Odd, Ends And Me Bitching!

I hope my brain doesn't fall out over the next two weeks. Seriously - I hope not. The kid is home with me for the next two weeks and if they go like this last week did - I'm in trouble. He's really pushing those boundaries and that mouth --- talk about having to count backwards from 100 so I wouldn't kill him. And he's grounded - from everything that he loves (that usually keeps him out of my hair as I work) - which in turn is punishing me. But - I can't give in -- and I won't.

Phase one with Nickelodeon is complete - and the project passed. Now we have to go to phase two and pass through a test in person (not me in person but my Rep's) - and this will not happen until everyone is back from their vacations. We're looking at the week of the 14th. Fingers crossed for that:) I've done my own tarot reading on it and it looks really good. Hopefully I didn't put too much of "me" into the reading and skewed the results.

I feel like I'm in a big void of nothing. I have all of this stuff that I need to do - but no excitement to do it. All of the waiting I've had to do for a variety of things has zapped my "want to do something" mood. I need something to shake loose somewhere. Whether it's my non-existent love life (yes folks, I do believe I have scared off another person and this one already knew all about me), stalled career or beyond hilarious - getting me very stressed out - money situation - something has to move forward. I know something will have to move because change is inevitable - but come on already. Frustration doesn't do well for my complexion.

Yes, I do believe another man has gone running in the opposite direction. SIGH. And no, I have no idea what happened. One second everything was fine - the next nothing. I guess that I'm just not supposed to be with anyone for now. Maybe someone WILLed Mr. Client Guy away? I have no idea. But it doesn't set well with what self-esteem I do have left. I just can't wrap my head around my good for nothing ex having a happy love life - when I can't seem to get a guy interested for more than 2 weeks. UGH!!!

Okay - enough of me whining -- moving on...

The kid and I are heading up to Cleveland soon with my mom to see a dinosaur show up at the "Q" (which is where are Cavalier's play) in a couple of hours. Should be a nice outing. Hopefully the weather won't be too disagreeable and make driving a big hassle. Tomorrow is my son's kid party - should be fun.

Will's been around more than usual the last couple of days. It's been nice to see his face in my mind's again. The two scenarios that keep flashing through my mind are he, my son and I walking into a building where there is a doorman and he knows my kid and I as we live there -- he also knows that Will is a frequent guest. The other scene I see is Will, the kid and I in a small Italian restaurant sharing a pizza -- we're laughing about something. Both scenes are uplifting and positive. I rarely ever have a bad scene with Will in it. Even the fight visions I get aren't that bad because the make up sex is well worth the fighting:)

Speaking of sex - with Tracey's healing on Will the sexual energy clog that he's had is certainly cleared up. His energy has let me know that he's feeling much better.

Either Bill or Will has been doing a lot of blog checking lately. Not sure which one as both of their energies are strong right now. Could be both - don't know.

An odd last dream last night/this morning --- I was in my house, and my cats were chasing something. It looked like a small dragon - but I thought it was a frog - it had red spots. My cat Cera really kept bothering it. I finally got all of my cats into my bedroom and shut the door so that I could find this little creature and put it outside before it was eaten. I find it -- and what is it - but a tiny cat. Like it got put into a shrinking ray or something. It's a long-haired white cat with reddish & black spots. It looks at me and just lets out the biggest meow! I picked it up and it sits in the palm of my hand, just being as vocal as can be. Now I'm thinking - what in the heck am I going to do with this cat so that my other cats don't kill it? I put it in a an open dresser drawer and think about getting a very large bird cage to put it in. I call my mom to ask what I should do and I wake up.

I just went outside to let my dogs do their business when that butterfly who tried to run into me before - tried it again. It sees me and it's like I'm a magnet. Very strange. I saw orange kitty a few days ago - his front left leg was looking really bad -- and he hasn't been back since.

Off to go get some writing done and then heading up to Cleveland!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Tracey And Sexual Energy!

Thunderstorms have been the bane of my existence these last several days. I've had more trouble with electric staying on and my Internet connection during this time than I've had for years. Dang good thing that Mercury Retro is over or it really would have been bad! I've had a 7 year old attached to my hip and a herd of cats/dogs following me all over the place with the - "help me" - look on their face. Fingers crossed - the weather for tomorrow doesn't include storms. I am however, grateful for the rain, which is helping my plants grow - grow - grow.

Last night - around 10:00 pm EDT - emotions kept coming to the surface and staring at me in the face. Repressed anger, regrets, sadness -- all showing up. As quickly as something would pop up - I'd acknowledge it and it would fade away - and I'd be fine....until the next item came up. I emailed Tracey today and asked how her healing with Will went last night - she replied:

Yes, I worked on him from 9-11:30 PM my time last night. Emotions were his biggest issue. I focused on emotions for at least 60 minutes!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But, everything went beautifully. I am going to move onto personal growth next, like fearless reiki, light of forgiveness, deep healing, open heart, inner light, light of truth, inner beauty, soul mate and self love. I am going to do these every night starting tonight at 10:00 PM my time, in the order I mentioned above until he gets an hour of each. This is what the Guides revealed as what he needs most at this time.

So when she started the healing last night at 9 - that is CDT - it corresponded with my 10:00 pm emotional train wreck. So because Will and I are so close, what is being done to him - effects me. Tracey said that she'll be doing healing for the next 9 days, every evening, 10:00 pm CDT. SO by 11:00 EDT, it will be a good idea for me to be in bed, just in case more memories or emotions pop up. I wonder how this is affecting Bill and Ted? I wish I could call them up and ask.

Fingers crossed for tomorrow - Tuesday - my people (I actually have people now - lol) are going to talk to Nickelodeon. Extra positive energy for a good outcome - if you could spare some:) Just so happens that the Nick executives are in NYC. What a shame if I would have to go there!

In between no power and my son being so close you'd swear we were conjoined twins, I did some reading on energy healing - just as I was supposed to. And as I was reading all I kept thinking was -- why does this have to be so complicated? Why do you have to manipulate this to shift that to heal stuff? If the healing energy comes from the Divine and not us (obviously) wouldn't the Divine know what needs to be done where, when and how? Without us doing a whole lot of extra work? But I guess you can't sell books if they are only 50 pages thick - now can you? I mean come on -- I'm reading books by some of the big names out there in energy healing and I'm serious --there are so many terms thrown at me, that even I can't keep them al straight. Keep it simple. You need to keep things simple. That's what I kept hearing Iris say to me -- think back, she said - remember Atlantis - how complicated was it? And if I session back in time, it wasn't that complicated. Sure, there are certain things to do for each illness - but it was still very simple.

Humm....

Which lead me to add some different readings to the Sex Advice part of Gypsy Advice. I added in Sexual Energy Readings. Iris said that one of my missions in this life is to help people with their sex lives -- and in that process I will develop a sexual energy repair/enhance method.

Humm again....

I added a search box at the top of Gypsy Advice's index page that allows you to search both GA and Gypsy Girl Press. There's so much info now on both sites, that I thought it would be helpful to have that.

I'm in the process of rewriting THE BLACK TRIANGLE -- and for that I've had to dig back into my research. It makes me ill -- really sick to my bone rereading everything I uncovered. When I don't think I can read any more, I flip to a girl's picture - a cute gypsy girl in pig tails, with a wonderful smile and heart pounding brown eyes -- and remember that she died at the hands of Mengele. That spurs me to keep working. She's my poster child.

Okay - off to get my shower and then to bed before the next storm hits!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Energy Healing, OBE Sex And Will!

Happy Solstice everyone! If you're into doing magic and casting spells - today is a doozy of a day for you! The extra emery on the solstice helps any spell manifest. But since today is Friday, the day of love, AND within the full moon range (a phase of the moon is considered 3 days before - the actual day - and 3 days after) -- it really is a kick butt day for a love spell. Over at my Gypsy Magic blog -- I have tons of love spells that can be cast today! But be very careful today what you wish for!

My son - who has been a good kid in all of his summer school activities - told me last night that he is firm, he wants to go back to public school. So I say fine - you will. So today when I pick him up yesterday, his teacher tells me that he has reverted back to his intrusive and not listening days. What gives? I just don't get it. I asked him what was going on -- and he just says but I want to have fun mom. I can understand that - but you have to have fun within the rules of the place you are at. he went back and forth for a bit - and I told him if I hear anything bad today - his x-box is in storage until further notice. He about had a cow with that - but some grumbles later he said okay. (update - he was a good boy)

So there you go - public school it is. I'm still not cool about it - but - it is his choice. We'll see how the year progresses. Hard to believe he'll be 8 on July 1st. He showed me his "whiskers" on his face they other day - lol.

Yesterday when I took him to and from school - I had a white butterfly follow me up and back both times -- then here at home there was a beautiful yellow & black butterfly fluttering around! It's been a while since I've seen any butterflies - let alone having 2 who were hanging around with me.

Today is a busy day. Stupid busy. I should fire the person who made my schedule --wait -- can I fire me? Seems like a damn good idea! I could use the time off - lol.

DREAMERS seems to be okay as is -- and now I'm working back on BLACK TRIANGLE. So don't be surprised - again - if you don't hear that much from me in the next week.

I've been obsessed by this little baby Cardinal (just got his feathers in) who is in a tall bush down the street. He's learning to fly and for the last 2 days he'd stay on the ground. Which would be okay since mom is around - but it is right in the heart of stray cat zone. So I've been going down and putting him back in the bush a couple of times a day (gloves on mind you). Mom's there and both her and the baby are rather used to me now. I have to check on him again today.

Orange Kitty (a new tom cat who showed up on my porch last month) really hurt his paw (wouldn't walk on it) and now he hasn't been on my porch for 3 days straight. Makes me very worried that something horrible happened to the guy. He is so starved for attention that when you do pet him he is soooo into it he scratches the hell of of your hands -- so I have to wear gloves petting him.

Petting - which reminds me of hands - which again reminds me of how hot my hands have been these last two weeks. I'm rather baffled to the "why now" of them being hot. I know it has to do with healing and I'm just going to put my hands on the animals. If I think about healing or my hands being hot - they flare up. I've read more books on healing - and I have my own method. I had always thought though that I would do healing after my entertainment (TV shows, etc...) career was over - so later on in life. I can see Iris here shaking her head. Well, heck -- I wonder what kind of time she expects me to do. Ahh - she is telling me that she wants me to read more before I go to bed - and on my down time (what down time) to put Law & Order on hold till Fall (oh man) and read to relax instead of watching TV. Is there any book I should be reading 1st. Yep - she wants me to re-read my Rosicrucian booklets (yes, if you didn't know I am a member of the order) and at the same time - pick up he Advanced Chakra Healing book and go through it again. But I am not to fall into one method of healing - but take from here and there to form my own method. Just as I said that - I had a flash vision of a crystal grid with someone's picture in it -- to use for distance healing - and if someone is at my place (I'm going to have a healing place - before the castle - Iris says yes?) then I am to configure a grid around them as I work.

So if I am getting what I see -- my energy methods are a combination of crystal grids (and laying on), energy and flower essences. Iris says -- yes girl -- now get busy with your practicing.

It's strange cause I can see it as plain as day -- a person on my table - but it's not an ordinary table, but one that I have had handcrafted from crystal - a cloth covers it so that the patient will not be too cold as soon as they lay down. Around them are grid make from amethyst towers and large chunks of moonstone - there is a door to another room and in this room is a HUGE crystal in the center & sage smoke all around -- and on the shelves sits just about every stone one can think of. I walk into this room to grab what stones I need and go back to the other room. I first place energy into the patient then lay down the stones. As they lay there with the stones on them (soft music is playing) I move over to the flower essences and put together a personalized remedy - I also see myself opening up a putting together a gem elixir. Way cool. This vision rather expands on past images I have had about a healing center - one that is in a castle - but this part of it seems to be in a cave, or in the side of a mountain. And I'm getting a yes from Iris - this part is actually built into a the side of a mountain where there is a fresh underground spring.

Sweet! Iris says that I have to start now with the healing as the entertainment career will help pay for that healing center. But in order to have the center, I have to be a healer. Makes sense to me. But dang it all - seriously - how do I shove it all in a day? I know -- I know -- no more Law & Order!!

Tracey emailed me Wednesday evening after I told her that Bill would be back:

He did show up again Allie - and this time was too funny because this time he looked really strange. He did not look like himself at all. I do not know if he was appearing as he was in a past life or what but he looked dirty and rough I guess. He had a beard and mustache and his hair was darker and he was dressed oddly for him - kind of rugged and dirty I guess. Anyways, he said that he has been working on Will on another dimension - as he realized that Will is having a hard time taking all this in where he is at this time in the physical reality. Bill says that he is able to travel multi-dimensionally - and that he was able to meet with Will on a higher level. On this level, he had more success and he feels like this will help Will. He asked me about doing some healing for Will even though I do not have his permission on the Earthly dimension in the Higher dimensions he is okay with this. So, I tell him that I am assuming that it is okay but I will ask Allie and pray about it in meditation. He says fair enough. He showed me his hands and they were rough looking - not like I would expect his hands to be. He said heal them. I said okay and I started working on him just like I would if someone were in person and his hands started glowing this beautiful emerald green and then they went back to normal - no roughness. He said see what you can do. Thank you. That's all I remember, Allie. So, what do you think about the healing energy for Will and what kind should I do if we think its a good idea - like Reiki, Aura Clearing , Cleansing , Balancing - yadda yadda??

I gave her some suggestions on what she should try with Will and she mentioned that she was going to start with him yesterday. I haven't heard back on what happened.

Iris is saying that I should ask for some volunteers for healing. I will do just that - but not yet. I'll take people in groups of 3 -- I'll let you know when I'm ready. In the mean time - think about it :)

Hell - now she tells me is that I'll come up with some energy combo to aid sex lives - fits in with the OBE sex. Again -- how many hours in a day? Okay, one step at a time - I have to stop looking at the whole picture, even though that is what I see right now. baby steps Allie - baby steps.

And on that note - it really is time for me to get back to work/writing/readings.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Kid, My Family Tree And The Garden!

So I'm almost done enrolling my son into the homeschool program with K12. My parents - bless their hearts - say I'm making the biggest mistake. I said no -- been there and done that when I got married to ex #2:) They didn't find that very funny. I listened to them both a bit (two separate phone calls - one from each parent) on the concern of taking him away from other children, I'm not a teacher - yadda, yadda. I explained again how it all works and then politely told them both that while they are free to express their opinions - I'm free to ignore them. They both know that it really is fruitless to try to talk me out of something once I make up my mind.

And then the kid says something to me -- mom, I don't know if I want to be homeschooled.

HEAVY SIGH

Okay -- I tell him -- think about it, but you have only 24 hours to do so and get back to me.

Now mind you - this is a subject that he and I have discussed at length. Now all of a sudden he's thinking about it. What could have changed his mind? Two words: his father.

Well - it's not like I'm jumping up and down with joy at the thought of teaching the little rascal. Just like a spouse - he is well equipped and knowledgeable of knowing what buttons to push to piss me off:) But, my top goal is to make sure he can learn and adapt enough with his empathic gifts in a comfortable environment without getting stressed out to the max.

I finished putting in the rest of my garden on Sunday. Killed 3 peppers plants in the process. I grow the little guys from seeds, so I take offense when they die. But they suffered from transplant shock. Everyone else seemed to have made the transition okay. A couple are a bit droopy today - but not dead, so there's hope. Now while you're in the garden you feel fine - dirty & muddy - but fine. Two hours afterwards it hit me -- and my body is still hurting. I need a serious body massage:)

Did I ever tell you that on my mom's side of the family - her mom - they did a family tree. Traced my ancestry back to some civil war soldiers, American Indians, over to Europe - all the way back to Charlemagne. I kid you not. So on one side of my family tree I have Vlad the Impaler and on the other side "The Father of Europe". Here's a tid bit on him: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charlemagne Very - very interesting. Add to this my DNA ancestry - my soul past lives of Cleopatra, Atlantis and Joan of Arc -- and no wonder I hate to clean!

Tracey emailed me today. No word from the guys over the weekend. But she is having one of those kick you in the butt headaches. This usually means something is about to happen. So if Bill does not contact her today - she's going after him. I'll let you know what happens.

Turned in the latest of DREAMERS. We'll see.

That's about it for now. Usually when there's not much to report is right before there's a lot to report:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Bill and Tracey!

My lower body is fricken killing me. And no, I didn't get lucky last night. I had karate yesterday - twice. My private lesson and then the lesson with my son. In the morning I was flipping people and learned a new kick - had a blast. In the evening my son flipped me a few times and he learned the kick I did that morning as well as both of us learning a few moves. Last night when I went to bed - no problems at all.

Getting out of bed proved to have it's own set of problems. I was like - WTF? Wow -- what a difference a day makes. My son and I are taking the summer off from karate - he thinks it's to give us a break - but actually its to pay for his eye therapy and other things he wants to do this summer. Plus his 8th birthday is July 1st (I can't believe he'll be that old!).

Of course this morning I couldn't believe how old I felt! HA!

I woke up at 2:58 last night and couldn't go back to sleep for about an hour. Will and Bill are rummaging around and keeping me awake. When I woke up I knew I had just come from seeing them - but I don't know what happened. I asked Iris to clue me in and she said that it's better if I don't consciously know what was said. To me that sounds like I'd be really pissed if I knew. But I was awake, and trying to fall back to sleep kept bring up images of those two fighting. I finally feel asleep in time to wake back up again.

I emailed Tracey Monday night and told her to watch out for the two of them - I just had this feeling....she emailed me back and said that Bill already visited her Sat night in the midst of a Reiki session and then woke her up with a start Tuesday morning at 5:00 am CDT. I write back to say that I woke up at 6:00 am EDT with a start - we both knew it was Bill. She told Bill to go away both times, as she was busy -- I told her he'd be back. She wrote me back twice yesterday:

Well, Allie, I went back to sleep and I guess I must have been in a coma because I just woke up. So, surprise no more because they both visited me in my dream.First, Bill and I are in this office with a long table. We are sitting at the end of the table. There is a large window at the end of the office.

Bill tells me that has pissed off because he stepped back to allow Will to come forward and the bastard (his words not mine) has not come through. So, he wants me to sit in on a meeting with Will. He tells me he has called him in under the pretense of talking to him about a business opportunity. I say okay - so what am I to do? He says, you are my assistant - here....and he hands me a laptop. I say okay?

He says the plan is confrontation time. Either he will come forward with Allie or I will. I am tired of waiting around on this. I tell him okay. (Its obvious he's in charge)

It was ten minutes to eleven in the dream and Will was to be there at eleven. At ten minutes after eleven we get a call on the speaker phone that he's on his way to the conference room. At eleven, eleven he arrives.

He comes in and shakes Bill's hand and Bill introduces me and Will shakes my hand and stares at me for a long time and says, okay, what's going on? He is looking at me!

Thankfully Bill says, Well, Will, (very condescendingly) here's the deal. I stepped back from Allie. to allow you to move forward and you are not coming forward so to put it bluntly ...... WTF is your problem and are you going to show up or not?

Will, looks stunned - and then he says, you know, Bill, (condescendingly) I don't owe you an F'ing explanation. Bill says I think you do! I am the captain of this team!

Will says well, then I quit! Bill says you can't quit, you idiot! Will says well, I am not sure what I am doing. Bill says, clearly! (condescendingly)

Then Will goes silent - and Bill does a lot of yelling - with lots of F words...........Bill tells me to leave the room. I feel like he's about to get physical with Will.............so, I leave.........

I hear all kinds of fighting - finally Will pipes in with some choice words!

Then Will leaves and slams the door. He kisses me on the cheek and walks down the hall to the elevator and gets in.

Bill opens the door abruptly - and looks at me laughs and smiles and says, I win - and I wake up!

Tracey was confused as to what it meant to "win" here. I told her that one or the other would be back to give her more of a clue. I also told her that indeed Bill and Ted stepped back awhile ago to let Will in. Later on I got my second email:

Well, I could not stay awake. I took another nap.

This time I just got Bill - he said that he has worked out things with Will - he says the issue with Will is that he does not understand all of this fully! (geesh)

So, Bill said that he and Will have to calm down and sit down again. He thinks that he may have let his anger take control and then things got out of control. He's going to let me know when - he's sick of everyone being busy. He feels like he cannot get through to everyone he wants to talk to. He said he wants Ted there too.

He feels like you (Allie) have pulled back and he does not like that because he's afraid that you are giving up and he's afraid you are right that if someone does not step up everyone loses. He also wants you to know his girlfriend is dispensable and he smiled.

He seemed much more calm. He said he is going to stop drinking caffeine again (while he was smoking) and he's going to take a nap. He has not slept in over 24 hours. He's also going to create a less intimidating place to meet. So, he told me to be on the look out for something different and unique!

I had told Tracey that once one of them showed up to tell them that one better step up and soon or no one will need to bother making all of us have to repeat this lesson in the next life -- and let me tell you if that happened I will make sure they have to really - really work to get to me.

Now I'm just waiting for another email from her as I'm sure they showed up last night. The poor girl - she is going to be soooo tired.

Speaking of tired - DREAMERS still isn't where it needs to be. It's the dialogue -- I can't get it. To me it sounds natural - but to everyone else it doesn't. Maybe I just talk weird:) Back to the drawing board on that. Still working on that treatment for the Nick show. Fingers crossed here for me guys -- some light to help me unlock any creativity that is stuck would greatly be appreciated.

I'm on Psychiconair.com and/or AOL today on the Maria Shaw Show in the 11:00 hour to talk about OBE sex and some love magic. Tonight I will be on Global Psychics http://globalpsychics.com from 8 - 9 pm EDT to discuss gypsy magic and do on air psychic readings!

And on that note -- I'm back to work!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Writing, Dreams Visits And Old Friends!

Oh boy -- so much going on here at the Allie household! I did finish another version of DREAMERS over the weekend and sent it in. This one is an improvement over the last (in my opinion anyways). So we'll see if this one will work -- or at least most of it;) In the mean time while I'm waiting for a verdict, I have another project to work on ASAP - it's the TV treatment for the series on Nickelodeon. It's gotten a two thumbs up thus far and I have to flesh out my ideas sooner - rather than later. So that's what I'll be working on every day this week. Don't be surprised if my blog posts are again sporadic.

Friday night I had a dream visit from a guy I'll call Al. We were on a sailboat, it was night and we were sitting on the hull (I believe that is the front - right - or is it the stern?), drinking some red wine. The air was cool - the water calm. We were both laid back, laughing away at something - his arm was around me and it felt like we had been friends for lifetimes. I looked at him and asked if it was all worth it? I was talking about his drug & alcohol addictions. He sat there for a few minutes in silence - looked at me and said yes. But would you do it all again the same way - if you could have a do-over? He shook his head - no, he wouldn't. But he would want the outcome to be almost the same as it had been - maybe with a bit more glory and money. I reminded him that if he wouldn't have had his addictions, he would have had more of the glory & money like his friends. He laughed and said - but I wouldn't have made people laugh as hard.

Al looked at me - really gave me a stare - if you know what I mean -- and I asked what he was doing? He replied that everything was going to be okay for me - that it was all working out as it should. I nodded. I asked Al that if I ever saw him in the physical world if he would know who I was. He sat for a minute -- and replied probably not. But you would peak my interest and I would want to know more about you. So eventually I would put two and two together. He told me to be ready for that - to brace myself for running into people that I've known and/or helped in this lifetime and before. Many people are going to want to talk to me without knowing why - and it will bother them on why they want to talk to you - but they will anyways. And as time goes on their fear will subside and they will be happy to speak with you without fear or hesitation. This includes Will you know - and Bill and Ted. I laughed and said - of course it does - kind of hard to separate me from them and visa versa. Al kissed me on the forehead and said it was great to see me again.

Then I woke up.

Saturday night I had a dream visit about Bill (he was also in a separate dream visit that night that I don't remember though), in the mail I received an announcement card with his business name on it (I think -- or maybe from one of his "people"). It was a light blue card in a light blue envelope.

When I took the card out of the envelope, in the center was printed "Congratulations". Of to the left was two stick figures (a man & a woman) holding hands. Under the couple it said "Bill and Allie forever", under that was signed "his initials and a little doodle". I recognized it as his handwriting and his favorite black Sharpe markers that he wrote with.

I was on the phone with his assistant and she said she didn't mail it - so it couldn't of come from Bill. I told her that he's a big boy and probably mailed it on his own - after all, he tends to do things when he wants to in his own special way. I was so elated to be holding this card in my hand -- so very happy that I finally had a sign that he "gets it".

I woke up with a smile on my face.

When Bill is around me more - he is around Tracey as well. I emailed her and asked "How's Bill" without telling her about my experiences - and she had plenty to say about him - lol. He must be in between creative projects or maybe is starting on one. But I'm glad he's back more often.

I had another dream visit Thursday night with this Hispanic male and it dealt with sex and condoms:) I'll write more about it in the OBE sex blog when I have a chance. But for now it's time to make dinner:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Psychiconair.com, Bill, Ted, Will And Destiny Markers!

Think Allie -- think. That's what I've been trying to do for the last several hours since my mom dropped on me that she cannot watch my son while I attend my conferences and do my talks & readings. Work changed her schedule and she cannot have a flex schedule. So she can watch him on the weekends - but Thur & Fri is out. But without Thur & Fri - there's no weekend. His dad is a no (besides the fact that he is completely unreliable - knowing that I was out of town he would take my son to see his children - this is a complete no-no and is in the divorce agreement. But he would do so and tell my son to lie - just like he did several years ago and my kid has horrible nightmares that I was going to leave him because he saw his two evil half siblings behind my back...anyways), my sisters - a complete no as well. I have no friends here - my neighbors are cool and would help with some things if I needed it - watching my son for several days is not one of them.

So what in the hell am I going to do? The only think I can do is bring him. But heck - how am I going to do readings if he is right there? And how can I talk about OBE sex during a workshop if he's sitting right there? UGH! I talked to my son about this and he said he'd do readings too - we can be a mother - son team. I reminded him he'd only be 8 at the time and adults probably wouldn't listen to what he had to say. He assured me they would - lol.

UGH -- I hate not having a plan. I'm a planner - I like plans. I'll figure something out - I always do. I just don't know what right now. I could win a lot of money -- or sell a script and then I could hire someone to watch the tyke while I work and take the both of them.

Speaking of scripts - I'm pretty damn determined to get DREAMERS done sooner rather than later (and no -- I'm not rushing it) especially after seeing Indy. I have no comment really except that Indy's crystal skull needed one of those head shrinkers from a remote Amazon tribe. But I say this as I'll be writing a lot over the next several weeks. Breathe deep if the posts aren't on scheduled every week. I will at least post twice because I have stuff that I need to share with everyone. I get crabby if I don't blog:)

But I will be able to share every week on The Maria Shaw show on Psychiconair.com! I'll be there weekly every Wednesday - starting today - in the 10:00 hour. Today we'll talk about OBE sex -- not sure what we'll discuss every week. I think it'll be a surprise. I'm excited to be a regular contributor. Okay - was just on - from 10:16 or so until 10:30. Chatted about the OBE sex and also the Magical Item of the Week:)

Bill. Man he is back and persistent. But he's not a pain. He's visiting me in my dreams every night - I know he's there - but I don't remember the whole scope of the visits. We are always with a group of people to start with -- we chat for a bit -- then either we are on a countryside or on a ship. None of the visits are draining - all are positive. During the waking hours he is also there, in my energy field, more on the fringe than close in my face. He's not draining - he's contributing. It's almost as if he's contemplating a major life change and he's hanging out with me while he thinks things over. Maybe he'll get married again like Ted did? I have no idea what it is - but I do know he's doing a lot of heavy thinking. He won't allow me any further into his mind, and I'm not pushing it. On the way back this morning from dropping my son off at school, Iris joined me. I asked her why is Bill back? She said he feels you're safe and comforting - he needs to think some things through. But what does he have to do about Will (because I can feel this also has something to do with him) and she replied - who is the one soul who is major competition for your heart - the one Will could worry about? I would guess either Bill or Ted -- she says no -- Bill. When Bill and Ted said bye to you many moons again - it is because Will is to be with you and your energy. They have stepped back out of respect for your twin connection to Will. Both men know that you and Will being together is needed in order for hundreds, many thousands of people to reach their next Destiny Marker. If the stakes were not so high, they would not have pulled back. And Ted wouldn't have felt lonely and gotten married - I add. Iris says - correct.

So since we all have free will - and this includes Will - what if he decides that our connection is too powerful, that it scares him, and he prefers not to deal with it. There's no "what if" Iris says, the Divine will keep putting you two together - or should I say, putting you in his path, until he says yes. This is something that has to happen - if not, then thousands of souls have to do this life over again - and none of them want that. If Will and I are some sort of key to something bigger - why won't you tell me what. Because you'll write about it in your blog, Will will read it, and it'll push him away even further. Besides, it's best if you two are on a need to know basis.

Okay - so why does Will and I have to be together for Bill and Ted? Because you and Will unlock something within one another, that once it is unlocked in you, it will unlock in Bill and Ted - then you 3 can move forth with your destiny. So my destiny with Bill and Ted is separate from what I'm doing with Will? Correct - separate but completmenory - you need both halves. Your destiny will not work unless both halves are activated and for that to happen - Will is it. Okay - so if I get this straight I have two seperate paths which lead me to my destiny in this life time. In this lifetime and beyond - Iris adds.

Then I arrived home and she was gone.

So what in the hell am I supposed to be doing while Will contemplates? His energy has pulled way back and walls have gone up. I'm not treading over there to find out what's going on specifically- what I feel is that he had to attend to some unpleasant things and is now just paying attention to himself. So - I will let the man be. In the mean time -- time waits for no one -- and I'm a busy gal. Maybe not relationship wise, but I have enough on my plate to keep me occupied and out of trouble:) Besides, with my son out of school - who knows when I'll have a moment of peace:)

I have been contemplating - again - studying past life regression. There's no one in this area that does it - no one. You either have to travel to Cleveland or Columbus. Both are about 1 1/2 away in good weather. I found that Dick Sutphen is teaching courses this summer in NYC: http://www.fellowshipsspirit.org/spiritually_based_hypno_plr.php but I run into the problem with my son. No one to watch him so that I can go get training. I have thought about a home study program. I just don't know. I do know that this is something I want to do - I just don't know how to go about doing it. Iris just showed up - she says don't worry about it, it's not on your life's path. You'll design a course of study for people to have improved sex lives via OBE sex - that's part of your path. Move on she says...

Okay - that was one way to take care of that. I still want to do it though - dang it:)

There's only so many hours in that day - speaking of which I got to move on to the next item on my list....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

Short Odds And Ends!

Before I forget - again - a reminder that Monday the Mercury Retrograde starts and will be with us until June 19th. It's not a good time to start anything new, move, travel or sign any contracts. However, it is a great time to clean, throw stuff away, tie up lose ends and finish projects.

Got the notes back on DREAMERS - more rewrites are needed - but they're not that bad this time around.

Have you watched National Treasure 2? If you have, the Presidents Book - that is almost exactly how the book looks that I see Bill hold in my Atlantis visions. But the leather is a darker color and the cover is a lot more beat up.

My son played his first Little League game today. They got killed:) But they all tried their best.

Have a great weekend!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Dreams, Death, The 1920's And The Crystal Skulls!

This is the 2nd time I've tried to write this post. The first time - when I was almost done - my computer crashed and I lost it. That's how my day has been moving along. Two steps forward and three back. So being pissed at losing my last entry - I took a long break before I tried this again. Plus -- all day I have not been able to post to my blogger account. I've had to switch to the blog being hosted on blogger and then switch back to it being hosted on gypsyadvice in order for anything to show up. What I've been trying to do today is find another blog template for Allie's Two Cents. This one bores me to tears. I wasted half the day looking around and trying to find one that would work with blogger & my site (and yes, I did a search for blogger templates - but they have to be the classic style and not XML) and I gave up. I have been thinking of switching it al over to Word Press since it is a better platform all the way around. It's just going through all the steps of setting up the blog and then transferring all of the current content over (as I say a little prayer).

The last dream I had this morning was my ex husband #2 and I in an airplane that looked like the Enterprise from Star Trek. In the "captains" chair sat a man - I have no idea who he was as I never saw his face, only heard his voice. The windshield of the plane has a shield over it so we could not see outside. It felt like we were flipping back and forth - the man told my ex that he has to get over there and fly the plane. He said no - he can't do it. The man said that he had to - my ex was frantic - couldn't fly the plane. I could feel us spiraling down, he still wouldn't take the controls. I tried talking him into it - but he never would listen to me, so he didn't here either. Next thing I know the shield slid open and I could see the rapidly approaching runway. The inside of this plan was now a Cessna - with someone in the pilot & co pilot seat. Behind them sat my two sisters, behind them my mom and my son, and lastly - my ex and I. I hear the instrument warnings go off. I glance out the window and see the runway under us. I brace for impact -- which was rough and bounced the plane all over the place. I heard a voice yell to slam the brakes as the end of the runway was coming up. I leaned so that I could see and we were at the end of the runway. My son reached his hand back, I grabbed it, We all ducked and closed our eyes. I could feel something go through us. The pain - also went right through me. I could hear the fire trucks coming towards us. My dog Brodie barks and wakes me up - I yell at him to shut up and I fall back to sleep. I open my eyes to see what's going on and I'm outside the plane. The plane is totaled. It's smashed. I know I'm dead. I look around and no one else from the plane is with me - so I figure they are all still alive. As I I move towards the plane, time speeds up so that when I get to the plane everyone is on a stretcher and being carried out. They are trying to revive me. I sense someone next to me -- they tell me that I have to go back. I don't want to. She says that I must -- then she adds in, do you want your ex to raise your son -- good point. You still have a lot of work to do - you need to assemble the council. The council? I ask. She says - you'll figure it out. Next thing I know I'm opening my eyes in my body - I do feel the pain now -- and that pain causes me to wake up.

Now - I laid there for awhile and thought about this dream. The first part felt like I was in my ex's dream. My family was his family for so long that it doesn't surprise me that he would have had them in his dream. When the dog woke me up I glanced at the clock - it would of been time for my ex to wake up for work. So when I feel back to sleep his dream had shifted to my dream. I wish I could remember who the woman was -- I feel she was Iris, but when I ask Iris, she doesn't say anything. It wasn't a dream that worried me or scared me when I finally woke up - just the opposite really. I got the message that I have something important to do and no matter what comes my way - I have to do it. Push ahead and persevere.

I just got an email with the subject heading "Update your penis". Snicker. What would I do if I had one? Stick the tip into the USB port and download something new and amazing? LOL. Spam -- it cracks me up.

Monday night I had a past life dream of the 1920's. It took place in NYC (as all of my past life 1920 vision have) in a Speakeasy. I was in a far corner at a table with two socialites - we were discussing money - main I was giving them a reading on how to advance their fortunes. Bill and Ted were a couple of tables over. An alarm went off - the Feds were here to raid the place. Within seconds the booze was gone - I heard a bunch of bottles drop. I knew that they were swimming in the sewer system. By the time the Feds got in, it looked like a respectable diner. After they came in, Will pushed through the crowd. He might of been a Fed - but just the feeling I got was that he played both sides of the fence. He walked right over to me and grabbed my arm. Bill and Ted stood up. I had a flash vision of this place being turned into a blood bath - so I quickly told the guys to sit down, I'll go with him. As Will lead me from the place -- I woke up.

Both nights I can remember fragments of dream visit with the crystal skulls. In each dream the skulls were present, as well as a very large waterfall and a crystal & stone temple. I can see myself going into a cave, crossing an underground river. But I can't remember any more than that.

Also Sawyer showed up -- we argued about what we were going to go see. I wanted to check out some island - he said he had enough of those - lol. So I suggested going back to the past and looking around - oh no, he wanted to move to the future. I suggested another planet - he wanted another galaxy. So what did we end up doing? Sitting at a bar during the 1940's and drinking some strong shit.

I'm surprised lately how much of an effort Ted is making to telepathically communicate with me. He's been asking - are you there? Have you left? When can I see you? Ramblings on about how crazy his wife is (hell, I could have told him that). I've told him not to be such a stranger and he promises that he won't be. He said that he feels stronger when his energy is connect to mine - I tried to explain why, but he was gone.

I had a moment yesterday where I felt Will link to me and through his eyes I could see him looking at my business card. It gave my energy field a nice rush:)

What else happened? Oh - yesterday I was sitting on the potty doing my thing, when an upper tooth on my left side started to ache (again - an ongoing problem) I asked for some help here - I have no time for pain. I sensed Archangel Michael on my left - then my friend Dave showed up. He told Archangel Michael that he's take care of this. I got so emotional when Dave showed up - I have no clue why. But I could feel his hand over my left cheek with my left cheek getting very hot. It was all very cool (so to speak). He and I chatted a bit - told him thanks. And I could of sworn he tried to hug me but he went right through -- a very funky feeling. My tooth did feel much better.

Off to hopefully get my shower and then call it an early evening. I got my changes back for THE BLACK TRIANGLE and I have some work to get going on starting tomorrow.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Atlantis, The Crystal Skulls And My Son!

No need to send out Special Forces - I am alive and well. I've just been very busy. The doctor's appointment with my son went as planned- he has the problem with his eyes that we suspected - he has to work 300% harder to focus than the normal person. Explains the headaches, short attention span. We start therapy in June. If I can get to him to do exercises at night (as therapy will cause him headaches) then we'll be in it 3 months instead of 6. And - I hope - it will cost me a lot less.

Finished DREAMERS over the weekend. It got the two thumbs up from my manager - not fingers crossed that the powers that be like this version. I also wrote a rough draft of a treatment for a Nickelodeon TV show. I was surprised how easy it came together. This week I start my rewrite of THE BLACK TRIANGLE and finish up on the unnamed Nick treatment. But the Nick show I set in NYC as I did DREAMERS. I figure if I'm there - would be better to have the two shows close to one another.

But in rewriting DREAMERS I've had some funky dreams about the crystal skulls and Atlantis. In the dreams Bill has that brown leather covered book and he and Ted are arguing about which way to go. I'm off looking at a symbol (A crystal skull in the center of a triangle) on a wall (I believe we're in a pyramid) and call Will over. He and I discuss where we've seen it before - I go over, grab the book out of Bill's hands and flip through it. This symbol is carved over the entrance to the room that houses the Atlantis Time Capsule. Bill and Ted place some big stones under the entrance of our current room (yes, we have seen too many movies). I fish out of my back pack a crystal skull which was wrapped in a purple cloth. I hold face the skull to the symbol on the wall. There was a light exchange between the symbol & the skull and the wall fell back.

We move into the next chamber and there is a thin, stone table in the center. In this table (or actually a pedestal) are three large notches. Bill and Ted took their crystal skulls from their back packs. We told Will it might be better if he stepped from the room - he said not a chance in hell. Us 3 put each of the crystal skulls into a notch with the front of the skulls facing inward. Once we did that the pedestal started to turn clockwise and lower. I remember my stomach feel very queasy and getting very lightheaded. It felt as if the floor dropped out from under us -- and that caused me to wake up.

This happened three nights in a row with each time the floor dropped (I think) it woke me up. Each time I woke up my heart was pounding something fierce and I was too energized to go back to sleep.

I am a firm believer in the crystal skulls and in Atlantis. I base my belief on my dreams, meditations and past life regression sessions. I personally do not think any of the 13 skulls have been found yet. Despite what has been written. I do think that the skulls that have been unearthed thus far hold a wealth of positive energy. The natural disasters that have been happening over the last two - three years, I feel, is to help uncover the skulls. If the skulls had been placed where they were not to be found until the time is right -- it would have had to have been some kick ass hiding places.

I find the legend of the 13 crystal skulls fascinating as I do the myth about Atlantis. It doesn't surprise me at all that the new Indiana Jones flick deals with a crystal skull.

Because I've been writing during my free time instead of writing in the blogs or returning emails -- by inbox is a natural disaster of it's own.

I still haven't uploaded the orb pictures to my computer -- I know, I know -- I'll get one it:)

And on that note - back to work I go:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

NYC, Bill And A Book!

Will. Boy - is his energy strong. I'm so tempted do go rummaging around that mind of his to discover what he's up to. But he'll know I'm there. And he'll probably be a bit upset with me - so I won't. But let me tell you the temptation is strong to do so. I'm so damn curious:) But we know what curiosity does, don't we? It either kills us or makes us stronger. I'd like to lean towards this would make me stronger, but I won't let the temptation get the better of me.

My son is soooooo happy. Why? Because my TV pilot DREAMERS was based in Mass. Well, I changed it to NYC and he is beyond excited. I told you we were going to move there!! He shouted that over and over again -- see mom I am psychic:) LOL. That kid. But I've been working on it - not much time for anything else like writing in the blog or returning emails. So if there's an email from you in that inbox of mine -- don't hold your breath. I have until Friday evening to get this draft done. And now that I switched it to NYC - things are flowing a lot easier.

Tomorrow I take my son in for his series of eye tests. Wish me luck that the sensor motor problem he has isn't as severe as they think it is.

My sister is flying to London tomorrow to go to a concert. A concert. The only reason she's going across the pond. Am I jealous? Heck yeah. She's seeing my 80's groups dog gone it! Rick Astley. Go ahead, roll your eyes, but I just love that guy. Besides, I've always wanted to go to the UK. Hopefully I'll get to go in 2009! You know me and British guys - just love them.

Since I've been back home I'm sleeping better. I still have some of my headache - but nothing like last week - nothing. So the shift did occur over the weekend like it was supposed to.

Bill has been around lately. It's good to feel more of his energy. He has such a way of pushing my buttons - both good and bad. He has been showing up in my dream visits. He keeps showing me this leather bound book that reminds me of one I had in a vision of him, me and Ted about Atlantis. He very insistent that I memorize this book. There are a lot of hand drawn maps, notes and symbols. But when I wake up - no matter how much I program myself to remember what he shows me, it skips away. All very frustrating. I guess when the time comes and I do run into that book in the physical sense, I will have one of those "moments" that click. Besides the book, I keep trying to find Bill. One second he's there in the dream - and then he's lost in a crowd and I run around trying to find him. When I do - it's back to that book which he keeps under his arm. Then he's gone again. Why does he have to jump in and out? Can't he just stay? SIGH.

But with him arriving more often - it feels to me that the stay of contact with me, him and Ted is coming to a close. All I have to say for that is thank goodness!

And on that note - time to get my son, go to little league and then work on DREAMERS!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Catch Up Time....

MI was a bust - damn it all! I did though love seeing everyone. Our bunch of psychics that get together are a good bunch - what happens in the psychic tent stays in the psychic tent - lol. I wish that they all didn't live so far away - or should I say I wish I didn't live so far away. So I drove all the way there, spent $$$ on a really nice hotel room that I stayed in alone, stayed out in the rain for a spell and came back home. I could, though, have had the chance to pick one of several happy-go-lucky college students at the hoedown. I was propositioned many times over. It was a nice esteem boast:) No new hot men on Sunday. I honestly cannot figure out why I had to be there. But even the feeling I had Sunday morning and the tarot cards I threw down as a back up all showed the same thing - I had to be there and it was because of my love life. And that day was Sunday- not Saturday. Completely baffled.

When I got home I threw down the cards again and sure enough - whatever was supposed to happen did happen and things are moving in the direction they are supposed to. I asked Iris - what direction - she told me not to get bogged down by the details. Just that everything will work out. Okay super guide guru - I will take her word for it. The energy though was so charged this past weekend. I didn't sleep at all Sat night. Every time I did doze, I woke up 20 min later with Will on my mind. I'd fall back to sleep and do it all over again. Sunday it was if my nerve endings were on the outside of my body. My mind was going full tilt - too bad my body couldn't even come close to keeping up!

I just wish it didn't have to cost me so dang much to get up there to MI and then not see the fruits of my labor. That said - I am very grateful that we don't live in China or Myanman -- or even where all the tornados hit in the states. So I am grateful for many things....

Sawyer - he's so damn funny. For the last two years (I've lost count of the actual time frame) he has been visiting me in my dreams almost every night. I know he wasn't me to call him Josh - but I won't - just for the sheer fact it bothers him. That man has figured out all the buttons to push on my radar - so if I can push just one on him - I'm going for it. Every dream visit we start off by arguing - every single one. Then we're smart asses (gee - what a surprise) and finally we end up chatting like old buddies about some subject. As much as I really, really would love to turn him into a sexual fantasy (boy would I ) it doesn't feel right. SIGH. So to me he's my Sawyer - the southern sass. Eventually some day I'll figure out why he keeps showing up and what our connection happens to be. He just smiles when I ask him - says I'm the psychic so I have to figure it out. To which I point out -- so are you!

Heath is now good on when to pop in and out of my space. We had a chat and I told him that he can't just pop in whenever he felt like it. I like talking to him and going over the mysteries of life - the why, what and how of things - but there has to be some boundaries. I attributed it to him sitting at a table with Michelle or his daughter and a fan would come up for an autograph. Whatever mood he was in with his table mate - was stopped as soon as the fan arrived. Then once the fan was gone - it was difficult to get back into that mood again. He agreed. So now if I'm doing a reading or writing -- I can sense him show up, but he hovers in the background until I am done. Then he steps forward. Works much better this way.

Will. I'll be dammed if I can't figure him out. He has been right there since last week. So right there that his energy field was my energy field. Which - is the norm anyways - but I don't know -0- the energy fields were closer? I don't know know how to put it. But all my dreams (if they don't have Sawyer in it) they have Will in it. Not a bad way to dream if you ask me. But - I can't really remember the dreams - just that he was there. Now I had a dream visit or two or three with ex husband #1 and I remember some of them -- nothing earth shattering (besides the fact that he was in my dream to start with) just us sitting around talking. He and I were always better friends than anything else - and I always did like chatting with him. I do remember checking in on him to make sure he was okay.

Just got an email - I have to run, get my shower, put on coffee and finish DREAMERS if not tonight - then really damn soon. Wish me luck....I haven't done a real late nighter since college and that was 20 years ago.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

A Séance, The Dreamer Whisperer And Ask Allie!

I had a first over the weekend - and I have few of those these days. A friend of mine was throwing a party and wanted me to come over and do readings for people -no problem. Then she asked - Allie, can you hold a Séance at the party? I thought - SWEET! And said, heck ya! After the readings were done, we all sat around the dining room table (there were 12 of us - 13 with me - in all). I had three candles in the middle (lit) and some frankincense burning - some nice music in the background.

We held hands and I took everyone through some energy exercises. I then said a short opening speech - inviting the spirits in that are for our highest good into the room. The temperature dropped. It was kind of freaky:) Then we went around the table one at a time and they asked a yes or no question - the answers came through me. We heard something knock over and I had to bring everyone's focus back to the table. Once we were done with the questions I told the spirits thank you for their aid -- to focus in on the flames of the lit candles and to go back to the other side.

We talked about our experiences afterwards. Each person saw images, movies, words in their mind's eye.

It was so much fun that my friend is throwing another party this summer and I'm going to go and do readings & hold another Séance. Whoo hoo!

I'm doing that at Maria Shaw's Cosmic Convention in Oct - holding a Séance -- it'll be a blast I'm sure!

I found a TV proposal that I wrote years ago -- it was for the Ask Allie radio/TV show. If any of you have ever watched the Howard Stern show, he had his radio show & at the same time their filmed it and placed it on TV. Like that. I would do listeners readings, have on guests to discuss different metaphysical topics, have a daily, numerology forecast -- etc... I forgot that I even wrote this so many years ago. Now I can add to it OBE sex, helping others improve their sex lives and so forth. I still think it's all a good idea:)

Next Monday - May 5th - I'm going to be raising all of my reading prices (and probably add a few new readings to the mix). So if you want the current prices - buy now until next Monday. If you want to buy a reading and hold it until later - that's fine - just let me know. Keep in mind that if you purchase the reading Thur - Sun that I will not be home (and I'm not taking the lap top, only the crackberry) so I will confirm your purchase on the 5th.

I slept ZERO last night. Every time I tried - I got pulled into an intense dream visit. I'm exhausted. This happened Friday night - Sunday night -- I have one heck of a headache. No time for naps. The dream visits were with people I don't think I know in the physical world - but each need my help about something. One was in an abusive relationship (where the wife was the abuser) and he didn't know what to do. She was there in the dream as well. I taught him how he can change his dream and lock her out. And suggested what he should do in the physical reality with his marriage. Another was on the verge of losing her home and having her and her 7 kids on the street. I helped her shift her dream from the dark despair of being homeless to money coming in and everything around her being bright.

Another person had ovarian cancer - I administered healing, another person was depressed after their boyfriend broke up - and the list goes on. I woke up after each dream visit - which is why I remember them. Just call me the Dream Whisperer!

Friday night/Sat morning - Heath Ledger was front and center. He was doing a lot of pacing -- man, and I thought Will could pace. I kept telling Heath he has to cross over - he kept saying that he wasn't finished yet - still had things to do. I told him what my friend Dave was to take him over - and Dave said he did - so what is he doing back here? Heath said that he did indeed go over - but he came right back. His soul hurts - he misses his daughter and Michele something fierce and he can't leave them. He has a lot of guilt.

So since he pulled me into this visit - I asked him what he wanted. He said he didn't know. Then he and I were in a 1960/early 70's big 4 door dark blue car with a white roof. And he's driving -- and we're driving it up this huge (length & width) staircase. And we were having a heck of a time getting it up the stairs. Heath's pissed -- and I asked him why is he doing this? He told me that he promised his dad he'd deliver the car.

Then it switched to a hotel. But Heath disappeared. So I went looking for him. Opened one hotel room - nothing, The next one was my room and I walked in - nothing. But my lap top was on the bed and my screensaver was on -- the screensaver was Heath. I remember thinking to myself - I wonder if that freaked him out -- seeing himself as my screensaver? BTW -- he is not my screensaver in the physical reality - in fact - the guy is not on my computer or in my movie collection at all. So I can't figure out why he's drawn to me.

Any ways - I opened the third hotel door and there was a woman lying in one bed, with her head at the foot of the bed - a man in the other bed - with his head at the top of the bed. I started to close the door when the woman stopped it. She asked if I was looking for Heath? I said yes. She replied that he had an appointment and was down at the shower room. I started to close the door - changed my mind and reopened it -- she said that she had a 9:00 am meeting and really needed to get some sleep. I closed the door.

Now I'm at the shower room - which is a large shower building where men & women can shower - each with their own stall. I see Heath running form one building to shower room and I yell out to him. Now - my son is next to me. Heath turns and looks at us - saying he has to be someplace at 5:00 and if I would come stand guard at the shower so that people will leave him alone.

I told my son that he too needed a shower and for him to hurry up - I put him in the stall next to Heath. I had to keep shooing people away from Heath - they wanted his autograph. Now how rude is that? The man is taking a shower! I peeked my head into my son's shower as it was 4:55 and Heath had to run. Heath flew out of the shower (fully dressed) and I grabbed my son. Heath said we'll talk later...

And I woke up.

When my son got up the 1st thing out of his mouth - I hate it when you make me take showers. I told him that he didn't have a shower last night. He says no mom, in my dream - in my mind you made me take a shower. Now stop it. I asked if he remembered anything else -- he said no.

The pressure just dropped in my office - Heath showed up. I asked what he wanted - he said he was lonely. I told him that if he would cross over he wouldn't be lonely any more. He rolled his eyes and left. SIGH. One thing that he did say before he left is that he is not haunting Michelle. I think she think he's haunting her when all he's doing is standing by to make sure she's okay. There's no haunting involved - he'd never do anything to scare her on purpose.

Will has been around - but at a distance and that's fine by me. He pops in - pops out. Kind of like telepathic pacing. I only wish he would make the decisions he needs to make and then take action. Him keeping himself in limbo is doing nothing but driving him crazy which in turn - drives me nuts.

Speaking of driving nuts. I've been trying to work on DREAMERS. And I say try because my internal critic has been being very naughty. Many negative comments which I keep countering with positive reactions. The negativity in me says to hang it up -- while the positive side remind me that I'm not a quitter. I push forward until it is obvious that I have to change my course. It's not obvious here except that I push forward. So I will prevail - there's no choice but that.

It's been 1 year since I found out my ex was cheating on me - one year that I had that feeling. It was an overpowering feeling too - way overpowering. On my b-day it'll be one year since I had proof of the affairs. And I say affairs as he had his online/phone woman for cyber & phone sex and then the woman he was screwing here in the physical realm. And wow - what a year this has been. My health, attitude, energy and overall well-being has improved 400% as soon as he moved out. What a year, what a year -- and this next year will be even better!

And on that note I need to eat lunch and then to the podcast:)

3 days till NYC - but who's counting:) Me - that's who:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Tonight's Radio Show, My Lackluster Love Life And My Son!

You guys are a great bunch of readers. Thanks for all of the uplifting and comforting emails about my son, all of the stuff we're dealing with and Will. I'm too swamped to reply to everyone who has emailed me - but I've read all of the emails and they meant the world to me - so thank you.

Speaking of email - the back log is frightening.

His teacher called this morning - I was doing a reading and couldn't answer. She didn't leave a message, so whatever it was it's not earth shattering. A week 1/2 till NYC -- my son is so excited - I think more than me, although I'm dreaming about pizza and cheesecake, so I doubt it:) For my b-day I want to go to FAO Swartz. That's someplace I've wanted to visit since I was a kid. We'll show up either for storytime or for the piano players - whichever they have on a Friday. Then I think the Central Park Zoo would be fun since our hotel is along side the park. Sat is a good day to catch a museum and maybe the Empire State building. I'm not over planning anything - no buying tickets a head of time so we have to be somewhere. I'm going to see how the days unfold and take it from there.

I've thought more about the home school. And if the kid is still okay with it come July - I'll sign him up. My thought is that this will force me to be more organized and to learn more patience. Plus - I think that it will make me a more effective teacher for workshops. And for travel - I don't have to worry about taking him out of school since we'll take it with us.

I met an interesting fireman last night online. I met him 1st and then found out what he did for a living. My #1 fantasy turn on -- firemen. So -- needless to say I was pretty darn happy about that. Any ways - we were chatting and he asked what I did for a living. I hesitated for a split second and then said I was a writer. In the past when I've come right out and said I was a psychic & a writer - either the guy ran -- or he was intrigued. When they were intrigued, eventually they would find my web site -- and then my blogs. Then they would run...

So I'm hesitant to say much to this guy as of now. But this got me to thinking -- if I'm to have a meaningful relationship with anyone - it either has to be someone from the blogs or a man who doesn't freak because of what I write. And when I do find someone - and if he is not Will (remember, the man has free will here) - then what happens to what I write - even if he's okay by it? I don't know. Seems to me that to keep a guy longer than a few days, I have to keep this part hidden. But to keep any part of my authentic self hidden is against what I believe. So what do I do? I know - it'll all play out the way it's supposed to. But the whole scenario got me thinking -- if someone from this blog doesn't step up, then how long will I be single? A year? 5 years? 10 years? I remember several intuitive friends (Tracey, Sky and Gabriele) all saying that once I got divorced (they all said this back in 2006 & 2007) that I would be alone for a spell and then get married (not necessarily in the traditional sense) for the final time. But no one could say how long that alone time would be.

Humm... this just all got me to thinking. I'm not bothered by any of it - it was just food for thought last night as I was drifting off to sleep. I'm pretty comfortable in knowing that what is supposed to happen will happen -- so I just go about my daily routine.

Speaking of which - I will be on Blog Talk Radio tonight with Phil Harris: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/pharris from 8:00 pm - 9:00 pm EST. I pray that my son lets me get through this with as little guff as possible.

Writing is going slow - but is is moving on this next draft of DREAMERS.

Off to get the kid!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Ted And Will!

Today's appearance went great on Psychiconair.com! I was on around 9:15 am EST and stayed on until 9:40 am or so. We chatted about astral sex -- had a fun time and I do like discussing things with Maria, Matt and Joe. If you missed my radio appearance, it will be on again this evening from 9:15 pm - 9:40 pm EST.

I've spent most of my day writing - writing - writing the OBE sex book -- and my Ask Allie column. Tonight I hope to get to the next draft of DREAMERS. Every draft gets better than the last. Maybe with this one I'll almost be there...

Bill, Ted and Will have all been hovering close lately. Will closer than the other two. I find it odd. Not sure why I find it odd - but I do. Maybe because I haven't felt all 3 of them this close in a very long time. Not since that day when Bill & Ted said bye - that they were stepping back until Will and I had a chance to meet. Okay - duh moment. Will and I did meet - and these two come back. So now what? Will and I are not together - so why group together now? What's the purpose to close in rank (so to speak)? None of them really say anything or have a whole lot of interaction - they're just there.

I can feel another shift coming - but I have no clue at what it's in. Could be Will - could be my career. I can honestly say I'm in the dark about the "what" - I just know it'll happen. But I want someone to shine a big ole flashlight on the "what". Oh well -- time will tell as usual, won't it?

Will's has been connecting to me telepathically - but they are short connections. Almost as if he is trying to connect during a break and that we are in different time zones. Every time he connects though - he smiles. Which, of course, makes me smile. I love his grin.

Too bad I won't have the chance to do any retreats this year. Remember last year when I mentioned I wanted to do a couple of workshops/retreats of my own (meaning I host it and people show up) - doesn't look like it's going to happen. But then again - it's only April.

Have a good evening!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)