Another Day.....

....more stuff done. More work on BT. Did more research - which for me is very important. I have to be able to map out the Gypsy Family Camp (BIIe) and the surrounding area. It's amazing how many sectors were part of Birkenau (Auschwitz II). As part of my research, I watched the film called "The Grey Zone" - about Dr. Miklos Nyiszli, the Sonderkomandos (worked the crematoriums) and the revolt on Oct 7 1944. Not a bad movie - I cried though like I do with all Holocaust films.

I also rearranged a few scenes and am getting it where I can just write.

Technically no OBE work - although I did do some sex coaching.

In the aftermath of last week - I realized today that I never posted last Monday's "Ask Allie" to iTunes. Duh! So I did it today.

We're supposed to get a snow storm this week - there's something really wrong about that.

Also in all the hustle and bustle in March - I forgot to acknowledge the anniversary of "Allie's Two Cents" - this blog has been online since March 2005:) It's nice to know that after all this time people still find it helpful as they journey on their spiritual quest. I started the blog to talk about Bill, Ted and our soul connection. Pretty cool how it grew from that.

On another note - I did some much-needed cleaning today along with a butt load of laundry. Tomorrow I take my son to see the sensory therapist here in Wooster. Still having to listen to
"What About Now". I hope I get the message soon. The message from "Under The Tuscan Sun" was Italy. I figured that out by picking something for my son and I to watch - and it was "Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade". I was 1/2 way through it - and it dawned on my, Italy. I haven't had the urge to watch either movie since. Now why Italy? That I have no clue - yet.

One nice thing about me having to check in is that I write here daily:) Now if I could only write once a week in the OBE blog!

BTW -- love hearing what people are doing or not doing on their "To-Do" list.

Off to bed!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

In Keeping With The Program...

....I worked on BT today. Did a lot of research instead of writing - but had the breakthrough I needed. It could have been the wine, The Dead Zone or Queen Elizabeth The Golden Age - but something clicked just as I was about to jump into the shower. I'm not bitching...

Woke this morning with my energy the way it's supposed to be. I feel asleep telling myself to have that talk with Michael as we slept. Looks like it worked. He has been around - the forever "watcher" but at the same time Vincent is here guarding:) I'm glad big, sexy and Italian came back. I hope he stays. Whatever was going on - he must have had a breakthrough as well because Andrew is back.

I'm tired....off to let the dog out and then to bed I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

PS: although technically I didn't work on OBE today - I did read more about fetishes and sex coaching while my son ran around like a loon at Little League this morning.

Sometimes I Wonder....

...what the (*&^^&* is wrong with me. SIGH. I worked on BT a good part of the day. More research - I found a survors network that may give me some insight to the Gypsy Family Camp at Birkenau. But as you know, working on BT stirs up a whole lot of emotions within me. Siince my son will be with his dad this weekend - I already went and bought some wine to drink as I'm working on BT.

Not a lot of work on OBE - but I did manage to get myself booked on a couple of radio shows in April & May. So that's cool.

Now as I'm working today - I keep having these visions of Bill and Ted. They are in an outdoor cafe with some friends. They're all talking when I walk up and say "excuse me". Without even looking at me - Bill blows up. In my hand I have Bill's rock. I place it on the table and mumble to myself "I can't do this anymore". Tears fall down my face. I look over at Ted and say, "I'm sorry - I am so-so sorry." I turn to leave and Ted grabs my wrist.

I look at him and say "Telling you won't do any good - you have to know. Seeking out the answers can't stem from your brain as curiosty - rather it has to come from here (I touch the middle of his chest), your soul. The stiring must come from your soul."

I stare at Bill - get close to his face - "I wish you'd pull your head out of your ass. I refuse to do this life over again." I yank my arm from Ted - and walk off.

Now to top this off - once I had that vision - I had to go watch the scene in a movie that reminds me so much of Ted and a past life we had together. What did that make me do - yep cry. So I'm crying today because of BT - which led to the visions and then me crying because of Bill - and that led me to the scene, Ted, and more crying. No wonder I'm tired.

And boy am I tired. Another night without any restful sleep. Whatever my subconsious has to learn - I wish it would hurry up.

Off to get my shower - and I hope - get rid of this sinking feeling I have in my soul.

Talk to you later...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Making Amends, To-Do List and Subconsious Reality!

I swear I have no idea where my day went. Granted, today was running errand day. I still have one more stop - but it'll have to wait till Friday. It was a nice sunny day here in Ohio and I figured - why not? Besides - was sooooo tired of sitting at my computer. I also worked on my college financial aid forms and my scholarship applications.

I've used a good portion of brain power on my "to do" list which as I told you guys - I'd be accountable for here in the blog. Working on the BT I have hit a road block that I have to find a way through. The original plan in the script was to have an SS officer and a gypsy woman leave the camp in search of something by orders of Mengele. But the powers that be think it's too far fetched - so I have to have all of the action that I had on the various trips confined to the concentration camp. I've been studying Birkenau for hours -- going over maps - looking at buildings. I have to have an idea of what I'm going to write - and then I'll fill in the details as I'm writing. But I can't find that overview to start with......I have 1 month until this script is due and I have to have it done. I know I'll figure it out - but in the meantime it's unsettling.

That said -- I was able to work out a couple of scenes that I want to add. So that was cool. OBE I got no where with. I just ran out of time.

For those of you who voted in the Start-Up Nation contest - thank you. Winners will be announced in May. Fingers crossed.

My dreams are still really out there - and so *&^% busy. I mean WTF? On top of it I can't remember a dang thing. I asked Ethan why can't I remember when I'm usually pretty good at it. He told me the good stand by "You're not supposed to know". I sighed - I couldn't help myself. He told me that if I consciously knew everything my subconscious knew - then I'd be overwhelmed and I'd shut down. The nice thing about a subconscious he said is that it has no distinction between the physical realty and the other worlds/dimensions. So it operates under the assumption that what is going on in the subconscious is your reality. Hence why the thought process and habits are a huge part of our reality. Humm...if I could get my subconscious to believe that I was actually in a physical reality friendship with Bill, Ted, Vincent and Will - would my reality shift to accommodate the world that my subconscious lives in? Or would my subconscious and reality be at war with one another - thereby creating a hell of a lot of inner turmoil?

I must admit - there's a small part of me, I'm ashamed to say, is convinced that I'm not supposed to be in any kind of relationship with anyone in my soul cluster in this lifetime. If that is indeed the case - I must of really screwed up in past lives in regards to these guys to have this happen now. In order to make amends (if there are any to make) would I have to do it in person by having a physical relationship with them? Or could I make amends via our energy fields & souls? Would that heal whatever it is we're stuck in? I should be asleep - but I'm up pondering these things.

I mentioned to Ethan that I have not seen or felt Andrew in along time. He said that Ethan is off working with Vincent. He does stop in daily to see how I'm doing - but Vincent really needs him right now. I'm thinking it's time for some chick power: Iris, Jezell and Brigit. As soon as I typed that I heard Ethan say I was crazy - lol. So what's his point?

Seeing that I will be a pain in everyone's rear end if I do not get to sleep - I'd better scoot.

Samatha and AJ - how did you do on your projects today?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)