Karma, George And Will!

Oh for the love of Goddess and all that's sane -- what a day thus far. I thought things would run more smooth since my son is back at school. That podcast of mine took 7 - yes 7 tries to get it to go. My brain was actually getting fried from having to repeat the same thing so many times. It's all because of that George. Yes - George. You know who you are George...in fact, I'll also bet that Will knows which George I'm talking about too although I'm almost certain they haven't met -- yet.

Okay - so over the weekend I was thinking back on my life - especially back to my childhood (I took out my old diary's) and I discovered that most of my Ken dolls I named "George", my pet I wanted to name "George" I even wrote that my husband's name was "George". This got me thinking about George. His energy is what Will's was - very persistent and patient. But with one difference from my side - I am keeping him at a distance on purpose. But I don't know why I'm doing that. George by all outward appearances is kind, generous, creative, handsome and exactly how Samantha described my future mate to be (although I did think at 1st this was Mr. Client guy - I was hoping actually that it was Mr. Client Guy and not George who 1st popped into my head): He's tall, with black hair, tanned, and he's a little older, but not much. He has a nice body, he's skinny but he does have some muscle to him and he's clean shaven. I'm feeling you may all ready know this man? But it's like he is going to come around even more when you move.

Now right now I don't "know" George - so again when his named popped into my head, I dismissed it.

But this made me shift through my old chat logs with Tracey and came upon an old reading that she kept saying the name George in. One of the people I was asking about kept saying George and I had no idea what she was talking about. This was back in May I think. So -- this all led me to ask Maria Shaw about George and I got her answer right before I did the podcast - blew my mind away and explained a lot:

This guy shows up in the marriage part of your chart......I think the past life has to do with the fact that you were married three times in other lifetimes. He feels a strong need to be with you....like he is supposed to be with you but I am not so sure you want to remarry him again! One relationship lifetime he was abusive. The other one he was a drinker and the other one he was a good man. He was never the woman. He had to learn about his male energy (side) so always reincarnated as a male. It is he who cannot let you go. He has a strong need to possesses you. You feel a connection but also something is not right. He will revert back to old patterns from those lifetimes with control and your soul knows it doesn't want to go there but he wishes to fix the karma. He really does but do you wish to sacrifice another lifetime to allow him to do it? It is up to you! He has a Pisces rising sign (addictions) that falls in the 5th house of your chart which rules love affairs.....and taking risks in love. It also speaks on where your personal wounding is (for Allie). He wounded you in former lifetimes. His moon opposes your Jupiter EXACT. He may not support your traveling or even your spiritual growth in time to come. He may go along with it now but long term could limit your spiritual growth and advancement.

In his chart you show up as someone who could be financially supportive of him as well as someone to teach him his self worth. You also show up in the house of marriage! Go figure. Those past life aspects are pretty strong in both your charts and in the same places too. And yes, your moon shows up in the 12th house of his chart...which is one if not the biggest indicator of past life ties. I took a class in this years ago and this is amazing. Many marriage connections. I am fearful of the things I mentioned above; addiction, temper, possessiveness, control issues once he is married to you.....his past life personality may shine through eventually. But it is UP TO YOU. You have your reservations about this. You should but since you say he is patient then you have time. Take your time. The findings could be exciting, revealing and release you of karma for good with this man. OR you could choose to marry him and work them through. It is your choice.

So -- after I collected my thoughts and stopped yelling "SOB" & "you've got to be kidding me" at the computer - it all made sense. Why his energy is always there pursuing me and why I am very standoff-ish about him. It took me a few rereads but something else hit me. When I was married to George 1st he was abusive - my 1st ex husband in this life was abusive, the 2nd time I married George he was an alcoholic - ex husband #2 was yes, an alcoholic. The 3rd time George was a good guy and everyone has told me that my last partner will be a good one and it will be a past life connection. Could my soul actually have sought out the 1st 2 husbands in order to get that part of my experience with George out of the way? So that when he does come along I let him in? Could it also be that I am alone now to work on me and build me and my spirituality up so he will not have a chance to try to control?

I don't know....but it actually all makes sense to me without me trying to have it all fit. It's not something that I had to work on. Now if I am with George, then I'm not with Will. And if I'm not with Will then I'm not with Bill later on -- and then we do not complete whatever it is we are to complete this time around. We'll have to try it again.

Being with George is something that is up to me while being with Will is something that is up to Will.

Will I be as scared of George as Will is of me? No. Because I understand.

So George - what in the hell are you waiting on? Seriously. Will hasn't made a move and who knows if he will. Let's see if you have more guts than I give you credit for:)

Now on an unrelated kind of note - I had this wacked out dream the other night. I was walking along side a castle with someone - I can't remember who - but I was telling him that he was in my soul circle. I was trying to tell him without sounding like a nut job. But as I was telling him the castle was getting ready for battle and there was a spy in our castle. We (as I guess I was the queen) built a secret chamber under the castle so that my son could hide out there during the war. He had enough food, water and air to last him several years. I was to go to battle with everyone else. But I was told no - that I had to go below with my son and ensure his survival. It was too important to have him survive - since I was a warrior as well, I could battle anyone that found us.

Then I woke up.

And on that note - I gotta run. I still have a crap load of emails in my inbox. many of you have a ordered readings, classes and coaching - I'll get back to everyone as soon as I can.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

George, Will And Tid Bits!

I make some kickin` salsa. I really do. The salsa I made for the family gathering turned out great - but not as good as normal. Why? Because I used store bought tomatoes and not my own since I don't have any -- yet.

My son was jamming to ABBA this weekend -- I had to laugh -- since I was about his age when I started listening to him. He wants to go see Mamma Mia. Not sure if I'll take him or wait for the DVD -- not much of a musical type of gal. Also I'm not sure when I'll see the Dark Knight. Heath has been nice enough to say he'll watch it with me - which I appreciate - but do I really want to feel his energy while he's on the screen? I know me - I'll cry.

I'm a geek. Yes - this is something we all know -- but I out did myself this morning. After I did the podcast I messed around with the software that I record with and discovered that this place also records video podcasts. Well I have a web cam on my computer - never used. So I recorded a video of me being - well me. I laughed my ass off watching it. But no - you won't see it - I deleted it. I had toyed with the idea of doing a video podcast. Doubtful, but you never know:) I had gotten a laptop with a cam just in case I ended up dating someone who I wouldn't see all of the time because of work travel. I thought it would be a good way to communicate. But of course 1st I have to date in order to use the cam:) Which means I have to find someone.

Speaking of finding someone - last week my son and I were in the grocery store and I saw someone that I had coffee with last year (we hit it off immediately - but he was still hung up on his soon-to-be ex so it never went anywhere) and as soon as he saw me he turned and almost ran over someone trying to get away so that I wouldn't see him. WTF? We kept going down the isles and he did everything in his power to let me know that he didn't want a thing to do with me. Wow. I thought to myself - what in the hell did I ever do to you? But I ignored him and my son had no idea that there was even anyone around that I knew. As much as I deal with people - they still baffle me.

Okay - now that I have electric again -- I can continue...

I was working on my podcast this morning -- and when I went to put in what the "Deal of the Week" was - Iris said "no". I'm like - why not? She said - you need to put in spells. I growled at her -- magic? Why? Can't we go to healing if you want me to add something? She said nope - it's magic. But I thought I was done writing/casting it? Nope -- she said, and then Merlin jumped in -- you were just on a mini vacation. You have work to do.

Oh for Pete sakes -- really writing and casting spells again? Iris said - it's Will, that's your common past life connection, besides the love, and if he is to recognize that on his side, then he has to get the feel for it from your side. What affects one of you effects the other. So if you are back into practicing magic - then he will sense it and do the same. Merlin said - expect to visit me in the dreamscape every night until further notice. Iris chimed in - you and Will have to be together, it's written in your soul contracts, so if he is not coming forth with what he already knows, maybe the pull of magic (not by doing a spell on Will, but by doing magic period) will pull him to you.

So those two leave and I fix the deal of the week to reflect what they said. Wa-la. Will arrived. Energy speaking - of course. He had a rather sheepish - yet adorable - look on his face. We exchanged some small talk -- and then as he was leaving I asked - talk to you soon? He smiled and said yes.

Now during my power outage and before my crackberry started to run out of juice - Tracey and I exchanged readings. I asked about many things - one in particular was George -- I'm trying to figure out how he fits in with everything....here is that IM exchange:

Tracey Loper: George seems to be the one that has some key element of bringing you all together -----------and I sense this has to do with his energy and power of charisma - its like he seems to have a way of standing up to Bill even - I see Bill bowing up to George and George just saying give it your best shot - I am going to still be standing when you get done - so get it out

Tracey Loper: He can talk to Bill

Tracey Loper: He's got this way of relating to anyone

Tracey Loper: talking anyone into anything

Tracey Loper: he's sharp

Tracey Loper: and quick minded and thinks on his feet and he seems to be able to do anything he puts his mind to

Tracey Loper: G already knew about you

Tracey Loper: before you knew about him

Tracey Loper: he's known of you

Tracey Loper: and has waited on you

Tracey Loper: wondering when you would get tired of all the blondes

Tracey Loper: lol

Allie: Does he realize that when I write about george that it is him

Tracey Loper: he does

Tracey Loper: he knows

Tracey Loper: its like its about time

Allie: So do we have a soul connection?

Tracey Loper: yes allie

Tracey Loper: you live on the wrong side of the country I think

Tracey Loper: all your people gather in cali

Tracey Loper: lol

Tracey Loper: some on both coasts

Allie: Closer than the other 3?

Tracey Loper: I am not sure about closer -- no -- but you seem to get support from him

Tracey Loper: as a pattern

Tracey Loper: he's a leading man

Tracey Loper: but not the lead man

Tracey Loper: whatever that means

Tracey Loper: in some ways

Tracey Loper: you support the other three

Tracey Loper: more than they support you

Tracey Loper: but G is support for you

Tracey Loper: that's what I get

Allie: So he's on the same level as the other 3...or maybe 2 if will is my other half

Tracey Loper: yes

Allie: And he supports me

Tracey Loper: He seems to be consciously aware of you

Tracey Loper: like he has been

Tracey Loper: for some time

Tracey Loper: and yes

Tracey Loper: I get jealousy around G for Will

And before any of you ask -- yes, me and Will still together, etc....once I get my arse out of Ohio:)

So George seems to have some sort of close connection like the other 3. Who knows...but it is nice to know that when he reads this blog that he knows that when I say George it's him and when Will reads this -- he knows it's him. I wonder if Will and George have it figured out who Will and George are? Humm....

Now George showed up - energy wise - after that reading - as I was just sitting outside trying to stay cool with no electric. He showed up and I asked him - any chance we'll ever be romantic? He said no. I said damn. His reply - it's not up to me. It's not - I asked? Would you ever do anything to hurt Will? An easy answer - no. He said - there you go, you with anyone, including me would hurt Will and you'd never be able to do that and just be his friend. Of course If you ever change your mind, I'd like to be the 1st to know. Yeah -- I thought -- I'd never hurt Will intentionally. So George is right. But I still said damn to him again -- and he laughed. He said - as long as you and I are alive, there's always a chance. Then he faded from view...

No news from Nickelodeon yet.

Heard from the vet today - Brodie's heart is fine (thank goodness). I just have to keep an eye on his breathing.

No news about my son's brain EEG.

Haven't had time to think about new readings.

Now sure what I'm doing about Cheat Peeps - so stay tuned.

Off to make dinner!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Guys, Tracey And George!

I'm trying not to cry - but I'm a big chicken worrier. My Black Lab - Brodie - has a lot of fluid in his lungs. He is going to the vet today at 2:15 EDT. Labs are famous for congestive heart failure and lung tumors. I am praying for bronchitis. Indy is also going to the vet today - 1:00 - for his annual thyroid test. He hasn't been eating very much - and for a dog who lives for food - that worries me. So fingers crossed that my snoops are okay because if they're not - then mamma here is not okay.

The kid goes in tomorrow for his neurology consult. I don't think that anything is going wrong in his head - and I feel it is the energy he absorbs is the problem - but you never know.

Now would be a good time to have someone where to lean on. I'm not good at leaning - in fact - I suck at it. Blame it on me being the oldest child or that I help people for a living - I just bite at it. One of my lessons, I'm sure.

My son asked me if I was gay over the weekend. I told him no - not as far as I know - but why did he want to know? He said because I am not dating anyone and he thought it was maybe because I loved a girl. I told him no - that's not why. Mom doesn't have the time to date and even if I did - the pool in Wooster Ohio is but a puddle for me to find a date in. He replied that he's tired of just one adult here - he wants another person with us. My reply - when I have time - and have some men to choose from (that are actually interested) I will consider dating.

So then he said - what about Will? I said - what about Will? Why hasn't he called - he said? I don't know - I replied - maybe he's scared of us? We're not monsters - the kid chimed in - we can love him. I know honey - I replied - this is something that time will have to take care of. He was not happy with that. The thing with the kid is he's just as psychic as I am - and seeing the future or knowing what is supposed to happen, doesn't help. It's very frustrating to me - so I can only assume how frustrating it is to him.

On that note - both Tracey and I had major headaches last Thursday -- this could only mean one thing, a visit from the guys. They did -- and she emailed me this the next morning:

First, I remember Will coming to me and saying that he would not like to attend the meeting because he was feeling so great from his healing that he did not want Bill to ruin it with any anger towards him. He said that he is having a hard time being in Bill's 'field of energy' because he's so angry. He said - further - Ted is just as intolerable as he is in need of 'cleaning up his act'. He told me that he had been saying prayers for Ted that he would get to rehab because he is concerned that if he does not he will have seriously ill health.

Then I remember Bill coming to me. He was all in white. He had this oversized white blouse on with puff sleeves and white pants similar to the type that men in India wear but different. He had on a necklace and it was made of ivory and there was a shark's tooth on the necklace. There was light all around him. He told me that he had been cleansed and purified in 'the lodge'. He further told me Allie did the ceremony. So, he said, tell Will I am no longer angry with him - I only have brotherly love for him.

Then I remember Ted coming in - oddly he had on Harley Davidson type clothes - all black, leather - not his typical garb. I remember in the dream feeling I had to ask him - so I did! I said, Ted what is with the clothes? He said - well since I am the villain in this situation I decided to fit the part. I am evil - don't you know? Drinking and drugs - sex and rock and roll - all that stuff! Piss on Will! He thinks he is better than me! He said that he was living his life the way he wanted to and that no one including, Will would tell him how he should live his life! He said that Will was a judgmental prick. He lite a cigarette and pulled a flask out of this bag he was carrying. I remember looking in the bag and it was full of all kinds of alcohol and drugs, etc. I told Ted that he did not have to 'play' this role and that he could fill his bag with treasures instead. I filled it with healing stones and crystals. Then he illuminated and his clothes turned to an aqua greenish blue color and he looked much different. He said that he no longer needed those old things and that he was unhappy. He told me he needed healing too and asked if I would work on him and I said yes.

Then I remember the three of them coming together. Rather than talking about you at this point - they were talking about themselves. Will apologized to Bill and to Ted for seeming difficult and judging - and for not moving forward. He talked to them about needing to deal with issues and emotions and he told them he felt that he was a different person. He was thinking so much more clearly now. He could see the good in both of them and within himself. He thanked them for not giving up on him and for being his soul brother and friend.

Bill apologized and he shared that his love for everyone was what made him so passionate about bringing everyone today. He told Ted that coming together is important and that Ted would experience a transformation once the group was together. He told Will that he had an impt. part in all of this. He told him that his actions would change many lives. He told him that he was proud of him - that he loved him and that he did not want to bicker with him anymore. He looked to Ted and he said we are brothers and we are friends. We are on the same team. We are one.

Bill and Will embraced Ted. Ted was holding their necks tightly. Then this Gold Light surrounded all of them. There were these two triangle grids that formed into one shape. I hope this makes sense. The three of them were in the center of this grid. There was this sphere of light that appeared between them - in the center. It was golden white. It brightened. Then it ignited into a bluish flame. Then it turned into a gold flame. The energy was expanding all around them and it was spinning, pulsating, and I remember that I could feel the heat and the intensity of the fire. Just above them I saw an image of your face - like you were there but far away - it was so faint but it was there. Behind you I saw a blue Angel. She was faint or faded looking as well. The two of you sort of blended together into the background outside of the pyramid(s) grid.That is all I remember......but it seemed as though there was more or that these were really long or took a long time............I woke up feeling like I had not slept.

Before she sent me that email - I had asked her to ask Bill about George. Now George is someone who has been around for awhile - and keeps trying to make himself better known to me - but I keep pushing his energy away. There's a definite soulful connection as when I even think about George, my heart chakra expands. He's 6 years older than me, from the Midwest (is KY the Midwest?). dark hair and dark eyes - and his b-day is only a few days different than mine. I don't know about this one - what role he's played and will play. I've mediated on him - asked Iris for input - and all I'm told is that if I know ahead of time it will freak me out and I'll change the course. So hell - I don't know. I can see where knowing more would freak me out - but I want to know more. I feel about George how I felt about Bill when I first discovered our connection - the "You've got to be kidding me" phase. But I don't know our connection yet. So maybe I'll hit the "Holy Shit" phase when that happens....

And yes, George is his real name.

So Tracey said she would concentrate on George and Bill as she fell asleep. This is what she wrote the next morning:

I had another dream this morning but I have no idea what happened. I saw a flash of what seemed like another planet. There were aliens. They were communicating telepathically but I could 'hear' their thoughts........ and I saw this purple, amethyst - violet - hues of purple looking dome thing and I was in a space ship and so were you and Bill - although I did not see either of you -- I just 'knew' you were there. I woke up saying - B??????????? A??????? That is all I remember. But I had set that intention of G and B when I fell asleep - so maybe this is part of the answer?

So the plot thickens - even though I don't want it to thicken, I want something to happen so that we can move forward. SIGH.

And on that note - time to start to get ready to take Indy to the vet.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Odd, Ends And Me Bitching!

I hope my brain doesn't fall out over the next two weeks. Seriously - I hope not. The kid is home with me for the next two weeks and if they go like this last week did - I'm in trouble. He's really pushing those boundaries and that mouth --- talk about having to count backwards from 100 so I wouldn't kill him. And he's grounded - from everything that he loves (that usually keeps him out of my hair as I work) - which in turn is punishing me. But - I can't give in -- and I won't.

Phase one with Nickelodeon is complete - and the project passed. Now we have to go to phase two and pass through a test in person (not me in person but my Rep's) - and this will not happen until everyone is back from their vacations. We're looking at the week of the 14th. Fingers crossed for that:) I've done my own tarot reading on it and it looks really good. Hopefully I didn't put too much of "me" into the reading and skewed the results.

I feel like I'm in a big void of nothing. I have all of this stuff that I need to do - but no excitement to do it. All of the waiting I've had to do for a variety of things has zapped my "want to do something" mood. I need something to shake loose somewhere. Whether it's my non-existent love life (yes folks, I do believe I have scared off another person and this one already knew all about me), stalled career or beyond hilarious - getting me very stressed out - money situation - something has to move forward. I know something will have to move because change is inevitable - but come on already. Frustration doesn't do well for my complexion.

Yes, I do believe another man has gone running in the opposite direction. SIGH. And no, I have no idea what happened. One second everything was fine - the next nothing. I guess that I'm just not supposed to be with anyone for now. Maybe someone WILLed Mr. Client Guy away? I have no idea. But it doesn't set well with what self-esteem I do have left. I just can't wrap my head around my good for nothing ex having a happy love life - when I can't seem to get a guy interested for more than 2 weeks. UGH!!!

Okay - enough of me whining -- moving on...

The kid and I are heading up to Cleveland soon with my mom to see a dinosaur show up at the "Q" (which is where are Cavalier's play) in a couple of hours. Should be a nice outing. Hopefully the weather won't be too disagreeable and make driving a big hassle. Tomorrow is my son's kid party - should be fun.

Will's been around more than usual the last couple of days. It's been nice to see his face in my mind's again. The two scenarios that keep flashing through my mind are he, my son and I walking into a building where there is a doorman and he knows my kid and I as we live there -- he also knows that Will is a frequent guest. The other scene I see is Will, the kid and I in a small Italian restaurant sharing a pizza -- we're laughing about something. Both scenes are uplifting and positive. I rarely ever have a bad scene with Will in it. Even the fight visions I get aren't that bad because the make up sex is well worth the fighting:)

Speaking of sex - with Tracey's healing on Will the sexual energy clog that he's had is certainly cleared up. His energy has let me know that he's feeling much better.

Either Bill or Will has been doing a lot of blog checking lately. Not sure which one as both of their energies are strong right now. Could be both - don't know.

An odd last dream last night/this morning --- I was in my house, and my cats were chasing something. It looked like a small dragon - but I thought it was a frog - it had red spots. My cat Cera really kept bothering it. I finally got all of my cats into my bedroom and shut the door so that I could find this little creature and put it outside before it was eaten. I find it -- and what is it - but a tiny cat. Like it got put into a shrinking ray or something. It's a long-haired white cat with reddish & black spots. It looks at me and just lets out the biggest meow! I picked it up and it sits in the palm of my hand, just being as vocal as can be. Now I'm thinking - what in the heck am I going to do with this cat so that my other cats don't kill it? I put it in a an open dresser drawer and think about getting a very large bird cage to put it in. I call my mom to ask what I should do and I wake up.

I just went outside to let my dogs do their business when that butterfly who tried to run into me before - tried it again. It sees me and it's like I'm a magnet. Very strange. I saw orange kitty a few days ago - his front left leg was looking really bad -- and he hasn't been back since.

Off to go get some writing done and then heading up to Cleveland!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Psychiconair.com, Atlantis, Crystal Skulls And The Guys!

My weekly segment on the Maria Shaw show on CBS Psychiconair.com & AOL, went great! I was on right about 10:00 am EDT and stayed there till about 10:15-10:20. Good times!

I can feel it -- change is in the air. And it's strange - because when I can sense there is a change, I get a metallic taste in my mouth. I think my son can sense it too because he's been all over the board with his emotions and we're both getting headaches. Neither one of us has has one in awhile. Of course they could (and his super surplus of energy) can also be a byproduct of Tracey's healing on Will. What affects Will effects me -- and what affects me effects my son since he is an energetic sponge. Both the kid and I are back to not sleeping too -- something else that happens when change is near.

So change already! Of course I really mean it if it's a good change and only kinda mean it if the change is bad. But either way change is bound to happen at some point in time.

Between my hyper son, the storms, animals, writing and work -- it hasn't left me a whole lot of time to write in my blogs or even work on my screenplays. Hopefully with my son going with his dad a few hours tonight I'll be able to buckle down on some writing!

Speaking of my son - again - I can't believe that he'll be 8 next Tuesday -- 8! It feels like yesterday that they yanked him out of my body:) He brought up Will the other day. We were talking about NYC and how we both really want to go back sooner, rather than later. And he mentioned something about Will and going with us to the Central Park Zoo. I can't remember what my comment was, but that sent us to talking about Will having a girlfriend. The kid went off the charts talking about that. He was so pissed that Will may or may not (you know, the on again off again stuff) still have his girlfriend. I tried to explain that Will's can have a GF, just like Bill or Ted and his wife -- even I can have a BF. He wasn't going for that either -- kept going on about how Will and I are supposed to be together and how no one else will do -- etc....it took me about 30 min to calm him down. Again - not sure how we got from Central Park Zoo to that -- but I will be mindful not to go down that path with him.

And before you ask - I am still smitten my Mr. Client Guy. Too bad we're not in the same state right now.

Remember all of my tomatoes and peppers that I planted? Most of them are gone -- killed by the hail storm last weekend. Dang it all!

Since Will has been getting the healing/attunement energy from Tracey - he has been popping in often - but he doesn't stay long. It's in - saying he's sorry - and them leaving again. Yesterday he popped in and said he's sorry and then said that I'm hard headed, stubborn and won't give up. I replied - hell no I'm not going to give up - I do not want to repeat the same lessons again. And that's what's going to happen to all of us if you don't snap out of it! He smiled and said - I'm working on it, thank you for not leaving me. And he was gone.

Leave him -- like I could ever do that? Like I would ever want to do that -- no matter how insane he makes me. Same goes for Bill and Ted. No matter when, what or why - if they ever need me - for anything I'd be there for them. Psychically, spiritually or both. They are right on the outskirts of my energy - always are - when I have a lot of work to do (and they do this too) I keep them at arms length. Once they're "in" (so to speak) they are there for awhile -- and then it's hard to work. I am still learning how to tap into their energy as a muse. Especially Will. He's my muse.

My dreams last night were really funky. As soon as I finally dozed off about 1:00 am they started and continue until I got up at 5:45 am. Ted and I were in a multi-level building that he and I had been in several times before. Cars drove up and down steep ramps. Offices were all along the sides. He and I were fighting about getting him into a treatment center. He was drunk off his ass - being a bully and expecting me to back down. I told him that I loved him and that I wasn't going anywhere. Something clicked right then and there and he started crying -- big sobs -- on how screwed up his life is and he can't find the road back. I told him that he can see the light, because he sees me. And to hold onto that light. I won't let him go and neither will Bill or Will -- but he has to trust us. Ted said that he doesn't even trust himself so how can he trust us? I replied - because we're your eternal partners and we love you unconditionally. Something happened in the background as he was gone and I was off to the next segment.

Which brought me to Bill. He was in the center of a HUGE library -- reminded me of the NYC library my son and I saw. Any ways - Bill grabs my hand and takes me to a far corner. He moves a few books around and a secret door opens. Without waiting for me to say anything - he yanked me in and the door shut behind us. I smelled an overwhelmingly scent of mold - like I was stuck inside of a 200 year old basement. The air was stale and heavy. I asked where were were and Bill flips on a flashlight - puts it under his chin to illuminate his face and raises his eyebrows up and down (what a goof). He then shines it around and I can see shelves of very-very old books and a dusty old table in the center of the room. He is looking at the title on the shelves and pulls out a leather bound book. I recognize it immediately as the book he carries in my Atlantis visions. I say - so this is where you found the book? He replied, it's tucked away in a secret location and only the ones who should find it will find it. I look more closely at it - and the ink is very faded, the pages so darn old I don't know how they've survived this long. There's mold on the book - Bill says he is taking it with him and will try to get the book restored so we can use it. I ask if I can look through it -- he said that Will needs to hurry up - I tell him that Will is not here and let me see than dang book.

I carefully flip through the pages and one with skulls on it catches my eye. There is a map, looks to be through a pyramid, and it illustrates the places where one would find a skull embedded into the walls - you are to follow the pattern until it dead ends. Then there are numbers like:

3 9
7 21
9 981

We hear a noise, Bill takes the book, shoves it down the front of his pants - I joke and ask if he's sure he has room in there for that? He gives me that smile and he's gone. On to the next segment.

I find myself among large Redwoods. I stare up in amazement of their size and sheer beauty. I can't help but go over and lightly rub my hand on the bark. A voice startles me -- they're beautiful aren't they? I turn and it's Will. I comment that they are magnificent. He replied that he envies these trees - they are strong, mighty and have survived regardless to what us humans have done to the world around them. I asked him, why did you bring us here? He sits at the base of the tree and pats the ground in front of him. I sit in front of him. between his legs - he wraps his arms around me and pulls me to his chest. For this -- he said. All I want is to do this. I smile and completely relax in his arms. I don't know if it's possible to fall asleep within a dream, but I swear we did for the next thing I know he was gone, it was dark and I see a light in the distance -- so I go towards it.

Now I'm with a group of people I don't know in a bar, drinking some serious beers down. A friend of mine shows up and we decide to go out for pizza. On the way out we run into a group of wealthy people - one looks like the actor Richard Hatch (Not Survivor - think Battlestar Galactica) - but it isn't him. This guy is much taller (6'5") and very thin. This guy for some reason takes a liking to me -- but his friends want to go so they all leave. My friend and I head out for pizza, but instead wind up at this huge house that has been in my dreams before. She tells me that she can't go anywhere because -- then all of this stuff falls out of her butt, onto the ground -- well, of a small problem she developed. So she leaves to clean up - I'm in this bathroom -- and I decide to go potty. So I sit down to poo, but I don't take my panties down until I'm 1/2 done and then I remember - duh! So I do and I shake out meatball shape/size, rock solid, poos from my panties and dump them into the toilet. As I'm doing that and finishing my business, someone stops into say hi - we chat and they leave. I still have poo to remove and as I'm dumping them into the toilet, it turns into a bathtub -- and launches me into this OBE sex experience.

When I was done in the tub, I'm running down this double wide staircase to the 1st floor, running behind the staircase to a bedroom when the front doorbell rings. Next to me is the same person who was talking to me as I was on the toilet. I tell her to get the door - she's like no way, it's for you anyways. So I run to the door, putting my t-shirt on as I go. When I open the door, there's the wealthy man from earlier. I smile and become all flirty. He does the same. Then oddly he hands me this big set of keys that are on a variety of key chains, all connected. I asked why? He points to this green bear (looked like a small emerald bear) keychain and said if I ever need the key, here it is. The key to what - I was baffled. He said - the morgue. If I ever need to get someone out, this is what I need to use to gain access. The rest of the keys - he said - I would have to figure out on my own, but they were all important. With that he was gone and I woke up.

What an odd series of dream visits. Why would I have to get someone out of a morgue? And the green bear pendant on that keychain was so green and vibrant.

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Tracey And Sexual Energy!

Thunderstorms have been the bane of my existence these last several days. I've had more trouble with electric staying on and my Internet connection during this time than I've had for years. Dang good thing that Mercury Retro is over or it really would have been bad! I've had a 7 year old attached to my hip and a herd of cats/dogs following me all over the place with the - "help me" - look on their face. Fingers crossed - the weather for tomorrow doesn't include storms. I am however, grateful for the rain, which is helping my plants grow - grow - grow.

Last night - around 10:00 pm EDT - emotions kept coming to the surface and staring at me in the face. Repressed anger, regrets, sadness -- all showing up. As quickly as something would pop up - I'd acknowledge it and it would fade away - and I'd be fine....until the next item came up. I emailed Tracey today and asked how her healing with Will went last night - she replied:

Yes, I worked on him from 9-11:30 PM my time last night. Emotions were his biggest issue. I focused on emotions for at least 60 minutes!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But, everything went beautifully. I am going to move onto personal growth next, like fearless reiki, light of forgiveness, deep healing, open heart, inner light, light of truth, inner beauty, soul mate and self love. I am going to do these every night starting tonight at 10:00 PM my time, in the order I mentioned above until he gets an hour of each. This is what the Guides revealed as what he needs most at this time.

So when she started the healing last night at 9 - that is CDT - it corresponded with my 10:00 pm emotional train wreck. So because Will and I are so close, what is being done to him - effects me. Tracey said that she'll be doing healing for the next 9 days, every evening, 10:00 pm CDT. SO by 11:00 EDT, it will be a good idea for me to be in bed, just in case more memories or emotions pop up. I wonder how this is affecting Bill and Ted? I wish I could call them up and ask.

Fingers crossed for tomorrow - Tuesday - my people (I actually have people now - lol) are going to talk to Nickelodeon. Extra positive energy for a good outcome - if you could spare some:) Just so happens that the Nick executives are in NYC. What a shame if I would have to go there!

In between no power and my son being so close you'd swear we were conjoined twins, I did some reading on energy healing - just as I was supposed to. And as I was reading all I kept thinking was -- why does this have to be so complicated? Why do you have to manipulate this to shift that to heal stuff? If the healing energy comes from the Divine and not us (obviously) wouldn't the Divine know what needs to be done where, when and how? Without us doing a whole lot of extra work? But I guess you can't sell books if they are only 50 pages thick - now can you? I mean come on -- I'm reading books by some of the big names out there in energy healing and I'm serious --there are so many terms thrown at me, that even I can't keep them al straight. Keep it simple. You need to keep things simple. That's what I kept hearing Iris say to me -- think back, she said - remember Atlantis - how complicated was it? And if I session back in time, it wasn't that complicated. Sure, there are certain things to do for each illness - but it was still very simple.

Humm....

Which lead me to add some different readings to the Sex Advice part of Gypsy Advice. I added in Sexual Energy Readings. Iris said that one of my missions in this life is to help people with their sex lives -- and in that process I will develop a sexual energy repair/enhance method.

Humm again....

I added a search box at the top of Gypsy Advice's index page that allows you to search both GA and Gypsy Girl Press. There's so much info now on both sites, that I thought it would be helpful to have that.

I'm in the process of rewriting THE BLACK TRIANGLE -- and for that I've had to dig back into my research. It makes me ill -- really sick to my bone rereading everything I uncovered. When I don't think I can read any more, I flip to a girl's picture - a cute gypsy girl in pig tails, with a wonderful smile and heart pounding brown eyes -- and remember that she died at the hands of Mengele. That spurs me to keep working. She's my poster child.

Okay - off to get my shower and then to bed before the next storm hits!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Tracey, Ethan And Merlin!

Okay, it doesn't fall on deaf ears that all of this is coming at me on the solstice. Ethan just popped up - he leans in and whispers: be ready, the damn about to break loose and you're going to get catapulted forward. Go with the flow, don't resist, analyze or judge - just go with it.

And he disappeared. Now he showed up the other evening as I was flowing asleep and told me to be patient. Now this...

Merlin also just arrived and said that he wants me to meet him...here go my hands again (see previous entry)..wow are they hot. I'm in Merlin's cave - in the magic room. He grabs my left hand and wants me to stand in between two large crystals. When I'm on the crystals, he chants in a language I don't know --but in English it translates to: You are free. He draws a star on my third eyes and a triangle within a circle on my crown chakra. Wow - what a jolt of energy that is -- then I'm back here again.

I'm not sure what that meant or what it did. But I find it interesting that Merlin showed up right after Ethan sneaked in and said that the damn is about to break loose. Now I am getting a headache - a pounding one.

Tracey just emailed me back about Will - I had asked her if she removed the negativity from his energy field:

Yes, a lot in fact - he had a lot of dark black smoky stuff - and sludge that was removed. His chakras were a mess to say the least. I am going to do another chakra BCC next week to be sure I got all the dark spots in his chakras and to be sure they are still functioning properly. I am going to do some more healing on him on Sunday between 9-11 PM. I am actually putting him on my schedule so that I do not forget and do it when I have time! :)

I forgot to mention in the previous post that Will actually did show up last night and apologize for being so nervous and scatterbrained.

Must get back to work....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Energy Healing, OBE Sex And Will!

Happy Solstice everyone! If you're into doing magic and casting spells - today is a doozy of a day for you! The extra emery on the solstice helps any spell manifest. But since today is Friday, the day of love, AND within the full moon range (a phase of the moon is considered 3 days before - the actual day - and 3 days after) -- it really is a kick butt day for a love spell. Over at my Gypsy Magic blog -- I have tons of love spells that can be cast today! But be very careful today what you wish for!

My son - who has been a good kid in all of his summer school activities - told me last night that he is firm, he wants to go back to public school. So I say fine - you will. So today when I pick him up yesterday, his teacher tells me that he has reverted back to his intrusive and not listening days. What gives? I just don't get it. I asked him what was going on -- and he just says but I want to have fun mom. I can understand that - but you have to have fun within the rules of the place you are at. he went back and forth for a bit - and I told him if I hear anything bad today - his x-box is in storage until further notice. He about had a cow with that - but some grumbles later he said okay. (update - he was a good boy)

So there you go - public school it is. I'm still not cool about it - but - it is his choice. We'll see how the year progresses. Hard to believe he'll be 8 on July 1st. He showed me his "whiskers" on his face they other day - lol.

Yesterday when I took him to and from school - I had a white butterfly follow me up and back both times -- then here at home there was a beautiful yellow & black butterfly fluttering around! It's been a while since I've seen any butterflies - let alone having 2 who were hanging around with me.

Today is a busy day. Stupid busy. I should fire the person who made my schedule --wait -- can I fire me? Seems like a damn good idea! I could use the time off - lol.

DREAMERS seems to be okay as is -- and now I'm working back on BLACK TRIANGLE. So don't be surprised - again - if you don't hear that much from me in the next week.

I've been obsessed by this little baby Cardinal (just got his feathers in) who is in a tall bush down the street. He's learning to fly and for the last 2 days he'd stay on the ground. Which would be okay since mom is around - but it is right in the heart of stray cat zone. So I've been going down and putting him back in the bush a couple of times a day (gloves on mind you). Mom's there and both her and the baby are rather used to me now. I have to check on him again today.

Orange Kitty (a new tom cat who showed up on my porch last month) really hurt his paw (wouldn't walk on it) and now he hasn't been on my porch for 3 days straight. Makes me very worried that something horrible happened to the guy. He is so starved for attention that when you do pet him he is soooo into it he scratches the hell of of your hands -- so I have to wear gloves petting him.

Petting - which reminds me of hands - which again reminds me of how hot my hands have been these last two weeks. I'm rather baffled to the "why now" of them being hot. I know it has to do with healing and I'm just going to put my hands on the animals. If I think about healing or my hands being hot - they flare up. I've read more books on healing - and I have my own method. I had always thought though that I would do healing after my entertainment (TV shows, etc...) career was over - so later on in life. I can see Iris here shaking her head. Well, heck -- I wonder what kind of time she expects me to do. Ahh - she is telling me that she wants me to read more before I go to bed - and on my down time (what down time) to put Law & Order on hold till Fall (oh man) and read to relax instead of watching TV. Is there any book I should be reading 1st. Yep - she wants me to re-read my Rosicrucian booklets (yes, if you didn't know I am a member of the order) and at the same time - pick up he Advanced Chakra Healing book and go through it again. But I am not to fall into one method of healing - but take from here and there to form my own method. Just as I said that - I had a flash vision of a crystal grid with someone's picture in it -- to use for distance healing - and if someone is at my place (I'm going to have a healing place - before the castle - Iris says yes?) then I am to configure a grid around them as I work.

So if I am getting what I see -- my energy methods are a combination of crystal grids (and laying on), energy and flower essences. Iris says -- yes girl -- now get busy with your practicing.

It's strange cause I can see it as plain as day -- a person on my table - but it's not an ordinary table, but one that I have had handcrafted from crystal - a cloth covers it so that the patient will not be too cold as soon as they lay down. Around them are grid make from amethyst towers and large chunks of moonstone - there is a door to another room and in this room is a HUGE crystal in the center & sage smoke all around -- and on the shelves sits just about every stone one can think of. I walk into this room to grab what stones I need and go back to the other room. I first place energy into the patient then lay down the stones. As they lay there with the stones on them (soft music is playing) I move over to the flower essences and put together a personalized remedy - I also see myself opening up a putting together a gem elixir. Way cool. This vision rather expands on past images I have had about a healing center - one that is in a castle - but this part of it seems to be in a cave, or in the side of a mountain. And I'm getting a yes from Iris - this part is actually built into a the side of a mountain where there is a fresh underground spring.

Sweet! Iris says that I have to start now with the healing as the entertainment career will help pay for that healing center. But in order to have the center, I have to be a healer. Makes sense to me. But dang it all - seriously - how do I shove it all in a day? I know -- I know -- no more Law & Order!!

Tracey emailed me Wednesday evening after I told her that Bill would be back:

He did show up again Allie - and this time was too funny because this time he looked really strange. He did not look like himself at all. I do not know if he was appearing as he was in a past life or what but he looked dirty and rough I guess. He had a beard and mustache and his hair was darker and he was dressed oddly for him - kind of rugged and dirty I guess. Anyways, he said that he has been working on Will on another dimension - as he realized that Will is having a hard time taking all this in where he is at this time in the physical reality. Bill says that he is able to travel multi-dimensionally - and that he was able to meet with Will on a higher level. On this level, he had more success and he feels like this will help Will. He asked me about doing some healing for Will even though I do not have his permission on the Earthly dimension in the Higher dimensions he is okay with this. So, I tell him that I am assuming that it is okay but I will ask Allie and pray about it in meditation. He says fair enough. He showed me his hands and they were rough looking - not like I would expect his hands to be. He said heal them. I said okay and I started working on him just like I would if someone were in person and his hands started glowing this beautiful emerald green and then they went back to normal - no roughness. He said see what you can do. Thank you. That's all I remember, Allie. So, what do you think about the healing energy for Will and what kind should I do if we think its a good idea - like Reiki, Aura Clearing , Cleansing , Balancing - yadda yadda??

I gave her some suggestions on what she should try with Will and she mentioned that she was going to start with him yesterday. I haven't heard back on what happened.

Iris is saying that I should ask for some volunteers for healing. I will do just that - but not yet. I'll take people in groups of 3 -- I'll let you know when I'm ready. In the mean time - think about it :)

Hell - now she tells me is that I'll come up with some energy combo to aid sex lives - fits in with the OBE sex. Again -- how many hours in a day? Okay, one step at a time - I have to stop looking at the whole picture, even though that is what I see right now. baby steps Allie - baby steps.

And on that note - it really is time for me to get back to work/writing/readings.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Ted, Bill, Will And Tracey!

Finally -- I woke up this morning with this email waiting for me...

Hi, Allie. I went to bed and set the intention for a dream visit. I had a dream visit with Bill. We were on an airplane together. He had all these papers he was working on - lots of paperwork. He said, see how busy I am and yet I have time to meet with you. I said yes. He told me he was pissed at Will because he is not answering him - not responding. He said he had a solution to that - he would just get in his face until he answers.

I asked him where we were going and he said where else? NYC. I said okay. He told me he was going to keep on bugging Will until he got mad - angry - cried or something.

So, the plane lands. A limo is waiting and Ted is leaning against it waiting on us. He comes over and helps Bill with his bags. He goes to take Bill's brief case thingie and Bill says no let me keep this.

We get in the limo and Ted says, want a drink? Bill says no! And, we need to talk about the drinking. Ted rolls his eyes while making himself a drink. He tells Ted that he cannot take watching him kill himself. Ted says he's going to be around forever and not to worry about it. Bill tells Ted he needs to look in the mirror as he looks like shit - looks like he's aged 10 years. Ted says he's not stopping and doesn't want to talk about it or else they will just fight. Bill says okay.

We get to this hotel. Its a really nice one - we check into the hotel. Bill asks me where my bags are and I said I did not bring any as I did not think I was staying. He says, no problem, here is my credit card. Get some stuff from the shops on the first floor and meet us in our room which is room number 311. I say okay. I go to the shops down there and buy some clothes, toiletries, etc.

I go into the bathroom and get in a stall and call you on your cell phone to tell you what is going on so far. You tell me not to let Bill go off on Will as Will is not going to respond well to it anyway and they will just butt heads and nothing will get accomplished. I say okay. I hang up. I go up to room 311.

I get there and Bill is on the phone arguing with someone about speaking to Will. Ted rolls his eyes at me and says are we having fun yet, wanna go to the bar? Bill is half listening and he shakes his head no - to me - so that I say no. I tell Ted no, lets just stay in and have a drink. He says okay lets go on the terrace.

Then Bill hangs up and comes out onto the terrace and takes our drinks and empties them over the side of the terrace. He says to Ted - I mean it - STOP. Bill goes into the bathroom. Ted grabs my hand and starts pulling me out of the room. I am thinking to myself how do you say no to these guys! So, we go down to the bar. We are sitting there a few minutes and Will walks in.

He sits next to us. He says call Bill and tell him to come down here. We can talk here as long as he can be civil.

We call Bill and he comes down. So, he tells Will that he's not going to yell or argue but that he is angry with him. He's angry because he's not answering his calls and angry because he did not show up for the meeting - he's angry because he's hurting Allie.

Will says that he is sorry that his actions are hurting Allie, that it is the last thing he would want to do. He tells Bill the truth is he is freaked out - not sure what to do - he's angry and upset because Allie is seeing someone. He's deeply hurt by it and he feels that perhaps Allie is happy without him.

Bill cuts him off and says - save it Will - go get the girl - get over yourself - what are you, a pus? She met someone - so what - go and get her - stop pouting like a baby! He tells him that he does not blame Allie for seeing someone since Will is afraid of his own shadow and will not come forward. He tells Will he needs to deal with his fears and insecurities and stop thinking and start acting.

Will says that he's struggling right now with all of this - and Bill say boo hoo - Will - do something or everyone loses - this is on you!

Then Will says no it was on you and you did not do anything and now you want me to and I am just trying to process my feelings and decide what is best for me!

Bill says - you are so stubborn and hard headed - and analytical - and just annoying - and Will says well look in the mirror -everything that annoys you about me is within you!

Bill laughs. Will says he has something he wants Bill to look at and Bill says funny I have something I want you to look at. So, we go back to the room. They are comparing information from your website but I can't see what it is. Then Will says - right, that makes sense. That's what I will do then and I will see you next week. He leaves. Bill smiles and Ted and I look at each other like WTF?

I wake up.

I can vaguely remember talking on my cell in the dream and that it had something to do with Will - but I don't remember who I was talking to. I can also remember Will walking across a hotel lobby and Bill with a stack of papers. Seems almost as if I was looking in on it - but I really don't remember any of it (maybe because I wasn't supposed to be in the meeting?)

I looked up 311 in my angel number book and it says: The ascended masters are helping - and urging - you to keep your mind focused on creating and manifesting at the highest level of light and love. Avoid addictive behaviors as they mask your desire to create.

Interesting message to the 3 men - don't you think?

I know that Will is upset with my new interest, but it's not like I'm marrying the guy tomorrow.

I can feel that a dam is about to break - in a good way - but I'm not sure if it deals with my personal or professional life -- or both. I'm just ready for something to move forward:)

Off to get moving on the day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Kid, My Family Tree And The Garden!

So I'm almost done enrolling my son into the homeschool program with K12. My parents - bless their hearts - say I'm making the biggest mistake. I said no -- been there and done that when I got married to ex #2:) They didn't find that very funny. I listened to them both a bit (two separate phone calls - one from each parent) on the concern of taking him away from other children, I'm not a teacher - yadda, yadda. I explained again how it all works and then politely told them both that while they are free to express their opinions - I'm free to ignore them. They both know that it really is fruitless to try to talk me out of something once I make up my mind.

And then the kid says something to me -- mom, I don't know if I want to be homeschooled.

HEAVY SIGH

Okay -- I tell him -- think about it, but you have only 24 hours to do so and get back to me.

Now mind you - this is a subject that he and I have discussed at length. Now all of a sudden he's thinking about it. What could have changed his mind? Two words: his father.

Well - it's not like I'm jumping up and down with joy at the thought of teaching the little rascal. Just like a spouse - he is well equipped and knowledgeable of knowing what buttons to push to piss me off:) But, my top goal is to make sure he can learn and adapt enough with his empathic gifts in a comfortable environment without getting stressed out to the max.

I finished putting in the rest of my garden on Sunday. Killed 3 peppers plants in the process. I grow the little guys from seeds, so I take offense when they die. But they suffered from transplant shock. Everyone else seemed to have made the transition okay. A couple are a bit droopy today - but not dead, so there's hope. Now while you're in the garden you feel fine - dirty & muddy - but fine. Two hours afterwards it hit me -- and my body is still hurting. I need a serious body massage:)

Did I ever tell you that on my mom's side of the family - her mom - they did a family tree. Traced my ancestry back to some civil war soldiers, American Indians, over to Europe - all the way back to Charlemagne. I kid you not. So on one side of my family tree I have Vlad the Impaler and on the other side "The Father of Europe". Here's a tid bit on him: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charlemagne Very - very interesting. Add to this my DNA ancestry - my soul past lives of Cleopatra, Atlantis and Joan of Arc -- and no wonder I hate to clean!

Tracey emailed me today. No word from the guys over the weekend. But she is having one of those kick you in the butt headaches. This usually means something is about to happen. So if Bill does not contact her today - she's going after him. I'll let you know what happens.

Turned in the latest of DREAMERS. We'll see.

That's about it for now. Usually when there's not much to report is right before there's a lot to report:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Guys And I'm Smitten!

Before ya'll ask -- I haven't heard from Tracey today. Yesterday - last time I talked to her late evening - no one had stopped by for a visit. However, all day the energy around me was very heavy and depressing. I was fine as long as I was talking to someone or engaged in a reading. As soon as I was flying solo - the heaviness crept in. This is something that wasn't coming from me - yet I could feel it in my heart chakra. When I did talk to Tracey she commented about feeling the same thing - very heavy and depressing around her.

I think that I may know what has brought on this heavy, depressive feeling - Will. I have found someone who has grabbed my attention - he's a client of mine and we've had a mutual attraction for quite some time - but never acted on it. I kept hearing to email him Wed night - so I did - just to say hi. Thursday was spent with each of us telling each other how we've been attracted to one another from the get go. And in fact - Gab had him pegged years ago, described him to a "T" - and I knew it was him when I met him - but didn't say anything. So anyways as we're talking yesterday I told him about Gab's readings - twice - she talked about him - but not by name. Several years earlier I had a reading and that person called him by name. And guess where he lives? NYC:) Anyways -- that's what I think brought on the depression from Will - as what happens to me is felt by them and visa versa.

As I'm writing this -- I got this email from Tracey:

I did not get anything - so I finally went to sleep. Bill came into my dream - and he said that Will was not cooperating and did not want to meet - and he said that he was going to keep trying and that hopefully he could get Will to agree sometime before the weekend was over. He said 'Will is angry and depressed, but he will not open up and is not willing to talk right now.' I said okay - this is disappointing news, but I guess that's the way it is. Bill told me that he needed me to send Ted some healing because he's staying high a lot and he thinks that there are things Ted is not facing. He feels Ted is running away from his problems. He thinks he is unhappy in his relationship. He said that he was sending Ted healing and to ask Allie to do the same. He showed me a triangle by drawing it with his finger in the air and he said there are three sides and if all three of us send him healing there is strength in this. I said I agree and told him I would and then I said but what about Will? He said, oh yeah - I guess we can do that too. So, he tells me - I am 'on call' - basically and that's really all I remember. I am so bummed. I expected there to be something BIG you know. I think I am actually disappointed.

So let's see if they contact her over the weekend. If I get something in I will post it:)

Wait a minute -- that reading that I posted from a client to me (it was Samantha BTW) said that I would be with someone older than me - not too much older. Oh, here's a snippet: Clairvoyantly, I see moving toward the East and I am seeing happiness not only for you, but for your son as well. I feel a lot of warmth and laughter. I also see a man walking into your life when you make this move. He's tall, with black hair, tanned, and he's a little older, but not much. He has a nice body, he's skinny but he does have some muscle to him and he's clean shaven. I'm feeling you may all ready know this man?

Sounds like him. He's a Cancer - me a Taurus - so from a zodiac prospective it's a good match. We'll see - it's far too early to tell anything -- but I like what I see & feel so far.

Talk to you later -- I'm sure!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Strange Letter, Thursday And The Guys!

Okay -- it takes a lot for me to stand back and say - WTF? But this is a bit out there -- even for me. Now you have been following the Bill, Will and Ted saga - right? If not - read below this entry and get acquainted or this tid bit I'm about to say won't mean squat to you.

Tracey emailed me yesterday - all freaked out - and very perplexed. Seems she received a letter in the mail with no return address - postmarked in RI. Inside there was a single sheet of nice white stationary paper and on it, written with a fine black marker, was:

See you on Thursday.

The writing was neat - good penmanship. No signature - no nothing.

Ah yeah -- I would've freaked too.

Could it be one of the 3? There's always a chance. Who else would it be? She and I think it's the same person - Bill. I told her that if Bill shows up on her doorstep - after she regains consciousness she is to give him my address and tell him to start driving - lol:)

Neither Tracey or I think it's him 100% - we're about 95% sure. Now I really can't wait for tomorrow!

I spent a good part of the day planting raspberries, blueberries, strawberries and grapes. Tonight I'll put in my tomatoes, peppers and corn. I'm tired already:) I just hope everyone lives...Sometime - maybe tomorrow - I have to go out and trim things: trees, shrubs -- they're a bit out of control.

Very soon today - I'm going to be getting a ready from my friend Gab. I get a reading from her about once a year - she's great with talking to the deceased and for communicating with your guides. I have a whole range of questions to ask her (and yes, Will, Bill and Ted are among them) and I'm really curious to hear what the deceased has to say. I wonder if Heath will show up? I normally ask about the guys -and I asked last year she said:

Will: will meet in 2008 - mind blowing experience.
Bill: Has been to my web site dozens of times. Has no idea what to do or to make of the situation.
Ted: Gab wanted to know if I had met him. He was very strong around me. Seems that when I get a reading - people always ask if he and I have talked.

I get that always about Ted -- and he's the 1 I haven't met! I seriously will pass out when he's in front of me some day. I hope I'm already sitting down when he walks into the room.

What else did Gab say last year? Oh that I have a lot of love around me, I'm never alone and that although things will be tight - money wise - everything will work out and I will always have enough to make ends meet. Love wise - alone for 2007 - most of 2008 until fall of 2008. That's when I find someone who will treat me like a queen and I will know what it is like to experience heaven on earth. In the meantime though I will be very experimental sex wise. This has to be about the explosion of OBE sex I've had this last year....

I'll let you know what she says this time around:) She really is amazing calling out people by name (all you do is give her your name - that's it) talks about how they know you and how they died - then messages delivered. She's really very good.

Okay - must run - will be talking to her in a few.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Bill And Will With A Sprinkle Of Ted!

I'm not mechanically inclined. Try as I might -- I just can't figure out how things go together unless the instructions are ironclad. Well, the direction for my fan were not that straight forward. What would have taken my ex maybe 10 min, took me almost 40. But -- I did get it together - so for that I have to give myself a pat on the back.

I also have a horrendous tooth ache I'm battling. Getting my 1st cavity at 38, I'm not used to mouth trouble. But this tooth is just killing me! Well, it's not just a tooth, it in loves 1/2 my jaw. Now I realize part of the problem is that I clench my teeth as I sleep and I've used one of those store bought guards for awhile (a dentist made one is way out of my price range) -- but dang. I think part of my filling came out. They couldn't get me in to see he dentist till next Thursday. So until then I'm a crying and popping Tylenol. But Goddess..this thing REALLY hurts!!

With my tooth and the "kick me in the ass" pain - I can't eat. It hurts to eat or drink - unless everything goes through a straw. Plus - it hurts to talk. That's a bummer on so many levels. Not exactly sure about the podcast tomorrow - if I do one it may be really-really short.

(The above I wrote on Friday)

Today - Tuesday - I'm going to the dentist -- they had a cancelation!

(Below - This dream visit I tried to write about on Sunday)

I had a dream visit last night with Bill, Will and Ted. I entered the dream in a long hallway with high arches. Everything looked to be made from moonstone and marble. There were quartz crystal sconces on both sides of the hall - no visible flame or light bulb, but they glowed anyways and lit the way. Bill came running out of a doorway - stopped - looked at me and flashed me his million dollar smile. What are you up to? I asked? Nothing at all - he replied.

But I knew he was full of it -- something was up.

Bill commented - You're going to love NYC! I'm sure I will - I replied - any idea when I'll be there? He laughed - sooner than you think. He grabbed my hand and started to pull me down the hall. I'm like - where are we going? He said - any place but here.

Which of course made me think - why?

Then I knew why -- Will came out of a door. Will looked down and us and shouted - Hey!

I gave Bill that "look" - like shame on you.

Then those two started yelling at one another - oh good lord the cuss words. Finally I said (and I remember this line crystal clear) -- both of you shut the fuck up!

Startled they both looked at me -- I kept yelling: what do I look like - a piece of property you two can barter over, decide who I will be with -- talk to me as if I wasn't here when I'm standing right here! That's it -- I pick Ted.

The look on their faces was simply priceless. You can't do that -- Bill said. And who in the hell made you team captain? I yelled back. I'm the oldest soul Bill replied - that's why. Wrong - oh wrong -- I said, Will is. You're wrong - said Will. Am not - I said. Yes you are - we're the oldest soul - Will said.

Roll of the eyes -- whatever. I pick Ted. And when I roll over morning, noon or night and look into those scrumptious green eyes -- I will not be thinking of either if you.

He's married - Will said. Today he is -- but it's Ted, give him a few more months, a year tops.

Where's Tracey - Bill said. Not here - I replied -- and I'm outta here. Bye boys.

A look of sheer terror came over them.

I woke up and smiled. They have no clue who they're messing with -- but they'll catch on.

And on that note - off to the dentist I go...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Bill And Tracey Part 2!

I told you I was waiting for an email from Tracey. With as much sleep as I did not get last night I just knew they were there with her. So I emailed Tracey and told her she was killing me keeping me wondering what's going on. Here's her reply:


How in the heck do you always know what will happen. I have not had ONE WINK of sleep tonight! Not one!

So here is the break down.....

11:30 PM - Bill pops in - are you available? and I say yes! He says good. He is going to get with Ted and make sure he can meet us at 12:00 PM - he wants me in my meditation room.........

12:00 PM - Bill again! Ted is there too! No Will! Bill says, okay - here is the deal - I need to talk to Will but I need you there for the energy support - and I need Ted there for moral support and to calm me down if I get crazy again! Ted says, me? I am crazier than you! Bill says, this is serious - Ted says, I am serious - Bill says stop drinking the rest of the night - Ted says how about pot? Bill - says nothing! Ted - says - I can't do that! Bill says grow up - Ted say no! (I feel like I am watching a ping pong match with adolescents) Bill says brb let me get Will in here.....

Ted asks me what I think of Will. I tell him I like him but I want him to come forward for Allie. Ted says he does not really like him for you (Allie) but if she (Allie) wants him then he will help. I said well thats what is important then.

12:10 PM Bill is back, Will won't be ready until 2:30 AM, Ted rolls his eyes, Bill gives him the finger and I just say okay see you then.

2:30 AM Bill is back, Ted is back, no Will - Bill and Ted have select words - Bill says Will was involved in something important (didn't say what) and that maybe he was running late - he would meet back at 2:45 am Ted says this is such b.s.

2:45 AM Bill is back, Ted is not there, Will is late by 5 minutes - Bill apologizes for his outbursts, Will accepts apologizes for his - Bill tells him someone needs to come forward - Will agrees - He says that he is not sure he is ready - tells Bill this is a lot to digest - to understand - to trust - and that he's having a hard time with it all - and has been feeling like he's crazy, second guessing himself - the whole situation - is nervous, scared, skeptical - Bill asks him to meet with he and I and possibly Ted once a week this month about this and Will says okay - Bill asks him if he thinks by the end of this month if he will know one way or the other what he will do - and Will says yes he thinks so. Bill says fair. Then Bill tells me that he is going to take Will to the places we have already been - back in time - and throughout the various meditation visions - the ones with me, the ones with Allie - and that he won't make me go again. I say thanks! :) He and Will shake hands - Bill puts his arm around Will - and they kind of step over something I cannot see and they are gone.

5:00 AM - Bill is back - Wanted me to know Ted passed out drunk and high.....I said that figures - lol - and he said - well, it was okay anyway, I say yes. He says Ted will meet with us....and he will coordinate the when each week - and that next week it may be tuesday or thursday....I say okay let me know - he says he thinks Will will step up. I say good. He says when I get your bill its going to be big! I say no its free but can I go to sleep now? He said yeah and that he thought he could sleep now. He kissed me on the cheek, gave me a hug and he was gone.

And there you go...the saga contiunes.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)