Sex On The Brain, A Plan And A Killer Headache!

I finished Black Triangle over the weekend - YAY ME! It is pretty darn good if you ask me - of course I'm a bit biased:) But it is pretty good. My manager liked it -- and now her boss is reading it. Fingers crossed he likes it too. Next up - the OBE book - I so want to get this done. Or at least get it to a point where I'm comfortable enough to send it to a publisher to see if they'll take it. I like publishing my own - but it takes my focus off of things - ya know? So I'd rather just write and let someone else handle everything else.

So yes, now I'm OBE book focused. This was pretty apparent after I awoke from my dream sex with Vincent last night. It's been pretty much all sex thought - all day...from the Instant Turn-On in the podcast to the Nipple Stimulation Oil and finally the OBE Sex entry. I think someone needs to throw me in a tub of ice water - Ha Ha! I'll be okay -- at least I've been productive.

The weekend brought more visits from Indy scaring the crap out of the cats. I so know he is just loving that. I had to ask him to chill though as Trouble was spraying everything - probably hoping to hit Indy. Damn cat. Brodie hurt his leg - lord knows what he did. He favored it all day yesterday and still is today. I just hope it's just a boo boo and not something more serious.

Spirits are still very much here with my Grams T by my side today. I can smell her rose soap so clearly that if I closed my eyes I'd swear I was back in her bathroom.

My mood is certainly different from the frustration of last Monday. I'm so determined to get the hell out of Wooster - it's a top priory to do so - 2009 is my year to move. I'm setting out to be as well known as Sylvia Browne or Doreen Virtue. I figure the more people know about me - the more people I can help. Of course that means the more money I make - but that only means I can open up the non-profits I've always wanted to: no kill animal shelter, retirement zone for zoo and/or circus animals, soup kitchen/food bank and a place where single parents can go for help and support. That's all to start. I want to do more from there. The more money I make - the more I can help. It's just as simple as that.

To be that well known means stepping all the way out of my comfort zone and slamming the door shut. It's scary -- but also very exciting at the same time.

My plan does all begin with the OBE sex book - and 2009 in person workshops. I don't know - how many workshops do you think I should do? 3? 4? Where at? LA, NYC, Columbus, Austin, Chicago and New Orleans? Of course that's 7, isn't it? And I'm thinking a weekend Sat/Sun workshop would work. Any suggestions I'd love to hear them.

Energy wise - I've had many visitors the last several days. Vincent, Will, Bill, Ted, George -- Paul has been right here and so has Andrew. It's been pretty crowed in the Allie energy field - but it also has felt pretty darn good. With everyone "right there" - I've had a ton of flash visions: Me chasing Vincent- tacking him and trying to get something out of his hand.....Ted looking at me with this shit-ass grin that makes my knees weak.....Bill and I doing what? But pouring over a ton of books. He's talking with his hands a lot - so whatever we're doing, he's loving it...Will and my son hanging out at my house eating dinner and last - George and I watching a TV and making a bunch of comments about what we see.

There's many more visions - they come and go so fast that it's hard to grasp hold of them. I have other ones with Vincent, my son and I at Central Park - or out getting a pizza. Will and I fighting over something, me trying to sober Ted up and me telling Bill to get off his high horse. LOL. It seems like I have an express train flying full force and it's heading to my station -- I'm there with a suitcase in hand.

Now the above I wrote this afternoon. It's now almost 10:00 pm. Around 6:30 I was blindsided by a horrible headache and nothing is working on making it go away. If you look at my eyes it would look like I had been smoking some real kicking weed - which I can assure you that I haven't. It's one of those - hey change is coming - headaches. And although I would like to write more - it's really killing me. Maybe I'm supposed to be in bed dreaming....

...Away I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Dreams, Vincent And ULE 2008!

Wow - what a productive weekend I had. I finished BLACK TRIANGLE and it is now sitting on my manger's computer. Hopefully the changes will be minor. I also worked on the yard, took care of cooking down a ton of tomatoes and did some other bulk cooking. No wonder I was tired when I went to bed Sunday night. I did the busy body stuff when I needed a break from BT.

I started my Vincent Rambles 2 last night - and wouldn't you know it, my ex brought my son home an hour early. So I stopped - deleted it - and hopefully I'll be able to do it again and actually finish it.

This morning I'm getting my son ready for school and he says -- mom, who are you going to pick? My mouth was full of toothpaste - so I muffled a "what"? Who are going to pick mom - you know - to kiss? Will, Vincent -- I jump in - Vincent. Bill -- Ted -- he said -- Vincent. Vincent - Vincent - Vincent - was my reply. He looked at me - mom, why did you say his name so many times? Because - I said - no matter who you say it's still Vincent. What about Bill - he said? What about him -- we'll be good friends I hope. And Will - he asked. Don't worry about Will - trust me - he'll be in our lives - you'll still see him. He said - I'd better -- and I want to hurry up and meet Bill, I've waited long enough. I had to smile. But I assured him that he'll meet whoever it is he is supposed to meet. And I had to assure him again about Will. If Will does decide (later on) not to be in our lives at all except on a professional level - it'll just crush my son. I've never known a child to have such a strong attachment to a person they met once. But of course their attachment is past life lives.

He then went on (he was chatty this morning) that if Vincent is so much taller than me - how am I supposed to kiss him? And how is my son supposed to hug him? I replied that I'll stand on a stool and he can stand on a piece of furniture. He said I was being silly -- I was serious:) In fact in a dream visit last night I did just that - grabbed a stool and stood on it to hug him. This way I could get the full-body hugging experience.

During the dream visit last night - I was walking through a large crowd of people - it was all in slow-mo. Everyone was laughing - chattering - having fun. I'm at a table looking at something - don't know what - when a surge of energy went right up my spin - the hairs on my neck stood up -- and I just "knew". I turned and there he was - Vincent - several feet away from me. Our eyes met and the instant it happened the slow-mo people were frozen in motion. He smiled - winked at me. His grin was huge - and it was soooooo cute. Man - he was so handsome. I blinked and all of the activity picked up to regular speed - and he was still there - but now he was walking to me. As soon as he reached me - he hugged me. When we pulled apart, he had my face in his hands. He started into my eyes and said - You're more beautiful than I imagined.

My alarm went off - I woke up.

But I laid there feeling his hands on my face - the movement of his thumbs as they caressed my cheeks. HEAVY SIGH. What an image to wake up to - his handsome face looking at me.

Speaking of handsome -- Paul Newman. He was with me a good portion of the waking hours of my weekend. Seems that Andrew was his guide as well and brought to him his wife Joanne. Andrew and Paul just smile -- what goofs. Paul looks the age he was in Butch & Sundance. Oh - and the comment he made after I heard him was: If I knew being dead was this great I would have died a lot sooner. Ha! But he says he's working with Andrew on the Vincent project (project is Paul's word). He was with me all weekend helping me with BT. He is a very opinionated man. He said that's it important to get it right. I agreed. When he got here Friday night - Heath Ledger came with him. Those two are hanging out. Actually - Heath brought Paul to me with a "see I told you she could hear you". Paul also seems to like the song "Amazing" by George Michael. I have no idea why - but when it's on I swear I can feel him dance.

Last year - or maybe it was the year before - Kal and I were at the Groves City Holiday Inn (our yearly accommodations for the ULE) and in the parking lot was the Oscar Myer Weiner-Mobile! I was instantly a kid again. It's amazing how fast that Oscar Meyer wiener song can come back:) Every year we look for it - hasn't been back yet. Don't forget that at the ULE I'll be at booth 894 and my OBE Sex chat will be on Sunday from 11:00 - 11:50 am in room 201. Stop by and say hi so poor Kal doesn't have to listen to me jammer her ears off with my rambling:) The main focus of the booth is the Gypsy Magic books - but I'm also going to be doing readings and writing personalized spells. I just can't really advertise the readings & the spells - but I can do them both:)

And on that note - better get ready to go get my son.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Gotta Be Someone, Vincent And Strange Vision!

I think that I will do Vincent Rambling part two this evening. Or tomorrow. My son will be with his dad this weekend - allowing me to get close to finishing BT - if not finish it. Rambling about Vincent will give me a good break from the turmoil of the holocaust. Plus - I have some major "get ready for winter" yard work to do. I'm amazed how fast it got cold here - brrrr - it's almost like we don't have a fall any longer. Spring is too short as well. That's the one thing I'll miss when I live in CA is fall time. I think that I either have to visit OH in Oct or go to NYC. Maybe I can combine them:)

In preparing to move to CA - my son and I have already been looking at houses. Granted -it is a bit premature. But I figure by the start of 2009 I'm moving so the more I at least window shop online - the more I will know what we both like when it is time to actually move. So far we have determined that we have to have a pool or be in walking distance of the beach. I also need an area for the dogs to do their business. At least 3 bedrooms or 2 bedrooms and a den. I also prefer older houses with character or new houses that are green for the environment. If I could get an old house and convert it to green- that would be great.

Did I tell you that I'm going to write a horror flick? After BT is done - I'm writing a good ole scary horror story. It's based on the Bloody Mary legends. Thus far I've spooked myself several times as I mull it over at night. Freaking myself out really - especially in the shower as the scene from "Psycho" keeps entering my mind. I keep making a mental note to myself to only think about the movie during the daylight. And when I write it - that too will only be written in the day time or I won't sleep. I'm one of those people who after watching a scary movie can't sleep for days - it's pathetic - yet true.

Vincent - as usual - came to visit me last night during dream time. I really look forward to these nightly visits - I hope they keep coming. In this dream we were at some event for me - some TV thing - I think that it was the premiere of DREAMERS. We had to stop so that photographers could take our picture - the flashes were blinding. There was a lot of commotion going on and it was very confusing to me. He kept a steady hand in the middle of my back and guided me to every stop I had to make. If I was nervous - he'd wrap his arm around my waist and pull me close to keep me calm. He'd whisper in my ear to breathe or to tell me I was doing great. There was a lot of noise, people, flashes - it was nerve wracking really. But to the outside - I looked and acted great - all with the help of my steady.

Yesterday I had the oddest vision - odd because this is something that I wouldn't of dreamt up to even day dream about. I'm in LA with my manager and we're at some restaurant. I have to go to the bathroom. As I'm walking toward the potty - someone stops me and asks me a question (I think it was about if I was Allie from GA) - any ways - after I get done with that person I turn around and I see two men staring at me: Steven Spielberg and George Lucas. George motions for me to come over - I look around to see if he means me (they get a kick out of it ) and when I realize it was me - I walk over thinking to myself what in the hell could those two want?

I introduce myself - they ask me to sit down. Steven then asks if I'm an actress. I tell him I was married twice - that took an amount of acting skill. They laughed. I then said no - not really - a few local commercials about 20 years ago and a stage play or two - but that's it. Seems that they were looking for a younger Kathy Bates and I fit that mold - I had that "look" they were looking for (since I admire the actress, I was flattered with the compliment). George explained the supporting role and the movie -- which would also have Harrison Ford (no - not an Indy flick). I told them no - I'm behind the camera - and not with him (in any scene) I would be too nervous. They talk me into showing up anyways after they asked me what I was working on - told them -- and they suggested that they could help me out to return the favor.

So being scared to death - I went to the place to do a test read. Who do they have me test read with - but Harrison. I thought I was going into cardiac arrest. But I put on a smiley face - and away I went. They had us do a scene that I ad lib most of the way through and Harrison followed my lead. They then had me do another scene (which I found out later they were having trouble working through as something wasn't right). We ad lib again - and the guys smiled. Asked me to wait out in the hall for a second. And that's really all it was - was a second - my manager was there waiting for me. They came out and said the parts mine if I want it. I was speechless - me in a movie with Harry. I nodded my manager told me to close my mouth - lol - and it was over.

So I sat there for a spell trying to figure out why in the world I was shown that. I guess I'll find out eventually - but it hit me out of left field. Kinda like Vincent & Will did when I discovered them.

Yesterday I stumbled across "Gotta Be Somebody" by Nickelback. I've been playing it non stop since. I don't know if it's a message for me - maybe for Vincent - could be for the two of us. I wonder if he's listening to it to? I looked up the lyrics:

This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren’t enough
So I’ll be waiting for the real thing, I’ll know it by the feeling
The moment when we’re meeting, will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I’ll be holding my own breath, right up ’til the end
Until that moment when, I find the one that I’ll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There’s gotta be somebody for me like that
Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they’re not alone
There’s somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There’s gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right, it’s just like deja vu
Me standing here with you
So I’ll be holding my own breath, could this be the end
Is it that moment when, I find the one that I’ll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There’s gotta be somebody for me like that
Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they’re not alone
There’s somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There’s gotta be somebody for me out there

You can’t give up, when your looking for a diamond in the rough
When it shows up, make sure you’re holding on
Cause it could be the one, the one you’re waiting on
Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There’s gotta be somebody for me, oh

Nobody wants to do it all on their own
And everyone wants to know they’re not alone
There’s somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There’s gotta be somebody for me out there
Nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
There’s somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There’s gotta be somebody for me out there

Okay - back to work I go....have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)