Soul Cluster, Dreams and The Next Best Author!

I know - it's been awhile. No I haven't been off having the time of my life. Instead I've been neck deep in a pile of homework  - both for the U of A and for the Sex Coach Institute. Plus for U of A I am helping with a couple of research projects. I get to study for finals my birthday weekend - oh goodie - and then after final's week I'll have 1 week off and then it's time for summer classes. Don't get me wrong - I LOVE school - I only wish I had more time in the day to get everything done.

My kids show idea that H'wood likes but won't take a chance on - I decided to make it into a book series. I had thought about it before - but pushed it aside in hopes it would make it to TV. When that fell through - my manager suggested the book series. I decided ok. The only problem is my muse is on vacation.

It's been that way since I kept the guys at a distance. Then when I cut them off completely I kissed the muse goodbye. I don't like it - but it is what it is. I need them. It takes a lot for me to admit that. Because I not only don't want to need them, I don't like it. After Bill and Will slammed the collective door in my face - I really have wanted no part of them. But yet here I am.

Gloria, my guide/ascended master, has been encouraging to let my soul cluster back into my energy. I asked her - if I was supposed to cut ties of those who were holding me back - then why am I supposed to let them back? She answered - who ever said they were the ones who were holding you back? Ahhh...errrrr.....wasn't it my former guides? Or you? She said no - not exactly. While it was mentioned to cut ties it was not specific in who that should be. I said it was them. So I cut the ties.

Did I progress after the ties were cut? No. So they weren't the problem. Damn. Gloria then chimes in and says the problem is with me (dang it). What am I supposed to do - cut ties with me? Can you even do that? Yes she says (I'm like WHAT). But the ties you must cut are not to yourself - your soul. But to the ties of every negative thought - deed - action that has been done towards you. Every defeating blow - that is what you have to disconnect from.

I had to ask -- how in the world do I do that? Do I ask a guide/angel to do it? She says no. What I am to do is to call on my Star people for in their light  there is no wrong. That's exactly what I did. As I asked for them to remove all of the defeat I feel a tingling sensation (like pop rocks) start at my crown chakra and work it's way down my body all the way to my toes. It felt very energizing and soothing. One of the nicest things though when I did this is I saw Ted's face just as clear as could be in front of me. I've missed him.

I wrote the above before I went to school yesterday. Today (Tuesday) I'm at school again - but I'm watching over a research lab - this way I can finish the post!

Yesterday in class Will made his presence known. Wow! This would be something for the OBE blog (if you don't see a link to OBE - that means I haven't written it yet). Let's just say that he was back with all of the energy he's been holding back since I pushed him away last year. It took all I had to pay attention in class. He certainly shot up my sexual energy - good God! But at the same time what happened -- my muse came back. Which is what I needed.

Bill and Ted have also made an appearence - with Bill sticking around longer than Ted. I had a quick vision with the two of them - we were in a room with a lot of people. I had just got done yelling at Bill. I turned to leave the room and Ted said - Please don't leave. I stopped for a moment - then took a step towards the door. He said - Please. I turned to look at him  -- he steps in front of me, puts his hands on my shoulders and says - I didn't know. You can't punish all of us for something they did. It's not fair. Looking into those sexy green eyes of his must of gotten the best of me. Because before I knew it we were hugging. Vision ended. Vincent also showed up for a few seconds here and there during the day. It's like he pops in - checks on me - and leaves again.

On the way back from school last night I was thinking.....in past lives; Will has sacrificed himself a few times to save me. He has loved me completely and selflessly; Bill has loved me, treasured me and took care of me; Ted has devoted himself to me with love, selflessness and friendship; Vincent has loved me whole heartedly, has protected me and has always showed me the lighter side of life. In this life I'm starting to think that I have chosen to take it alone - void of them in the physcial sense - so that I realize what a lucky person I am to have these wonderful souls in my eternal life. Sure in some lives they've tried to control me, kill me or have me killed. With my attitude I can't say that I blame them - lol. But overall I have been extremely blessed. I do wish though that I would be able to tell them (physcially) in this life - but maybe it is just not to be.

Lately I've been having some odd dreams about my pets. Three nights ago it was Gimli running around the house like a mad dog. Just round and round and I was so scared that he was going to run out into the road. Two nights ago is was my cat Trouble. I had to put him in his carrier to take him to the vet. The landscape was all frozen. Snow and ice everywhere. Somehow Trouble has gotten outside. I looked and I looked and I couldn't find him - I was just beside myself. There were people around but I couldn't get anyone to help. Then last night is was all about Gimli again. Someone had opened the front door to my house (but it wasn't my house but my mom's) adn he ran out. There were a bunch of guys in the driveway and I asked them if they had seen Gimli. They're like - what? I'm saying a hyper blond lab - you can't miss him. No one knew where he was - I was heartbroken. Now Trouble has been to the vet several times - he seems to be ok. Gimli I never let out of my sight for very long when I'm home. So I don't know what's up.

T from MI - before I totally forget -- got your phone message - all kicks ass:) Hope to see you on Oct and good luck in May:):)

I would appreciate your help! I've entered my "Out of Body Ecstasy" book into "The Next Best Spiritual
Author" contest a week after everyone else. Could you please vote for me? And ask a few friends to do the same? The authors with the most votes are the ones who move to the next level. Each author is allowed
one vote per ...person per round. So far I don't have the votes needed to move to the next round. The phase ends on May 2nd (someone who you know and love - it's their birthday )
 
Link: http://www.nexttopauthor.com/profile.cfm?aid=2917
 
Thank you for your help!
 
Since I asked the Star People to help out and remove all of that yucky stuff I didn't need - I haven't had one bad, self-defeating or negative thought. It's been great!!
 
Yes - if you sent me email - whether it's one of my normal emails or on FB - I know:) I'll get back with you as soon as I can.
 
That's about it for now. Since the guys are back - I have a feeling more stuff is going to be happening!
 
Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Guys, A New Guide and Attachments!

I'm tired today - but not as bad as I've been. Last night I slept like a semi-rock. I say semi because I don't think I've slept like a "rock" without waking up at some point since 1996 or so. Any ways - I think it's in part to the question I had asked about Bill - I got my answer.

My Question: Will Bill honor our soul agreement in this lifetime?

Monte's Answer: I feel that he's on a different path than you are and even though he loves you, I don't see that meaning that your path and his will be be forever...not in a relationship of love...but more of a Spiritual kind-ship...He's not satisfied with his life right now and wants more than you do so he's looking a lot more down the road....You're looking more in the now and you both need to be looking at what life offers for each of you along the same path, not what you get versus what he gets....What I'm saying is; Your priority should be to want the same thing or negotiate them to a conclusion so you each know what's most important.

My Response: Unfortunately for Bill and I the balls in his court and has been for the last 5 years. I have no way to contact him in the physical realm - but he stops by my blog to check in on me and he has my phone number. There's so much more we could accomplish for the world together than separate. It's frustrating. Especially since I know he's not satisfied with his life and he's looking for more. The nightly dream and daily telepathic contact is nice but....

Monte's Answer: ***This is holding you back as an attachment so 'Let Go, Let GOD', everything has a purpose so don't allow this BIG issue of yours distract you from where you need to be Spiritually....I do understand and feel your frustration at the lack of of an acceptable reason for Bill to be with you on your path, but he has work to do before he can accept a partner in his life just as you have your work to do....Release him with love and let Guidance take it from there...

He went on to tell me about his experience which was similar to mine. He told me about removing attachments and because of that one of his guides left and a new one arrived. This got me to thinking -- I haven't had a new guide in a very long time. Maybe before my divorce. Before I got divorced, I must of been doing some major growth because I had a lot of guides come and go.

Last night I decided to ask the universe to remove anyone or anything from my life that wasn't for my highest good. When I went to sleep I felt lighter. I don't remmeber Bill or Will being in any of my dreams.

In the shower this morning I remembered something that Monte said - he consciously removed the attachments. So as I was rinsing off I brought to me each of the guys - said "Go in peace, do what you have to do, and then come back." Next was my 2 exes. For them I said:  "Go in peace and never come back." Each one I sent out into a brilliant white light. All of them were rather easy to let go of but Ted. My heart chakra felt heavy, then had a vibration and a tug. He looked horrible as I let him go - but I knew I had to.

As soon as the last one was gone - some of my current guides took a bow and left: Ethan, Edward and Robert (all 3 said they would be back at some time) and Iris (who said she's not coming back). Then I heard a high pitch sound and saw a very vibrant golden light. I heard a female voice say that she was here now. I recognized the energy immedately from a past life regression I had 3 or 4 years ago. If I could figure out how to transfer the regression session from a cassette tape to here I would. Anyways -- in the regression session this soul/light came through me to talk to Cindy (the regressionist). This light was part of my star past.

I asked her name. She said it was a sound - close to what we could say is a "C". She told me to give her a name if it made it easier. So I called her Gloria. She told me I was one of the Star Children - Ted and I. This was something I already knew. Then she said that my son is also a Star Child - he was Ted and I child - and becaue he is a star like me, it's one of the major reasons he and I butt heads. His soul is almost as old as mine and like me - he's a leader not a follower.

Gloria then went on to say that I sabatage myself because I'm not like everyone - and I want to be like everyone. So I do what I have to in order to remain - normal. Well as normal as I can be :) She then showed me a diagram...went something like this:


STAR PEOPLE (1% of all souls)

                               MOST OF THE SOULS (98% of all souls)

                                                                        DARK SOULS (1 % of all souls)

She went on to explain that if I deny who I am - then the scale tips in the Dark Soul's favor. Especially since Ted and my son have no clue about their light - yet.

I asked if we're all stronger when we're connected - then did I do the wrong thing by releasing the attachments to the guys? She said no. Even though on the physical plane the attachments were cut, on the spiritual plane we're all connected. On the physical plane they were (unconsiously) draining the light from me. In order for me to "shine" then I have to refuel and allow my light to shine through. When the guys are all strong enough on their own - that means they completed their tasks - and they will all be back (with the exception of the exes, of course).

I ran a few plans past Gloria and she liked them. When I go to impliment them into GA or OBE, I'll let you guys know:) Since our convo this morning - she is off my right side - the light is constant and strong. I know there was much more said during our talk, but right now I don't remember all of it.

Off to the side of the blog I put links to my Twitter page and my new Facebook page.

It feels nice to be writing in the blog again.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Will and Vincent!

I have a headache. I think it's from the lack of good quality sleep. Once my head hits the pillow I'm out. But it's not a resting sleep. Oh no. I have to keep traveling. The dream visits I had last night seem to be a continuation of the dream where I couldn't find my physical body. There were three of us in a room - I think it was me with Bill and Will -- and our astral bodies were standing over our physical bodies - that were laying on green slabs of rock? Maybe concrete? We couldn't get back into our bodies. We felt so heavy - like lead. I still can feel the panic I felt. None of us knew what to do. We knew that there was someone in another room that wanted something with us. It was important for us to get back into our bodies, so that we could wake up and get the heck out of there. Bill and Will were arguing on what to do. I kept trying to tell them that if we worked together we'd all get back in. But they wouldn't listen. They were both too wrapped up in being "right". I was so frustrated that I screamed and screamed until I woke up. I then laid there pissed off. Damn those two. I just know that this is going to come back again and again until we get back into our bodies.

Last night I also heard Iris talk about Vincent again and how he's supposed to be the one. I asked her to stop talking about him. If it was that dang important for him to be in my life - then he'll get here - but I'm not going out of my way. She'd tried telling me that I have to go out of the way. Something about me being the light and all. SIGH. I'm not sure what to think about all this. I know that whenever I get a reading from someone - they always pick up on Vincent. Always. But then they can't tell if it's actually supposed to be Vincent or someone who is like Vincent. I'm open to whomever the universe sends me.

I got my Census 2010 in the mail today. In big bold letters it says "Your Response Is Required By Law." Oh really? What's going to happen if I don't return it? Is the gov't going to spend more of our tax dollars on the Census police? I just shake my head.

There have been some strange happenings going on here while I'm wide awake. I don't know if you remember a year or two ago, I would have a black mist/energy/spirit show up in my office. Same thing again. But this time with the shadow - I also have flashes of light. Everything is right in the corner of my eye - I look - and it's gone. It happens all over my house - but in my office it's the worse. I'm not scared or anything - I just wonder who it is - and what do they want?

Gimli has been seeing a ghost in my neighbor's house. Gimli will sit outside of Bob's house and just wag his tail like crazy looking at his house. He paces - barks - looks around the side of the house -- all when Bob isn't home. I think that it kind of freaks Gimli out because I've had a hell of a time getting that dog to go outside to the bathroom. He just stands and stares at the house.

Time to get ready for bed. I'm exhausted.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Dreams and Astral Travel

Bill. This man. Double super SIGH. Okay, so I've mentioned before that he is in my dreams every night. Now we don't always interact in the dreams. Most times one of us is in the background of the other's dream. I know - strange huh? But when we do interact, the dream stands out vividly. The other night my dream took me to my next door neighbor Bob's house. Now Bob in reality has a very big tutor house that he lives in all by himself. In the dream somehow our houses were connected. All we had to do was slide a door over and we could wall to and from the houses (like connecting rooms in a hotel).

Bob's house was under construction. He was cutting the ties with my house and making us have two separate structures with a driveway in between (how it actually is).

So I'm in his house looking up at this massive staircase in the center of his entry foyer. I look over to my right and there's Bill. He's in a t-shirt, jeans with a tool belt. I remember thinking to myself -- should I talk to him? If I do, should I act like I know him or act like a stranger? I decided on being friendly with him -- I figured hell, he's in my dream.

I asked how he's been. He tells me that he's been stressed. That's why he's here - to help out and hopefully burn off some of the stress he's carrying inside. We talked about what a nice house Bob has - Bill comments that someday he'd like to buy it. I say - of course - that means you'd live next door to me. He smiles and replies - I know.

The house is crawling with construction workers. I asked Bill if I could show him a wall that needs fixed. Next thing I know we're in my staircase and I'm showing him where the floor the closet (which is the closet in my office) has buckled out the wall. He agrees this is a problem (in real life this is a problem). He wants to see my closet.

As we go into my office I think to myself - Oh God, those two portraits of Bill and Ted are up, I wonder if he'll see them? Sure enough - he glances over by my desk and spies the pictures of him and Ted. He walks over and say - OMG - you're the one who had these drawn? And I say yes - did you like them? He said that he loved his. (note: in real life I did have 2 spirit portraits drawn of Bill and Ted - and sent to them. No copies are in my office).

I ask -- when are you going to get off your ass and honor our soul agreement? He replies - I don't know if I can. Bull shit - I say - you can do anything you want to. You're just a chicken shit like Will. Unbelievable - two men who really do not like one another in this life yet you two are both too scared of the possibilities. For the record - I think you're both a pain in the butt and I wouldn't want to be involved with either of you. But I do think that we could do a lot more good for the world together than separate.

What does he say to that? You belong to Vincent in this life. The look I gave him made him take a step back (must of been the evil PMS I'm gonna whip your ass look) and I yell - I belong to no one, I don't care what life I'm in.

Then I made myself wake up. Why oh why does he drive me insane? After I had this dream, I contacted a psychic I didn't know - never met - but came highly recommended and asked him if Bill is ever going to live up to our soul agreement. I'll let you know what he says. Because quite honestly I'm curious -- if you make a soul agreement with someone, can you use free will to brake that agreement? Or does it happen no matter what? I think I will talk about soul agreements in Monday's podcast.

I found a cool way to force myself to concentrate: when you're feeling rather spacey or scattered, take a nice white ball of light, have it enter your head via your third eye. Let the ball of light bounce around inside your head for a spell. It's more important to feel the ball of light moving about than to "see" it. When you feel more "crystal clear" have the ball exit your back - third eye chakra (aka back of your head).

The dream I had last night also incorporated astral travel. It was a whacked out experience. In my dream I hurt my leg. Well I should say that my leg was hurt so bad that I was being rushed into surgery in order to save it from being cut off. I was crying hard as they wheeled me into the OR. They wanted to give me drugs to put me to sleep so that they could operate. I told the nurse that if I fall asleep my soul is going to get lost. She thought I was silly and proceeded to put me under.

I felt my astral body pop out of my physical body. Off to the right I saw a light and went towards it. This was not the light of heaven, but a light to another dimension. As I was moving to the light - I looked over and saw my son and my mom & sisters waiting out in the waiting room. My son all of a sudden jumps up and tells me to come back.

I'm in the light and come out in Atlantis. It is so peaceful. I walk around talking to people. I asked where is Bill and Ted - they say they are not here, but Will is looking for me. I go off towards a temple and find Will on the steps. I ask him what he's doing here. He replies that he was waiting for me. I ask if he was hurt too? He says no.

In the background I can hear faint voices from the hospital. Something about me not waking up. Will tells me it's time to go back. I tell him no - I like it here. He says - in time. Now go home. I say no.

The next thing I know I'm off in some sort of white haze. I'm telling anyone who will listen that I've lost my way. I can't find my way back to my body. They keep telling me to think of my body and I'll go back. I keep trying and it's not working. I begin to panic.

In the background I hear my alarm go off. Next thing I know I'm falling, I slam back into my body and I turn off my alarm. I laid in bed for awhile trying to make sense of it all - and I couldn't.

For the next week I'm on spring break (YAY ME). During this time I'm going to start to tackle my gobs of email. And wow - do I mean gobs. I'll eventually get back to all of you - be patient:)

Have a wonderful weekend!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Little of This and A Bunch of That!

No -- you're not imagining things. This is really a post by yours truly. You guys are so sweet to have missed me. I can't tell you how many emails I have received asking me when I was going to post again. It really is nice to be missed.

I have to switch this from Blogger to Wordpress by my birthday (May 2nd). Someone don't let me forget:) Email me by April 15th and remind me. I'd greatly appreciate it.

As you all  can imagine - A LOT has happened since my last post. So go grab a cup of java, tea or a glass of wine and come back to read.

Brodie died Jan 7th. It broke my heart. His nose had started to bleed more the day before and I couldn't stop it. I knew something was coming. He needed to go outside to the bathroom. He went and then immediately had a stroke. It was horrible - just heart breaking. The tumor had pushed through to his brain. Oh the pain he must of felt. Thank God my neighbor Bob was home (who Brodie adored more than anyone). Thank God through my sobbing he knew what I needed. He helped me carry Brodie to the car - not easy seeing it was 100 lbs of dead weight. Bob had a hard time saying good bye so I could drive off. By the time I finally got him into the vet - his passing was quick and painless. Everyone at the vet loved Brodie and all stopped what they were doing to be there when he passed. I miss that dog so much. But seeing how protective he was in life (he chased away two bible thumpers 15 min before his stroke) I'm sure he's still close by. Gimli had a very difficult time with Brodie's passing. Countless hours were spent outside looking for his friend.

Gimli is doing fine now - he's turning into a good dog. He still eats things he shouldn't - but he's left my couch, carpet and table alone.

School is kicking my butt. Social Psych and Sign Lang 2 are going great. Stats hurts my brain (but I think I have a B in  there) and Ethics is killing me. I'm doing piss poor in that class - but so is most students. That class may ruin my dean's list for this semester. I'm still part of a research team at school and I like doing this. I discovered that I won't be able to graduate till May 2011 instead of Dec 2010. I have 2 classes that I can't fit in - 7 classes in a semester is a recipe for disaster.

I don't know if I mentioned that I was going to get my certification in sex coaching. Even though I have been ding it awhile - I thought it would be nice to be certified. This is going well. I love learning about this - educational and fun:)

I had a part time job and lost that same part time job. They are trying to talk me out of quitting - which is nice. But I don't think I do well as a follower. I also though to myself -- is this the best use of my time? No. I love to help people - period. This job wasn't even close to it. So I told myself that if I dedicated x hours a day to that job. Then I could do the same back at Gypsyadvice and Keen. That's what I'm doing.

After I post this -- I'll be doing the podcast and the OBE blog. I know - shocking:) I do have some surprises coming up for the OBE site that I'm excited to implement. When it's ready I'll let you know.

It's a shame I wasn't betting in an Oscar pool last night - I got them all right but the winner for editing and short film:) Speaking of which - screenwriting has taken a back burner. I honestly don't want it on the back burner - even though I guess I can't write believable dialogue to save my life. I think I'll take a break from rejection for a bit. I'll keep rewriting THE BLACK TRIANGLE when I have time. This is a must-do script.

I wanted the movie AMAZING GRACE over the weekend. This is a song that I always sing and I have no clue as to the why. So I'm watching this movie and it brought up a whole range of emotions that make me think WTF? As I kept feeling these strange emotions - esp when I watched the main character William and his wife Barbara - I kept thinking that dang, William is someone who I would be attracted to - why can't I find someone like that? Then Bill's face popped up. I thought - yeah, he's a lot like Bill. But Bills face wouldn't leave. So I thought again WTF? The it was like Iris hit me on the head -- you big dummy, Bill was William in a past life -and I guess that made me Barbara. Ahhhh....then it dawned on me - lol. But Iris quickly jumped in and said that the real William and Barbara were not exactly how they were portrayed in the movie (gee - hollywood taking a creative license about a true story - I'm shocked). At some point in time I have to read more about William and Barbara.

Bill has been around a lot. He never really wants anything - just to show that he's here. He's in my dreams too. Every night without fail.

Someone else is in my dreams every night - but I can't make out who they are. The set up though is always the same. He's wealthy - lives with his wealthy parents. The house is modern, well kept with modern furnishings. There is a huge wall of windows that overlooks the ocean. I'm friends with his parents but his father wouldn't approve of our relationship (or would at least have a hard time) and he's sick - so we can't approach him with our situation. He has cancer. This guys bedroom has a really big bed with a red comforter. A couch is in from of the bed with a flat screen TV. Not a lot of clutter is on the dressers. The adjourning bathroom is huge and marble (plus very tidy). He likes to sleep on the same side of the bed I do (if you're looking down at the bed from the foot - it's the right side) but I don't mind sleeping on the left side. They have a dog - I think it's a yellow lab like Gimli. I have no idea why I keep showing up here and who these people are. But I'd like to find out.

I'm going to be at the Universal Light Expo again this October. The topic of my workshop will be Sexual Energy:)

My son is doing ok back in public school. He's had some bumps - but overall he's well.

I keep catching a spirit or maybe an astral body floating around at all hours of the day/night. I'm thinking this is either Bill or Will - maybe Vincent. All the guys are still around - I find myself being drawn into thinking about them. But I don't allow the connection to last very long.

Because I don't allow the connection to last - I don't get the full benefit of being connected to them. I'm not talking about sex here - but the benefit of their energy - their love. I miss that closeness. But I also do not want to get sucked in (so to speak)- I have too much to do.

I know there's more to talk about - there has to be. But I'm out time if I'm going to do the podcast. So I'm going to boggie out.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Little Bit of This, That and the Other Thing.

Well hi there! Long time no talk. I hope everyone is having a happy holiday season. Thank you for all of the holiday messages that arrived in my inbox, FaceBook and here on the blog.

Humm....where should I even start with this update? Better grab a cup of coffee and get settled in -- I have a lot to chat about.

College - ended up getting 3 A's and 1 B+. Landed on the Dean's List again (yay me)! Classes are out until Jan 10th. Another year of full time classes and I should have my BA by this time next year.

I'm also going to be enrolled in the Sex Coaching Instutite. I know - I know -- seriously, how much can I cram into a day? No worries as my son is going back to his public school on Jan 4th. He had to realize that being with me all day long was not a good thing. I'm a lot more strict than the teachers. Now that he realizes that being with mom is not the best thing in the world, he won't act up (on purpose mind you) in school so that I have to take him out and homeschool him. Fingers crossed that my plan has worked:)

Brodie has had some really rough days. I feel horrible for him - but he doesn't want to give up yet - so I'm not putting him down for the time being. Gimli on the other hand is eating my house one piece at a time. The carpet, wooden floor, couches....SIGH. He's just luckly I love animals.

My dreams have been so active and really messed up lately. This has been going on the last 6 months or so - but over the last 2 months it's really intensified. In my dreams I'm working for a secret gov't agency. We interagate people in their dreams. Now I'm good at shifting my dreams when I want or need another dream enviroment. But with this - I bounce right back to gov't work. I'm very good at what I do for the agency and I'm told (in the dreams) that I'm not going to be going anywhere any time soon. I'm too valuable. SIGH. So I've bene waking up just as tired as when I fell asleep. When I try to shift the gov 't dreams - I keep landing in Atlantis. All I want to do is stay there - but even Atlantis can't keep me in Atlantis.

The bathroom dreams are also back. Big rooms full of toliets with no walls - hundreads of people around going to the bathroom. But  this time in these dreams - I find the one private bathroom there is -- and everytime I enter I'm told that this is where I belong. Seperate - yet connect - to the world.

Now - in the waking world it's also been very interesting concerning Atlantis. I could be in the middle of something (like driving) and all of a sudden Atlantis is there. I'm not "in" it - but I can reach out and grab it (so to speak). It happens all the time now - even when I'm in the middle of a conversation. I have to stop what I'm saying (I loose my train of thought completely) and restart. The last couple of weeks it's been really intense.

The reason it's so intense - I think - is that an old friend has come back into my life. This is a friend that I'd walk through fire for in a heart beat - but everytime we've been together (in the past) he has broken my heart in a million pieces. I have a wall so thick around me where it concerns him (and really anyone else who has hurt me) that it's difficult for him to get through. BUT -- he has an abundence of spiritual gifts that are just fabo - and he can still break through this fortress without even really trying. He's come to me for help in understanding his gifts. Like me - he's a logical thinker by nature - and he's trying to logically figure this out (something Bill has been trying to do for years). There's no logic to this -- I've tried.

In order for me to really help him, I have to let my walls down completely. I know this - he knows this. Iris is being very forward about me doing this -- that I have to. I know I have to -- but I'm scared. He can get to places within me that no one else but Bill can. The difference my friend wants to be in those places where Bill has said no way.

So anyways my friend - Kevin - thinks he's Vincent. He's not - but what is so interesting about him saying Vincent out of all of the men I'm connected to is that at the ULE I got a couple of readings. All described Vincent as being in my energy - but it wasn't Vincent. It was someone LIKE Vincent. Someone with the same protective energy as Vincent - someone who can love me in ways that no one else can. So is Kevin the Vincent that the readers mentioned? I try to figure it out, but I know I can't figure it out. I have to go with the flow and see where I land.

Kevin says that I have an enormous power within me -- like he does (I said the like he does - he didn't say that) -- that has to be tapped into. I'm only skating on the surface. By allowing myself to be fully immersed in my gifts - I can help more people (which is what I love to do).

I can feel the guys closing in ranks around me - not wanting to let Kevin close to me. Between my wall and the guys - it should be damn near impossible for Kevin to get through - yet he still does. Since I saw Kevin last night - I can't stop the energy tremors. What he and I need to do (I feel) is spend some time alone without the outside pressures of life - if only for a day. This way we can get a handle on what's going on.

I'll try to keep you updated.

Starting at the start of the year, I will no longer be offering free follow up questions for the readings. I just cannot keep up with them all. I'll talk about it more in today's podcast.

Also in the last couple of weeks I started to watch (and got caught up with) Heroes. I was going to watch it when it 1st came on TV - but my guides told me no - I wasn't ready. I wasn't sure what I had to be "ready" for -- but I think it has to do with the acceptance of who I am. The ability to focus in on my gifts and use them to make a difference in people's lives. I know that so far I've only scratched the surface on what I can do -- and it'll take a big leap of faith to see what else I'm capable of.

But isn't like that for most people? That we only scratch the surface of our possibilities - scared or fearful - to go outside of our comfort zone? To push our limits. When we push - when we tap into what we're capable of -- our world changes. It can't help but change. For the most part people just do not like change. It doesn't matter if it's you that doesn't like the change or the people around you don't want you to change - if you change then you push them outside their comfort zone.

I'm going to be making some more changes in 2010 (I think). No more Gypsy Magic or Gypsy News blogs. I'll leave them there but no updates. No more monthly Numerscope. OBE blog, this blog and the podcast stays.

Major changes to the OBE site on the horizon. I can't tell you about it now - but will as soon as I can. I know you'll like the changes:)

Mercury is in retro until Jan 15th. 

I know there's more to update you on -- but I have dogs that need to go outside.

Hope all of you have a wonderful and safe New Years Eve. Here's to a loving - prosperous 2010 for all of us!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Universal Light Expo and Updates!

Hi Everyone!

I didn't forget - Bill turned 51 on October 20th! I thought about him for most of the that day. He is still such a sex - sexy man. Good thing I have an eternity to meet up with him. Until then we'll keep meeting up in the dream state. When he's in the US we dream visit nightly. If he's traveling around the globe (which is what he usually does) we still connect during the day. The connections are brief - just like a "Hey, how ya doing? Miss you. Ciao." But I'll take what I can get.

I know - it's been awhile since I posted anything. Sorry about that. But I did warn you that while classes are going on my postings would dwindle off - there just isn't enough time in the day for it all. Especially since now I've been allowed to be a part of a research team. Granted - I'm just an assistant and get to do all the low level stuff - but it looks good on my grad school application.
College is going fine -- homeschool with my son is a challenge, but we're getting there. If he would just realize that writing things is a needed skill in life. Not everything mind you - but you do have to use a pen/pencil to paper - probably daily. Until then he spends a lot of time being grounded and I'm stressed far more than I should be.

Brodie isn't doing very well. If you all could send him healing light - I would (and so would he) appreciate it. The tumor hasn't made his nose malformed yet. But he has a hell of a time trying to breathe and his nose bleeds are horrible. Hard to believe it's been a year since Indy passed away. Man I miss that dog - so does Brodie.

Brodie - more than money - is the reason I'm not doing Maria's Cosmic Convention next weekend. I refuse to be gone when Brodie dies. I still feel horrible about Indy passing away in that vet office without me there. I just can't let it happen again. So for all of you who are going to the Cosmic Convention - I'm sorry I won't see you. I hope to be able to go in May - as long as it jives with my finals schedule.

The Universal Light Expo was great. I met a lot of new people, saw many familiar faces. A few people came down from MI (and who I usually see at Maria's fairs) to see the expo - stopped by to say hi. It was fabo to see them all. I had a family from Romania (who lives in Cleveland) stop by. They drove down specifically to see me. That was really nice of them. I sold a lot of books - did many readings - a very good weekend in all.

BTW - for all of you who have emailed or called to see how I'm doing because I haven't posted in a while or did a podcast - your thoughts and concerns were/are very appreciated!

The last several months I've had my feelings really hurt by a couple of people who I thought were my friends. One person I told everything to - everything - and that is not a easy thing for me to do. I'm usually very guarded and tell people & my friends only the parts that I know they'd want to hear or that they can grasp (if that makes sense). So very few people have ever known all of me - in fact - I can count on one hand how many (with fingers left over). Everyone of these people ended up stabbing me in the back one way or the other. It sucks. But since I'm in a 9 Personal Year - those people, places and things that are not in my highest good drift away. So in a way it's good. But it still sucks. Sucks even more that I miss them. But I don't allow myself a lot of "missing" time. That heart chakra of mine just keeps getting stepped on. Sheesh. I want it opened up and accepting - not closed off and defensive. Onward and upward!

Love life is still zero. I haven't found anyone that even peeks my interest a bit. Had a neighbor that did - but he moved and we could never find time to connect.

I stopped screenwriting. My heart just isn't in it any longer. I'm tired of my ideas sucking or my writing being less than desirable. Eventually I'll work on The Black Triangle again - because I know I have to - it's a Destiny Marker for me.

Of course Will was a Destiny Marker for me (and I for him) and we saw how well that worked out. Like with Bill - Will and I have eternity. But I would like to cross some things off my list.

Even though I'm not posting here in the blog or doing podcasts often - that doesn't mean I'm not doing readings. I've allotted myself time every week just for that. So please keep me in mind for your reading needs:)

I've had many people ask my opinion on 2012. What do I think will happen? My personal opinion is don't believe all the hype. The hype - as in the world is coming to an end. Granted someday it will - but not for a very long time. What I think will happen is a shift in consciousness. Instead of being more greed, material - earth bound based -- it'll be more spiritual, love, accepting based. I also feel at this time, what crystal skulls haven't already been awoken - will wake up. The skulls will help the shift.

On a completely separate adult note: when I stopped my sex radio show & podcast - I took down the adult store that went with them. Well, I just revamped it making it better than ever with a lot of products: http://www.thepassionzone.com/ I have no idea it's you if you buy. So no worries!

I just remembered the other night - when I lost my site Gypsy Girl Press, I lost the years of data that I saved in regards to Bill and Ted - mainly Bill. All gone. I had saved it all on the GGP server thinking it would be safe. SIGH. If we were ever to sit down and talk - I don't have any notes/dates to compare to him.

I had two readings at the ULE - both psychics picked up on Vincent. Oh yes they did. If (though his free will) he's going to show up in my life at all during this lifetime - it'll be before the end of this year. It was amazing how they both described him to a "T". I'm always open to the possibilities.

Vincent did visit me the other night for a fun dream visit! I wrote about it in the OBE blog.

Better get going. Need to do a few readings, my podcast, laundry, write a paper and carve some pumpkins!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Iris, Andrew and Ethan!

Butterflies in my heart chakra. For me -- this is a new one. It's been there since yesterday -- not leaving - not even for a second. I'm not sure who had the breakthrough. Mark is here - and pretty persistent on having me open up -- everyone else just hangs out on the fringe of my energy. Cheryl suggest on FB that it's Vincent. That would be great if he did have any type of breakthrough -- he's about a year overdue.

I've noticed that "blankness" about me over the last two days. Not so bad this morning -- but Friday and Saturday it was pretty bad. That's what happens when a new energy comes to me (I should say an energy of major importance like Mark, Vincent, Will, Bill and Ted) - I have a blast of energy and then it's nothing. And when I mean nothing - I mean that my mind is just blank. I can't hold a thought for over 20 seconds. When this happens it doesn't effect my ability to do a reading - but the ability to get to a reading. When I'm blank I want to do zero -- and I mean zero. As you know - doing nothing is really not part of my daily routine (although I do set time aside to relax every day).

I don't know what in the world I did to my right shoulder -- but it's killing me.

I still cannot tap into my past lives with Mark. There's a block and it's driving me crazy. I know - I know -- maybe I'm not supposed to know yet. Or I'll know if and when we ever meet. (LOL - Iris is right beside me - when I wrote the if & when she said - what do I look like - chopped liver? I guess that means when and not if.)

Iris is now talking in my ear - over my son's voice - game and the music that being pumped through my headphones. I guess this is something I need to hear.....

Iris: You and Mark will meet under unusual circumstance - you will turn and just be "there". The first look you give one another is that of shock - he has complete disbelief on his face while you are wondering if he is just a vision or real. You turn and quickly move away from him -- he follows. You go into a store - turn and there he is. He asks if you two know one another. You answer that it's not as easy as yes or no. He offers to buy you a coffee . You agree and engage in deep conversation.

I ask Iris what is the "unusual circumstance" - she replied that I will be in a place where I never expected to be. One that I hoped for - but never really expected to be. This will happen rather quickly. The ball is already in motion. I have something that I have to do 1st. Of course I ask - what is it? She said to complete the outline of my horror script. Although writing horror is not for me and I will not make a career out of it -- this script - more importantly the outline - is what gets me to where I need to be. So how long or how short it takes is in my hands.

I ask Iris - how does she expect me to get everything done? Her reply - get my head out of my ass.

Iris is the only guide I know that cusses.

Ethan's here -- he says that I have to focus. I have a window that I must go through. Everything that has happened to me - including my financial woes - has been put in place to get me to this window. I of course have to ask -- couldn't there have been an easier way? For you - Ethan replied - no. For some reason you and everyone you are karmic connected with are incredibly stubborn. Disaster has to happen before you make the shift needed.

So -- Mark -- his lose will be the death of a loved one? Ethan steps up to reply - Iris beats him to it...yes, that has to happen. I ask about his wife (who is a wonderful and kind person). Iris replies that she and Mark are the best of friends -- best - best of friends...but they are not - or have not - been man and wife for a very long time. They each lead separate lives. However - they'd take a bullet for one another.

But.....

Andrew pops up before I can say anything more.

Vincent -- that's all Andrew says.

What about him?

He needs you.

Vincent is a big boy - he can pick up a phone and call if he needs me.

Andrew shakes his head - no good. You have to strengthen the energy around him -- it has to be now.

Why the urgency?

His life has just fallen apart - so apart that he can't piece it back together again. He needs to feel a burst of your energy.

Okay guys (Iris, Ethan, Andrew)...let me get this straight. I need to write my outline for the horror script, study for my tests, write my paper, deal with my financial nightmare, take care of my son - the house - the animals, take care of my clients, strengthen my energy with Mark because he's about to go through hell, strengthen my energy with Vincent because he is going through hell and you need this all done what -- yesterday?

I hear a three "Yes".

Piece of cake -- I can do this in my sleep.

Iris : What do you think you've been doing in your sleep? She laughs.

Just so you know -- Ethan says -- your financial nightmare has taken care of itself ever since you made the decisions you did a couple of weeks ago.

SIGH - I'm tired already and it's only 9:00 am :)

Better get to work.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

And Mark Rolls On...

I'm so tired -- it's almost midnight. But I had to write this post first.

On the way to classes tonight - I felt someone kick my chair as I was driving. Then that "person" touched my face. I FELT a hand rest on my right cheek. Like when a person cups your face before they kiss you - that's what it felt like - but only one hand, not two. I almost freaked out as I drove.

I'm like -- who in the hell was that? Mark's blue eyes popped right in front of me - then his wicked smile. Andrew & Paul show up and I asked -- where in the hell have you two been? Andrew said they are working with Vincent. I asked what about my love life?

That's when Ethan stepped up and said it's bigger than your love life. So I say - WTH does that mean?

That's when Iris stepped forward and said - I'm back! Oh no -- heavy stuff happens when she's around! So I have to ask.....was that Mark who was in the car? Iris gives me that "look" like I just said something really stupid. Yes she replied. And - I ask - what does he (or you for that matter) have to do with me now?

Iris said - I told you I'd be back when something major was going to happen -- and here we are. So what does Mark.....I'm his guide too - Iris jumped in.

Oh Lord I said.

You two have work to do - she said.

What about Will? Bill? Ted? She waved her hand - they blew it - wasted their chance. Next life we'll get caught up.

So -- what kind of work do Mark and I have to do? All you need to know is that it's karmic and necessary so that Mark does not have to come back in human form - ever - unless he wanted to of course. Then Iris chimed in...why anyone would choose to be human is beyond me.

SIGH.

So we'll see what tonight brings if I can ever get to sleep to dream visit with him.

Night Night!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

PS: Iris means big change (whine - whine - sob - sob)!

PPS: Iris didn't mention anything about Vincent missing his chance - whoo hoo.

PPPS: She also didn't say that Bill, Ted and Will couldn't be friends with me - or that we'd never speak again in this life - just that they @ucked up and our work together will have to wait.

Thomas, Mark and Will!

I felt a big urge to write in here tonight - even though I am really tired. I labored on Labor Day:) I can feel that shift coming - and it's going to be a doozy. In part it has to do with my financial situation - but it's more than that - a lot more. Not all bad, just stressful because I'm not a big one for change.

There's someone new who has been showing up in my visions. His name is Mark - well, it's actually Thomas, but he goes by Mark. He's been around for years (since 1979) and like when I would see Will or Bill (both from the mid 1980's) - I would push this aside - not giving it much thought. But now - I'm not given a choice but to give him thought.

Mark is very intuitive. He also has a guru or someone he talks to on a regular basis to get a handle on his visions. Like him with me - I have been popping up with him. He's all the way in CA - so the odds of me running into him are slim. Because the odds are slim - I wonder why the connection has been activated (so to speak)?

Mark is like Vincent in the respect that he is a protector. There's no way in the universe that he (or Vincent) would allow anything to harm me. I can see him in past lives with me - either as a warrior (knight, police officer) or as a mystic.

About this time of year is when someone new - and important - pops into my psychic life. It's like they get an inkling on me 1st - and then seek out answers to what's going on. That's when they happen upon my site and then I'm drawn into the mix.

Mark and Will happen to know each other with Will not liking Mark like Bill does not care for Will. SIGH.

What I wish is that the universe would stop introducing new players into this soul group/past life bunch and instead let me sit down for a face to face with the ones I know about. I mean hell - I know they stop by the site and keep an eye on me - and they know I know. So what the hell? Someday this would make a hell of a movie.

Last week I had a very nice dream visit with Will. He was in a theatre. I was pulled into his dream, not the other way around. He was watching someone on the big screen. I told him that one of the things I like about him - his ability to be complex, multi talented. He starts yelling at the scream calling the person up there an idiot & a waste of talent. Will turns, cups my face and kisses me - that's one of the reasons he loves me, he said, because I put up with him. He and I sit in the very comfortable seats. He decides to go get something to drink. There's now a movie on screen (no idea what). When he comes back - he doesn't sit by me, instead he goes two rows behind me and hands the drink to the woman who is right behind me. I turn and look at him - WTF? He's like - I didn't know you wanted this. I give him the "whatever jack ass" look and turn back around. He sits next to me and apologizes - I tell him to keep quite, I hate it when people talk during a movie (which I really do). Then I woke up. No idea about this dream - it happened the night after my visit with Bill and Ted.

Right before I woke up this morning - in my dream I was passing a man who was sitting at a student's desk (like the ones I see at college). He had his head in his hands - he was just beside himself. I asked him if Capital One was harassing him (like they are me in real life) he said yes - they won't leave him alone. He looked so torn. I thought to myself - this is Thomas (not to be confused with the Mark/Thomas from above). I don't know why this name popped up - but I knew that I was supposed to remember him. He was a big guy - good looking - older than me by a couple of years with hazel eyes. I grabbed a canister of film (as from a 35 mm camera) and said - nothing in life lasts forever - this too shall pass. I smiled at him and walked away. When I said it - I felt at peace -- he looked at me - smiled and nodded his head. I woke up.

Vincent has been around a lot too lately. Not sure if he's protecting me from Mark or what. But he's hovering. Feels like a big ole blanket wrapped around me.

And on that note - it's time for me to go to bed.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

I Know....I Know.....

Where in the &^%$# have I been? At the University of Akron - that's where. Finals week of Summer 1 was tough - but I pulled out 2 A's:) Now Summer 2 is really kicking my arse. I'm in classes 8 hrs a day 4x week (2 hrs on Friday) with almost 3 hrs of drive time each day. Geology is a pain - a lot of memorizing I have to do - and Western Humanities is interesting, but very long. At least there my tests are essay and we can use our notes.

My son turns 9 on July 1st. I can't believe it. He's gotten so darn big! Vincent's 50th b-day is on June 30th. Yesterday we had my son's party with his friends. They had a blast. 1st time my Mr. Hot Wheel got a chance to drive a go-cart. At first he was scared, but then he was a racin` fool!

I'm on Keen on the weekends & Friday nights. It seems to be working just fine this way. Sunday appears to be the best day for me to be on. With the way my schedule is - the Ask Allie podcast will be done on Friday's until Summer 2 is over at the end of July. In the current podcast - I have some pretty good Listener Appreciation deals going. Check them out!

Starting Tuesday I will be back as a weekly guest on the Maria Shaw show on Empower Radio. I'll be on right after the 1:00 pm break. I look forward to being back.

Remember KS? Well he has been around a lot more lately. He makes appearances in my dreams. During the day I can hear his voice - communications telepathically. Only with telepathy, his words are garbled. I'm not sure if it's me or him that's having a hard time. But during my school drive time I've been trying to hone in on him. It appears that he just wants to talk. He has a lot of questions about a multitude of things. One area that sticks out (came from a dream visit) is that he wants to know more about our past lives. Only problem there is that I don't know right now. I know there's a connection - but no clue as to the when and why of it all.

The rest of the guys are all around - have been. But they're just hanging back. Speaking of the guys, I came up with a great vampire story about me, Bill and Ted. But I have to get the horror story done 1st. Finding time to do it is challenging.

BTW - thanks to everyone who posted views/emailed me on the Robin & slaves dreams. Your $.02 helped.

Off to get my son up - then heading off to class!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Magic Box, Writing And Twitter!

I'd like to thank everyone who emailed me about the web design help. I've got it covered now. I appreciate your willingness to help out.

In regards to the Magic Box - I'm not sure how much more there is to say over and beyond what I talked about in the podcast. But in case you didn't listen to it....

The Magic Box deals with The Law of Attraction, your desires, faith and emotions. It's endless on what the box can bring you. The only limit is put by yourself or others around you. This is why it is important to keep what you are manifesting to yourself.

You can have as many different things in the box at the same time.

To make/use your own Magic Box:

1) Get a box with a lid.

2) Write your name on the outside of the box.

3) Write on a piece of paper what it is you desire in your life. Be as specific as you can. You can also clip items from a magazine, newspaper or catalog of what it is you desire. If you're desiring a certain person in your life, be as specific as you can on this also - list as many traits as you can.

4) Next loo at your item you are desiring and start feeling as if the item, person or object is already in your life Put out as many thoughts in a row of what it feels like having this in your life. You should do this from between 30 seconds to 5 minutes without interruption. The more you can focus the more the universe will start matching up like things to your thoughts and start the creation process.

5) Place the above item into your Magic Box and say with great emotion and faith - "Whatever is contained in this box is".

6) Each day or whenever possible open your box and repeat steps 2 & 3. You can also do this when you are not near the box by simply tapping into your imagination.

PS: Be aware that the universe may not deliver the item you are looking for exactly the way you wanted it or when. It is p to you to realize when it does manifest though and be grateful for everything. This helps keep your emotional level up and helps in the creation process.

Thanks to Susan and Jack from A1 Aura Photo (http://www.a1aura.com/) for the information on the Magic Box!

I started to use my magic box this week - I'm optimistic!

Many of you have sent me emails - I am so far behind that it is not even close to being a laughing matter. It doesn't look to get any better either. So breathe deep:)

I can't believe I'll be 42 in just over a week. Where does the time go?

I'm also surprised how many people are following me via Twitter: http://twitter.com/gypsyadvice
I'm such a geek that I keep forgetting I have the darn thing!

Will and Vincent have continued to be in my energy this week. Michael is also around, but has stepped back. No idea what has happened to Bill & Ted.

Working on the horror flick is proving to be a challenge. I can't get the opening the way I want it - and if I can't see in my mind how it starts & how it ends before I write - then I'm in trouble. What is the scariest opening (like the 1st 5 min) in a horror flick that you've seen? SCREAM? NIGHTMARE ON ELM STREET? And why did you think it was scary?

Now that I'm thinking about scary stuff I'm going to head to bed. Just great!

Have a good evening!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Happy Birthday Ted!

Today Ted is 50 - Happy Birthday to him! This week has been a crazy week - just like last week and the week before that. I'm exhausted. So much so that I forgot to say Happy Birthday to Michael on the 14th - he turned 41. I didn't forget it was his b-day - I just forgot to say it.

I'll be out of town Sat & Sun - I have so much to do that I really need to stay home - but I really don't have a choice. So......I'll suck it up and go. Eventually I'll be able to tell you guys what I'm up to. I thought I could by now -- but alas - just like most things right now it hasn't gone as I planned.

I think what I'm going to stop doing is planning. Cause if you really think about it - it's not up to me. The day to day stuff is - but the overall plan isn't. I wonder if I'll finally be on one to one talking to Bill or Ted by the time I turn 50? I was thinking the other day - it's been 7 years since I discovered Bill, 6 for Ted, I think 3 for Will and 1 for Vincent. Or maybe it's 4 for Will and 2 for Vincent?

Lately my attention jumps back and forth between Vincent and Bill. For some reason Bill's energy is always laughing - as in happy laughter and Vincent stands there with that grin on his face. He doesn't say anything - do anything - he just grins. Michael just hangs around.

I haven't gotten anywhere with BT or OBE all week. It's been very disheartening. The bug field trip with my son's class went well. I was the ONLY parent there out of the whole 2nd grade. I couldn't believe it. My son and I were doing well until we got to the bug-eating part. Couldn't do it. There were live bugs, fried bugs and chocolate covered bugs. Just no way.

I am so tired -- heading to bed.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

In Keeping With The Program...

....I worked on BT today. Did a lot of research instead of writing - but had the breakthrough I needed. It could have been the wine, The Dead Zone or Queen Elizabeth The Golden Age - but something clicked just as I was about to jump into the shower. I'm not bitching...

Woke this morning with my energy the way it's supposed to be. I feel asleep telling myself to have that talk with Michael as we slept. Looks like it worked. He has been around - the forever "watcher" but at the same time Vincent is here guarding:) I'm glad big, sexy and Italian came back. I hope he stays. Whatever was going on - he must have had a breakthrough as well because Andrew is back.

I'm tired....off to let the dog out and then to bed I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

PS: although technically I didn't work on OBE today - I did read more about fetishes and sex coaching while my son ran around like a loon at Little League this morning.

Making Amends, To-Do List and Subconsious Reality!

I swear I have no idea where my day went. Granted, today was running errand day. I still have one more stop - but it'll have to wait till Friday. It was a nice sunny day here in Ohio and I figured - why not? Besides - was sooooo tired of sitting at my computer. I also worked on my college financial aid forms and my scholarship applications.

I've used a good portion of brain power on my "to do" list which as I told you guys - I'd be accountable for here in the blog. Working on the BT I have hit a road block that I have to find a way through. The original plan in the script was to have an SS officer and a gypsy woman leave the camp in search of something by orders of Mengele. But the powers that be think it's too far fetched - so I have to have all of the action that I had on the various trips confined to the concentration camp. I've been studying Birkenau for hours -- going over maps - looking at buildings. I have to have an idea of what I'm going to write - and then I'll fill in the details as I'm writing. But I can't find that overview to start with......I have 1 month until this script is due and I have to have it done. I know I'll figure it out - but in the meantime it's unsettling.

That said -- I was able to work out a couple of scenes that I want to add. So that was cool. OBE I got no where with. I just ran out of time.

For those of you who voted in the Start-Up Nation contest - thank you. Winners will be announced in May. Fingers crossed.

My dreams are still really out there - and so *&^% busy. I mean WTF? On top of it I can't remember a dang thing. I asked Ethan why can't I remember when I'm usually pretty good at it. He told me the good stand by "You're not supposed to know". I sighed - I couldn't help myself. He told me that if I consciously knew everything my subconscious knew - then I'd be overwhelmed and I'd shut down. The nice thing about a subconscious he said is that it has no distinction between the physical realty and the other worlds/dimensions. So it operates under the assumption that what is going on in the subconscious is your reality. Hence why the thought process and habits are a huge part of our reality. Humm...if I could get my subconscious to believe that I was actually in a physical reality friendship with Bill, Ted, Vincent and Will - would my reality shift to accommodate the world that my subconscious lives in? Or would my subconscious and reality be at war with one another - thereby creating a hell of a lot of inner turmoil?

I must admit - there's a small part of me, I'm ashamed to say, is convinced that I'm not supposed to be in any kind of relationship with anyone in my soul cluster in this lifetime. If that is indeed the case - I must of really screwed up in past lives in regards to these guys to have this happen now. In order to make amends (if there are any to make) would I have to do it in person by having a physical relationship with them? Or could I make amends via our energy fields & souls? Would that heal whatever it is we're stuck in? I should be asleep - but I'm up pondering these things.

I mentioned to Ethan that I have not seen or felt Andrew in along time. He said that Ethan is off working with Vincent. He does stop in daily to see how I'm doing - but Vincent really needs him right now. I'm thinking it's time for some chick power: Iris, Jezell and Brigit. As soon as I typed that I heard Ethan say I was crazy - lol. So what's his point?

Seeing that I will be a pain in everyone's rear end if I do not get to sleep - I'd better scoot.

Samatha and AJ - how did you do on your projects today?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Michael, Mike And Seriously WTF!

I wrote the below $.02 Saturday/Sunday Morning.....

I should be sleeping - I really should. But here I am after drinking a bottle of wine - and I'm awake at 1:18 am. Doesn't make sense. Wine should have made me fall sleep. But oh no....not now. I have too much outside energy running around inside of me.

What does that mean? Well I can feel Bill being very connected. So is Will and Vincent. CJ is still hanging about - taking more of an interest in me than he ever thought he would or that he thought he was comfortable with, You know it's difficult to dream about someone most of your life and then all of a sudden have them wind up on your radar. That's what happened where Bill is concerned with me - and that what happened where I'm concerned with CJ. Especially since most of the dreams he can remember me in we were just kids. It's a bit disarming. And quite frankly you just want things to go back to the way they were - before your "new knowledge".

There's a part of me that's tired of new knowledge. Why can't something happen with the old knowledge before someone else shows up? I don't get it. Any of you - do you get it? Cause I'm at a lost. Like this guy named Michael (not to be confused with Mike from before). He's showed up in my "area" for years now - years. And for the most part I've been able to compartmentalize him. Keep him tucked away as a curiosity and that's it. But now this guy has superseded my curiosity. I want to know why. What possible connection do we have? And why now? Serious. Don't I have enough going on?

I asked Andrew. You know what he said? Vincent is too stuck in his life, Will is too scared, CJ is confused and Bill doesn't have the balls -- so we open up the connection with Michael. I have to ask - is he a chicken shit too? Or would he seek out to explore something that he doesn't quite understand? Andrew says he's an explorer. Always has been - ever since he was a kid. I don't know why Andrew is showing me Michael with a toy sail boat in his hands - but he is. The said boat is has a red base. Andrew also tells me that Michael's mother is something else - and he means that in a good way. She pushes, yet protects Michael. If she find something or someone that can be a positive part of Michael's life - she'll put two and two together - despite Michael protests. So I wonder then - what will happen when she comes upon my blog? When she puts me together with the dreams he's had most of his life. Then what? Does she call me 1st to chat? Or does she just hand the information over to him and guide him? I swear I don't know. I wish I did. But I don't.

I then said "screw it" and went to bed. We'll see if anything comes of this connection. I'm rather tired of the "one-way" feel I've had with the past group.

Michael has been kind enough to keep hanging around. I keep getting the oddest flash visions with him:

Vision 1 - He and I shake hands. I can feel a zap of electric go through me - although I try not to react to it. The same happened to him - I think. We are then sitting at a table with two other women. Michael asks if the two ladies would leave us. They do. He leans across the table at me - and with a very stern look on his face he asks - why me? I open my mouth and start to say because of his past....he waves his hand to signal stop. Give me the real reason - he demands. I sit there and just look at him - trying to figure out what I'm going to say. I finally say - do you believe in soul groups? He smacked his hands together and said - I knew you felt the energy when we shook hands.

Vision 2 - He and I are on the beach. We are by some sort of rock formation. As the sun sets, the beams hit a crystal in the rock formation - which gives off another beam of light to a cave off the coast.

Vision 3 - Michael is inside a house looking outside. From his POV I can see me running to Vincent and jumping in his arms. Michael takes a sip of coffee and says - if he hurts her I'll kill him with my bare hands. I hear a voice (sounds like Will) say - he'd no sooner hurt her than you or I would.

Vision 4 - He's at my 25th High School reunion with me and we're having a blast.

There's more -- but those are the ones I can remember off the top of my head.

My son told me tonight that guys are put on the Earth to drive girls crazy (I couldn't agree more) and for guys to get big muscles so that they can be chick magnets. LOL. I tried not to laugh. I told him to remember that girls are nothing but trouble. He replied - oh mom, guys are trouble too. Snicker...oh how right he is....

Speaking of trouble - there's a guy in Wooster who's a psychologist who I find to be interesting. He and I have known each other since I moved to Wooster - he lives by me. You know how you know when someone is interested in you? Well he's given me that sideways look for the last 8 years. When I could feel him looking at me - I would just keep looking straight ahead. He was married - I was married. Not about to go there or even give the appearance of going there. He was always polite when he saw me or my ex - never anything flirty or over the top. Well, then I got divorced. Still basically ignored him as I know his wife and I think she's a great person - I didn't want any signals to go anywhere that might be misread. So he tells me two weeks ago that he's getting a divorce - been separated at that time for a month. Thought I would hear it through the neighborhood gossip line. Ha! I'm not looking the other way any more. But since our kids go to the same school - I do keep everything low key - flip him a hi when I see him and that's about it. If we happen to be walking the same way in the morning - we'll chat. We'll see what happens - if anything. Well- something will happen, it's just a matter of what and when. He does have the same kick ass divorce lawyer that I had...that guy in Orville is great! What I need to do is to find out when his birthday is -- I pray he's not a Sag or a Leo. Been there - did that.

Oh and guess what? His name is Mike. Yeah - seriously. No - that connection with what's going on with Michael has not been lost on me.

I'm finally HOT in the Start Up Nation Contest! Whoo Hoo! I'm a smoking mamma!

On that note -- it's shower time:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Ego, Lessons And Ted!

Today the snow was falling - falling - falling down in Wooster. If I looked at the sky, 1/2 is dark and the other 1/2 light. Reminded me of the battle of good vs. evil. Since I am in Amish Hell - the sun faded from view and the sky was a drappy gray - yuck. Just before the sun set it broke through the clouds for 20 min of sunshine. We really could use more sun around here - seriously.

So on today's podcast I talked about how the ego is our enemy. I really believe that. Our egos hold us back, frustrated us, give us impressions of others or ourselves that are not in line with reality - egos make us less than what we are meant to me. I think that sucks. The whole ego thing was a lesson of mine. I don't think I've learned my lesson completely - but at least the light bulb turned on so that I can make improvements in myself. I get why I've been treading water for so long. I got the responsibility lesson a couple of years ago when I got divorced. Next I'll be heading into the patience lesson (even more so than I have been). Why? Because I'm going to homeschool my son next year.

His current school just is not for him. It's like fitting a square peg into a round hole - no matter how much you try - it isn't going to work. I see him suffer because of it - he's just a different kind of kid - he can't help it. The labels he has for being weird, strange and different doesn't help him. All he wants is friends and to do so he gravitates towards the kids who are different - but in a bad way (meaning they get in a lot of trouble being bad) and this in turn gets him in trouble and the cycle continues. My ex and I talked about it - I told him for as long as we're in Ohio, he's going to have to help. Science and math were always the ex's strong suits - so I suggested he be our son's "coach" (which is what the school calls the adult since there are online teachers) in those subjects. He agreed. But we'll see what happens come the school year.

Stress will come from keeping the kid and the dog apart since all they like to do is aggravate one another. Somehow, of course, I will have to work. I mulled over getting up at 4:00 am - working on Keen till 8:00 am and then do school. But I know there is no way in hell I'm getting up at 4 am. So I'll have to keep thinking.

Ted made a very nice comeback over the weekend. I wrote about it in the OBE blog. I was actually very supposed to see him since Will and Vincent were the ones that kept popping up in my energy. Will - it feels to me - is coming to a turning point in his life and he's not sure which way to turn. His current and long-time relationship feels very shaky. But by being together so long - is it love that keeps things together? Or the "being used to" the partner? My money is on the "used to". Vincent - poor guy is just so confused. He has no clue on where to turn or what to do. His life is such a "pineapple upside down cake" right now that he's frozen from making any important decisions. And Ted -- he is crashing hard. A big crash. I am hoping that he has hit the bottom without 1) landing in the hospital 2) going to rehab. A divorce has to be soon -- even if she is trying like hell to get pregnant.

Trouble (the cat) was running after air today - I'm going to assume it was Indy coming back to say hi. Ever since he died Trouble has been glued to poor Brodie who tries to convince Trouble that he is not a dog - but a cat.

Off to bed...have a good night!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

CJ, KS and Allie's Vision of Dying!

Another - I don't know where to start - blog entry. I would love to sleep -- for days if I could. It'll never happen. But I would like to get some much needed shut eye. I had two other energies move into my field and since then I might as well kiss sleep good bye. I can't get to bed before 1:00 am - no matter how hard I try - I just can't get there. When I'm in bed I go right to sleep. But sleep is just a facade as I dream travel all night long. It's exhausting. Between every dream visit I wake up - roll over - and go right into another visit. By time my alarm goes off at 6:30 am, it feels like I just laid down. I haven't increased my coffee - so my headaches are pretty strong during the day. SIGH. It makes it difficult to think. Luckily - when I do reading I don't have to think, I just let the information flow.

My son -- not only do I have to worry about his MRI/MRA on Monday - but now the kid got a one day in-school suspension. Seems him and another kid were playing "army" and my son said that they should "kill" another kid. The school took that as a threat and they have a zero tolerance policy. He's grounded until further notice with no X-Box, computer or iPod - plus I took all of his Nerf guns away. He doesn't "get" that what he did was bad - since he was just playing. I tried explaining it to him -- at least he's majorly embarrassed. Sheesh - the kids 8 - at least I waited till I was 15 before I had my 3 day in school suspension.

Darin (the cat) went to the vet on Monday. He was pretty sick, poor little dude. He was a trooper though and let the vet poke and prod him - give him fluids and shots. He's even being cool about me giving liquid meds 2x a day. Right now we're guessing that somehow he caught a virus from Little Black Kitty. Not sure how -- but that's the only explanation.

The script I wrote last week won't be done in time for the contest it was intended for. Although the foundation was solid - the execution was a train wreck. Yep - felt pretty stupid on that one. Oh well -- this weekend at the latest I'll get back to it and hopefully write something that doesn't sound idiotic. Now that mercury is direct, I'm sure I can.

Oh the readers comment about Sawyer on the last post (I think) -- oh yeah -- that man is hot:) He can be without a shirt all season if need be!

Maria Shaw just informed me that on Feb 13th, she and the guys will be back on CBS Psychiconair.com on Friday nights only from 6 - 8 pm ET. It'll be great to hear the 3 of them even if it's just for once a week.

Finger crossed - the show that was intended for Nickelodeon is making it's way to ABC Family. A meeting happens next week.

Now for these new energies. I have no idea what kind of baring they have on me - some sort of karmic tie I would suppose. The first one is CJ. He's a big guy, very loving, kind - yet extremely opinioned. His energy is romantic and sexual. In a way like Vincent's - that he wants to protect me - but not as rock solid as Vincent - if that makes any sense. CJ is also full of fun, creative and a lover of the outdoors. He's very sexual - but sex isn't something that's important to him. He feels that actions, outside of sex, shows a person how much you care for them. Sex is something that feels good - but is used for making babies.

Now for KS. He's energy is very high strung. Teasing - protective - loving - yet angry and can be violent. He loves deeply and when hurt it wounds him for life. His energy towards me is brother-like. Nothing at all sexual or romantic. It reminds me of a brother and sister who tease each other - beat each other up - but if someone attacks either one of them , the other would give their life to protect them. His energy also reminds me of a phoenix - someone who can reinvent himself and one who will also surprise people. Kind of like Madonna in the 80's & 90's.

So these two have been be-bopping around my energy field since last week. They take turns. I personally have had just about enough of both of them. I'd like to keep all energies at arms length for awhile.

I had the oddest vision the other day when Brigit stopped by on Imbolc to say Hi. She wanted me to stop working, close my eyes and pay attention. So I did just that. What I saw was CJ and I walking towards an elevator in a hotel. It was the penthouse elevator. Before I got to it I stopped, looked at him and said: You didn't. He's like - what'd I do? And I started rattling them off: Bill, Ted, Will, Vincent, George....they're up there, in the penthouse. He denied it - I knew he was lying. I refused to go up. We argued about it - my body was shaking and I couldn't control it. He led me into the elevator - we start to go up - when I blurt out that I didn't tell him everything. He said what -- I said - when we're all together I'm going to die. He hit the stop button on the elevator. I had to explain to him that I've had visions of me having a heart attack and dying once we were all in the same room (and I actually have had this vision plenty of times). It's vital that as soon as I have the heart attack - Will, Ted and Bill place their hands on me - while he performed CPR. Vincent and George needed to have paper and pen in hands - because as soon as I come back - I'll have information for everyone. Plus - make sure they keep yelling for me to get back into my body - because I'm not going to want to. He thought I was nuts. I asked him not to let me die -- and no matter what - he can't give up trying to bring me back nor can the guys take their hands off of me. He agreed.

As soon as we stepped out of the elevator I met everyone. 30 sec after I hugged George - I had the heart attack. I see myself going down - CJ jumps into control and tells everyone what they have to do. Everyone is doing everything on cue. I can't see my soul anywhere - but the feeling I had is that I knew I was close by and talking with someone. 2 - 3 min later I saw my body jerk like my soul fell back in and I sat up. I rattled off this place with white pillars and a large pool of water. Next thing I know - I see my grandmother - she tells me that everything has changed and not to be scared.

Grams leaves and then George's Aunt shows up (she's dead as well). We're having a convo - I'm told no one else can see her but me. We talk - I give George some info - then she hands me a red rose to give to him. As soon as I have it in my hand - it materializes in the physical sense. I'm shocked. Someone else who is deceased comes along - hands me something - as soon as I take it - it becomes real. This kept happening over and over again.

Then Brigit said I'd seen enough. I asked what does that mean? She said that my gift of manifestation will be in full force when I come back to life - somehow my NDE gives it extra power. And that was that....I sat there for awhile after this one thinking - WTF? The manifestation twist was a new one to me. And I kept thinking how could that ever be possible - if it's possible. Once something leaves a spirit's hands into mine - it becomes solid. That's just wild.

And on that note - I have to get back to work.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Vincent And No Wasted Time!

I'm almost caught up on my emails and the readings from the special back in December. Whew. The screenplay - still working on it. Once I have a chance to write - it flows. I just have to be able to work on the darn thing - you know?

Little Black Kitty is back outside. He drove me batty yesterday with the clawing at the door and the crying. I put him back out last night. He seems to be doing fine with it. But I do suspect that he'll be asking to come back in before the day is out. He can - for a few - then it's back out again. Samantha is not doing too well. It was as if she aged 5 years overnight (she's already 13). She's still eating, drinking and cleaning herself. But that's it. No more playing - no more nothing but sitting there. It breaks my heart. If I pick her up - she wants to be glued to me - permanently. Trying to detach her from my clothes is tough. I just hope she's okay health wise. I just couldn't take it if something happened to her - not so close to Indy dying.

Will's back:) I could feel his energy close yesterday as I worked. Almost like he was just sitting there watching me. I love it when he's around. Not only because I like the feel of his energy (it's always very high - I would call it jazzed) but he's my muse. When he's around, I just write better. As I was writing the script yesterday, he did make a connection for telepathic sex which I wrote about it in OBE. Last night as I was falling asleep, I could feel him around me. When I was walking down my path to enter my dream portal - Ethan was there as always - he told me to expect the past to be back but with a twist. I asked Ethan what he was talking about - he said that I know he can't tell me more. But that I have to put my nose to the grindstone and keep plugging away. No wasted moments - no sitting idle. I told him okay - and moved on. Further down the path was Will. He was in a long white flowing robe. Around his body is vibrated a wonderful golden energy. I asked if he was going to step through the portal with me. His reply - I'm already there. I stepped through and he was - at the Willow Tree by the river. I don't remember anything else - except that when I saw him I ran to the tree:)

With Will usually comes Merlin at some point in time and sure enough Merlin has been on my heels since I woke up this morning. In fact - he was the last thing I remembered about my dreams from last night. He and I were working in the magical space in the cave. Will was somewhere in the background. Next to me I had an enormous faden quartz crystal. I was putting mugwort around it - Merlin was putting candles around the ring of mugwort. There were 9 candles - 5 violet and 4 blue. During the day today - I keep hearing him tell me we have to get back to work. I have no clue what we're working on - why the mugwort, crystal and candles.

I asked Andrew today - where's my love life? He laughed and said I know where it is - and it isn't in Wooster. I know;) I took down all of the dating ads and what have you that I had online. I've washed my hands of it as long as I live in Wooster. Will I change my mind if I'm still here past July? I might. But lets put the energy out there that I'm moving forward! Any ways - Andrew says there's much more going on behind the scenes of my life than I'm privy to. So keep the faith - keep working and it will all shift the way it's supposed to. He says that January and February are all about work - lots of it. The work will transform not only my career - but my love life - so I must not stop. No wasted time. I tell Andrew that this is what Ethan basically said - no wasted time. He replies- there's a reason 2 of your guides tell you the same thing - listen to our words. And I have:)

LOST is back tonight!! Whoo Hoo! Okay - so since I can't watch it till tomorrow morning - no one email or post about what happened on LOST - okay? Don't tell me! Ahhhh...Sawyer:)

Oh -- I almost forgot...Will and Vincent know one another now. Yep - they met. Don't ask me how I know - I just do:) So now Bill & Ted know one another and so does Will & Vincent. Things are aligning up for me to come on board:)

Vincent is going through a very deep thought process right now. He seems to contemplate everything. He's so deep in thought that I don't dare disturb him. What is he thinking about? His life. What he needs to do and how he's supposed to do it. He's looking at all angles to see what is best for everyone involved.

Back to work I go....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

This, That and the Other!

Is anyone going to watch the Golden Globes tonight? First time in 30 years I'm not watching it and I'm having withdrawal already. No cable = no Golden Globes..or Oscars.

When Mercury Retro kicks in (which was today) that's when most people start to feel the affects. Me? A week earlier. Never fails. Between MR messing things up, my ongoing fight with iTunes & Hipcast (both bastards still say that the podcast problem is the other ones fault), and the "New Kid on the Block" as AJ said:) It's been a headache of a 2009 already.

Plus this last week I'm still catching up on the special priced readings I sold back in Dec.

Oh - and I shoveled snow yesterday (have to do more today) and did something to my lower back. What took me 5 min is now almost 15. SIGH - the wonders of being over 40. This is on top of my pulling a muscle in my upper back when I went to put my hair in a ponytail last Tuesday. Nice....

I watched BURN AFTER READING yesterday. I can't begin to convey my disappointment. How can so much talent come out with so much crap? And the Coen Brothers? WTF? What happened? I wish you could have seen me yelling at my TV - it was funny. Good thing my son wasn't home;)

I'm entering an Indy filmmaker contest. I have only a week or so to write the 1st draft of the script and then only a week to make changes. So if there's no postings this upcoming week (or next) - you know why. But I'll try not to drop off the face of the Earth.

Now for the last week. This was such a WTF - and a WTH every day. I have to thank Chris for this. Now who is Chris? He's to Vincent what Ted is to Bill - and somehow I'm stuck in the middle. Another love triangle. Hell. What in the world did I do in my past lives? When another energy comes in - my body hits the emotional overload until I'm used to that new energy. Plus - I can't sleep. So last week I spent my time either pissed off, crying, or just sitting there without a thought in my head. All of it - not the norm of Allie. When Friday rolled around - I was back to the norm Allie. However - I still can't sleep - so something else must be coming down the pike.

So what's Chris like? Energetic, supportive, creative, kind & loving. Very good friend material. As Vincent stands around and "protects" me - Chris yammers in my ear to have to try this - or try that. It's like Chris pushes me and Vincent protects me. It's nice having them both around - but they have a habit of pulling me in 2 different direction - Chris wanting me to try something and Vincent wanting me to stand still and be safe.

I had a dream visit with them both the other night. They were fighting over who would "get" me. I stepped in the middle and said that I'm not doing this again (referencing Bill and Ted). I pointed to Vincent and said him - he's the one who gets me. Chris is like - what? Wait a minute - I haven't had a chance to prove myself. I told him- not in this life. In this life we're friends and some how you help me with Vincent because you two are already friends in the physical world. Vincent comes up and puts his arm around me - gives Chris a smug look. I punched him and told him to grow up. I can still change my mind - which made Chris smile. I told them that I had things to do and left them standing there - lol.

How did I realize that Chris was part of this whole soul circle thing with me? He kept popping up. Same as Ted did. I'd be in a vision with Vincent - and there he was. Iris said something to me that made the light bulb go off. I asked Andrew if Chris was one of "his" as well. Andrew said no.

Which made me ask Andrew - where's this love life I was supposed to have? He said - it's coming - mid 2009. This news made me roll my eyes. He said that I'll be way to busy till then and everything I am doing career wise is setting me up romantic wise. I told him that I didn't want to know any more. It gives me a headache. He did say though that this upcoming week I should hear something positive abut my career. That works:)

Need to kick my tush into gear.

Have a great - what's left of the weekend !

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Crap What A Week!

What a #$^&* up week! Nothing went as planned. I'll get ya'll up to speed either tonight or over the weekend. In the meantime:

Ask Allie Podcast (finally done): http://www.gypsyadvice.com/askalliepodcast/index.html you can't download this or any podcast (for some unknown reason - Hipc ast and iTunes are blaming each other) from iTunes. You'll have to listen on the site or download the MP3 file and listen.

Wake Up Your Orgasm:
http://wakeupyourorgasm.com/2009/01/09/wuyo-sex-q-a-pineapples-rock-chick/ will be up on iTunes soon - they're reviewing it.

And in 10 min I'll be here: www.Blogtalkradio.com/wingsofloveshow until 3:00 pm EST - call in:)

Oh - there's a new guy on the block - Chris. He's to Vincent what Ted is to Bill. Fun....

Will catch you up soon...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

ps: where in the hell are my archives? My recent posts? UGH!!

Holiday Catch Up Time!

(Just an FYI - I've been trying to get this to post since Sat. late morning)

Happy New Year! Sure - I'm a few days late - but I mean it just the same:) I hope that 2009 brings all of you what you need.

I honestly have no idea where to start - even at the beginning doesn't sound right. Silly huh? So here's a quick run down....

These past two weeks have been so busy - so silly busy - it's unreal. First, as you know, my son is home from school. His dad - being the "whatever" that he is, has decided to be MIA. So with the exception of Christmas Eve - he hasn't stopped by to get his son when he was supposed to - nor has he called him. The SOB is alive and well. He's just being - well...him. Needless to say, my little guy has been very disappointed, which in turn makes my life more difficult. The plans I had for myself all had to be canceled. Which of course is disappointing - but my disappointment doesn't come close to my son's - so I try to keep things in perspective. I've also been lying and making up excuses to my son - so that he won't think his dad has forgotten about him - as he did. That man is going to regret being such an ass when his son lives 2000 miles away instead of 5 min. Yeah - that's what I said - 5 min. Grrrrr.....Of course he finally did email me after I sent the latest asking if he was stopping by - seems that he's been "sick" and can't see his kid this weekend. Yeah - whatever.

So my son has made things very interesting - and stressful - here at the Allie ranch. He and Brodie (the black lab) fight like they are little girls. The kid yells at the dog - the dog barks back at the kid and it goes on and on. I had to banish Brodie to the back room and my son to his room just for some peace and quiet. Overall - the last two weeks have been fine with my son - he's 8 - he acts like an 8 year old. The longer he doesn't see his dad, the more rambunctious he gets.

Iris has been here - as busy as can be. That woman. She has promised me that she's not about to leave my side again. I don't know if I should be happy or scared. She did say though that she's in the background - Andrew is still "in charge" at this point in time. Andrew was talking to me yesterday and my grandmother came up and kissed him. I'm like - not in front of the children!

Now that's it's Jan 3rd, only 18 days till LOST! God I can't stand it -- I have major Sawyer withdraw.

But Iris gave me an idea in the shower - it's about another podcast called Waking Up Your Orgasm: http://wakeupyourorgasm.com/ the site is FAR from complete. My hope is to have the podcast up and running by next Friday (and Friday's from that point on) the 9th. It'll be in the same simple format as Ask Allie - with Q & A sex questions, toy reviews, aphrodisiacs and so forth. Well, I don't know what the "so forth" is yet. Sexual positions and sexual energy I deal with in the OBE newsletter (when I have time to write it). Any ideas? I only want to keep it 30 min or less. I'm also going to do the listener appreciation by giving discounts on the OBE web site.

Dreams - man have they been wild. Ever since I Feng Shui my office (and found about a dozen or so tiny Herkimer Diamonds that I placed on my Faden Quartz next to my bed) they have really been eventful. Bill has been in many of the ones I remember. Two of the visits I've had to entered into his dreams as I remember just standing back watching him pour over books. He's at a round table (both times)...

Okay - I have to interrupt my story for just a moment -- this still has to do with dreams, but....

Earlier last week (can't remember which night) - I had a dream where I was sitting down on a couch, that was a step lower than the room it was in - a sunken couch. An African American man (in his lower 30's I guessed) walked in and it was just as two old friends who haven't seen each other in a while. We hugged, gave each other kisses on the cheek and sat back down on the couch. I was leaning on him, his arms wrapped around me - and he started to tell me how he's been able to write - that he's releasing a new cd. I told him that it was great, I was excited for him (he seemed really pleased with himself) - kissed him a few more times on the cheek. Then I woke up.

Now I had no idea who this person was - never saw him before in my waking life (had no idea if he was alive or not) - had no idea why I would meet up with him - but there has to be some sort of past life/karmic connection. I thought about it after I woke up - couldn't figure it out, so I filed it away. So today I'm thumbing through some online sites - just looking around - and there he was. I was floored. I must of sat there for 10 min just saying nothing. I did find a page for him on MySpace - I sent him a friend request - no idea if he'll say yes. But what the hell - right? Still no clue on the "why" of the dream visit. I'm sure some day I'll figure it out.

Now back to the other dreams and Bill -- so he was at a round table. Books all over the place - most of them open - he had bookmarks in several places in each book. He had a notepad - a journal - where he was writing everything down. I walked up to him and asked how it was going. He's all excited saying he found the portal to Atlantis - but he can't figure out how to get to the portal. Seems that you have to take tunnels and what have you in order to get there - and he can't figure out where the tunnels originate. I asked - isn't it in the bottom of a Mayan temple in Mexico? He stops and stares at me for a spilt second then says - I don't know, they haven't discovered the room yet and when they do, it'll look like an ordinary room. But this (and he points to the triangle inside of a circle) will be in that room. I looked at him again and said - Mexico, it's in Mexico. He replied - but Atlantis's portal isn't in Mexico. I said I know - it's in Belize. But we get to Belize through the Yucatan Peninsula. He stared - it seemed like forever. Then it looked like a light bulb went off because he yelled - now it makes sense and grabbed a book. I woke up. We went through this same scenario twice - and I woke up each time. So I have no clue what he showed me.

Another dream visit we were at my mom's house. My sister's were there along with my brother-in-law, nieces, my son and my mother. Bill was in the basement with my son - I was upstairs watching a large category 3 tornado come towards us. I kept yelling for everyone to stay in the basement - the tornado would spilt off into three smaller tornados, and then regroup into one. The color of the tornado was brown - but when they split apart, 2 of them were gray. I knew my son was safe because Bill had him. My brother in law wasn't listening to me and would not get down stairs. When it got close - he and I ran down. In the basement - I could hear my dog Brodie upstairs. Before I could run up to get him, I woke up.

Vincent has been around during my waking hours. I can feel him move with me. He reminds me of my own astral body guard:) There have been a few instances where the connection was tight and clear - I could see him smiling - laughing. It was nice to be able to feel him feel something other than unhappiness.

Will - he's always around too - but not as close as Vincent - Vincent won't let him. I had a flash visit of me, Bill, Ted and Vincent in a hotel room - chatting. I announced that I want Will here too. Panic spread on their faces and they all said no at once. I told them tough shit - if they want me here - then they'd better go get Will. LOL.

Samantha went back to the vet - her thyroid is still a little high - but all other worries are now gone:) That was so nice to hear. Even though she is not happy to get her pill 2x - she takes it. I'm happy to have my Ninja cat back!

My lower back still kinda hurts - and I noticed a fine crack in my son's tooth. I'm using a heating pad and he goes to the dentist on Tuesday.

I managed to get some medicine in Little Black Kitty's eye last week - only problem is that he hasn't been back since :(

For some reason I'm obsessing over Sex In The City. No idea why. I never watched it on HBO or the reruns - never went to see the movie. But all of a sudden I have to watch it. Very strange.

I got my spring seed catalogs in the mail today - whoo hoo! My kid eats apples like you wouldn't believe - so I'm getting 2 apple trees to put in. Of course I won't see any apples for a couple of years - but I'm still doing it! It goes along with my grapes, blueberries, raspberries and strawberries:) My way of thinking is if I plan it - it better feed me or bring me some luck. There's always that chance that we won't even be living here by even summer - but I do plan on keeping the house. After I win an Oscar I'll put the house up for sale on eBay - lol!

I know there's more going on - I just can't think what else right now.

Have a wonderful weekend!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)