob)!

PPS: Iris didn't mention anything about Vincent missing his chance - whoo hoo.

PPPS: She also didn't say that Bill, Ted and Will couldn't be friends with me - or that we'd never speak again in this life - just that they @ucked up and our work together will have to wait.

Thomas, Mark and Will!

I felt a big urge to write in here tonight - even though I am really tired. I labored on Labor Day:) I can feel that shift coming - and it's going to be a doozy. In part it has to do with my financial situation - but it's more than that - a lot more. Not all bad, just stressful because I'm not a big one for change.

There's someone new who has been showing up in my visions. His name is Mark - well, it's actually Thomas, but he goes by Mark. He's been around for years (since 1979) and like when I would see Will or Bill (both from the mid 1980's) - I would push this aside - not giving it much thought. But now - I'm not given a choice but to give him thought.

Mark is very intuitive. He also has a guru or someone he talks to on a regular basis to get a handle on his visions. Like him with me - I have been popping up with him. He's all the way in CA - so the odds of me running into him are slim. Because the odds are slim - I wonder why the connection has been activated (so to speak)?

Mark is like Vincent in the respect that he is a protector. There's no way in the universe that he (or Vincent) would allow anything to harm me. I can see him in past lives with me - either as a warrior (knight, police officer) or as a mystic.

About this time of year is when someone new - and important - pops into my psychic life. It's like they get an inkling on me 1st - and then seek out answers to what's going on. That's when they happen upon my site and then I'm drawn into the mix.

Mark and Will happen to know each other with Will not liking Mark like Bill does not care for Will. SIGH.

What I wish is that the universe would stop introducing new players into this soul group/past life bunch and instead let me sit down for a face to face with the ones I know about. I mean hell - I know they stop by the site and keep an eye on me - and they know I know. So what the hell? Someday this would make a hell of a movie.

Last week I had a very nice dream visit with Will. He was in a theatre. I was pulled into his dream, not the other way around. He was watching someone on the big screen. I told him that one of the things I like about him - his ability to be complex, multi talented. He starts yelling at the scream calling the person up there an idiot & a waste of talent. Will turns, cups my face and kisses me - that's one of the reasons he loves me, he said, because I put up with him. He and I sit in the very comfortable seats. He decides to go get something to drink. There's now a movie on screen (no idea what). When he comes back - he doesn't sit by me, instead he goes two rows behind me and hands the drink to the woman who is right behind me. I turn and look at him - WTF? He's like - I didn't know you wanted this. I give him the "whatever jack ass" look and turn back around. He sits next to me and apologizes - I tell him to keep quite, I hate it when people talk during a movie (which I really do). Then I woke up. No idea about this dream - it happened the night after my visit with Bill and Ted.

Right before I woke up this morning - in my dream I was passing a man who was sitting at a student's desk (like the ones I see at college). He had his head in his hands - he was just beside himself. I asked him if Capital One was harassing him (like they are me in real life) he said yes - they won't leave him alone. He looked so torn. I thought to myself - this is Thomas (not to be confused with the Mark/Thomas from above). I don't know why this name popped up - but I knew that I was supposed to remember him. He was a big guy - good looking - older than me by a couple of years with hazel eyes. I grabbed a canister of film (as from a 35 mm camera) and said - nothing in life lasts forever - this too shall pass. I smiled at him and walked away. When I said it - I felt at peace -- he looked at me - smiled and nodded his head. I woke up.

Vincent has been around a lot too lately. Not sure if he's protecting me from Mark or what. But he's hovering. Feels like a big ole blanket wrapped around me.

And on that note - it's time for me to go to bed.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Yes, I am still here.

College is great - but kicking my butt. My son's online public school is a pain in my tush to massive proportions. I'm looking forward to when he and I can get into a groove so that we don't kill one another.

I am in a major need to have you guys be my psychic pimps. Although I have jumped through all of the hoops that FirstMerit has put in my path - they threw another one at me in order for me to keep my house. I have 3 weeks to come up with $$$ so that my son and I can still live here. This is where you guys can come in -- I'm not asking for handouts, I'm asking for work. If you know of anyone who needs a reading, coaching or healing - please send them my way. My son, myself the 4 cats and the 1 dog (who I can't remember if I told you has sinus cancer) would greatly appreciate being able to stay in our home.

I know that I hear on TV and on the radio/web sites that banks are actively trying to help homeowners to stay in their home. Well, FirstMerit must not be one of those banks.

On another note - Bill and Ted have been in my dreams the last couple of nights. Both together with me - which is nice because they are usually separate when they visit. Must be to help me with my stress level before I have a heart attack or something -- cause let me tell you - my stress level hasn't been this high since I discovered my ex and his harem of girlfriends. I'm grateful that Bill and Ted are around.

I need to go get my son some lunch, then it's off to take Trouble (cat) to the vet and finally off to classes.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

I Know....I Know.....

Where in the &^%$# have I been? At the University of Akron - that's where. Finals week of Summer 1 was tough - but I pulled out 2 A's:) Now Summer 2 is really kicking my arse. I'm in classes 8 hrs a day 4x week (2 hrs on Friday) with almost 3 hrs of drive time each day. Geology is a pain - a lot of memorizing I have to do - and Western Humanities is interesting, but very long. At least there my tests are essay and we can use our notes.

My son turns 9 on July 1st. I can't believe it. He's gotten so darn big! Vincent's 50th b-day is on June 30th. Yesterday we had my son's party with his friends. They had a blast. 1st time my Mr. Hot Wheel got a chance to drive a go-cart. At first he was scared, but then he was a racin` fool!

I'm on Keen on the weekends & Friday nights. It seems to be working just fine this way. Sunday appears to be the best day for me to be on. With the way my schedule is - the Ask Allie podcast will be done on Friday's until Summer 2 is over at the end of July. In the current podcast - I have some pretty good Listener Appreciation deals going. Check them out!

Starting Tuesday I will be back as a weekly guest on the Maria Shaw show on Empower Radio. I'll be on right after the 1:00 pm break. I look forward to being back.

Remember KS? Well he has been around a lot more lately. He makes appearances in my dreams. During the day I can hear his voice - communications telepathically. Only with telepathy, his words are garbled. I'm not sure if it's me or him that's having a hard time. But during my school drive time I've been trying to hone in on him. It appears that he just wants to talk. He has a lot of questions about a multitude of things. One area that sticks out (came from a dream visit) is that he wants to know more about our past lives. Only problem there is that I don't know right now. I know there's a connection - but no clue as to the when and why of it all.

The rest of the guys are all around - have been. But they're just hanging back. Speaking of the guys, I came up with a great vampire story about me, Bill and Ted. But I have to get the horror story done 1st. Finding time to do it is challenging.

BTW - thanks to everyone who posted views/emailed me on the Robin & slaves dreams. Your $.02 helped.

Off to get my son up - then heading off to class!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Magic Box, Writing And Twitter!

I'd like to thank everyone who emailed me about the web design help. I've got it covered now. I appreciate your willingness to help out.

In regards to the Magic Box - I'm not sure how much more there is to say over and beyond what I talked about in the podcast. But in case you didn't listen to it....

The Magic Box deals with The Law of Attraction, your desires, faith and emotions. It's endless on what the box can bring you. The only limit is put by yourself or others around you. This is why it is important to keep what you are manifesting to yourself.

You can have as many different things in the box at the same time.

To make/use your own Magic Box:

1) Get a box with a lid.

2) Write your name on the outside of the box.

3) Write on a piece of paper what it is you desire in your life. Be as specific as you can. You can also clip items from a magazine, newspaper or catalog of what it is you desire. If you're desiring a certain person in your life, be as specific as you can on this also - list as many traits as you can.

4) Next loo at your item you are desiring and start feeling as if the item, person or object is already in your life Put out as many thoughts in a row of what it feels like having this in your life. You should do this from between 30 seconds to 5 minutes without interruption. The more you can focus the more the universe will start matching up like things to your thoughts and start the creation process.

5) Place the above item into your Magic Box and say with great emotion and faith - "Whatever is contained in this box is".

6) Each day or whenever possible open your box and repeat steps 2 & 3. You can also do this when you are not near the box by simply tapping into your imagination.

PS: Be aware that the universe may not deliver the item you are looking for exactly the way you wanted it or when. It is p to you to realize when it does manifest though and be grateful for everything. This helps keep your emotional level up and helps in the creation process.

Thanks to Susan and Jack from A1 Aura Photo (http://www.a1aura.com/) for the information on the Magic Box!

I started to use my magic box this week - I'm optimistic!

Many of you have sent me emails - I am so far behind that it is not even close to being a laughing matter. It doesn't look to get any better either. So breathe deep:)

I can't believe I'll be 42 in just over a week. Where does the time go?

I'm also surprised how many people are following me via Twitter: http://twitter.com/gypsyadvice
I'm such a geek that I keep forgetting I have the darn thing!

Will and Vincent have continued to be in my energy this week. Michael is also around, but has stepped back. No idea what has happened to Bill & Ted.

Working on the horror flick is proving to be a challenge. I can't get the opening the way I want it - and if I can't see in my mind how it starts & how it ends before I write - then I'm in trouble. What is the scariest opening (like the 1st 5 min) in a horror flick that you've seen? SCREAM? NIGHTMARE ON ELM STREET? And why did you think it was scary?

Now that I'm thinking about scary stuff I'm going to head to bed. Just great!

Have a good evening!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Happy Birthday Ted!

Today Ted is 50 - Happy Birthday to him! This week has been a crazy week - just like last week and the week before that. I'm exhausted. So much so that I forgot to say Happy Birthday to Michael on the 14th - he turned 41. I didn't forget it was his b-day - I just forgot to say it.

I'll be out of town Sat & Sun - I have so much to do that I really need to stay home - but I really don't have a choice. So......I'll suck it up and go. Eventually I'll be able to tell you guys what I'm up to. I thought I could by now -- but alas - just like most things right now it hasn't gone as I planned.

I think what I'm going to stop doing is planning. Cause if you really think about it - it's not up to me. The day to day stuff is - but the overall plan isn't. I wonder if I'll finally be on one to one talking to Bill or Ted by the time I turn 50? I was thinking the other day - it's been 7 years since I discovered Bill, 6 for Ted, I think 3 for Will and 1 for Vincent. Or maybe it's 4 for Will and 2 for Vincent?

Lately my attention jumps back and forth between Vincent and Bill. For some reason Bill's energy is always laughing - as in happy laughter and Vincent stands there with that grin on his face. He doesn't say anything - do anything - he just grins. Michael just hangs around.

I haven't gotten anywhere with BT or OBE all week. It's been very disheartening. The bug field trip with my son's class went well. I was the ONLY parent there out of the whole 2nd grade. I couldn't believe it. My son and I were doing well until we got to the bug-eating part. Couldn't do it. There were live bugs, fried bugs and chocolate covered bugs. Just no way.

I am so tired -- heading to bed.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Is It Over Yet?

This day -- I just want it to be over. Holy crap I'm tired. Flat out exhausted. I canceled everything I had scheduled today - except for my errands. Whatever is going on with my energy - it had better hurry up and work itself out. I've been here before - with the major mood swings - acting like I'm bi-polar or even a manic depressive. <-----This is not me, not at all. So it's coming from someone else. That hole in my soul - right smack dab in my heart chakra - still there.

I woke up with it and thought -- oh crap, what's going on? Then I opened my eyes -- for a spilt second I saw Michael hovering over me - like Ted used to. I blinked and he was gone. But Michael has been with me all day - watching.

On the way home from talking my son to school - I felt really light-headed, my solar plexus was on fire and my stomach was so upset. I knew someone was connecting to me - it was my Michael. I asked him what he wanted. He said he didn't know. He doesn't know why he's here - he can't see past the line. That's what he kept saying - help him see past the line. But I don't know what that means - unless the line is a barrier that doesn't allow him to see more than what he needs to.

In the visions I had today - they were with Bill or Ted - but in the background there he was, Michael - watching. Just watching. Not in a creepy way though - but like he's trying to figure things out. Since I still have that sinking feeling as I'm about to go to bed - I told myself I will not wake up this way tomorrow. Michael's going to get a visit this evening and something will be worked out.

On top of it all - my guides (Ethan in particular) keeps throwing his song at me -- I can't tell you how many times I've listened to it today -- and the funny thing is I had no idea this song existed until I stumbled upon it.

What About Now - Daughtry

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?


Now - have no idea why I have to listen to this song. I think the song is connected with Michael - but why? We have never met in this life - so of course there's no love affair to pine over. Crap like this just drives me nuts. I'd really like a straight answer. No more signs - just a straight answer please.

Plus no more downloading to my subconsious. Sheesh. A girl has to get a good night sleep. If I'm not getting laid then I want to be out cold to the world. It's just that simple.

Needless to say - I did not get anything done today on BT or OBE. Although I DID toss ideas around for BT. So I guess that's something.

I should have known better with my emotional roller coaster that I should have not watched the last eposide of ER. Bad - bad move.

I'm up early in the morning for Little Leguge. The tomorrow afternoon it's me - wine and BT.

Oh - one more thing - if you call my office phone and you don't come up on the caller id - I'm not answering. "Unknown Number" will not work.

Night!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Sometimes I Wonder....

...what the (*&^^&* is wrong with me. SIGH. I worked on BT a good part of the day. More research - I found a survors network that may give me some insight to the Gypsy Family Camp at Birkenau. But as you know, working on BT stirs up a whole lot of emotions within me. Siince my son will be with his dad this weekend - I already went and bought some wine to drink as I'm working on BT.

Not a lot of work on OBE - but I did manage to get myself booked on a couple of radio shows in April & May. So that's cool.

Now as I'm working today - I keep having these visions of Bill and Ted. They are in an outdoor cafe with some friends. They're all talking when I walk up and say "excuse me". Without even looking at me - Bill blows up. In my hand I have Bill's rock. I place it on the table and mumble to myself "I can't do this anymore". Tears fall down my face. I look over at Ted and say, "I'm sorry - I am so-so sorry." I turn to leave and Ted grabs my wrist.

I look at him and say "Telling you won't do any good - you have to know. Seeking out the answers can't stem from your brain as curiosty - rather it has to come from here (I touch the middle of his chest), your soul. The stiring must come from your soul."

I stare at Bill - get close to his face - "I wish you'd pull your head out of your ass. I refuse to do this life over again." I yank my arm from Ted - and walk off.

Now to top this off - once I had that vision - I had to go watch the scene in a movie that reminds me so much of Ted and a past life we had together. What did that make me do - yep cry. So I'm crying today because of BT - which led to the visions and then me crying because of Bill - and that led me to the scene, Ted, and more crying. No wonder I'm tired.

And boy am I tired. Another night without any restful sleep. Whatever my subconsious has to learn - I wish it would hurry up.

Off to get my shower - and I hope - get rid of this sinking feeling I have in my soul.

Talk to you later...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Making Amends, To-Do List and Subconsious Reality!

I swear I have no idea where my day went. Granted, today was running errand day. I still have one more stop - but it'll have to wait till Friday. It was a nice sunny day here in Ohio and I figured - why not? Besides - was sooooo tired of sitting at my computer. I also worked on my college financial aid forms and my scholarship applications.

I've used a good portion of brain power on my "to do" list which as I told you guys - I'd be accountable for here in the blog. Working on the BT I have hit a road block that I have to find a way through. The original plan in the script was to have an SS officer and a gypsy woman leave the camp in search of something by orders of Mengele. But the powers that be think it's too far fetched - so I have to have all of the action that I had on the various trips confined to the concentration camp. I've been studying Birkenau for hours -- going over maps - looking at buildings. I have to have an idea of what I'm going to write - and then I'll fill in the details as I'm writing. But I can't find that overview to start with......I have 1 month until this script is due and I have to have it done. I know I'll figure it out - but in the meantime it's unsettling.

That said -- I was able to work out a couple of scenes that I want to add. So that was cool. OBE I got no where with. I just ran out of time.

For those of you who voted in the Start-Up Nation contest - thank you. Winners will be announced in May. Fingers crossed.

My dreams are still really out there - and so *&^% busy. I mean WTF? On top of it I can't remember a dang thing. I asked Ethan why can't I remember when I'm usually pretty good at it. He told me the good stand by "You're not supposed to know". I sighed - I couldn't help myself. He told me that if I consciously knew everything my subconscious knew - then I'd be overwhelmed and I'd shut down. The nice thing about a subconscious he said is that it has no distinction between the physical realty and the other worlds/dimensions. So it operates under the assumption that what is going on in the subconscious is your reality. Hence why the thought process and habits are a huge part of our reality. Humm...if I could get my subconscious to believe that I was actually in a physical reality friendship with Bill, Ted, Vincent and Will - would my reality shift to accommodate the world that my subconscious lives in? Or would my subconscious and reality be at war with one another - thereby creating a hell of a lot of inner turmoil?

I must admit - there's a small part of me, I'm ashamed to say, is convinced that I'm not supposed to be in any kind of relationship with anyone in my soul cluster in this lifetime. If that is indeed the case - I must of really screwed up in past lives in regards to these guys to have this happen now. In order to make amends (if there are any to make) would I have to do it in person by having a physical relationship with them? Or could I make amends via our energy fields & souls? Would that heal whatever it is we're stuck in? I should be asleep - but I'm up pondering these things.

I mentioned to Ethan that I have not seen or felt Andrew in along time. He said that Ethan is off working with Vincent. He does stop in daily to see how I'm doing - but Vincent really needs him right now. I'm thinking it's time for some chick power: Iris, Jezell and Brigit. As soon as I typed that I heard Ethan say I was crazy - lol. So what's his point?

Seeing that I will be a pain in everyone's rear end if I do not get to sleep - I'd better scoot.

Samatha and AJ - how did you do on your projects today?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Michael, Mike And Seriously WTF!

I wrote the below $.02 Saturday/Sunday Morning.....

I should be sleeping - I really should. But here I am after drinking a bottle of wine - and I'm awake at 1:18 am. Doesn't make sense. Wine should have made me fall sleep. But oh no....not now. I have too much outside energy running around inside of me.

What does that mean? Well I can feel Bill being very connected. So is Will and Vincent. CJ is still hanging about - taking more of an interest in me than he ever thought he would or that he thought he was comfortable with, You know it's difficult to dream about someone most of your life and then all of a sudden have them wind up on your radar. That's what happened where Bill is concerned with me - and that what happened where I'm concerned with CJ. Especially since most of the dreams he can remember me in we were just kids. It's a bit disarming. And quite frankly you just want things to go back to the way they were - before your "new knowledge".

There's a part of me that's tired of new knowledge. Why can't something happen with the old knowledge before someone else shows up? I don't get it. Any of you - do you get it? Cause I'm at a lost. Like this guy named Michael (not to be confused with Mike from before). He's showed up in my "area" for years now - years. And for the most part I've been able to compartmentalize him. Keep him tucked away as a curiosity and that's it. But now this guy has superseded my curiosity. I want to know why. What possible connection do we have? And why now? Serious. Don't I have enough going on?

I asked Andrew. You know what he said? Vincent is too stuck in his life, Will is too scared, CJ is confused and Bill doesn't have the balls -- so we open up the connection with Michael. I have to ask - is he a chicken shit too? Or would he seek out to explore something that he doesn't quite understand? Andrew says he's an explorer. Always has been - ever since he was a kid. I don't know why Andrew is showing me Michael with a toy sail boat in his hands - but he is. The said boat is has a red base. Andrew also tells me that Michael's mother is something else - and he means that in a good way. She pushes, yet protects Michael. If she find something or someone that can be a positive part of Michael's life - she'll put two and two together - despite Michael protests. So I wonder then - what will happen when she comes upon my blog? When she puts me together with the dreams he's had most of his life. Then what? Does she call me 1st to chat? Or does she just hand the information over to him and guide him? I swear I don't know. I wish I did. But I don't.

I then said "screw it" and went to bed. We'll see if anything comes of this connection. I'm rather tired of the "one-way" feel I've had with the past group.

Michael has been kind enough to keep hanging around. I keep getting the oddest flash visions with him:

Vision 1 - He and I shake hands. I can feel a zap of electric go through me - although I try not to react to it. The same happened to him - I think. We are then sitting at a table with two other women. Michael asks if the two ladies would leave us. They do. He leans across the table at me - and with a very stern look on his face he asks - why me? I open my mouth and start to say because of his past....he waves his hand to signal stop. Give me the real reason - he demands. I sit there and just look at him - trying to figure out what I'm going to say. I finally say - do you believe in soul groups? He smacked his hands together and said - I knew you felt the energy when we shook hands.

Vision 2 - He and I are on the beach. We are by some sort of rock formation. As the sun sets, the beams hit a crystal in the rock formation - which gives off another beam of light to a cave off the coast.

Vision 3 - Michael is inside a house looking outside. From his POV I can see me running to Vincent and jumping in his arms. Michael takes a sip of coffee and says - if he hurts her I'll kill him with my bare hands. I hear a voice (sounds like Will) say - he'd no sooner hurt her than you or I would.

Vision 4 - He's at my 25th High School reunion with me and we're having a blast.

There's more -- but those are the ones I can remember off the top of my head.

My son told me tonight that guys are put on the Earth to drive girls crazy (I couldn't agree more) and for guys to get big muscles so that they can be chick magnets. LOL. I tried not to laugh. I told him to remember that girls are nothing but trouble. He replied - oh mom, guys are trouble too. Snicker...oh how right he is....

Speaking of trouble - there's a guy in Wooster who's a psychologist who I find to be interesting. He and I have known each other since I moved to Wooster - he lives by me. You know how you know when someone is interested in you? Well he's given me that sideways look for the last 8 years. When I could feel him looking at me - I would just keep looking straight ahead. He was married - I was married. Not about to go there or even give the appearance of going there. He was always polite when he saw me or my ex - never anything flirty or over the top. Well, then I got divorced. Still basically ignored him as I know his wife and I think she's a great person - I didn't want any signals to go anywhere that might be misread. So he tells me two weeks ago that he's getting a divorce - been separated at that time for a month. Thought I would hear it through the neighborhood gossip line. Ha! I'm not looking the other way any more. But since our kids go to the same school - I do keep everything low key - flip him a hi when I see him and that's about it. If we happen to be walking the same way in the morning - we'll chat. We'll see what happens - if anything. Well- something will happen, it's just a matter of what and when. He does have the same kick ass divorce lawyer that I had...that guy in Orville is great! What I need to do is to find out when his birthday is -- I pray he's not a Sag or a Leo. Been there - did that.

Oh and guess what? His name is Mike. Yeah - seriously. No - that connection with what's going on with Michael has not been lost on me.

I'm finally HOT in the Start Up Nation Contest! Whoo Hoo! I'm a smoking mamma!

On that note -- it's shower time:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Atlantis, The Meadow And Dream Time!

Grab a drink and get situated -- this one's kinda long....

This week just has not gone as planned - same as last week. Hell - the whole month of February has been a huge problem not only for me, but for my poor son. He now has the flu - the nasty flu with the high fever, body aches, headache, nausea...I am just praying to anyone who will listen in the universe for me not to get this. I'm trying to push through with the bronchitis I think I have - thank you very much. I don't need anything else.

But what I've been doing with my congestion and nasal snafu is sending white ball of energy to help speed up the healing process. For my lungs I imagine a nice big ball of white light going into my lungs, through the back, and back in again out the front. I do the same with my throat and my sinuses. Anytime I do this, I feel much better afterwards. So I'm trying to send the light through several times a day.

I don't quite get 2009 yet - what it has in store for me. It hasn't gone as I thought it would. Thus far all scripts and what not have been turned down. I'm about as creative as a barn door - which isn't very helpful in the rewrite process. Readings aren't there - readings on Keen & Live Person haven't been going very well - the people I do help (not very many) that don't know me or how I work - give me bad marks. Those that have used me before for a reading (not just an email exchange) - I've been fine with - they know how I work. The one thing that has worked - I guess - is the Wake Up Your Orgasm podcast. My Ask Allie podcast gets about 500 - 600 faithful listeners a week. The WUYO podcast gets about 3000 - 5000 a week. I know - how crazy is that? It's normally in iTunes "Top Audio Podcasts" for sexuality.

I did ask my guides to show me what direction I should be heading into -- and it looks like sex advice is it. Although they are telling me not to give up on my scripts either - that I have to keep pushing that right along with my OBE book and the WUYO podcast. But since I know I can't concentrate on two things at once - I have to pick - book or script rewrite. They pull on me the same.

Which brings me to a radio show. I want to do one radio show, once a week to start with. Now since sex seems to have caught on - do I have it be a sex advice themed show? Or since the majority of people I know work in the metaphysical/healing fields - should it be more like Ask Allie? Or - should I mash them both and do a "Allie Theiss" show that encompasses all of it. But I think that would be too wide spread - don't you think? I like the being a sex psychic and I like promoting that part. It's easier , I think, to bring the psychic part into the sex than it is to bring the sex into the psychic part. Does that make sense? I know it'll be clearer the closer I get to actually doing this. But I should would appreciate some clear cut answers every now and again. Answers that are extremely obvious and leave to room for interpretation.

All of the visions I have of me giving workshops in a large arena deal with the Wake Up Your Orgasm theme. So again, I suppose, that's another sign. I can see the whole thing - a large gathering with me giving a WUYO talk 3x over a course of 3 days. Then there are smaller workshops that people can sign up for and get the know on different kind of fetishes, toys and of course OBE sex. There are also a host of vendors there to sell their fetish products, clothes and toys. Wow - I just got all of that. Pretty cool.

I keep getting a push to go back to the meadow. For those of you who don't know what the meadow is - it's a place that Bill, Ted and I used to meet quite a bit several years ago. Then the woman who actually owns the meadow in the physical world - we had a major falling out - and we've only been back once since then. I'm getting really bothered by it right now. Oh hell - I'm going to grab my healing want and see what happens - hold on.

Okay - first of all when I grabbed my healing wand and closed my eyes - it felt so strange in my hands, like is was bendable - like one of those bendy kid straws you see. As I was at the meadow - it felt like I was bending it, reshaping it, but when I was done at the meadow it was feeling very solid again.

Now at the meadow I was greeted by both Bill and Ted. They looked pretty good - run down, tired, but overall good. The meadow was lush, green and full of vibrant energy - like it had once been. Several hundred feet away I spied a woman. I knew immediately that she was the woman I/we had the falling out with - the one who owns the meadow. I didn't want to go anywhere near her. But then Jesus showed up (this seems to be a favorite place of his as well) and told me that I have to walk over and see her. We need each other right now - I/we need the meadow to move forward in our lives and she needs us in the meadow so that she can move forward with her life.

I told Bill and Ted to stay put and I walked across the grass - felt very velvet like on my bare feet. I was close to her and I just stared at her. She held out her hand, but I didn't take it. She repeated what Jesus had already said - we need to make peace in order to move forward. I shook her hand - but I told her to stay away from us. She nodded in agreement - and she was gone.

I went back to Bill and Ted and let them know that we should be able to come here again without any problems. The large oak tree that Bill and I used to travel up in to reach the heavens had a white glow up top. I could also hear some angelic calling. I looked at the guys and said that they want to talk with us. Now Ted had never been up there with Bill and I. And he didn't want to go. He said he wasn't ready - such a look of fear in his eyes. I told him that if he wasn't ready he wouldn't be here. He didn't care - he said he'd do this later. With that he disappeared.

I looked at Bill and asked if we really needed to go up? I could feel the tug so I knew it was important - but like Ted I just didn't feel like it right now. Bill said no - it can wait until tomorrow. We laid down under the oak tree, I wrapped myself around Bill, he put his arms around me. I said that I missed these visits - he agreed - he did too. I mentioned that the powers that be will snag us in our dreams. He laughed and said - of course they will. And with that the connection was broken.

What does this all mean? Specially I don't have a clue. But I'm sure it has to deal with the increased time I have been spending in Atlantis during my dream time...

Each time I have visited Atlantis over the last week, I have been clothed in a very deep purple or violet flowing robe or maybe it's a dress. But it's very light feeling, like I have no clothes on. Bare feet with nothing on underneath this dress. There is a gold belt or sash around the middle. My hair is up - I have no jewelry on. But I do notice a star tattoo/birthmark inside my left wrist. The star is a light red/purple in color - too light to be a tattoo I think. Maybe times I go from person to person, giving them some sort of clear liquid from a crystal vial. They open their mouths and I pop a few drops in. It's like their daily wellness drops. Then I'm at a clinic of sorts. When people come in, they put their palms on a crystal scanner - after they are scanned, they are allowed into the next section of the clinic for treatment. I'm told that this security was put in because people from other sects were trying to sneak in and have us heal them. Seems that the other sects already began to fall to the dark side ( I feel like I'm in Star Wars) and our sect was one of the few remaining that was all light.

Last night though - it was interesting when I walked deep into a cave. There were no lights in the cave, but I made my way without missing a step. I emerged into this large cavern that was aglow with thousands of crystals (although this was not the Crystal Cavern I've talked about before). In here, were dozens of people from not only our sect, but many others, engaged in an orgy. But it wasn't an orgy like you would think about now a days - it didn't have that negative aura surrounding it. During the time of Atlantis, love was given and received freely - pleasuring one another in a group setting was the way we spread the love (so to speak). I kept hearing that we were vessels of love. That having a physical body to make love to was a new experience for a handful of us who were born just as energy - myself included. When we came to Atlantis through the portal - that is when we received a physical body. Although the pleasure derived from merging energy with energy was greater - the physical aspect of connecting proved to be not only interesting but fun. I could feel though that this form of sexual expression would frustrate me at times as I always wanted to strive for that orgasmic punch I had when I was pure energy.

Anyways -- more on the Atlantis orgy at Out of Body Ecstasy.

It just dawned on me - -just now. Why I'm here - one of the main reasons. Oh hell - sometimes I am just so slow. The more times souls spend in the physical body - the less they remember what it felt like to love outside the physical body. That is what I'm here to do (in part) is to have people reconnect with love & sex outside the physical body - to help them get in touch with who they truly are - their soul - and not that physical body they're in. For the most part, very few people can remember the orgasmic qualities to being pure energy and having sex. Hence - here I am. To help people with their sex lives by using their energy bodies. Also to get sex out of the closet. It's not a dirty thing - it's a wonderful, necessary process for our souls. I guess this just answered my radio show question - didn't it?

Can you believe it's been a year since I met Will? God how time flies. What I wouldn't do to meet him again. How I wish he would've called like he said he would. I wonder what part of me scared him? Was it that I knew him in a different light than everyone else did? Maybe he was worried that by knowing me he'd mess up his current relationship? He could be fearful of change? Whatever it was - I only wish that he showed the same faith that I did when I hopped on that plane to see him with my son. Just a little bit of faith - that's all. Which makes me wonder how Vincent will act. And even if I want to risk being rejected by him.

Today starts the Telepathic Connection e-class. If you haven't signed up yet, you still have time to do so!

BTW..I'm still not HOT yet with the Start Up Nation's Mom Contest <--- Keep voting please!

Kirk - email me - I can't find your email address anywhere.

I need to know from the people who read this blog if any of you would be interested in being a moderator for a GA board I'm starting. I need someone for magic/spells and another one for OBE (astral travel, not sex), dreams and telepathic connections. If anyone is interested - email me . I can't pay you, but it will be exposure for yourself and if you have a business.

I know that there's more to tell you - but right now I haven't got a clue to what it is:) Besides - I think that this is long enough!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Ego, Lessons And Ted!

Today the snow was falling - falling - falling down in Wooster. If I looked at the sky, 1/2 is dark and the other 1/2 light. Reminded me of the battle of good vs. evil. Since I am in Amish Hell - the sun faded from view and the sky was a drappy gray - yuck. Just before the sun set it broke through the clouds for 20 min of sunshine. We really could use more sun around here - seriously.

So on today's podcast I talked about how the ego is our enemy. I really believe that. Our egos hold us back, frustrated us, give us impressions of others or ourselves that are not in line with reality - egos make us less than what we are meant to me. I think that sucks. The whole ego thing was a lesson of mine. I don't think I've learned my lesson completely - but at least the light bulb turned on so that I can make improvements in myself. I get why I've been treading water for so long. I got the responsibility lesson a couple of years ago when I got divorced. Next I'll be heading into the patience lesson (even more so than I have been). Why? Because I'm going to homeschool my son next year.

His current school just is not for him. It's like fitting a square peg into a round hole - no matter how much you try - it isn't going to work. I see him suffer because of it - he's just a different kind of kid - he can't help it. The labels he has for being weird, strange and different doesn't help him. All he wants is friends and to do so he gravitates towards the kids who are different - but in a bad way (meaning they get in a lot of trouble being bad) and this in turn gets him in trouble and the cycle continues. My ex and I talked about it - I told him for as long as we're in Ohio, he's going to have to help. Science and math were always the ex's strong suits - so I suggested he be our son's "coach" (which is what the school calls the adult since there are online teachers) in those subjects. He agreed. But we'll see what happens come the school year.

Stress will come from keeping the kid and the dog apart since all they like to do is aggravate one another. Somehow, of course, I will have to work. I mulled over getting up at 4:00 am - working on Keen till 8:00 am and then do school. But I know there is no way in hell I'm getting up at 4 am. So I'll have to keep thinking.

Ted made a very nice comeback over the weekend. I wrote about it in the OBE blog. I was actually very supposed to see him since Will and Vincent were the ones that kept popping up in my energy. Will - it feels to me - is coming to a turning point in his life and he's not sure which way to turn. His current and long-time relationship feels very shaky. But by being together so long - is it love that keeps things together? Or the "being used to" the partner? My money is on the "used to". Vincent - poor guy is just so confused. He has no clue on where to turn or what to do. His life is such a "pineapple upside down cake" right now that he's frozen from making any important decisions. And Ted -- he is crashing hard. A big crash. I am hoping that he has hit the bottom without 1) landing in the hospital 2) going to rehab. A divorce has to be soon -- even if she is trying like hell to get pregnant.

Trouble (the cat) was running after air today - I'm going to assume it was Indy coming back to say hi. Ever since he died Trouble has been glued to poor Brodie who tries to convince Trouble that he is not a dog - but a cat.

Off to bed...have a good night!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

My Son, Bill And Ted!

Okay.....

First of all the good news - my son doesn't have an aneurysm! Very - very good news.

Then the not so great news: he had an adverse reaction to the sleep meds. On top of that, he caught a flu bug.

Do what has been happening is he's been very tired - so much so I can't get him to stay awake for very long (he slept for 22 hrs on Tuesday). Frequent vomiting (from the sleep meds), diarrhea (from the flu), body trembling & muscle cramps (sleep meds), headaches and a low grade fever (flu).

So Monday it was the Cleveland Clinic in the day - ER at night. Tuesday - ER. Wednesday - Many doctors. He's had blood drawn, IV w/fluids. There's a fear that his pancreas could be damaged from the sleep meds - so more blood was drawn yesterday.

I have pills to stop him from throwing up so that I can get him to drink Gatorade. Problem is - all he wants to do is sleep. All he does is sleep - all I do is stay awake. To say I'm tired would be an understatement.

The ex though, I will admit, has pulled his weight through this whole thing. Cleveland Clinic, ER visits and watching our son so that I can get some running around done.

I'm so behind on everything that I could scream - but I am slowly - oh so slowly - getting caught up. I "hope" to get the podcast done today - and the WUYO podcast done tonight. It would be great to post something on the OBE site - I'll try that later too. Email - as you can imagine - is a nightmare. Don't be surprised if you do not hear back from me until sometime late next week. Oh - and for some unknown reason I cannot get to Facebook. Every time I try - my computer freezes.

The meeting with ABC Family is postponed to next week. This is actually good news as the last second some changes were suggested to make it different from Disney or a Nickelodeon show. Had the meeting not moved - we wouldn't have been able to make the changes and ABC Family would have said no.

I'm throwing this in here - Kirk - got your voice mail:) I knew you were going to call - a little birdie told me - glad to hear your news. Sorry too that I can't come to NOLA at the end of the month :(

The small time I did sleep this week - I had a great dream visit with both Bill and Ted. Lately they both have been in the same dream visit - it was so cool. The atmosphere was very peaceful and calm. Ted sat in front if me and I knew I shouldn't bring up our soul relationship - that I was there to help him and I had to do so without giving him more information about us. He and I were discussing his marriage and the shambles its in (gee - I'm shocked). Bill had gel in his hair and it made it all spiky. I have no clue why I remember that part - except that he did look really cute. He kept walking past me and either giving me a quick hug or a kiss. The guy was all smiles. I also knew not to bring up the soul connection to him either - but I also knew that knew already and it could go unspoken. In the midst of all this - I was on set of an Indy film I wrote (I'm guessing the one I am working on now). Steven Spielberg was there reading the script (he was directing). My assistant called him Steven Spiel - Berry! I about had a heart attack. I corrected her immediately - he didn't even look up from the script. Will Smith came up behind me as I was watching the start of 'Men In Black" - I looked at him and said: You did make the suit look good. He was like - huh? So I explained to him about his line in the movie about the suit. Then I woke up.

My son and I are back on the home school kick. Today I was supposed to be ganged up on in the office again to talk about his behavior. I personally have had it with that school. Lucky for me he's still sick and I had an excuse to cancel. God I need to get him and I out of this town.

I added a new Soul Awakening Healing service as well as an email option to the Full Scale readings.

Next week, starting on Tuesday, I should be back to Keen & Live Person. Well - I should say Keen as I've been doing Live Person.

Going to go check on my son - you guys have a good weekend and thanks for all of your love, light and support.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

CJ, KS and Allie's Vision of Dying!

Another - I don't know where to start - blog entry. I would love to sleep -- for days if I could. It'll never happen. But I would like to get some much needed shut eye. I had two other energies move into my field and since then I might as well kiss sleep good bye. I can't get to bed before 1:00 am - no matter how hard I try - I just can't get there. When I'm in bed I go right to sleep. But sleep is just a facade as I dream travel all night long. It's exhausting. Between every dream visit I wake up - roll over - and go right into another visit. By time my alarm goes off at 6:30 am, it feels like I just laid down. I haven't increased my coffee - so my headaches are pretty strong during the day. SIGH. It makes it difficult to think. Luckily - when I do reading I don't have to think, I just let the information flow.

My son -- not only do I have to worry about his MRI/MRA on Monday - but now the kid got a one day in-school suspension. Seems him and another kid were playing "army" and my son said that they should "kill" another kid. The school took that as a threat and they have a zero tolerance policy. He's grounded until further notice with no X-Box, computer or iPod - plus I took all of his Nerf guns away. He doesn't "get" that what he did was bad - since he was just playing. I tried explaining it to him -- at least he's majorly embarrassed. Sheesh - the kids 8 - at least I waited till I was 15 before I had my 3 day in school suspension.

Darin (the cat) went to the vet on Monday. He was pretty sick, poor little dude. He was a trooper though and let the vet poke and prod him - give him fluids and shots. He's even being cool about me giving liquid meds 2x a day. Right now we're guessing that somehow he caught a virus from Little Black Kitty. Not sure how -- but that's the only explanation.

The script I wrote last week won't be done in time for the contest it was intended for. Although the foundation was solid - the execution was a train wreck. Yep - felt pretty stupid on that one. Oh well -- this weekend at the latest I'll get back to it and hopefully write something that doesn't sound idiotic. Now that mercury is direct, I'm sure I can.

Oh the readers comment about Sawyer on the last post (I think) -- oh yeah -- that man is hot:) He can be without a shirt all season if need be!

Maria Shaw just informed me that on Feb 13th, she and the guys will be back on CBS Psychiconair.com on Friday nights only from 6 - 8 pm ET. It'll be great to hear the 3 of them even if it's just for once a week.

Finger crossed - the show that was intended for Nickelodeon is making it's way to ABC Family. A meeting happens next week.

Now for these new energies. I have no idea what kind of baring they have on me - some sort of karmic tie I would suppose. The first one is CJ. He's a big guy, very loving, kind - yet extremely opinioned. His energy is romantic and sexual. In a way like Vincent's - that he wants to protect me - but not as rock solid as Vincent - if that makes any sense. CJ is also full of fun, creative and a lover of the outdoors. He's very sexual - but sex isn't something that's important to him. He feels that actions, outside of sex, shows a person how much you care for them. Sex is something that feels good - but is used for making babies.

Now for KS. He's energy is very high strung. Teasing - protective - loving - yet angry and can be violent. He loves deeply and when hurt it wounds him for life. His energy towards me is brother-like. Nothing at all sexual or romantic. It reminds me of a brother and sister who tease each other - beat each other up - but if someone attacks either one of them , the other would give their life to protect them. His energy also reminds me of a phoenix - someone who can reinvent himself and one who will also surprise people. Kind of like Madonna in the 80's & 90's.

So these two have been be-bopping around my energy field since last week. They take turns. I personally have had just about enough of both of them. I'd like to keep all energies at arms length for awhile.

I had the oddest vision the other day when Brigit stopped by on Imbolc to say Hi. She wanted me to stop working, close my eyes and pay attention. So I did just that. What I saw was CJ and I walking towards an elevator in a hotel. It was the penthouse elevator. Before I got to it I stopped, looked at him and said: You didn't. He's like - what'd I do? And I started rattling them off: Bill, Ted, Will, Vincent, George....they're up there, in the penthouse. He denied it - I knew he was lying. I refused to go up. We argued about it - my body was shaking and I couldn't control it. He led me into the elevator - we start to go up - when I blurt out that I didn't tell him everything. He said what -- I said - when we're all together I'm going to die. He hit the stop button on the elevator. I had to explain to him that I've had visions of me having a heart attack and dying once we were all in the same room (and I actually have had this vision plenty of times). It's vital that as soon as I have the heart attack - Will, Ted and Bill place their hands on me - while he performed CPR. Vincent and George needed to have paper and pen in hands - because as soon as I come back - I'll have information for everyone. Plus - make sure they keep yelling for me to get back into my body - because I'm not going to want to. He thought I was nuts. I asked him not to let me die -- and no matter what - he can't give up trying to bring me back nor can the guys take their hands off of me. He agreed.

As soon as we stepped out of the elevator I met everyone. 30 sec after I hugged George - I had the heart attack. I see myself going down - CJ jumps into control and tells everyone what they have to do. Everyone is doing everything on cue. I can't see my soul anywhere - but the feeling I had is that I knew I was close by and talking with someone. 2 - 3 min later I saw my body jerk like my soul fell back in and I sat up. I rattled off this place with white pillars and a large pool of water. Next thing I know - I see my grandmother - she tells me that everything has changed and not to be scared.

Grams leaves and then George's Aunt shows up (she's dead as well). We're having a convo - I'm told no one else can see her but me. We talk - I give George some info - then she hands me a red rose to give to him. As soon as I have it in my hand - it materializes in the physical sense. I'm shocked. Someone else who is deceased comes along - hands me something - as soon as I take it - it becomes real. This kept happening over and over again.

Then Brigit said I'd seen enough. I asked what does that mean? She said that my gift of manifestation will be in full force when I come back to life - somehow my NDE gives it extra power. And that was that....I sat there for awhile after this one thinking - WTF? The manifestation twist was a new one to me. And I kept thinking how could that ever be possible - if it's possible. Once something leaves a spirit's hands into mine - it becomes solid. That's just wild.

And on that note - I have to get back to work.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Vincent And No Wasted Time!

I'm almost caught up on my emails and the readings from the special back in December. Whew. The screenplay - still working on it. Once I have a chance to write - it flows. I just have to be able to work on the darn thing - you know?

Little Black Kitty is back outside. He drove me batty yesterday with the clawing at the door and the crying. I put him back out last night. He seems to be doing fine with it. But I do suspect that he'll be asking to come back in before the day is out. He can - for a few - then it's back out again. Samantha is not doing too well. It was as if she aged 5 years overnight (she's already 13). She's still eating, drinking and cleaning herself. But that's it. No more playing - no more nothing but sitting there. It breaks my heart. If I pick her up - she wants to be glued to me - permanently. Trying to detach her from my clothes is tough. I just hope she's okay health wise. I just couldn't take it if something happened to her - not so close to Indy dying.

Will's back:) I could feel his energy close yesterday as I worked. Almost like he was just sitting there watching me. I love it when he's around. Not only because I like the feel of his energy (it's always very high - I would call it jazzed) but he's my muse. When he's around, I just write better. As I was writing the script yesterday, he did make a connection for telepathic sex which I wrote about it in OBE. Last night as I was falling asleep, I could feel him around me. When I was walking down my path to enter my dream portal - Ethan was there as always - he told me to expect the past to be back but with a twist. I asked Ethan what he was talking about - he said that I know he can't tell me more. But that I have to put my nose to the grindstone and keep plugging away. No wasted moments - no sitting idle. I told him okay - and moved on. Further down the path was Will. He was in a long white flowing robe. Around his body is vibrated a wonderful golden energy. I asked if he was going to step through the portal with me. His reply - I'm already there. I stepped through and he was - at the Willow Tree by the river. I don't remember anything else - except that when I saw him I ran to the tree:)

With Will usually comes Merlin at some point in time and sure enough Merlin has been on my heels since I woke up this morning. In fact - he was the last thing I remembered about my dreams from last night. He and I were working in the magical space in the cave. Will was somewhere in the background. Next to me I had an enormous faden quartz crystal. I was putting mugwort around it - Merlin was putting candles around the ring of mugwort. There were 9 candles - 5 violet and 4 blue. During the day today - I keep hearing him tell me we have to get back to work. I have no clue what we're working on - why the mugwort, crystal and candles.

I asked Andrew today - where's my love life? He laughed and said I know where it is - and it isn't in Wooster. I know;) I took down all of the dating ads and what have you that I had online. I've washed my hands of it as long as I live in Wooster. Will I change my mind if I'm still here past July? I might. But lets put the energy out there that I'm moving forward! Any ways - Andrew says there's much more going on behind the scenes of my life than I'm privy to. So keep the faith - keep working and it will all shift the way it's supposed to. He says that January and February are all about work - lots of it. The work will transform not only my career - but my love life - so I must not stop. No wasted time. I tell Andrew that this is what Ethan basically said - no wasted time. He replies- there's a reason 2 of your guides tell you the same thing - listen to our words. And I have:)

LOST is back tonight!! Whoo Hoo! Okay - so since I can't watch it till tomorrow morning - no one email or post about what happened on LOST - okay? Don't tell me! Ahhhh...Sawyer:)

Oh -- I almost forgot...Will and Vincent know one another now. Yep - they met. Don't ask me how I know - I just do:) So now Bill & Ted know one another and so does Will & Vincent. Things are aligning up for me to come on board:)

Vincent is going through a very deep thought process right now. He seems to contemplate everything. He's so deep in thought that I don't dare disturb him. What is he thinking about? His life. What he needs to do and how he's supposed to do it. He's looking at all angles to see what is best for everyone involved.

Back to work I go....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Headache Of The Golden Globes

I am still having trouble with Hipcast and iTunes - both places are blaming the other and no one will fix the podcast problem. To say I'm upset is an understatement.

And moving forward with the upset part - I saw last night from the Golden Globes site that you could watch the GG. I was excited - because I haven't missed one in 30 years and without cable....I would miss it. Anyways I went - paid the fee - and got sent to this TV Player Pro software that I had download. No problem. Did as told. Problem was - I couldn't find the GG anywhere. I put a request into support at 7:30 pm. At 9:45 pm (they sent it at 9:08, but I wasn't at the computer) I got a reply that it wasn't that software I needed, but the Real Player (which I had) in order to access the show. Since I missed the show - I immediately asked for a refund. Last night I got the sure...you can have one - but we're changing your $9.95 for our software. It's a strict refund policy.

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I saved the convo - see it below (start from the bottom up):

Svetlana Za 1/12/2009 8:56:47 AM
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Sincerely,
Your Customer Service Team


Alison 1/12/2009 7:31:03 AM
What part of CANCEL MY ACCOUNT don't you get?

And I'l make sure every last person knows about your policy - including the Golden Globes.
Irina S 1/12/2009 7:22:23 AM
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According to the Terms and Conditions, if you are within your first 7 days of our guarantee period - you are eligible for a refund of the unused portion of your membership minus a $9.95 activation and software fee which we keep. We have a strict NO-REFUND policy after the 7 day trial period.

Under no circumstances will we offer a refund for any services past this period. The amount that is billed to your credit card is a one-time flat fee which means you will never be billed again.

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Sincerely,
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Alison 1/12/2009 7:10:19 AM
This is a load of crap - and I'm going to make sure everyone I know - knows about this. The only reason I got the software was to watch the Golden Globes - which I didn't get to see. AND according to you documentation - the Golden Globes would have been watched from Real Player NOT your software.

Cancel the account.

I'm also emailing the producers of the Golden Globe to let them know how I got ripped off trying to watch their show.

I repeat - cancel this account.
Luydmila G 1/12/2009 7:05:06 AM
Dear Customer,

Thank you for your ticket. According to the Terms and Conditions, you are eligible for a refund of the unused portion of your membership minus the activation and software fee of 9.95 USD which we keep. We have a strict NO-REFUND policy after the 7 day trial period. Under no circumstances will we offer a refund for any services past this period. The amount that is billed to your credit card is a one-time flat fee which means you will never be billed again.

The promotional offer of 20 USD for a membership with a credit of 19,95 USD is still available to you.

At this moment no changes have been made to your account. Please respond to this ticket so that we can adjust your account accordingly.

Sincerely,
Your Customer Service Team


Alison 1/12/2009 6:50:02 AM
You have got to be kidding me - I have to pay a fee for a service I never used?

Cancel this account.
Olga M 1/12/2009 12:23:35 AM
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Alison 1/11/2009 9:39:50 PM
I want you to cancel my account and refund my money. The only reason I got this program was for the golden globes and since I'm on the east coast - it's pretty much a mute point now.

Thank you
Olga Kb 1/11/2009 9:08:14 PM
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Alison 1/11/2009 7:27:27 PM
I'm trying to find the GG. I have downloaded my player - it works. Where can I find the show?

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And that's that - the rat bastards are keeping the $9.95. It's not the money - it's the principle. No where anywhere did it say that I was to watch the GG on Real Player - no where. When I would log in from the GG site - I kept getting their screen for downloading their software.

Oh - this place is called: http://tv-subscription.com/

I was very-very happy this morning to read Heath won:) I wish I could have seen Christopher Nolan's acceptance speech. I was also happy for 30 Rock and Kate Winslet. How about Mickey Rourke - damn I wish I could have seen that.

Now - on to something pleasant.

I had another wonderful dream visit with Bill. We were at my mom's house - my son, mom, sister's and family were there - along with Ted. Ted stayed in the background this whole dream. He stayed on the couch - just sitting there. Bill had on a long-sleeved red shirt -with some blue in it. There were words on the shirt no idea what. A woman came over - he spoke to her in Spanish - and she went to get us something to drink.

It was a laid back dream - he was showing me a letter he wrote to the editor of the NYT about Pres Bush. I asked him if he included Iran in that letter. He looked hurt for a second - like of crap I forgot to include it - and said no. He said this was the letter as of Jan 12th. His neck and back hurt - so as he was telling me about the letter - I was massaging his shoulders - neck. I got up - kissed him on the cheek and went in to see what my mom wanted. My sisters were there with her and all 3 were commenting on how nice it is to see Bill in the house and that he and I are very comfortable around one another. I agreed and then quickly said- we're just friends - nothing more. The ladies were bummed. I started over to Ted - when Bill intervened and wanted to go outside for a walk. Seems that my mom's house was a cabin in the middle of the woods (it certainly isn't in the physical world). I had my arm through his and we talking about the animals we saw - the different trees. It was all very calm, peaceful and it just felt right. I told him that I had to go poop. Yes - I used those exact words. He pointed over in the distance to a potty he built into the ground.

I'm there - doing my thing. When somehow the scene shifted from that (however I was still on the potty) to a table with 3 other people. I couldn't believe no one could smell my poo. We were discussing this home buying process. Seems that a bunch of homes were about to go on market for cheap prices. We had to reach in and pull out a slip of paper - which would tell us which house we got to buy. I was looking at this Spanish-styled house. It was very nice - over 5000 sq ft with a pool, outdoor kitchen and a hot tub. I told them this was too big and all I wanted was a small place by the beach. They said only big houses were available to me.

Then I woke up.

And on that note - I gotta get back to work.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

This, That and the Other!

Is anyone going to watch the Golden Globes tonight? First time in 30 years I'm not watching it and I'm having withdrawal already. No cable = no Golden Globes..or Oscars.

When Mercury Retro kicks in (which was today) that's when most people start to feel the affects. Me? A week earlier. Never fails. Between MR messing things up, my ongoing fight with iTunes & Hipcast (both bastards still say that the podcast problem is the other ones fault), and the "New Kid on the Block" as AJ said:) It's been a headache of a 2009 already.

Plus this last week I'm still catching up on the special priced readings I sold back in Dec.

Oh - and I shoveled snow yesterday (have to do more today) and did something to my lower back. What took me 5 min is now almost 15. SIGH - the wonders of being over 40. This is on top of my pulling a muscle in my upper back when I went to put my hair in a ponytail last Tuesday. Nice....

I watched BURN AFTER READING yesterday. I can't begin to convey my disappointment. How can so much talent come out with so much crap? And the Coen Brothers? WTF? What happened? I wish you could have seen me yelling at my TV - it was funny. Good thing my son wasn't home;)

I'm entering an Indy filmmaker contest. I have only a week or so to write the 1st draft of the script and then only a week to make changes. So if there's no postings this upcoming week (or next) - you know why. But I'll try not to drop off the face of the Earth.

Now for the last week. This was such a WTF - and a WTH every day. I have to thank Chris for this. Now who is Chris? He's to Vincent what Ted is to Bill - and somehow I'm stuck in the middle. Another love triangle. Hell. What in the world did I do in my past lives? When another energy comes in - my body hits the emotional overload until I'm used to that new energy. Plus - I can't sleep. So last week I spent my time either pissed off, crying, or just sitting there without a thought in my head. All of it - not the norm of Allie. When Friday rolled around - I was back to the norm Allie. However - I still can't sleep - so something else must be coming down the pike.

So what's Chris like? Energetic, supportive, creative, kind & loving. Very good friend material. As Vincent stands around and "protects" me - Chris yammers in my ear to have to try this - or try that. It's like Chris pushes me and Vincent protects me. It's nice having them both around - but they have a habit of pulling me in 2 different direction - Chris wanting me to try something and Vincent wanting me to stand still and be safe.

I had a dream visit with them both the other night. They were fighting over who would "get" me. I stepped in the middle and said that I'm not doing this again (referencing Bill and Ted). I pointed to Vincent and said him - he's the one who gets me. Chris is like - what? Wait a minute - I haven't had a chance to prove myself. I told him- not in this life. In this life we're friends and some how you help me with Vincent because you two are already friends in the physical world. Vincent comes up and puts his arm around me - gives Chris a smug look. I punched him and told him to grow up. I can still change my mind - which made Chris smile. I told them that I had things to do and left them standing there - lol.

How did I realize that Chris was part of this whole soul circle thing with me? He kept popping up. Same as Ted did. I'd be in a vision with Vincent - and there he was. Iris said something to me that made the light bulb go off. I asked Andrew if Chris was one of "his" as well. Andrew said no.

Which made me ask Andrew - where's this love life I was supposed to have? He said - it's coming - mid 2009. This news made me roll my eyes. He said that I'll be way to busy till then and everything I am doing career wise is setting me up romantic wise. I told him that I didn't want to know any more. It gives me a headache. He did say though that this upcoming week I should hear something positive abut my career. That works:)

Need to kick my tush into gear.

Have a great - what's left of the weekend !

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Crap What A Week!

What a #$^&* up week! Nothing went as planned. I'll get ya'll up to speed either tonight or over the weekend. In the meantime:

Ask Allie Podcast (finally done): http://www.gypsyadvice.com/askalliepodcast/index.html you can't download this or any podcast (for some unknown reason - Hipc ast and iTunes are blaming each other) from iTunes. You'll have to listen on the site or download the MP3 file and listen.

Wake Up Your Orgasm:
http://wakeupyourorgasm.com/2009/01/09/wuyo-sex-q-a-pineapples-rock-chick/ will be up on iTunes soon - they're reviewing it.

And in 10 min I'll be here: www.Blogtalkradio.com/wingsofloveshow until 3:00 pm EST - call in:)

Oh - there's a new guy on the block - Chris. He's to Vincent what Ted is to Bill. Fun....

Will catch you up soon...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

ps: where in the hell are my archives? My recent posts? UGH!!

Bill, Ted and Dream Visits!

What I week - I mean wow - I've been busy. Trying to do all of my readings before the holidays next week. This hasn't been an easy task. With my 50% off sale that has been going most of the month - many people have taken advantage of this offer. Since I have a couple thousand clients worldwide - you can just imagine the overload I've had.

My inbox has more emails that I know what to do with. If you've sent me an email - especially a follow-up email to a reading - I have it. I'm just buried - so please be patient.

Lately there has been an onslaught of people emailing me for free advice instead of submitting it to the column (okay, so I'm REALLY behind on this column) or the podcast. I can't and I won't answer those emails - they automatically get deleted. This last week I've been getting 20+ a day - I'm only one person doing the best I can. Free questions have to be submitted to the Ask Allie column/podcast.

Plus (pat myself on the back) I was on Keen and Liveperson this week. As I'm working on the OBE outline - again - I'll be on LP.

What else has been going on? Oh - you know Cheryl who likes to comment on this blog? She and her 12 year old son are moving from TX to live up here in OH with my son and I. Her son and my son are soooooo happy that they are going to finally have a "brother". Remember when I said that I couldn't find one friend in Wooster to hang out with? I finally got tired of it and am now importing my friends - lol. The boys are going to share a bedroom - Cheryl is taking my office and somehow - I'm moving my office into my bedroom. Creative arranging -- but somehow it'll all fit. Even if I have to line my walls with shelves. She should be up here right after Christmas. And yes - I warned her about the cold.

My Wordpress problem - I'll have to forgo a WP blog on my site as I'm on a new, very secure server. If I want WP to work, I have to be moved back to an older, less secure server. I leave it where it is.

My screenplays - sitting at the top 5 Hollywood agencies. Fingers crossed. H-Wood is closed down for the holidays and then there's Sundance in Jan. So we'll see if we can hear from someone in Jan. If not - the plan is to have me in Los Angeles in Feb to meet with the agencies and production companies. You never know:)

I did have a lunch date today. No - I'm not going to tell you anything about him, but I will say that I had a nice time. Will there be a second date? No idea - that's up to him. But either way I had a pleasant afternoon.

Wednesday night I had two separate dream visits - one from Bill and the other one Ted. With Bill he and I are sitting around chatting, For some reason he said that he likes a small back yard. I tell him that I have a small back yard. He looked at me with this strange look on his face -- and I said, well ya it's small because I have a 2 1/2 car garage on my property. He was also showing me pictures he had taken -- I don't remember what the pictures were about except that they were of landscapes and some ancient ruins. He was very excited to show me these pictures and I was just as thrilled to be looking at them. I kept asking - when are we going to go? He said -not yet, not everyone is here.

Next dream visit I was sitting wit Ted on a comfortable couch in a large house. I can remember the big fireplace and the beige couches. He and I are just chatting up a storm. He leaned over, put his arm around me and pulled me close. I asked - what are you doing? He leaned in to kiss me - I backed away. I commented - aren't you married? Just then his wife came in and gave him a kiss on the cheek. He went to introduce me, but she didn't care and just kept walking. He said - some wife. If you were my wife and I was on the couch with another woman, you'd beat the shit out of me. My reply - naw -- I'd just take all of your money:) So he learned in again to kiss me and again I backed away. I told him to stop it. I'm not anyone's "second". He mumbled something under his breath - when a Brit gets pissed and they start letting the words fly - it's hard to figure out what in the hell they're saying! So I had no clue. I just told him I'd see him later. As the dream was ending I heard him say - you're damn right you will - lol.

I am so tired I swear I could sleep for a week. Off to bed I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)