Catch Up Time....

MI was a bust - damn it all! I did though love seeing everyone. Our bunch of psychics that get together are a good bunch - what happens in the psychic tent stays in the psychic tent - lol. I wish that they all didn't live so far away - or should I say I wish I didn't live so far away. So I drove all the way there, spent $$$ on a really nice hotel room that I stayed in alone, stayed out in the rain for a spell and came back home. I could, though, have had the chance to pick one of several happy-go-lucky college students at the hoedown. I was propositioned many times over. It was a nice esteem boast:) No new hot men on Sunday. I honestly cannot figure out why I had to be there. But even the feeling I had Sunday morning and the tarot cards I threw down as a back up all showed the same thing - I had to be there and it was because of my love life. And that day was Sunday- not Saturday. Completely baffled.

When I got home I threw down the cards again and sure enough - whatever was supposed to happen did happen and things are moving in the direction they are supposed to. I asked Iris - what direction - she told me not to get bogged down by the details. Just that everything will work out. Okay super guide guru - I will take her word for it. The energy though was so charged this past weekend. I didn't sleep at all Sat night. Every time I did doze, I woke up 20 min later with Will on my mind. I'd fall back to sleep and do it all over again. Sunday it was if my nerve endings were on the outside of my body. My mind was going full tilt - too bad my body couldn't even come close to keeping up!

I just wish it didn't have to cost me so dang much to get up there to MI and then not see the fruits of my labor. That said - I am very grateful that we don't live in China or Myanman -- or even where all the tornados hit in the states. So I am grateful for many things....

Sawyer - he's so damn funny. For the last two years (I've lost count of the actual time frame) he has been visiting me in my dreams almost every night. I know he wasn't me to call him Josh - but I won't - just for the sheer fact it bothers him. That man has figured out all the buttons to push on my radar - so if I can push just one on him - I'm going for it. Every dream visit we start off by arguing - every single one. Then we're smart asses (gee - what a surprise) and finally we end up chatting like old buddies about some subject. As much as I really, really would love to turn him into a sexual fantasy (boy would I ) it doesn't feel right. SIGH. So to me he's my Sawyer - the southern sass. Eventually some day I'll figure out why he keeps showing up and what our connection happens to be. He just smiles when I ask him - says I'm the psychic so I have to figure it out. To which I point out -- so are you!

Heath is now good on when to pop in and out of my space. We had a chat and I told him that he can't just pop in whenever he felt like it. I like talking to him and going over the mysteries of life - the why, what and how of things - but there has to be some boundaries. I attributed it to him sitting at a table with Michelle or his daughter and a fan would come up for an autograph. Whatever mood he was in with his table mate - was stopped as soon as the fan arrived. Then once the fan was gone - it was difficult to get back into that mood again. He agreed. So now if I'm doing a reading or writing -- I can sense him show up, but he hovers in the background until I am done. Then he steps forward. Works much better this way.

Will. I'll be dammed if I can't figure him out. He has been right there since last week. So right there that his energy field was my energy field. Which - is the norm anyways - but I don't know -0- the energy fields were closer? I don't know know how to put it. But all my dreams (if they don't have Sawyer in it) they have Will in it. Not a bad way to dream if you ask me. But - I can't really remember the dreams - just that he was there. Now I had a dream visit or two or three with ex husband #1 and I remember some of them -- nothing earth shattering (besides the fact that he was in my dream to start with) just us sitting around talking. He and I were always better friends than anything else - and I always did like chatting with him. I do remember checking in on him to make sure he was okay.

Just got an email - I have to run, get my shower, put on coffee and finish DREAMERS if not tonight - then really damn soon. Wish me luck....I haven't done a real late nighter since college and that was 20 years ago.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Off To MI, Spider Sense Is On High Alert!

My headache has been full tilt all week. It has just been nuts. I know that Will is not "in" my energy like he's my astral body -- but he is still very much here. And I mean he has zoned in big time. I have no idea what he's doing - but it's something that has me under consideration.

That said - my spider sense is on high alert. I know this weekend will bring a love into my life. I just know it with every sense that I have. I have been seeing me walking around the corner and my heart stopping in my throat. It's a vision that I've had repeatedly all week long. I have no idea who I am running into or being introduced to - but it is someone who will take my breath away. It's a major - holy shit - happening.

And no - I honestly have no idea if it is Will. I mean - what would he be doing at a hoedown in Detroit? But I asked the universe to please send me someone as I'm tired of being alone. And if Will doesn't want to step up - then please send someone. I've been alone for over 10 years and I'm tired of it. Just because I was divorced only last year doesn't make me alone for only a year -- trust me, my ex and I have been apart for a very long time. I think that's why I was so surprised that my son was conceived. I was like - how'd that happen - lol.

It's also not Bill, Ted, Matt or even Sawyer who I will run into:) And BTW -- Heath and I have come to a mutual satisfying resolve about him popping in and out to chat.

Any ways - heading out the door now to go to my niece's 4th b-day party and then it's off to MI. I'll have the crackberry with me - so when I'm swept off my feet, I'll tell you about it -- much later:)

If all else fails and there's no love this weekend -- I still know that I'll have a good weekend as I'll be spending it with people I both like and respect -- and I know they return the feelings.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

I'm Alive, So Much To Say And A Killer Headache!

I have a killer headache. But I wanted to at least say hi and let you know we made it back in one piece. The kid and I had a great time in NYC - simply fabo! There were a few times that I could of pulled my hair out -- but overall it was just a lot of fun. His favorite part was Central Park. I didn't have a fav part (except maybe the pizza and cheesecake - lol). We had a great time at the Empire State Building. Only the over stimuli of all the people wigged him out. At first I was like "Whoa" what the hell was that? He calmed down after a bit. Since I heard the ESB was haunted due to past suicides - I took my camera and took some shots. Side 6 that faces the GE building gave me a couple of orb shots. As soon as I have a chance I will post them. The kid didn't want to leave - and neither did I. I promised him we'd go back by September - sooner if I have a reason (cough, cough, hack). Got back late Sunday night - after wading through the 500+ emails, I fell asleep about 1:00 am. Too bad I felt so stinking tired when I woke up.

In fact - no matter what time I go to bed, I feel the same crap-o when I get up. I am exhausted. I know that Will has hijacked my energy - he's attached to me. Not sure why - maybe feeling remorse for not seeing us while we were in the city - who knows? But I can only keep this up for so long.

Good ole Sawyer has been a frequent dream guest and Heath Ledger is standing beside me (actually looking over my shoulder) as I type.

I am so tired and my headache is so out of control that I have to go lie down.

I hope to be able to do more of an update before I go to MI on Sat/Sun for the hoedown:) Thurs I am playing chaperone for my son's zoo trip. I hope I survive it:)

There's a lot to catch you up on - Sawyer, Heath and Will in particular. Behind Heath is Iris and Merlin. I can tell I'm in for something big to happen.

Oh - and Tom Cruise. I have no idea what he wants in my dream visits - but he acts like we go back a way. More later....

I know the headaches are a combo of Will being "in" my energy - and I mean IN. And me shifting - expanding - to another level. It's a drained headache (on the sides) combined with a third eye wham-o.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Séance, The Dreamer Whisperer And Ask Allie!

I had a first over the weekend - and I have few of those these days. A friend of mine was throwing a party and wanted me to come over and do readings for people -no problem. Then she asked - Allie, can you hold a Séance at the party? I thought - SWEET! And said, heck ya! After the readings were done, we all sat around the dining room table (there were 12 of us - 13 with me - in all). I had three candles in the middle (lit) and some frankincense burning - some nice music in the background.

We held hands and I took everyone through some energy exercises. I then said a short opening speech - inviting the spirits in that are for our highest good into the room. The temperature dropped. It was kind of freaky:) Then we went around the table one at a time and they asked a yes or no question - the answers came through me. We heard something knock over and I had to bring everyone's focus back to the table. Once we were done with the questions I told the spirits thank you for their aid -- to focus in on the flames of the lit candles and to go back to the other side.

We talked about our experiences afterwards. Each person saw images, movies, words in their mind's eye.

It was so much fun that my friend is throwing another party this summer and I'm going to go and do readings & hold another Séance. Whoo hoo!

I'm doing that at Maria Shaw's Cosmic Convention in Oct - holding a Séance -- it'll be a blast I'm sure!

I found a TV proposal that I wrote years ago -- it was for the Ask Allie radio/TV show. If any of you have ever watched the Howard Stern show, he had his radio show & at the same time their filmed it and placed it on TV. Like that. I would do listeners readings, have on guests to discuss different metaphysical topics, have a daily, numerology forecast -- etc... I forgot that I even wrote this so many years ago. Now I can add to it OBE sex, helping others improve their sex lives and so forth. I still think it's all a good idea:)

Next Monday - May 5th - I'm going to be raising all of my reading prices (and probably add a few new readings to the mix). So if you want the current prices - buy now until next Monday. If you want to buy a reading and hold it until later - that's fine - just let me know. Keep in mind that if you purchase the reading Thur - Sun that I will not be home (and I'm not taking the lap top, only the crackberry) so I will confirm your purchase on the 5th.

I slept ZERO last night. Every time I tried - I got pulled into an intense dream visit. I'm exhausted. This happened Friday night - Sunday night -- I have one heck of a headache. No time for naps. The dream visits were with people I don't think I know in the physical world - but each need my help about something. One was in an abusive relationship (where the wife was the abuser) and he didn't know what to do. She was there in the dream as well. I taught him how he can change his dream and lock her out. And suggested what he should do in the physical reality with his marriage. Another was on the verge of losing her home and having her and her 7 kids on the street. I helped her shift her dream from the dark despair of being homeless to money coming in and everything around her being bright.

Another person had ovarian cancer - I administered healing, another person was depressed after their boyfriend broke up - and the list goes on. I woke up after each dream visit - which is why I remember them. Just call me the Dream Whisperer!

Friday night/Sat morning - Heath Ledger was front and center. He was doing a lot of pacing -- man, and I thought Will could pace. I kept telling Heath he has to cross over - he kept saying that he wasn't finished yet - still had things to do. I told him what my friend Dave was to take him over - and Dave said he did - so what is he doing back here? Heath said that he did indeed go over - but he came right back. His soul hurts - he misses his daughter and Michele something fierce and he can't leave them. He has a lot of guilt.

So since he pulled me into this visit - I asked him what he wanted. He said he didn't know. Then he and I were in a 1960/early 70's big 4 door dark blue car with a white roof. And he's driving -- and we're driving it up this huge (length & width) staircase. And we were having a heck of a time getting it up the stairs. Heath's pissed -- and I asked him why is he doing this? He told me that he promised his dad he'd deliver the car.

Then it switched to a hotel. But Heath disappeared. So I went looking for him. Opened one hotel room - nothing, The next one was my room and I walked in - nothing. But my lap top was on the bed and my screensaver was on -- the screensaver was Heath. I remember thinking to myself - I wonder if that freaked him out -- seeing himself as my screensaver? BTW -- he is not my screensaver in the physical reality - in fact - the guy is not on my computer or in my movie collection at all. So I can't figure out why he's drawn to me.

Any ways - I opened the third hotel door and there was a woman lying in one bed, with her head at the foot of the bed - a man in the other bed - with his head at the top of the bed. I started to close the door when the woman stopped it. She asked if I was looking for Heath? I said yes. She replied that he had an appointment and was down at the shower room. I started to close the door - changed my mind and reopened it -- she said that she had a 9:00 am meeting and really needed to get some sleep. I closed the door.

Now I'm at the shower room - which is a large shower building where men & women can shower - each with their own stall. I see Heath running form one building to shower room and I yell out to him. Now - my son is next to me. Heath turns and looks at us - saying he has to be someplace at 5:00 and if I would come stand guard at the shower so that people will leave him alone.

I told my son that he too needed a shower and for him to hurry up - I put him in the stall next to Heath. I had to keep shooing people away from Heath - they wanted his autograph. Now how rude is that? The man is taking a shower! I peeked my head into my son's shower as it was 4:55 and Heath had to run. Heath flew out of the shower (fully dressed) and I grabbed my son. Heath said we'll talk later...

And I woke up.

When my son got up the 1st thing out of his mouth - I hate it when you make me take showers. I told him that he didn't have a shower last night. He says no mom, in my dream - in my mind you made me take a shower. Now stop it. I asked if he remembered anything else -- he said no.

The pressure just dropped in my office - Heath showed up. I asked what he wanted - he said he was lonely. I told him that if he would cross over he wouldn't be lonely any more. He rolled his eyes and left. SIGH. One thing that he did say before he left is that he is not haunting Michelle. I think she think he's haunting her when all he's doing is standing by to make sure she's okay. There's no haunting involved - he'd never do anything to scare her on purpose.

Will has been around - but at a distance and that's fine by me. He pops in - pops out. Kind of like telepathic pacing. I only wish he would make the decisions he needs to make and then take action. Him keeping himself in limbo is doing nothing but driving him crazy which in turn - drives me nuts.

Speaking of driving nuts. I've been trying to work on DREAMERS. And I say try because my internal critic has been being very naughty. Many negative comments which I keep countering with positive reactions. The negativity in me says to hang it up -- while the positive side remind me that I'm not a quitter. I push forward until it is obvious that I have to change my course. It's not obvious here except that I push forward. So I will prevail - there's no choice but that.

It's been 1 year since I found out my ex was cheating on me - one year that I had that feeling. It was an overpowering feeling too - way overpowering. On my b-day it'll be one year since I had proof of the affairs. And I say affairs as he had his online/phone woman for cyber & phone sex and then the woman he was screwing here in the physical realm. And wow - what a year this has been. My health, attitude, energy and overall well-being has improved 400% as soon as he moved out. What a year, what a year -- and this next year will be even better!

And on that note I need to eat lunch and then to the podcast:)

3 days till NYC - but who's counting:) Me - that's who:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Psychiconair.com, Maria Shaw And Atlantis!

I was actually going to do a few readings first and then write this entry. But Iris was being very particular to get this done now. So here I am.

I made a stop at the Maria Shaw show this morning on Psychiconair.com! I was on from about 10:10 am to 10:26 am EST. If you want to listen to the segment where I discuss connecting with a famous person via OBE sex - it'll be rebroadcast tonight from 10:10 pm - 10:26 pm EST.

Atlantis keeps coming to the forefront of my mind's eye today. Last night I had a dream visit with Atlantis. In it, I was in a circle of people - men - who were my peers. And they were throwing stones at me. I was trying to have a discussion with them and they just kept throwing things. One hit me in the side of the head - my left jaw - and I woke up immediately in so much pain on my left jaw. It was throbbing. Pain killers wouldn't work - I tried energy balls (usually helps when I'm in pain) and it only made it worse. Finally I got back up - and grabbed some lavender oil to rub on my jaw. After it was applied, I placed my pipestone over my jaw and laid back down.

Iris was there and she told me that I had to connect to Will now. I kept trying to walk down the path to my portal, but every time I tried the pain kept knocking me back out of it. By the time the pain went away - I drifted off to sleep.

I was surprised to wind up right back in Atlantis with Will tending to my jaw. We were next to a natural hot spring and he was applying the healing water to my jaw. I kept hearing him say - you have to go along with what we want - if you don't you'll die. But whatever it was, I knew that I couldn't do that because it was against everything I believed in.

Woke up after this visit -my jaw wasn't hurting at all - and went back to sleep. I don't remember anything after that.

But Atlantis is just right there - rumbling around in my brain. I have done a bit more research in on it - and have had some people email me things about Atlantis that they have cone across (thank you) but nothing stands out as new. Things are told a bit differently with a twist here and there - but basically it's been the same. The main thing I guess that stands out is the literature that says Atlantis was governed by a counsel of all men. I keep seeing women involved. So I don't know....

What I do know is that Iris wants me to grab my healing wand and head into a session....

First thing that I noticed is that I was in a violet robe that hung down to the tops of my bare feet. I was walking along the grass when Bill came out and got me and said it's time. I shook my head and said that there had to be another way. He replied that I have to look within my soul to realize that there is not. I asked about Will. He gave me that look - and said he chose his path. He turned and dashed between two large Eucalyptus trees. I had a vision (inside of this vision) of the portal to the other worlds (like a star gate) had been shut from the other side. We could not get back through to go "home". We had to stay here on earth and handle the situation.

I followed where Bill had gone and there was Ted. He grabbed my hand and told me to hurry. We could feel the earth shake under our feet. Someone asked me how exactly this was to work. I told them that we are to place our memoires of Atlantis and beyond into each our our skulls. Once we transfer the information, we will be mortal (like the rest of Atlantis) and have no memories of our time here. It will be like trying to remember a dream - it's on the tip - but not quite there. Until we are supposed to know in a future life -and that is when us and the skulls will come back together. The skulls will then transfer our memoires back to us and we can once again help mankind from their own destruction. At that time, the star gate (for lack of a better word) will open again and we can go home.

We each took a sharp crystal and pricked our fingers. It wasn't blood as we would see blood - all red - but a white substance that dripped from our fingers and onto our crystal skull - each skull was just that - crystal. After the substances went into the crystal - everyone there placed their hands on the crystals. Now instead of a participant, I'm an observer - as the energy & information was transferred - our bodies shook - like we were having convulsions. When it was over, it looked like we had all passed out. The crystal skulls lowered themselves down into the ground.

I went back to being a participant. Bill jumped up and grabbed my hand - said something about the time capsule - that we had to do it now before we forgot. And the session ended.

The session stopped with me having a hell of a headache. I could feel Iris being there during the entire vision - but I couldn't see her anywhere.

I bought tickets to go up on the Empire State building next Thursday night. I thought it would be cool to see NYC at night - all the lights. My son is scared to ride into elevator - he asked if we could take the stairs. Ahh -- no -- elevator. I think I had him convinced to give it a go.

Back to work...

Crystal Sunhine!
Allie :)

This Woman Does Not Chase!

I have a stick so far up my ass today that it's tickling my tonsils. Thankfully it hasn't slowed down my work at all. So what caused it? Will. Yeah - I know - huh? This is a first -- and it is. So what set it off? My radio reading yesterday with Maria. As soon as I asked about Will I knew I shouldn't of. Bottom line to what she said is that I have to keep putting myself where he is - because I guess I've been forgettable. If I show up a few times, then he might notice and take an interest (yeah, like I'm a stalker). When she 1st said it - I barely heard her on the radio - so I listened last night to hear all of it. My 1st thought was hell no! And that went on to be my final thought as well.

Will reads this blog and I have made it obvious that I would like to have some sort of relationship with him - whether it be romantic, business, friendship or a combo. And he's been to this blog - several times - I've seen it (psychic speaking) Tracey has seen it and so has Maria. He has my contact information. The ball is not in my court any longer and I'm not going to keep it there. I don't chase - I don't care who it is. If someone is interested in me - fabo - if not - well - I'm a great person and it's their lose.

But the chasing Will part really got to me last night - I mean really. With the words that were coming out of my mouth - it's hard to believe I kissed my son good night with the same potty mouth.

As I'm cussing up a storm last night - guess who comes into my energy field? Ted. That man sure knows how to argue -- and he was defending Will. I told him what I thought of that -- and that brought Will into my energy. These two yammered on until I went to bed - and it still continued until I threw them out and threw up my energy shield. The shield's down - but they haven't been back.

Eventually I may not be so pissed. Eventually....

But any ways....I've been thinking about adding a service to help people with their sex lives. You know, help rev up their sex lives or if they don't need revved, maybe add a twist in there. And before any smarty pants emails me - no, I'm not going to be physically involved with the people I help - ha. But more or less be an sex psychic advisor - maybe one person can't please their partner and doesn't know why. Or to help integrate OBE sex into someone's life - with help discovering the right sex toy or sex toys right for them and/or their partner. So I go in and find the problem (if unknown), help develop an OBE solution and give advice on props. But what in the heck do I call this -- or me -- OBE Sexpert? Just plain Sex Advice? I'd like something catchy but not over the top like I'm running a porn shop.

Plus I've been tossing around the idea of an OBE matching service. For those who want the OBE sex experience but don't want to find someone at random on the astral/dream planes. Any idea for a name on this? Any idea about any of this? Weigh in please...

Iris wants me to research more about Atlantis. I'm not sure why - what there is that I haven't already figured out on my own. But she's pretty adamant about it.

I wish Iris could show me where I've got the time to do everything....

Speaking of which - better run.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Maria Shaw, Psychiconair.com And My Forecast!

Well- what a nice surprise I had today -- I called into Maria Shaw's show on Psychiconair.com to get a birthday reading (she was talking about Taurus) and I wound up chatting on air about OBE Sex (my favorite subject).

If you weren't listening to her show (and you really should, it's good) - they'll rebroadcast it tonight from 9 pm - midnight. I came on about 9:20 am until 9:58 am today - so it'll be the same time in the pm if you want to catch it.

My best time for love - is now - now - now:) Maria thinks I'll meet someone at the howdown on May 11th:) Works for me:) Asked about Will -- she said that I have to put myself where ever he is -- easier said than done. I figure, if we're supposed to be in the same place - we will be. But I'm not sitting around waiting for him.

Money & career - looking FABO for the next year from May 2 2008 to May 2 2009! Time to bust a serious move and not hold back:)

If you tune in - I gave some more tips about connecting for OBE Sex:)

Okay -- so much to get done...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Tonight's Radio Show, My Lackluster Love Life And My Son!

You guys are a great bunch of readers. Thanks for all of the uplifting and comforting emails about my son, all of the stuff we're dealing with and Will. I'm too swamped to reply to everyone who has emailed me - but I've read all of the emails and they meant the world to me - so thank you.

Speaking of email - the back log is frightening.

His teacher called this morning - I was doing a reading and couldn't answer. She didn't leave a message, so whatever it was it's not earth shattering. A week 1/2 till NYC -- my son is so excited - I think more than me, although I'm dreaming about pizza and cheesecake, so I doubt it:) For my b-day I want to go to FAO Swartz. That's someplace I've wanted to visit since I was a kid. We'll show up either for storytime or for the piano players - whichever they have on a Friday. Then I think the Central Park Zoo would be fun since our hotel is along side the park. Sat is a good day to catch a museum and maybe the Empire State building. I'm not over planning anything - no buying tickets a head of time so we have to be somewhere. I'm going to see how the days unfold and take it from there.

I've thought more about the home school. And if the kid is still okay with it come July - I'll sign him up. My thought is that this will force me to be more organized and to learn more patience. Plus - I think that it will make me a more effective teacher for workshops. And for travel - I don't have to worry about taking him out of school since we'll take it with us.

I met an interesting fireman last night online. I met him 1st and then found out what he did for a living. My #1 fantasy turn on -- firemen. So -- needless to say I was pretty darn happy about that. Any ways - we were chatting and he asked what I did for a living. I hesitated for a split second and then said I was a writer. In the past when I've come right out and said I was a psychic & a writer - either the guy ran -- or he was intrigued. When they were intrigued, eventually they would find my web site -- and then my blogs. Then they would run...

So I'm hesitant to say much to this guy as of now. But this got me to thinking -- if I'm to have a meaningful relationship with anyone - it either has to be someone from the blogs or a man who doesn't freak because of what I write. And when I do find someone - and if he is not Will (remember, the man has free will here) - then what happens to what I write - even if he's okay by it? I don't know. Seems to me that to keep a guy longer than a few days, I have to keep this part hidden. But to keep any part of my authentic self hidden is against what I believe. So what do I do? I know - it'll all play out the way it's supposed to. But the whole scenario got me thinking -- if someone from this blog doesn't step up, then how long will I be single? A year? 5 years? 10 years? I remember several intuitive friends (Tracey, Sky and Gabriele) all saying that once I got divorced (they all said this back in 2006 & 2007) that I would be alone for a spell and then get married (not necessarily in the traditional sense) for the final time. But no one could say how long that alone time would be.

Humm... this just all got me to thinking. I'm not bothered by any of it - it was just food for thought last night as I was drifting off to sleep. I'm pretty comfortable in knowing that what is supposed to happen will happen -- so I just go about my daily routine.

Speaking of which - I will be on Blog Talk Radio tonight with Phil Harris: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/pharris from 8:00 pm - 9:00 pm EST. I pray that my son lets me get through this with as little guff as possible.

Writing is going slow - but is is moving on this next draft of DREAMERS.

Off to get the kid!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Sometimes I Am...

...such a fucking idiot. Now don't tell me I'm too hard on myself - with Will this is something that I should just KNOW. And it did pop up - but I dismissed it and instead took the low road.

What am I talking about? The damn wedding ring. It was a his wedding ring with ME - not someone else. This is why it looked exactly like my ex husband's (second ex) - as my ex was married to me - obviously. He was showing me the ring because married people do think about one another a lot -- and this is also why what that guy told him he didn't freak out over. Duh, duh, duh...

No wonder he spaz-ed when I went back into the dream. Dang it Allie. He freaked because I freaked about the ring -- no, no Will, I wouldn't wig out a bit being married to you-- SIGH.

Can we have a dream do-over?

Just to keep the record straight - being married to Will is not something I would freak out over in a bad way. Got it?

At least by the time we woke up all was squared.

That ex of his is holding on for dear life -- I can understand why from her end - I wouldn't want to let him go either. I would though if I knew that's what he wanted. It's rather unsettling. Feels almost as if she is wading into stalker territory - if she isn't already there. That can't be good - no matter how you look at it. It fits in though with the image I keep seeing in NYC when my son and I are there in May. He and she at a table - him trying to talk to her in a civil manner and her having a break down and stomping out.

Humm....

I know - 2 posts in one day on a Sunday even! But Iris says post them -- so I'm following orders.

Back to work...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Being Married, Will And Dream Visits!

Will was dead center in my mind last night. No matter what else I tried to shift my brain power to, it kept bouncing back to him. So after awhile I stopped fighting it. I figure, if it's this stong - there must be a reason for it. So about 11:30 pm I let the thoughts just come in. There were so many images, words and mini movies - all spinning what seemed like out of control. It reminded me of a kaleidoscope and with every turn of the view finder, there was something different to see/hear. But I wasn't the one turning the view finder.

There were a lot of "what if" scenarios - almost as if Will was "what if'ing" the connection into the ground. Then it would shift to an exuberant happiness - then down to an overwhelming sadness. And it continued. Any time there was happiness - there were images of he, myself and my son together - even if it was eating popcorn and watching a movie on TV. The sadness was always when he was pacing in his apartment - alone.

Finally about 1:00 am I had enough and told Will that I'll meet him in dream time. I walked down my dream path (as I like to call it) towards my dream portal/workspace. My path is always through a pine forest - I love the feel of the pine beneath my bare feet and the smell. As I round a corner - there is Ethan. I went over and gave him a big ole hug. I asked if he was back to help. He shook his head no - this is just a visit. We both could feel Iris in the background - just watching. I leaned into Ethan and asked - is she always like this? You mean a control freak? - Yes Ethan replied with a chuckle. But she gets results - her charges always travel down the path they are supposed to. I guess that's comforting - I said. He replied - it should be.

So we're walking and I asked Ethan if I'm doing something wrong? Is there something I'm meant to do that I haven't done yet? He shook his head -- no -- the ball is in Will's court. It's completely up to him. I asked - why is this so difficult for him if he "knows". Ethan put his arm round me and answered - because change is difficult, no matter matter much you want it (this sounded very familiar to me - AKA my divorce last year) and you add to that shyness and an uncertainty if this is all in his head -- and there you go. Is this something that he'll get over. Ethan shrugged - he has to or this will repeat in the next life. And quite frankly - there isn't time to repeat this - you two have to be together so that the next step happens. So this is a must for him. His guides will keep putting things, reminder, in front of him so that he takes that next step.

The next step - involves Bill and Ted doesn't it? Ethan nods - also Clive, Peter, John, Larry and a woman and her partner that you have failed to explore yet. I don't have time for her right now.

(update - I have written about her before - I called her Jo:
http://gypsyadvice.com/alliestwocents/2007/03/stuff-ted-and-new-one-named-jo.html)

Well, Ethan said - just like Will will have things in front of him about you - you will keep having things in front of you about her. This isn't something that can be put off. Since she and Will know one another - do I meet her before Will calls or after? Ethan replied - that hasn't been written yet.

Something catches my eye off the path and I go get it - a cell phone. I'm giving this to Will during our visit. Ethan laughed - of course you are.

I entered my dream portal and Ethan stayed behind.

I'm on a train with many people - but it's not overcrowded. I'm at one end of a small car, Will is at the other end. To my left sits a woman who I am friends with in my waking life. Her partner is sitting next to Will. I see him lean over to Will and start to talk about me. I can hear what is said, even though I shouldn't be able to:

G = Guy W = Will

G = You know Allie?
W = From Gypsy Advice? Yes. Her and her son.
G = Word is that she's obsessed with you.

Will arises his eyebrows on that one -- and this guy is looking right at me -- I'm staring at him trying to say with my eyes - WTF and shut the hell up. But he goes on...

W = You don't say.
G = She thinks about you all the time.
W = I see.

I look over at this my friend and ask - what in the hell is he doing? She shrugs. Make him stop - I said.

Next thing I know, Will has a magazine in his hand and he sits a couple of rows behind me. I can feel him staring at me -but I refuse to look over at him. He is now sitting behind me - his left hand is on the back of my chair - he's tapping his fingers. I look and he's wearing a brand new shiny wedding ring.

I look over at my friend and say - hell no. I stand up and I'm cussing to myself. A lot of - WTF came out. I started to walk away in the opposite direction - she asked - where are you going? I yelled - this is whacked - I'm waking up. So I walk through the cars shouting at myself to wake up and I finally do.

I laid there in bed -- what in the hell was that? I talked to myself: Why was that scene there? He's not married - I know he's not married. But the ring he had on - looked just like (my ex) when we first got married, same ring. Will has been in an on again off again relationship for over 10 years - maybe she feels that they are married even if they are not? And I'm not obsessed. I have a life - and he's not center stage.

I gotta go back into that dream. So I did...

The train came to a stop and we all got off and went into a huge formal garden - the kind you would see outside of a castle. I'm on a balcony and I see Will. He sees me. I turn the opposite way and go inside this room made from shrubs. There are a bunch of people in there and someone asked me if I was okay. I try not to cry - because I'm very angry and frustrated. I said - no I'm not okay. So I go back out of that room and into where Will is still at. I have two ways to go in order to get to the other side of this balcony- I see Will walking towards me on one side - I start to walk the opposite - but then think -- nah...and I walk right past him - it takes everything I have not to look over at him. But as we pass he said - Allie - wait -please. I stop. He's alongside of me -and it's automatic - I thread my arm through his and we walk.

I need to know - he said - I need to know if I have a chance.

I look over to him - you're the only one.

We're silent for a few steps.

Do you understand what I mean? He nods. There is no one else - no one.

Will smiled and let out a sign of relief.

But I don't do the married thing - I'm not playing second fiddle. I'm not someone's afterthought. I went through two marriages where I was the afterthought and was cheated on -- I will never do that to another woman.

But you have - he replied.

Yes - in my early 20's. I learned that lesson by being on the receiving end twice of men who didn't give a crap about me. And I will never do that again - no matter what I feel for the person. I deserve better.

Will replied - understood. But you'd never be second fiddle in my life.

I reached into my pocket and pulled out the cell phone - and handed it to him. Then first work it out with your ex, she is an ex right?

He nods - but she doesn't see it that way.

Find a way to make her understand and then call me. And could you hurry up, we're not getting any younger.

Then I woke up.

As strange as it sounds - when I woke up I felt Will reading my blog to see if I wrote about this dream yet. He'll check back until he reads this - and then his uncertainty won't have such a hold on him. I feel this is why Iris was adamant about me posting this entry today and not waiting until Monday.

And I must admit - it is very strange to feel that you'd take a bullet for someone in a heartbeat when you have only met them once (in this life - obviously). It's an unconditional sacrifice - just like it would be for my son. There's no thinking about it - it's automatic.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Where Do I Begin?

This week has been well -- a learning experience to put it mildly. My son's pediatrician called me and asked me if I knew about the letter that he got from the school. I said that yes, I knew that they were sending one out. But have you read it? The Dr. asked (mind you this man has never called my house). I said no - I had not. He said - well I'll have my nurse make a copy - you really should read it. Okay - I'll stop down after I take my son to the eye doctor. Fine.

Now at the eye doctor I thought this was going to be a routine examine and he would need glasses. He had complained that he couldn't see the board. But oh no - nothing routine about it. Come to find to that they think he has: Convergence Insufficiency. Which means (doc definition): a sensorimotor anomaly that affects the binocular visual system and is characterized by an inability to adequately coverage or sustain coverage for visual tasks at near. So -- my son has to work 10x as hard to read what is in front of him than the normal child. When I told the doc that he is at a 3rd grade reading level she couldn't believe it. Usually children with this do not like to read and fall way behind. I always knew he was smart:) So -- I have to take him in for a series of tests and then start him on visual therapy.

Moving on...

Stopped at the pediatricians' office and got a copy of the letter. It is two pages of what kind of monster my son is. And I mean monster. Two pages of rotten, horrible things that have been taken grossly out of context and not one kind word about the boy. Labels were stuck all over him without actually putting a label on. I'm not exaggerating at all - I showed this to a few people and they couldn't believe it. The doctor said this was the 1st of its kind in his office in over 40 years of practice. My kid's an empath with a heightened sense of awareness. But no one here gets that. So......just to rule out that his brain isn't @ucked up - now he has to go see a neurologist for a consult. If it warrants it - then testing. But I am really going to have to be convinced before any tests are run.

SIGH. Which brings me to...

School. I don't want him to go back there. If that is how they view my boy - the hell with them. I talked to my son about home school. He jumped all over it. In fact - he's been wanting me to do that since Kindergarten. I told him that he wouldn't see his friends at school. He said mom, you're my only friend. That broke my heart. Then he launched in to how the kids make fun of him and call him weird. We all know how cruel children can be -- and my son is ultra sensitive - doesn't help him being a Cancer. So I looked into home schooling and discovered that Ohio has a public school online. It's a virtual public charter school. It costs me nothing - and they send the school books, supplies and a computer if we needed it. Plus he has teachers online and I would be a teacher assistant. This follows the K12 program which is supposed to be top notch.

Last year Tracey did a reading for me which in it said that once Will was in our lives that my son would not be learning in a conventional manner. It doesn't matter where in the world we are located - we just have to log into the computer on a school day before 11:59 pm to complete the assignments. So for traveling - this is great.

But how do I take care of my home, animals, child, myself - everything that is involved there - plus work and home school? I'm going to lose my mind. I'm strong, I can do a lot -- but I'm not sure if this is over the top or not. But what I do know for my son's sake is that I have to try to make it work. My ex about had a cow when I told him about everything including the home school. I'm like - it really doesn't matter what you think because you don't do anything anyways!

Like little league starts on Saturday. My son is sooooooo excited. My ex is supposed to take him. Well, wouldn't you know him and his GF are going away for the weekend. So I'm taking him and the kid is heartbroken -- again.

If there was ever a time for Will to pick up that phone - this would be it. I could really use a pair of shoulders right now. Mine are too heavy and tense to move. Really - really could use that shoulder.

So that's that for now.

On May 11th I'm going to now be in Detroit at the hoedown:) Maria Shaw is having a booth there and several of us readers are showing up to do well -- readings. I wonder if I'll remember to eat between 11 am - 7 pm? LOL. I need to find a place to crash Sat night - any suggestions for a safe and economical place in Detroit?

I have been experimenting the last couple of weeks with vitamins and specifically with calcium. Calcium "600" (from oyster shell; Vit D3 - 600 IU, Calcium - 1200 mg & Sodium - 15 mg) made by Solgar. I have found that if I take the correct dosage (2 pills) right before I go to bed - my dreams are much more lucid AND I remember them better. Much...MUCH better.

Now yesterday (April 17) was Ted's 49th birthday. In 20 years I haven't forgotten his birthday until yesterday. It dawned on me before I went to bed. Luckily for me, I had a chance to make it up in the Dreamscape: Ted and his wife were sitting at a round table with a white table cloth enjoying a birthday dinner. He kept looking at me and vice versa. Finally he came over and introduced himself and asked if we knew one another - I said of course we do. He said how? I told him to think about it for a bit - that door has closed on him and he needs to think about it in order for it to reopen. He went back to his table and talked to his wife - she glared at me (oh please). I could tell he was really thinking about it and it dawned on him -- a "oh shit" moment. I took that moment to go introduce myself to his wife and to assure her that I was no threat to her marriage. I'm not meant for Ted - at least not now.

She bitched about something and was getting really drunk. He told me to wait at my table and he would be back. I assume that he put her in bed at a hotel - because it didn't take long and he was back. He really looked good. His hair was really light - he was tan, the hair came down to his shoulders - almost. He was scruffy and he just looked soooooo good. Anyways - so I told him happy birthday and that I was sorry I forgot. He smiled and said that was alright - he had forgotten everything about me - about us - until now. He wanted me to walk with him...so we go outside.

Walking through what reminded me of a royal garden - he looked at me and asked - who's left? I replied - Bill, we need Bill. He kind of frowns and I say - Ted -- you're the only one he'll take a call from. He nods and goes on with -- tell me more about our soul cluster. So I fill him in on me, him, Bill and Will. He asked where Will was -- I told him that I'm working on it. He smiled and said - lucky bastard. I asked - if you can help out from this side of the dimensions - I'd appreciate it. He said - I'll see what I can do.

The visit was very light hearted and friendly. We talked and we talked about past lives, soul clusters - he and I - he and Bill, me and Will and so forth. Finally I told him that I had to go to the bathroom. He said - you'd better wake up and go then. I said - but I don't want this to end. He said - no worries, we'll do this again and now I won't let anyone make me forget about this. He kissed me on the forehead and said - I love you Allie - now go pee. He chuckled at that last part and I woke up. And sure enough - I had to go - in a hurry too.

He was so tense around his wife - and so much at ease around me. It was sure nice to be with him again. I hope he's right and that we'll have another dream visit soon.

Back to work I go! I hope next week is more of a move forward week - with little stress instead of one with learning experiences! Because of the week I've had -- I am wayyyyy behind in email- just to let you know.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, His Energy And Dream Visits!

Holy Toledo Batman!

That's how it felt this morning when Will has some kick ass breakthrough. I have no idea what happened or how it happened. But the energy surge that went through my body about took me to my knees. And his energy was/is not only strong - that baby is on fire. It was more of a WHAM than when Bill or Ted had any of their breakthroughs -- had I not known better I would have sworn it was me who had the wall come down - but I knew it wasn't. After I said a few cuss words to myself - I through out a few tarot cards to find out what happened: The Tower, Wheel Of Fortune, Lovers. Which for a long story short means the man got blindsided but something that shook his world all over the dang place but it opened up a window of opportunity. It's up to him whether to take it or not - but it's a choice that needs to be made and if he doesn't make it -- and/or choose the wrong answer (wrong meaning the wrong path that will not take him to his next destiny marker) than he'll have the chance again to make that choice. Each time that choice will be presented to him - it will be a harder choice to make -- as going in the correct direction will not be as easy as it is today.

So lets all pray that he makes the right choice now - sooner rather than later.

Last night I had a dream visit with a few of the readers from the Maria Shaw psychic fairs. Joanne was the one I remember the most -and I'm pretty sure Betty was there as well (both are just awesome people) - but we were looking at a class that someone was teaching -- it said Learn The ____ Tarot. The name I don't remember - but it started with an "O". And no - I don't think it was the orgasm tarot - lol:) But if so -- sign me up! Any ways -- I commented on how I could teach that class too -- and then mentioned teaching the OBE sex classes.

The readers and I were in a school. Next thing I know - I'm in a class room, with Will, in this same school. We had just started to date. He was shy, very loving, very kissy. We were taking a class - there were a lot of adults around - when he left, he gave me a kiss and said he had to run. He had on a white t-shirt and when he turned and walked out ahead of me, I could see a red haze around his lower back - reminded me of a coiled snake.

When I got into the hallway, it's packed with adults all walking to and from class. I look over and there's Will - but it's not Will. Same white t-shirt though. I asked - you're not Will. He smiled and said no I'm not. Who are you -- I asked? I'm Will's twin - Carl. This Carl was very loving - but very stern and matter of fact. He wanted to know about me. I told him that I owned my own home, paid my bills - I do not have any collection people after me. I'm not dating anyone - talked about my son. I have pets - 2 dogs and 4 cats. He tapped his lips with his index finger. I asked if that was good - the 4 cats. He said - oh yeah, that's good.

I told him that there is no way in the world that I'd ever hurt Will on purpose. He asked if I would die for Will and without hesitation I said - of course.

Then I woke up:)

At 1st I thought - Will does not have a twin. But then I remembered he's a Gemini -- so astrological wise, there are 2 of him - 2 half's. The red coil - my thought, because where it was located and the BAM from his energy I felt today, it could be his kundalini energy. It must of risen today -- or is getting dang close to doing so.

Taxes? Did you get them done? I'm finishing up mine tonight. I figured I owe - why hurry?

I did a good topic today on the podcast about Open Living -- which is the opposite of Closed Living -- being closed off from what we need - what we deserve. Since I have put into practice what I talked about - things have been working for me. For many months I had a hard time picking out what topics to cover in the podcast - but once I started ask my guides what I should cover -- it's been a piece of cake:)

17 days until NYC - but who's counting?

And speaking of counting - it'll be time to get my son before I know it. Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Will, Ted And A Disturbing Dream!

I woke up Thursday morning with the most horrible dream image in my mind -- my first thought was why? I was at my mother's house - but it wasn't my mother's house. It looked like mom's - but she didn't live there. I came out of the front door, and there hanging from a wooden pole was a 4 year old girl. She had a rope around her neck, her hands were groping at the noose. She had shoulder length dark hair and a red velvet dress on that came down to right above her knees. White stocking, no shoes. I'm shocked when I see her, I turn make a move towards her and I hear a gun engage. I turn around and it's my ex father in law (who is deceased) pointing a rifle at my head. He says if I go near her, he'll blow my head off. I push past him and go back inside the house - pass my ex husband and ask him what in the hell is going on? Where's our son? Why did he let that girl get hung? All he said was that she was bad. I grab the largest knife I can find and head back outside. As I approach the father in law, the ex yells that I have a knife, he turns and points that rifle at me again, I brush past him and head outside. I can tell that this girl is still alive - barely and that I have to get her down.

I walk down the driveway and there is my son. I grab him and tell him to walk with me in the road. In this road there are hundreds of people walking in front of this house, with a plain view of the little girl. I told my son that his grandpa has a gun pointed at us and for him to keep moving. Don't look over and don't look back- no matter what. He asked what the girl did wrong? I then had a vision (in the dream) about her grandpa (my father in law) tickling her and her laughing. He makes a move on sexually and she cries. Then he stops and starts to tickle her again. She laughs -- and that is when he puts the noose around her neck. The girl's name is Danielle. I told my son what I saw -- as we approach the end of the property - there is a huge deep ravine there that I have to master to get to the girl. I push my son to go on and no matter what - don't look back.

As I turned to go to the ravine - I woke up. That disturbing dream stayed with me all day. My ex is an idiot , but he wouldn't let someone else harm a child and my ex father in law was a bastard and a half - but no child molester. And I know no Danielle's. So I am baffled by the dream. Her hanging there in the dress just kept haunting my day. I tried to get back to the dream last night, but couldn't.

Will hit me head on yesterday, It started about 11:30 am and lasted until 4:00 pm or so. His energy was very erratic - a lot of pacing and wringing of his hands. I could feel him rubbing the top of his head and having an overwhelming fear of rejection. He was very in my face - extremely clingy and needy. But at the same time would become very distant - then right back again. The sexual tension was off the boards and I'll write about it a bit later in the OBE blog.

But I wrote Tracey to see if Will went to see her again. Here's a copy of her reply and my original email:

Sent: Thursday, April 10, 2008 4:39:21 PM
Subject: Re: Will


Hi Allie, Good afternoon. I laughed when I signed in to discover that you sent me an email with the subject Will.

I just woke up from a nap with a horrible headache and its all Will's fault. LOL

In the visit - he was pacing a lot - moving back and forth and talking. He was saying that he was feeling a bit worried that he was being too presumptuous that you would be accepting of him and want him in your life. There are feelings of insecurity about the leaps of faith he is taking in his life to prepare for you entering into his life. He is fearing that you will say no, that you will reject him. He really seems to be distraught and questioning himself and what he is doing. He was talking so quickly - and he was not listening - its like I would try to get in a word and he would talk over me. I tried kind of interjecting things when he breathed but I realized that there is a part of him that needed to do this ranting and raving - like he was releasing while he was going on so I stopped trying to battle him. When I started listening rather than trying to help guide him he seemed to slow down more and to come to some positive feelings and thoughts. However, his fear would sort of overshadow those and he would start talking about being rejected again and questioning everything he was doing, the connection and so on. Then he got kind of frustrated and said oh - man - I have to go to work......and that was it - I woke up from my nap with this horrible headache.

I am drinking a venti mocha frap. from Starbucks in hopes it will help the headache and not throw my diabetes into a coma state. lol


In Divine Love and Service,
Tracey


Sent: Thursday, April 10, 2008 2:09:20 PM
Subject: Will


Hey Tracey,

Has Will come to visit you lately? It seems as if today he has broken through someone sort of wall (not sure if it was mine or his) and is very touchy - feely. But I also get that there is a worry of being rejected by me. So I was curious to see if he showed up to you for more advice/talk or if he went elsewhere.

Thanks!
Allie :)

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Now when I emailed her last night to see how she was -- she still had that horrible headache. I emailed her this morning - about 11:30 that Will was back and his energy was about the same - and for her to hold on. I got an automated reply from her email - meaning she took the day off. Her headache must be killing her.

I kept getting a lot of flash vision yesterday and today. Mostly of my son and I in NYC in May. We are in a coffee shop, or maybe a restaurant and I hear my son's name called out -- we turn and it's Will sitting there with a woman. We have some small talk, I introduce myself to the woman. I can tell that they were not having a very good chat before we arrived (it was his recent ex girlfriend) - so I dropped hints about what my son and I would be doing the next day:Central Park zoo. We excused ourselves and sat at our table. I could feel his eyes on us many times. At one point the woman stood up and threw her drink on him - marched out. My son got right up (before I could stop him) and went and got Will and brought him to our table.

I had a vision of us at the zoo. My son had to go to the bathroom and Will took him. I'm out looking at the ostriches when a man approaches me and we strike up a convo. He's handsome and interested. He sees Will and my son approach and he gave me his card and left, Will knew what the guy wanted and that I put his card in my pocket. Later on I make a point of cleaning out my pockets in front of Will, and throwing the card out.

Will reading my son a story.

The two of them playing army with Nerf guns.

And several more fast glimpses.

I can understand Will's freaking out about consciously discovering what has been going on - our connection etc....I did a total freak out when I discovered the connection with Bill and then Ted. I even freaked with Will. There's a lot of internal dialogue going on - am I imagining things? Is this wishful thinking? Does he/she know to? If not, will they? What will they do? Am I crazy? Can he/she hear me like I can her her/him? And the list goes on and on. It took me over a year after discovering Bill to mention it to another person - a whole year. Hopefully it will not take Will quite as long. I don't think it will since me - being the other part of the connection - is very open and accepting of it.

I wonder though if I will have to teach the man how to dial a phone?

Bill and Ted have both been sitting on my energy. They are both very much there without being THERE like Will.

Humm...so many thoughts to ponder!

Time to go pickup my son!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Ted And Will!

Today's appearance went great on Psychiconair.com! I was on around 9:15 am EST and stayed on until 9:40 am or so. We chatted about astral sex -- had a fun time and I do like discussing things with Maria, Matt and Joe. If you missed my radio appearance, it will be on again this evening from 9:15 pm - 9:40 pm EST.

I've spent most of my day writing - writing - writing the OBE sex book -- and my Ask Allie column. Tonight I hope to get to the next draft of DREAMERS. Every draft gets better than the last. Maybe with this one I'll almost be there...

Bill, Ted and Will have all been hovering close lately. Will closer than the other two. I find it odd. Not sure why I find it odd - but I do. Maybe because I haven't felt all 3 of them this close in a very long time. Not since that day when Bill & Ted said bye - that they were stepping back until Will and I had a chance to meet. Okay - duh moment. Will and I did meet - and these two come back. So now what? Will and I are not together - so why group together now? What's the purpose to close in rank (so to speak)? None of them really say anything or have a whole lot of interaction - they're just there.

I can feel another shift coming - but I have no clue at what it's in. Could be Will - could be my career. I can honestly say I'm in the dark about the "what" - I just know it'll happen. But I want someone to shine a big ole flashlight on the "what". Oh well -- time will tell as usual, won't it?

Will's has been connecting to me telepathically - but they are short connections. Almost as if he is trying to connect during a break and that we are in different time zones. Every time he connects though - he smiles. Which, of course, makes me smile. I love his grin.

Too bad I won't have the chance to do any retreats this year. Remember last year when I mentioned I wanted to do a couple of workshops/retreats of my own (meaning I host it and people show up) - doesn't look like it's going to happen. But then again - it's only April.

Have a good evening!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Will, Ted And Psychiconair.com!

My day completely got away with me. This morning everything was going along as planned - on schedule and all. The Maria Shaw Show on Psychiconair.com went great. We talked mostly about OBE Sex. I emailed Maria to thank her and this was the email she sent back " you were great! The big boss was listening and said it was great!!!! We will have you on again " so that was very encouraging to hear. Had I wrote this when I wanted to this morning - you would have known that if you missed me at 9:15 am EST - you could have heard me at 9:15 pm EST as they repeat the program at night. At the end of this blog entry, there an 8 min file of my radio program (thanks David) - the whole talk isn't there - but there's a snippet anyways.

One of my son's classmates died over the weekend - his name was Kristopher and he was only 7. All I know so far is that the little guy got a virus and died. They're doing an autopsy on him. His poor parents - I can't even imagine. My son was friends with him. He's doing "okay" with it -- if he thinks about it he's 1/2 sad and 1/2 mad. The school had a crisis team to talk to the children. We couldn't have started to see the psychiatrist at a better time starting tomorrow. Timing is everything - isn't it?

Speaking of which, I had to go pick my son up at school today. He has been getting headaches now for a couple of months and they seem to be getting worse. Today he had to go lay down at the office so I went and got him. Nothing wrong with his noggin - thank Goodness - so I have to keep a headache journal so we can try to determine if they are stress/tension related or migraine. He sways both ways right now. I'm sure the death of one of his friends hasn't helped his head much.

I turned in THE BLACK TRIANGLE over the weekend to my manager - yay me:) So that is now out of the way -- for the time being. Now to do some rewrites on DREAMERS and when she's done looking at BT - I'll be back on it again. Just got the rewrites for DREAMERS - more than I thought there would be. But that's okay -- I'm forging ahead! Each draft is better than the last!

I had a couple of interesting visits over the weekend - Will's guide Sarah and Ted:) Will's guide visited me in the shower Friday night:

Iris pops in to see me and I tell her that I need a sign that things are going in the right direction with Will - that things will move. She asks me what sign? I tell her that if my evening went a certain way than he will call me by the end of next week -- and if doesn't go like I hope, then by my birthday 2008. Because -- I promise that I will have this versions of BT to my manager by Sunday night.

She thinks about it for a sec and says - okay.

Next I can feel Will's guides around - so I'm like -- hey, can you come here? This one with long curly thick red hair shows up and I'm like - what the heck? She says that Will has been fidgeting around - wanting to call, picking up my card, thinking about things -- but when he's about to, they through something in his path to make him do something else than call. Why? Because they are waiting for the okay from Iris. And from what I hear - Iris is high up on the guide chain - you don't cross her. But the man certainly wants to call.

And I ask -- and he had the breakthrough I felt he had -- oh yeah she says -he sure did. Now he's just trying to get a handle on it all. I ask - so is the reason he likes women with red hair have to do with your red hair? She smiles and says I have known him for awhile -- but not as long as you have. No - he loves red hair because that is the color you've had in so many lifetimes -- my hair is truly strawberry blonde (and her hair changes color).

Iris come in from the right and this guide says - I've got to go. I'm like - wait -- what's your name? It's Sarah. And she's gone...

SIGH -- and my night DID NOT go how I wanted it too. So I'm looking for him to ring around my birthday. I'm hoping that means this birthday and not 2009. If he rings up in 2009 for the 1st time -- I'm not answering.

So then here's Ted last night. Man have I missed though gorgeous green eyes and kick ass British speak. Seems he's had it with his wife already (gee - like I'm surprised). He was dressed in a long sleeve white sweat shirt, jeans and tennis shoes. He was leaning against a tree - looking well -- so Ted like. We had some small talk - he let on how abusive his wife is and how hot tempered he is at her. That they'll either wind up in matching holding cells or maybe his & her rehab. I tried to get him to talk about drug use, but it irritated him immediately and he clammed up. He said - that Will, he's a fine man. he'll be good to you. I asked - you think so? Aye he said -- and I can't say that I'm not jealous, cause I am. Maybe some day....

He was quiet and I asked him -- so what do you want Ted? He let me know - short sweet and to the point. I put it in the OBE sex blog.

The Maria Shaw Show asked me to come back Tuesday morning to continue our chat (just got the email) unfortunately I will be at the doctor's with my son. It's a good feel to know they would want me to come back the next day. Maybe next time:)

Just had a bang of an idea for DREAMERS. Dang -- my mind is a whirl now. I wonder how much sleep I will get? Any of you guys who read this blog a grad student or have been one? If so - email me -- especially if you were a psych major. I was never a grad student - and I have to know how their days progress - just an overview.

Will visited Tracey the other night in a dream. She sleeps at the oddest hours - like he has been doing. So I guess it's no wonder they connected. She and I had a chat about it and this is what she said happened:

yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:01 PM): I was sleeping at my desk
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:06 PM): and kept waking a bit
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:08 PM): thinking
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:11 PM): I need to go to bed
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:17 PM): but I did not want the connection to stop
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:19 PM): soooooo
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:21 PM): anyway
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:24 PM): this is what happened
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:31 PM): First
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:31:43 PM): I am in these beautiful woods in a mountain area.
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:02 PM): I climb up in a tree and there was a deer stand type thingy I guess cause I sat on this platform
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:12 PM): it was in a tree but the branch was hanging over a cliff
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:18 PM): I looked down over the cliff
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:21 PM): and there was Will
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:26 PM): and he said Hi
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:34 PM): I said hi - you scared the crap out of me
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:41 PM): he said sorry did not mean to
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:49 PM): he said I am glad you finally arrived
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:55 PM): been trying to get you here for awhile
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:32:59 PM): I said oh?
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:01 PM): why?
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:04 PM): he said well
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:08 PM): I will show you
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:15 PM): So, then this opening came
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:18 PM): like Sliders
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:22 PM): lol if you know that show
Allie (4/6/2008 5:33:26 PM): I do
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:28 PM): and we went into the opening
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:33 PM): and we were at this old house
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:38 PM): like back in time
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:39 PM): time
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:47 PM): and it was Will's family home
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:52 PM): (in the dream)
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:56 PM): I don't know if it really was
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:33:58 PM): but anyway
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:02 PM): his dad came out
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:06 PM): and he said to us
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:11 PM): your grandmother
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:30 PM): has made some rice and gravy, roast, fresh veg's out the garden - and cake
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:39 PM): you should wash up and go into the kitchen
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:41 PM): so we did
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:45 PM): and we both realized
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:48 PM): we were kids
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:54 PM): and we laughed about it in the dream
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:34:56 PM): his grandfather
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:02 PM): had on suspenders
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:09 PM): don't know why but it struck us as funny
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:19 PM): so then he took them off and put on a robe and slippers
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:23 PM): we laughed again
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:28 PM): so we are sitting at the table
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:37 PM): and Will's cousin's (2 boys) come in
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:42 PM): and are rowdy playing around
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:48 PM): and they knocked the cake off the counter
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:53 PM): and it fell to the floor
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:35:55 PM): all messed up
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:00 PM): and they were like oh no!!!!!!!!!
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:05 PM): she said really softly
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:08 PM): no problem boys
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:10 PM): watch this
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:13 PM): she got a plate
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:17 PM): and put it on there
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:24 PM): turned it upside down on another plate
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:28 PM): so that it was right side up again
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:33 PM): and smoothed out the frosting
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:40 PM): and with the exception of a few imperfections
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:44 PM): it was as good as new
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:48 PM): and she said shhhhhhhhhhh
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:51 PM): don't tell anyone
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:57 PM): and Will started to tear up
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:36:59 PM): and he said
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:00 PM): to me
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:02 PM): that's how she was
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:07 PM): so I am assuming
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:11 PM): grandma is in Spirit
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:22 PM): and then he took me to visit some other people
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:27 PM): they were very down to earth
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:32 PM): just like his grandparents
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:35 PM): like Mayberry
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:37 PM): but he called it
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:39 PM): willberry
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:41 PM): to be funny
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:47 PM): its like they all lived close
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:49 PM): we walked about
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:51 PM): it was nice
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:37:58 PM): he talked to me about all kinds of silly stuff
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:02 PM): about when he was a boy
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:04 PM): so anyway
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:06 PM): I said will
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:09 PM): why I am here
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:12 PM): I don't understand
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:16 PM): and he said well
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:28 PM): because you need to know this so you can tell Allie
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:31 PM): that underneath
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:35 PM): I am just a plain
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:38 PM): good old guy
yecart68 (4/6/2008 5:38:42 PM): with not much fluff
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