Catch Up Time....

MI was a bust - damn it all! I did though love seeing everyone. Our bunch of psychics that get together are a good bunch - what happens in the psychic tent stays in the psychic tent - lol. I wish that they all didn't live so far away - or should I say I wish I didn't live so far away. So I drove all the way there, spent $$$ on a really nice hotel room that I stayed in alone, stayed out in the rain for a spell and came back home. I could, though, have had the chance to pick one of several happy-go-lucky college students at the hoedown. I was propositioned many times over. It was a nice esteem boast:) No new hot men on Sunday. I honestly cannot figure out why I had to be there. But even the feeling I had Sunday morning and the tarot cards I threw down as a back up all showed the same thing - I had to be there and it was because of my love life. And that day was Sunday- not Saturday. Completely baffled.

When I got home I threw down the cards again and sure enough - whatever was supposed to happen did happen and things are moving in the direction they are supposed to. I asked Iris - what direction - she told me not to get bogged down by the details. Just that everything will work out. Okay super guide guru - I will take her word for it. The energy though was so charged this past weekend. I didn't sleep at all Sat night. Every time I did doze, I woke up 20 min later with Will on my mind. I'd fall back to sleep and do it all over again. Sunday it was if my nerve endings were on the outside of my body. My mind was going full tilt - too bad my body couldn't even come close to keeping up!

I just wish it didn't have to cost me so dang much to get up there to MI and then not see the fruits of my labor. That said - I am very grateful that we don't live in China or Myanman -- or even where all the tornados hit in the states. So I am grateful for many things....

Sawyer - he's so damn funny. For the last two years (I've lost count of the actual time frame) he has been visiting me in my dreams almost every night. I know he wasn't me to call him Josh - but I won't - just for the sheer fact it bothers him. That man has figured out all the buttons to push on my radar - so if I can push just one on him - I'm going for it. Every dream visit we start off by arguing - every single one. Then we're smart asses (gee - what a surprise) and finally we end up chatting like old buddies about some subject. As much as I really, really would love to turn him into a sexual fantasy (boy would I ) it doesn't feel right. SIGH. So to me he's my Sawyer - the southern sass. Eventually some day I'll figure out why he keeps showing up and what our connection happens to be. He just smiles when I ask him - says I'm the psychic so I have to figure it out. To which I point out -- so are you!

Heath is now good on when to pop in and out of my space. We had a chat and I told him that he can't just pop in whenever he felt like it. I like talking to him and going over the mysteries of life - the why, what and how of things - but there has to be some boundaries. I attributed it to him sitting at a table with Michelle or his daughter and a fan would come up for an autograph. Whatever mood he was in with his table mate - was stopped as soon as the fan arrived. Then once the fan was gone - it was difficult to get back into that mood again. He agreed. So now if I'm doing a reading or writing -- I can sense him show up, but he hovers in the background until I am done. Then he steps forward. Works much better this way.

Will. I'll be dammed if I can't figure him out. He has been right there since last week. So right there that his energy field was my energy field. Which - is the norm anyways - but I don't know -0- the energy fields were closer? I don't know know how to put it. But all my dreams (if they don't have Sawyer in it) they have Will in it. Not a bad way to dream if you ask me. But - I can't really remember the dreams - just that he was there. Now I had a dream visit or two or three with ex husband #1 and I remember some of them -- nothing earth shattering (besides the fact that he was in my dream to start with) just us sitting around talking. He and I were always better friends than anything else - and I always did like chatting with him. I do remember checking in on him to make sure he was okay.

Just got an email - I have to run, get my shower, put on coffee and finish DREAMERS if not tonight - then really damn soon. Wish me luck....I haven't done a real late nighter since college and that was 20 years ago.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

I'm Alive, So Much To Say And A Killer Headache!

I have a killer headache. But I wanted to at least say hi and let you know we made it back in one piece. The kid and I had a great time in NYC - simply fabo! There were a few times that I could of pulled my hair out -- but overall it was just a lot of fun. His favorite part was Central Park. I didn't have a fav part (except maybe the pizza and cheesecake - lol). We had a great time at the Empire State Building. Only the over stimuli of all the people wigged him out. At first I was like "Whoa" what the hell was that? He calmed down after a bit. Since I heard the ESB was haunted due to past suicides - I took my camera and took some shots. Side 6 that faces the GE building gave me a couple of orb shots. As soon as I have a chance I will post them. The kid didn't want to leave - and neither did I. I promised him we'd go back by September - sooner if I have a reason (cough, cough, hack). Got back late Sunday night - after wading through the 500+ emails, I fell asleep about 1:00 am. Too bad I felt so stinking tired when I woke up.

In fact - no matter what time I go to bed, I feel the same crap-o when I get up. I am exhausted. I know that Will has hijacked my energy - he's attached to me. Not sure why - maybe feeling remorse for not seeing us while we were in the city - who knows? But I can only keep this up for so long.

Good ole Sawyer has been a frequent dream guest and Heath Ledger is standing beside me (actually looking over my shoulder) as I type.

I am so tired and my headache is so out of control that I have to go lie down.

I hope to be able to do more of an update before I go to MI on Sat/Sun for the hoedown:) Thurs I am playing chaperone for my son's zoo trip. I hope I survive it:)

There's a lot to catch you up on - Sawyer, Heath and Will in particular. Behind Heath is Iris and Merlin. I can tell I'm in for something big to happen.

Oh - and Tom Cruise. I have no idea what he wants in my dream visits - but he acts like we go back a way. More later....

I know the headaches are a combo of Will being "in" my energy - and I mean IN. And me shifting - expanding - to another level. It's a drained headache (on the sides) combined with a third eye wham-o.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Séance, The Dreamer Whisperer And Ask Allie!

I had a first over the weekend - and I have few of those these days. A friend of mine was throwing a party and wanted me to come over and do readings for people -no problem. Then she asked - Allie, can you hold a Séance at the party? I thought - SWEET! And said, heck ya! After the readings were done, we all sat around the dining room table (there were 12 of us - 13 with me - in all). I had three candles in the middle (lit) and some frankincense burning - some nice music in the background.

We held hands and I took everyone through some energy exercises. I then said a short opening speech - inviting the spirits in that are for our highest good into the room. The temperature dropped. It was kind of freaky:) Then we went around the table one at a time and they asked a yes or no question - the answers came through me. We heard something knock over and I had to bring everyone's focus back to the table. Once we were done with the questions I told the spirits thank you for their aid -- to focus in on the flames of the lit candles and to go back to the other side.

We talked about our experiences afterwards. Each person saw images, movies, words in their mind's eye.

It was so much fun that my friend is throwing another party this summer and I'm going to go and do readings & hold another Séance. Whoo hoo!

I'm doing that at Maria Shaw's Cosmic Convention in Oct - holding a Séance -- it'll be a blast I'm sure!

I found a TV proposal that I wrote years ago -- it was for the Ask Allie radio/TV show. If any of you have ever watched the Howard Stern show, he had his radio show & at the same time their filmed it and placed it on TV. Like that. I would do listeners readings, have on guests to discuss different metaphysical topics, have a daily, numerology forecast -- etc... I forgot that I even wrote this so many years ago. Now I can add to it OBE sex, helping others improve their sex lives and so forth. I still think it's all a good idea:)

Next Monday - May 5th - I'm going to be raising all of my reading prices (and probably add a few new readings to the mix). So if you want the current prices - buy now until next Monday. If you want to buy a reading and hold it until later - that's fine - just let me know. Keep in mind that if you purchase the reading Thur - Sun that I will not be home (and I'm not taking the lap top, only the crackberry) so I will confirm your purchase on the 5th.

I slept ZERO last night. Every time I tried - I got pulled into an intense dream visit. I'm exhausted. This happened Friday night - Sunday night -- I have one heck of a headache. No time for naps. The dream visits were with people I don't think I know in the physical world - but each need my help about something. One was in an abusive relationship (where the wife was the abuser) and he didn't know what to do. She was there in the dream as well. I taught him how he can change his dream and lock her out. And suggested what he should do in the physical reality with his marriage. Another was on the verge of losing her home and having her and her 7 kids on the street. I helped her shift her dream from the dark despair of being homeless to money coming in and everything around her being bright.

Another person had ovarian cancer - I administered healing, another person was depressed after their boyfriend broke up - and the list goes on. I woke up after each dream visit - which is why I remember them. Just call me the Dream Whisperer!

Friday night/Sat morning - Heath Ledger was front and center. He was doing a lot of pacing -- man, and I thought Will could pace. I kept telling Heath he has to cross over - he kept saying that he wasn't finished yet - still had things to do. I told him what my friend Dave was to take him over - and Dave said he did - so what is he doing back here? Heath said that he did indeed go over - but he came right back. His soul hurts - he misses his daughter and Michele something fierce and he can't leave them. He has a lot of guilt.

So since he pulled me into this visit - I asked him what he wanted. He said he didn't know. Then he and I were in a 1960/early 70's big 4 door dark blue car with a white roof. And he's driving -- and we're driving it up this huge (length & width) staircase. And we were having a heck of a time getting it up the stairs. Heath's pissed -- and I asked him why is he doing this? He told me that he promised his dad he'd deliver the car.

Then it switched to a hotel. But Heath disappeared. So I went looking for him. Opened one hotel room - nothing, The next one was my room and I walked in - nothing. But my lap top was on the bed and my screensaver was on -- the screensaver was Heath. I remember thinking to myself - I wonder if that freaked him out -- seeing himself as my screensaver? BTW -- he is not my screensaver in the physical reality - in fact - the guy is not on my computer or in my movie collection at all. So I can't figure out why he's drawn to me.

Any ways - I opened the third hotel door and there was a woman lying in one bed, with her head at the foot of the bed - a man in the other bed - with his head at the top of the bed. I started to close the door when the woman stopped it. She asked if I was looking for Heath? I said yes. She replied that he had an appointment and was down at the shower room. I started to close the door - changed my mind and reopened it -- she said that she had a 9:00 am meeting and really needed to get some sleep. I closed the door.

Now I'm at the shower room - which is a large shower building where men & women can shower - each with their own stall. I see Heath running form one building to shower room and I yell out to him. Now - my son is next to me. Heath turns and looks at us - saying he has to be someplace at 5:00 and if I would come stand guard at the shower so that people will leave him alone.

I told my son that he too needed a shower and for him to hurry up - I put him in the stall next to Heath. I had to keep shooing people away from Heath - they wanted his autograph. Now how rude is that? The man is taking a shower! I peeked my head into my son's shower as it was 4:55 and Heath had to run. Heath flew out of the shower (fully dressed) and I grabbed my son. Heath said we'll talk later...

And I woke up.

When my son got up the 1st thing out of his mouth - I hate it when you make me take showers. I told him that he didn't have a shower last night. He says no mom, in my dream - in my mind you made me take a shower. Now stop it. I asked if he remembered anything else -- he said no.

The pressure just dropped in my office - Heath showed up. I asked what he wanted - he said he was lonely. I told him that if he would cross over he wouldn't be lonely any more. He rolled his eyes and left. SIGH. One thing that he did say before he left is that he is not haunting Michelle. I think she think he's haunting her when all he's doing is standing by to make sure she's okay. There's no haunting involved - he'd never do anything to scare her on purpose.

Will has been around - but at a distance and that's fine by me. He pops in - pops out. Kind of like telepathic pacing. I only wish he would make the decisions he needs to make and then take action. Him keeping himself in limbo is doing nothing but driving him crazy which in turn - drives me nuts.

Speaking of driving nuts. I've been trying to work on DREAMERS. And I say try because my internal critic has been being very naughty. Many negative comments which I keep countering with positive reactions. The negativity in me says to hang it up -- while the positive side remind me that I'm not a quitter. I push forward until it is obvious that I have to change my course. It's not obvious here except that I push forward. So I will prevail - there's no choice but that.

It's been 1 year since I found out my ex was cheating on me - one year that I had that feeling. It was an overpowering feeling too - way overpowering. On my b-day it'll be one year since I had proof of the affairs. And I say affairs as he had his online/phone woman for cyber & phone sex and then the woman he was screwing here in the physical realm. And wow - what a year this has been. My health, attitude, energy and overall well-being has improved 400% as soon as he moved out. What a year, what a year -- and this next year will be even better!

And on that note I need to eat lunch and then to the podcast:)

3 days till NYC - but who's counting:) Me - that's who:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Something Shifted...

Hi -me again:) I just noticed a shift - my career is in the forefront of my mind now and not love. Not that love is not important to me - as it is...but all of a sudden it was if a fog was lifted.

I can't really explain it - but things are much clearer now. I'm definitely more focused. Wow, what a difference.

Whatever happened - I'll take it. Something about Maria's reading for me did it. Boy am I grateful

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Have You Ever...

...Had a moment in your life where you had an idea or an opportunity and you knew if you had the courage to seize that chance - that it would alter your life forever?

I just had one of those moments -- and I seized it. Scared to death to do it -- completely outside of my comfort zone - but I went for it. I know that it just didn't pop in my head, but my guides placed it and I acted on it without thinking about the "what if".

No - I'm not going to tell you what it is - yet. But it hit me out of the blue and I knew it was something I had to do. I want to keep the energy concentrated to me and the other people involved for now.

I have a good feeling about it.

On another note - my son was talking to himself this morning or I should say to thin air -- so I asked him who is he talking to? He gives me that "come on mom" look and says - spirit guides and angels mom. So I asked - do they have names? He said Nick and then treasure. So I asked - are you sure you don't mean Trevor instead of treasure? He laughed and replied - I'm always screwing that up in my brain. LOL.

He appears to talk to himself all the time. I know he's not - but I was curious to know who it was he chats with. He's also doing much better in school - almost a 180 turn around. His grades are always good - but it's that attitude that has shifted. It was almost as if something clicked into place.

Back to work...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

What Would You Do If You Knew You Were Going To Die?

I watched this video of a 47 year old professor who had only 3 - 6 months of good health ahead of him - when he first gave this lecture. I was not there in person, how I wish I was, but watched it online later that day.

It's inspiring, uplifting and really gives you cause to think over things - to think over life. About what is important - what is not important. His story came to my attention again today - and I realized it was because I am supposed to pass it on. What he says matters and is relevant to all of us.

Watch the video - share it with others. It's well worth the 76 minutes.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Being A Dork And Busyness!

Sometimes I am such a dork. I know -- hard to believe isn't it? (Ha) But yet, that's what I am. Raisin (the outdoor cat) hasn't wanted to spend much time in this house because Darin keeps beating the snot out of him when I'm not around. I've tried all the keeping away - territorial stuff, but Darin just hates Raisin - it's just that simple. So I found my sons water guns and filled them up. Then (and here's the dorky part) I put on my son's play gun holster and put the water guns in. Yeah I know -- where's my fake sheriffs badge and hat:) So anyways - Darin went after him and I pulled out the guns and doubled gunned him with water. I felt sorry for him -- for an instant. He ran and hid. 10 min later he tried it again - so I got him again. He ran. From that point on every time he saw one of the water guns - he hid. Samantha also was bugging Raisin - but when I squirt her -- she just looks at me as if to say -- is this all you've got? This is the same cat who loves to jump in the shower with me every once in a while - so I should of known it wouldn't phase her - but every other feline - you betcha. So now I have one gun up and one gun downstairs in case I need them.

Is it May 1st yet? I'm hankering to get back to NYC:)

My son this week did as I feared - sucked out my brain power. I love spending time with him - but I'm amazed on how brain-dumped I feel once he goes to bed.

When I have too much to do I get overwhelmed and shut down. That is how it's been this week (plus the kid of course). I have my readings, coaching, classes, blogs, screenplay and OBE book to do next week - on top of the normal household things with animals, a kid and well - a house. I tell myself not to panic - I can do all of this as long as I plan ahead -- I'm a Taurus - I like plans. So I took my calendar, wrote everything down - spread it out -- took a look and laughed at myself. Heck - I figure that I don't sleep anyways....plus I would rather be busy than bored.

As I was doing my schedule for next week - Iris pops up and tells me to get used to it - the busyness of it all. I asked if anything eventually fades away into the background. She says - nope, not supposed to. In fact - she continues - there will be more on a daily basis. you feel crappy when you're not writing and crappy when you're not doing all of your metaphysical help -- so honey face it - you're to do both. You're not given anything you cannot handle as long as you focus. You want to play - you want to have a good time - that's fine by me and everyone else -- but when you sit at that computer - honey you have to focus. You want to drift off to Wills-ville -- do so on your own time, before you go to sleep.

Now I have to say something -- what about fun? Can I have some fun? Sure you can - she says - but there is a time and a place for everything. This is your year to move career wise - you've worked hard to get here - don't back off now. Remember this? She pulls out form behind her back the ruby sphere from my Cleopatra visions. Yes - what about it. Grab your ruby sphere you have in this life and carry it with you. The star ruby that the sphere was made from will help you. And with that she was gone.

I went and found my ruby sphere and I'll keep it with me until she tells me something different.

My son and I keep playing a telepathic guessing game (his idea) where we keep guessing what each other is thinking. It's fun and it helps build the telepathy muscle!

The song "Unforgettable" by Nat Cole keeps going though my head. If I'm so unforgettable to someone I wish they'd do something about it:)

I don't know why this dawned on me - but last year when my ex moved out, it was June 30th, one day before my son's birthday and the anniversary of my grams P death (died in 2001). Two very pivotal endings that opened new doors in my life. I wonder if anything pivotal will happen this June 30th?

I need an agent or manager for my metaphysical dealings. Know of anyone? Or maybe a marketer who specializes (or is knowledgeable about) metaphysical stuff? The person who I had before would just concentrate on Keen - and frankly - I'm not too hip on Keen. I equate cold call readings (meaning someone who gets a reading without an appointment) to a cold sales call. It just doesn't sit right with me no matter how many times I do it. If you know of anyone that could help - let me know!

And on that note - I've got to run and get back to the screenplay!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Psychic Scams, Dreams And Progress!

Wow I'm tired. I usually don't have a hard time keeping my peepers open (coffee to the rescue), but today it's a stretch. My mind is going 100 mph - my body just can't keep up. Could be a crash or two after the chocolate I ate:) I'm worse than my son with this because I SHOULD know better. Good thing Easter only comes once a year!

Speaking of Easter - Will had his ah-ha moment. I could tell -- it hit him out of the blue just as it hit me. Since Sunday morning my body has been reacting the same way as it did a few days before I met Will. No sleep, small tremors, mind ping ponging all over the place. It takes a lot for me to focus right now - but since I recognized the symptoms right off the bat - I took measures immediately so that I stay grounded.

THE BLACK TRIANGLE is moving along. My goal is to be done with this draft this weekend so that I can do my taxes:) Besides, I'm ready and open to moving forward with the writing career.

Since I've been repeating my 'open to receive" speech on a daily basis - I have noticed doors opening all around me. I've been invited to talk on a national radio show on an on going basis (a few times a month) starting in April - when I know more details I'll give you the scoop.

I emailed Oprah's show today to suggest doing a show on psychic scams. Scammers are everywhere milking hundreds of thousands of $$$ from people. I hope at least her producers consider it. I've had so many sad stories of people being roped into a scam when they were at there most vulnerable. Scammers know no boundaries - doesn't matter your age, gender, social status or education -- they go after anyone. So fingers crossed that they at least address the subject.

My dreams last night were funky. They started and stopped with Will - he wasn't the funky part. One dream in particular I was at a psychic fair - I was working that fair. We each had rectangle shaped cubicles where we could sleep (had a bed, dresser, TV and a computer) and have some quiet time - but in these cubicles we also did readings. I was next to a woman named Vicki. She was moving into the cubical that I was previously in -- seems that I got some spiritual advancement so I could move up one cubicle. Another dream had me in the midst of a crystal cave, that housed 6 crystal skulls. The skulls were talking to me. I've been trying to recall what they said since I opened my eyes this morning -- but I have no clue. Another dream had my son and I flying to NYC -- we seemed to travel to there every Tuesday and back here on Fridays.

Off to work on the screenplay!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Guide Change, New Cycle And Dream Counsel!

Last night I had a dream visit with someone who I'll call Dan. I was surprised to see him. I know "of him" but don't actually "know him" in any sense of the word. He's not part of my soul cluster, circle or family. But I did recognize him immediately. Maybe a past life connection?

I entered into a very dark room. I could tell someone else was there. I said - hello? Then I heard his voice - I thought you'd never get here. Then a light from above (?) shown down and Dan stepped from the shadows. He had on a crisp white long sleeve shirt, red tied, brown dress pants w/suspenders. No jacket. His hands were in his pant pockets. A definite frown on his face. I'm supposed to be here - I ask? You were waiting? He nods. I've been waiting for months.

I didn't know I was being called - or I would have been here sooner. He cracks a small smile -- why do you think "Elliot" (I made up the name) has been showing up all over the place? And when you didn't see him - you were drawn to seek him out (very true I might add)? I didn't realize it until now -- was my response. Well, I'm just glad you're here - Dan replied.

How did you hear about me? I wondered. We all know about you - he replied. Who's we? I asked.

He waves his hands around -- we -- us -- everyone -- souls. We know that you help people. Word gets out. You're very well liked and thought of on this side.

Oh, okay. That's good to know. So what can I help you with?

My wife. I don't know what to do with my wife. She hasn't let me touch her in years and I know about her string of affairs. Yet I can't let her go.

Have you talked to her about it?

He nods yes. But she won't let me divorce her.

What's more important -- your money or your life?

He thinks about it for a few seconds. My life - he answered.

Then give her your money and move on with your life. That's the only way you'll find the happiness you crave.

Now I have no idea what happened next...but somehow we got to this next part....

He was lying down on his side, fully clothed, and I knew he was dreaming. I slide into his arms and he wraps them around me. He mummers about how long it's been since he has touched anyone. I tell him that he's dreaming, my name is Alison (not sure why I said Alison when I usually go by Allie) and I'm not his wife.

Then I woke up. So it was like we were in a shared dream visit, then the visit ended and I astral traveled to where he was sleeping.

Ethan just showed up and now Edward. Get used to it - Ethan says. Souls from all over will be asking you for aid - Edward chimes in. Is this a good thing? I had to ask. Yes, Ethan replies, it's part of your soul path. Be prepared for things to start moving at a very rapid pace - Edward says. It'll be as if a strong wind sweeps you off your feet -- you will not be manhandled, but things will move very fast, and when this cycle is over you will be set down gently.

The hard parts behind you - Edward says - and because of this, our time with you is now over. I felt my heart sink. Ethan kisses me on the top of the head (I can feel a tingle in my crown chakra and some pressure) and says -- we're never far away. But who will be here then? I could feel them just go -- with a good bye.

Two show up -- Jezell and Brigit:) Behind them Galadriel. I hear Jezell say - welcome to some serious female power. Those three laugh. And I feel and energy surge through my body.

Jezell wants me to follow her -- not astral wise - but with my sight. I do and I can see myself and my son on a plane - sitting first class. He's playing with his iPod and I'm working on my laptop. Get used to this - Jezell says. Embrace who have you become - Brigit chimes in -- and let us glide (yes, glide and not guide) you -- Galadriel says. I keep hearing the word "healing".

Jezell says - we'll be back in a bit. When you're working on the BLACK TRIANGLE. And they were gone.

So - I headed BACK to my Runes because obviously something has changed since yesterday. Asked now what cycle am I in?

Perth - reversed (initiation) - Present
Gebo (partnership) - Attitude to take to make it through cycle
Sowelu (wholeness) - Consequences derived from the attitude

The old way has come to an end. Time to call in scattered energies and concentrate on myself at the moment. I need to keep my sense of humor during obstacles and rerouting opportunities. Also - keep positive while keeping my faith firm. A partnership is coming to me - love and/or business - and I have to be prepared not to lose myself in it. I have to remember that with this gift, that I have to remain separate and whole - no matter how easy it is to become one with the partner. This partnership will also lead me to the solidification with my higher self and with the Divine. There is no more doubt lingering. This union is where all my other gifts will flow though. With this I will continue to move down my soul's path. I have to remember to let the right action flow through me and it is brought to me for a reason. Don't fight it - just flow with it and all will work out as its supposed to.

Boy oh boy:)

I wanted to add - before I forget again -- that I got a couple of emails from people who are worried that I have placed Will, Bill, Ted and Matt on some sort of pedestal. Ahhh -- there isn't any worry here. They're men -- enough said:) Besides, we all have faults and limitations -- Lord knows I have my share of them:) At the core I am a very simple person who enjoys simple things (although I do like complex people) and I'm sure because of this -- my soul cluster is the same way. I wonder if we all sat around a camp fire - who would have the best ghost story? LOL.

Have a good day...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Dreams, Runes And The Stone Pendant!

Where do I begin? I seem to have a lot to tell and I hope I remember everything there is:)

Saturday night I had a dream visit with Bill. He and I were back in that library. I wanted him to sign a couple more of his books that I owned as I wanted to sell all of them on eBay and give the money to a children's charity. I felt sad at the prospect of putting his work on eBay to sell -- but I knew that it was something that I had to do. He was okay with it all. Then he said - someday you'll be living with it all anyways. I woke up. Probably some day I will be living with it all in the same house - but it's not for several decades to come. So I wonder why I had this dream visit now? Maybe this was his way of telling me it's okay. I don't know .

My guides wanted me to change my 3 stone pendant. Ethan kept nit picking until I finally agreed. I had no idea what stones they wanted me to put in there -- so I went around my office and picked up the stones that called to me. There was about 9 in all. When I have several stones - I have to mix and match until the combo goes into the pendant effortlessly and stays put. The combo that was required was: aventurine, amethyst, Herkimer diamond. This combo is to help heal and open my heart chakra, heighten my psychic abilities, and have a stronger telepathic connection. And yes - I do think that this has to do with Will. Not only because of type of stones - but each stone vibrates to a certain number. All 3 of these stones vibrate to a 3. My Life Path via Numerology = 3, & Will's - a 3. So there you have it.

Speaking of Will (and since when lately aren't I?) -- I had a hell of a time sleeping last night. It could of been my back because of the @hit load of snow I shoveled (with my neighbors help -- very thankful I am) or my constant worry that Darin was going to blind side Raisin again. But I spent more time awake than asleep. And I couldn't remember any dream visits with Will all weekend -- until 6:00 am this morning. And it wasn't Will -- but about Will and me. Let me explain.

My son was taking a bath. We were in some sort of communal house -- it was rather dark inside. My ex came in and was looking really lost. I told him Hi - how are you? And he still looked lost - like he had no clue who I was or our son. He disappeared and here comes Will's on again, off again girlfriend (in real life). I was shocked to see her. Her hair was done 1940's style - she had really red lipstick on and a flowered dress. She looked at me and says -- looks like we're in love with the same person. Then she leaned in and tried to kiss me. I leaned backwards and looked at her like - girl -- are you crazy? Then I said - maybe we do. She gave me a really odd look and walked away. Then this other woman shows up (no idea who she is) as my son and I are walking out the door into the blinding sunshine and she says to me -- he told me he loved you. I look at her and I say who - Will? And she says yes. I ask - how can that be if we only met once? She says - it took only one look - one look and he knew in his heart that you were the one. So be patient with him - he'll come around. She turned around without another word and walked away. My son and I walked out into the light -- and I woke up. I laid there for a bit going over and over that scene. I still get goose bumps when I think about it.

Snow. We had so much dang snow here that I'm sick of looking at the stuff. The refused to call it a blizzard (even though most of Ohio was shut down) because the winds didn't meet 35 mph. I am very thankful that my neighbors helped me shovel the heavy snow from my driveway. Then the washer blew up for its final time. Very grateful that I had enough room left on a credit card to buy a new one. Should be here by week's end - since it was a special order. I've noticed that Wooster doesn't carry a lot of energy star appliances.

I did a Rune cast for myself to find out what inner cycle I am currently experiencing. This is what I drew:

Laguz (flow) - Present
Sowelu (wholeness) - Attitude to take to make it through cycle
Uruz (strength) - Consequences derived from the attitude


Presently there are unseen forces at work. I am in the flow of my intuitive nature and am cleaning out areas of my life that are no longer needed. I am attuning to my own rhythms and bringing to me people, places and situations that are part of my self-transformation. The door to the past is shut completely and life is taking on a whole new dimension. I have to follow the path that my soul calls me to -- my reason to be here. I have to go with the flow and remember that what I am striving to become, I already am - I just need to realize it. I have to bring forth my essence and shape it creatively as the life force of the universe is here and available for my use. The result of this attitude will be a new beginning - a fresh start as my old life has outgrown its usefulness. There is positive growth and change - although since I have let go of people, places and situations - there will be lose. I will have a new perspective and new strength that will allow me to adapt to the demands of a very creative time. My soul and the universe supports my new growth.

Well I'll be dammed -- it's about time. If you look back on my blog entries - you're going to see that I have been letting go of many things in my life -- and I have been shifting things to embrace this creative time. Yay! I so deserve it:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Will, Ted And More Change!

I'm exhausted. What a week last week was. After I got all of the Will details fleshed out for the 27th - and energy shift occurred. This happens when there has been a change and my physical body tries to adapt to the shift in my energy body's higher frequency. So for over a week - sleep has been more pathetic than usual, headaches, body tremors, brain on hold -- the fun stuff. Luckily when I do readings it's something that just flows through me and doesn't really require any brain work. So to help with this shift I have stayed away from all extra spiritual work - no mediations, no on purpose dream visits, no anything. This is why I haven't written all last week - when I stay away from things - I stay away.

I don't feel too bad today which is why I thought it was fine to write. I have been doing a lot of shifting and putting things behind me over the last week. I resigned from Whispers Media. No - nothing happened, it was just time to move forward. I have nothing but love for that company. So no more sex toy testing for me - damnit:) But I do have over 60 toys as it is and frankly -- do I really need any more? Maybe a good glass dildo or two -- but that's it. I'm also going to be done with the L Word and I'm not going to do the sex talk show. Maybe some day I'll do the talk show - just not right now. I've decided to focus all of my extra time and energy to my screenwriting. I'm good at it. And with my manager's talent and fine-tuning ability -- there's no reason why I can't make it -- or at least make it to a point where something else opens up. No worries - I am still writing the OBE sex blog and book.

My guides told me to go out and by yellow for Will. I have to wear a yellow shirt when I talk to him. I have no idea why -- but they comment and I just follow their lead. 3 days till I see him. He's been in my mind a lot -- not intrusive like - but it's almost as if he's here to see what I'm doing and how I'm doing. Looking forward to Wed and I find myself nervous. Not nervous to see him - that'll be a piece of cake. It's NYC with my 7 year old - that's what makes me nervous. I have no idea what I'm doing, yet I have to act like I do. I have no idea how to hail a cab and the subway? I get hives just thinking about it. We'll be okay - it's just the big city and I'm a country girl:)

I won't be doing any readings this week - I'm scheduling for the next week and beyond. And it's filling up rather fast.

Watching the Oscars. I'm such a geek I never miss it. I've been watching since I was 10 years old. It's cool as right now they are showing the Kodak theater - and I've been in there. My sister and I went in once for a tour. Tommy Lee Jones and Jack Nicolson sitting by one another -- that would be a trip to be in that area and just listen to those two. I - of course - am going to cry when they show the stars that have passed this last year. I always do. This is the 80th awards and I remember having a dream once where this award show was significant for me. Not sure why. I guess maybe I'll find out afterwards.

My dreams have been jamming lately -- well, should I say -- still. They are just so darn busy. Will and Bill are always in them -- but I can't remember exactly what happens, I just know that they are there.

BTW...Ted finally did marry the vamp last week. Good luck to them both -- they are sure going to need it. I give it 3 years tops.

Back to Will -- as he's obviously on my mind. When we're telepathically connected - I can sense fear, excitement, uneasiness, love, impatience and longing. I think that we are bouncing it off of each other. I can tell that he is not 100% about having his life tipped upside down - even if it is for a good reason. Change is scary no matter if it's wanted or not. Add to this the unknown -- and it can make the most optimistic person a pessimist. This is where I lie - I sway between optimism and pessimism. I think that I put the pessimism in my thoughts so that if things do not go as I would like - then it won't be such a let down. Of course I am honestly not expecting much at all - more like this is a seed expedition. Planting a seed of curiosity. Will's a thinker - once that seed is planted, he'll work on it till he gets it worked out. A lot like Bill -- but Will doesn't overthink. We'll see what happens. But one thing is for sure - the following Monday will usher in a new time for me, regardless if NYC goes well or not. I'm ready for something new in my life. I'm ready for something good.

I will not have my computer in NYC - but I will have the Crackberry (AKA Blackberry) with me in case there is a need and/or time to shoot off a quick post.

Don't forget that Fri - Sun I'll be in Lansing MI for Maria Shaw's Cosmic Connection Covention. Stop out and say "Hi".

Off to keep on watching the Oscars and working on "The Black Triangle".

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Dark Dream, Will And Making Choices!

I really need to hire someone to come into my office and reorganize me. It's really very shameful. How can I Feng Shui my office if I have clutter? You can't have clutter with Feng Shui - the energy gets stuck. So somehow I have to put some time aside just to put things away. Yes, I realize that if I would just put things away after I use it (after all, that's what I tell the kid) then there wouldn't be a problem. SIGH. At least my super powered Feng Shui fountain is pumping and doing its job!

Of course the sex books that just arrived for my sex talk radio show (which I'm calling Sex With Allie) - needs to be put away. My son's birds and the bees talk will have to wait until anther day - preferably another year or two, three, five:) I think that I've fund a place to produce the live call in show - and of course I'll release it as a podcast too. I need to have a 1st guest for the show. Any suggestions? I'm also going to have a give a way each show - maybe a sex toy, or some erotic audio, a novelty. I'll have a fantasy contest where people send me their fantasy, and which ever one is the best -- will win the prize:) What else am I going to have? Sex toy reviews and either a sex position of the week - or maybe a sex game of the week. Maybe I'll alternate them? Plus sex in the news: sex health, sex topics -- etc... It's be a good hour show.

As I was taking my son to school this morning, we were discussing his behavior and how he is always on "blue" (behavior is color coded: green = good, yellow = warning, blue = big trouble, red = kiss your butt goodbye, you're going to the Principals office). He tells me that it's the other kids fault that he gets in trouble. I reply with that's not true - you and only you are in charge of your choices. Every minute of every day you are able to make a good choice or a bad choice -- but either way the choice is up to you. He really didn't have much to say about that. But as I was walking back home - I told myself - Allie, why not listen to your own good sense? You bitch every day because you don't have time to fit it all in -- and we've been down this road before. When all you have to do is make good choices. Thus far on any given day - your choices lean more towards the good choice - but the bad choices eat up for too much of your time. So what are you going to do - good choices or bad choices? I'm all for the good choices and that's where I'm concentrating now.

After all, I do believe I have finally conquered the thought process. When something bad comes into my line of though - I quickly scoot it away and bring in something else. I've gotten so good at it that I don't have to think about doing it - it just happens. So now I have to do the good choice, bad choice thing. Wow - shaping your life to live it in a positive manner sure is difficult. What made it this difficult? The media? Family? Society? or maybe a combination? But no matter what shifted us to that point of living more in the greed of darkness instead of the happiness of light - it's up to each of us to change our lives around.

I noticed that yesterday I kept seeing the number 99. So I decided to look it up in Angel Numbers: Get to work Lightworker! Your Divine life mission is needed now more than ever, and any contribution you can make toward bringing more light and love into your world is imperative. The preparation for your life's work is complete now. I found that to be very interesting as I had felt the same over the last several days. I felt a shift - a good shift.

Will has written one book. Well that book arrived yesterday - it's musing from his notebook over the years. It's a light read, but gave me a much stronger prospective of his conscious side as well as his ego. I like getting to know the whole person, not just the spiritual side and/or his soul, which I already know. Even in this books - he writes short blurbs about seeing spirits and about knowing that there is someone out there for him. Tired of a meaningless life - success hasn't brought him happiness. Tired of being alone and feeling old. His notes were from 76 - until 98, this being published in 99. I wonder if he published again - if his notebook musing would have taken on a different tone? Oh -- and he did mention that he wants sex -- lots and lots of sex. I had to smile at that one.

Speaking of Will, he and I had one wild dream visit last night. It was very dark. Not only in the tone, but it was dark in the dream. He and I are using magic to battle these odd looking creatures that appear to be half lizard and half cat.

It's wearing us out. No matter how many we take out, they seem to multiply. This feels like the continuation of a dream I had many months ago about he and I going off to battle (date: Nov 20th 2007). Our energy is low, the sky is dark, the air is dense and the earth is stained red. There's a part of each of us that just wishes to let them kill us so that we can just rest. All of a sudden, we hear a swishing sound behind us. The creatures scatter. What is coming towards us is the largest snake I have ever seen. It can take out buildings. In fact, it takes out a grocery store with people in it. We can hear the panic cries of them being devoured. Will and I both know that our energy is depleted - how can we take this thing on?

Will grabs my hand and we run into a near by cave. Sex he says - sex will bring our energy up to the highest level and reconnect us to the source. I assure him that I'm in no mood for sex and well - he assured me neither is he. You can go to the OBE sex blog to read what happened - and then come back here to read the rest.

We exit the cave and head towards the snake - which by now has gobbled up half of the town. People are running around in complete panic. I stand on one side of the snake - Will on the other. We utter words in a tongue I do not consciously recognize. Fire, water, strong winds, swords, bugs, -- we try everything we can on this snake and it only stuns him - doesn't kill it. Then I read Will's mind, we have to be inside of it. Not that I want to - but I know we have to. So we run into a house that is in his path of destruction and sure enough - up goes the house.

All around us the house breaks into toothpicks - as the pieces go down into the snake- so do we. The smell in the stomach was horrible - everything in there was being digested very slow. People, animals and things were all in different stages of decay -- almost as if we went directly to hell. Will and I gasped hands and yelled an incantation that would blow up the snake. It worked - and we were thrown through the air like rag dolls.

As I landed with a thud in the dream - I did so on my bed I woke up. And it's amazing - my body hurt as if I had just slammed into something. Cats were staring at me. I got up, drank a glass of wine - and went back to bed. It was something like 3:05 am.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Headaches, Change And Will!

I woke up again this morning with a killer headache. My dreams have been very active the last two nights. So much so that I spend most of my night tossing and turning. What bugs me is that I can't really grasp what I dreamt about (besides Will). There's fast moving water and fire. I can briefly remember running towards something as everyone else was running away. Other things that I can remember snippets are guns being fired, and a wave of peace. When this type of dreaming happens w/me waking up with a headache - some big change usually happens in my life. It could be good or bad -- don't know. I could use some good:)

Now if I can't sleep as well as having the above, then it's a change coming for a large group of people -- this is what happened to me before 9/11, Katrina and the 2005 Tsunami. So if the no sleep happens - I'll let you know.

Either way something is going to shift in my life. I've told myself to pay better attention to the dreams.

I noticed the clock this morning -- it didn't say 8:12, instead it was 8:05. Now 805 stands for: The changes that you're considering or experiencing are Divinely guided, and they help you to be more financially secure.

Hummm...I'm not considering any changes right now -- but if you take in account my dreams -- then the changes being made must be to give me a better financial foundation. That would be nice.

I know that I am trying to revamp things to give myself some more writing time. It's hard for me to do anything past 4:30 when I go pick up my son. I get him, do house work, supper, homework, some play time, his bath, bed and then some more house work. By this time it's 10:00 and I'm pooped. I do keep trying to get up sooner - but me and the snooze button are loving each other way to much. I think that I'll ask my guides for help on that.

Speaking of guides, as I was falling asleep last night, I was walking down my path toward my dream portal when I saw Edward and Ethan. They said that everything is going as it should and that I need not worry so much. Then Edward chimes in and says my worries take me away from my path. Ethan adds - they need to feel your light. My goal was to walk through the portal and go see Will. But as I moved closer to it, I could see him standing there waiting for me. I asked him what in the heck is he doing? He replied - you were coming to se me anyways - right? I nodded. Well, I though I'd save you the trouble of finding me and enter into our dreams side by side. I asked - how can you be here and enter into my portal and not your own. He smiled and said - I have so much to teach you. And we walked through.

I barely remember the visit since it was at the start of the night and then I had all of that activity (which Will might have been a big part of - I don't know). What I do remember is him showing me a large leather bound book that we wrote our "teachings" into centuries ago. The place we were at was our magic room on the astral plane.

Keen was a waste of time today -- as it had been all week thanks to that wonderful person who left me the negative feedback. If you can respond to my plea of help in the below posting -- that would be great. But I'm not going to leave it there very long - so if you look below this and there is no posting about Keen, then I erased it.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Psychic Pimps And Dream Visits!

Halloween during a Mercury Retrograde. Not fair - not fair at all! Why? Because I have always done a spell on Halloween night - usually around midnight. No matter what spell I've ever cast, it has come to pass. But not this year as magic during the MR can have a horrible outcome! Why? Because during magic what you are doing is communicating your intention to the Divine. Mercury is the planet of communication. When that puppy travels backwards - normal day to day communications go screwy and with magic -- ouch! Either things can turn out the exact opposite of what you want or it only happens 1/2 way. Either result is not good. So this year I will refrain from my magical Halloween fun until next year.

My son is so excited to go trick or treating tonight. Was I ever that excited to get gobs of candy? I know my dad was - lol. But I'm sure I loved my chocolate high as well. But we will be out and about around 6:30. He's going as Batman this year.

The yard work I did, ripping up all of the garden plants to prepare the ground for winter, almost killed my lower arms. I haven't even started on the front or side beds yet and the odds of me actually doing so are slim. But I will at least think about it:) BTW...I re-caulking of the bathtub was a complete success. No more leaks! Yay me!

I need you guys to be my psychic pimps again. Two reasons: 1) my dryer blew up and it's 11 years old. Putting $160 into it is silly when I can get a new dryer for about $250. The only problem I do not have either amount handy - so I need dryer money. 2) The other night I had the most amazing experience with Will (details below) and when I was lying in my bed saying "come on all ready" - my guides are telling me again - "you're not known enough." I have no idea what kind of well-known they want me - but the more people I help, the more my name will get out there - right? So this is why I need the pimping help. Thank you in advance.

My hat's off to single mothers with more than one child. I don't know how they do it. I'm busting butt with just one kid, 2 dogs, 4 cats, and a house. I can't imagine having two or more children and doing this. It's been what - almost 4 months and I'm still not down to a workable routine. I roll out of bed at 6:30 am, check email, do online banking stuff, and off to take care of the animals. By 7:30 my son is up, I grab him breakfast and I jump in the shower. By 8:45 we're walking to school. I work from 9 - 5 each day until I pick my son up from the after school program. From 5 - 6 I do house work & make dinner. From 6 - 8 it's me and my son time (and outside work time). 8 - it's his shower. 8:30 he's in bed and I read to him. 9 rolls around and I throw a load of laundry in (to hang around the house the next day to dry). 9:15 - 10:00 I try to catch up on email (lol - now that's a laugh, but I am making headway). By 10:00 I'm in bed ready to have a do over starting at 6:30 am.

On weekends I've set aside for writing. How much I get done depends on if my son is here or at his dad's. Of course when he gets back from dad's, he's a handful and a half. So I'm not sure it's worth him going over -- but he is crazy about his dad.

And somehow I'm supposed to date in the midst of all of this. No wonder my guides said - no - there won't be any real dating going on. Sex - yes if you want it - but no real dating. Did I tell you I canceled all of the dating sites I was on? SIGH - there's just no time. Maybe once I get my routine down, I may work dating in -- but it won't be for awhile.

Will. Now this man has been on the front lines for several days now. I can always feel his energy with me - always. And if I feel myself getting really upset about something I used to have to ask for his help, now he senses it and just shows up. Sunday I was just in a state - between my dryer breaking, my son coming home with a major attitude problem and finding out that my ex has his gf spend the night when my son is over there (hence the need I think for the attitude adjustment). And I could not sleep. The next thing I knew it was 2:30 am and I'm still awake. I could feel his energy come in and snuggle in behind me. I fell asleep immediately. Now Monday I felt horrible - I was sick yet again. So sick that I had to cancel my L Word chat. Now during Monday I could feel him all around me - saying let it go, it'll make you sick - let it go (the anger and frustration) and I wouldn't. I could feel him try to pull it out of me - but I held on - I was pissed.

Part of me was thinking to myself that I'm just "delusional" about Will (yes, from time to time if I'm in a pissy mood I do still think that way - thankfully I'm not pissy too often) and that I should just ignore it. That is when a client who knows who Will is emailed me about Will. I then knew - that no, I wasn't delusional. This was just another sign that I'm on track. Monday night as I very sickly laid down on my bed, I asked for an attitude adjustment by morning. Well, I got it -- and it was Will who helped.

In the dream visit we were at the beach - it was night and I could hear the waves crashing against the sand. He and I were walking, talking about some project when we stopped walking and rested on a large boulder. We were still chattering away, bouncing ideas off of each other. I could tell that we were both really excited about the ideas being discussed (too bad I can't remember the actual ideas). Who knows how it happened, but our faces were close and he said something and I lost my train of thought completely. He looked at me and asked if I was okay. I stumbled over my words, but I asked him to repeat what he asked as my thoughts escaped me. He repeated and I opened my mouth to answer -- and again I couldn't. I just looked at him. He mumbled something under his breath and kissed me. It was a good kiss too. I remember pulling back just grinning. He said that it'll all work out, and to stop worrying. I could hear my alarm off in the distance. He said - I'm not done with you yet.

And I woke up, in a decent mood - feeling better - a definite attitude adjustment. And he was right, he wasn't done. The telepathic sex was amazing. All still at the ocean and I could feel the coolness of the rock on my butt. More about this at the OBE sex blog.

My guide Edward just told me that there is no more email in the morning before my son gets up. It is a time for energy work and for reflection. If I put side the 15 - 20 min in the morning that was email time, I will find a significant change in my day. He hasn't been wrong yet - so starting on Friday (after the MR goes direct) I will start my retraining.

As I've been writing today's entry, I have been getting the biggest jolt of energy through me. It's the trembling thing when I know a shift has occurred. Edward tell same it deal with Will. It was a change on his side. He tells me that Will has my letter and is contemplating what to do next. Energy guys -- for those of you who know who Will is - please send him a dose of strength energy to contact me. For those of you who don't know who he actually is - Will is really his name and that alone will be very helpful to put energy to his name. Will found me - not the other way around, so I can't see why he will have problem contacting me. Thank you bunches in advance.

Bill and Ted are both on the outskirts of my energy. They are there - but they are not there. I think that I will try to help them focus more on the connection - to make it stronger. The connection is permanent already, but they have a habit of throwing up a semi-wall when they work and that makes the connection just a bit more convoluted. The energy connection can help them overcome their current personal and business difficulties.

Matthew jumps in and out of the energy field. He knows but he doesn't know what is going on. Eventually he'll catch on - I just have to keep sending him the group's energy.

I asked Edward about me going in and drawing the guys to me like a portal -- as I've done before. He says we're past that - they are alrady drawn to me. When I ask what I should be doing - he tells me to close my eyes and grab my healing wand. The 1st thing I saw was a blinding sun. I could hear Edwards's voice ask me if I knew what I was looking at. I said sure - the sun. What does the sun do - he asked? It gives off positive, life affirming energy as well as a life force - it helps things grow. Correct he said. Now put these on. I put on a pair of sun glasses. Edward tells me to look again at the sun and behind the radiant rays I can see me. Edward tells me that that is what I am to do - give off the positive. life affirming and life force energy. He tells me to look away from the sun and I can see all 4 guys, basking in the sun's glow. See Edward said - you be the sun and they will come closer to you. The morning energy raising and reflection - plus you getting more known will cause this to happen. You'll notice almost an immediate change in everything as soon as you start to follow the plan.

I think I may start tomorrow. I can hear him say - good idea, Retrograde or not, it will still work.

And on that note - time for me to get back to work.

Happy Halloween!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Gypsy Magic, Edward, Bill, Ted And More!

Can you say AMEN! The DREAM book is finally done and at the printers! Out of the 4 gypsy magic books - this one is the best. I love talking about dreams and astral travel! This is just in time for my divorce hearing next week. Remember, I kept being told in order to go to the next stage in my life, the books had to be done? And -- I had to be divorced? Well -- there you go. Robert - my guide - is such a happy little clam. Now he's pushing me to get going on my TV pilot DREAMERS. And I have to say - yes sir - on this one -- cause every fiber of my body is telling me to move it. I asked Robert -- what about The L Word or Tell Me You Love Me or even The Dead Zone -- what about writing for them? He tells me not to get a head of myself. Damn. At least it wasn't a no way:)

Bill is something else. I swear. Just sitting back, trying to get to the center of me - of my mind - on purpose. He has that need to be "right there". I don't mind it though, he's a creative soul and his muse just melds with mine. I had a really wicked idea for a story that involves Bill, me and other dimensions -- maybe add in the co-dependency of Ted. A supernatural, love, erotic story thriller with violence. It just flowed out from me to my notepad as an outline. The more I think about it -- the more I think about what a kick ass story this is. One thing at a time Allie -- get DREAMERS done 1st. Work on the OBE Sex book next. Of course -- the OBE sex book would flow well with the story. I'd call it an erotic thriller - the new story - not the OBE book.

I have to shift my focus.....

Will. He keeps popping in and out to say - hey - if you have a moment I'd like to remind you that I'm still here. I have something on the table and should be out the door next week in order to get a hold of him. Every fiber of my being knows that as soon as he gets it, he'll act on it. Maybe that's why I keep putting it off -- kind of like the oh crap - what do I do now? But now, it's not a crap - what do I do? I know what to do -- and I can do -- that is a very freeing feeling!

I've been trying to focus in on Ted the last several days -- but Bill won't let the connection last very long. So today I'm going to blast through (so to speak) and send Ted some energy. He's really low on the energy -- he gets this way if he and I haven't been connected in a while. He/we could have the on connection always like Bill and I have graduated to - but Ted still has some issues to work through before he can get to that stage. He close - so close -- but not close enough. It would help matters if he would just dump the soul-sucking vampire he's been with the last two years. But he hates to be alone. When I asked Ethan about this - I'm single now - if Ted knows this (and he does) then why doesn't he dump the negative entity and contact me? Ethan tells me that Ted knows there is no way in hell Bill would sit back and let this happen. And Ted's love for both you and Bill far outweighs the love he has for himself. That said, he prays that you both will allow him in your lives as a good friend.

I'm amazed on how much my gifts have grown over the last year. You might have noticed that I no longer have to do a session to get messages or see visions/images. I never had to do a session when it pertained to doing a reading for someone. But when it dealt with me and my life - I always had to hit a session of some sort in order to extract information. It's nice that I don't have to now. At least there's something in my life that I don't have to work so darn hard at any longer.

But that aside - I can feel the pull of a handful of guides - so it's just easier to go into a session.

As soon as I started, there was Ted, bigger than life. But he was back a bit - stuck in a haze or mist. I could hear Ethan tell me to raise my energy as high as I could get it. I just stood there and stared at Ted -- his energy aura around him was weak and what was there was a brownish black. It was heart breaking to see someone in such a stage - especially someone like him who has such a giving heart. Ted laid down on a bed (not his - he's not at home). With my feet planted firmly on the ground, I imagined a plank of energy going around me - slow at 1st and as it increased speed I increased the distance of it from my body. As the plank moved out - a white energy hugged the middle between us. As that moved out into the ethers - I placed myself in a glass tube, having it close to my body and started it to go around clockwise. Faster and faster it went - still relatively close to my body. On the outside of that tube - I took another glass tube and made it go counter clockwise. When my energy is being raised to this level - my tummy always feels really odd - like I'm heading down that 1st roller coaster hill. When I can feel my astral body wanting to go exploring - I stop the energy raising. I focused my energy to go out through my hands and into Ted. As the energy moved into him - he groaned and tossed and turned, finally resting on his back.

Not sure how I got there - but I was straddling Ted, with my hands on his chest looking down. His eyes flew open and it was as if he could look right at me. His green eyes seemed to grow wide and looked onto mine. He said "Oh God Allie" and I was whisked back out of there - back next to Ethan. I watched as my energy infused Ted -- making all of the brownish black drift away. His energy aura grew in size and strength. A blackness left his body from the middle of his back.

He got up and walked over to a pill bottle. He stared at it for a few seconds, opened a drawer and threw them in. I looked at Ethan and he said that they were tranquilizers. Ted walked out of the room.

I turned and there stood, Ethan, Robert, Jezell and Brigit. I asked what did I do to garner so much attention? Robert said that they were there to let me know how proud they are on the progress I have made. Brigit said that the 4 of them will be right next to me, helping me through the next step. It's time to progress further - Ethan commented. Jezell told me to turn around ,there there was someone new I had to meet.

I turned and was face to face with a man in violet. He had on a long - velvet-like violet robe, open in the front. Underneath he wore an outfit of white with a high, but open collar. His hair is pure white and very short/cropped - almost like a business man's hair cut. His face was chiseled - high cheek bones and dark blue eyes. He extended his hand and said that his name was Edward. I looked at him and replied - but haven't we met before? In this life? He smiled and said yes - I'm glad you remembered. He tells me to walk with him.

As we walk I can see Bill right next to us following us. I comment about Bill and Edward said that I'd better get used to it. Bill will always be on the outskirts of my energy just like I him - when we are not physically in the same room. It's our telepathic connection - it's an constant "on". I asked about the man I saw a glimpse of in all red. Edward tells me that he is Abraham and I will meet him next - when the time is ready.

We arrive in my magic room - the one where Merlin always is. And there he was - Merlin. I asked why am I being doubled teamed? Merlin laughed and said that Edward's the brains and he's the brawn of this operation. Merlin chuckled - Edward didn't.

I am told that the time is now for me to expand in to greater magical practice. Edward said that what I do - my purpose in this life - will affect everyone on the planet. Merlin jumped in and said that I must get a hold of Will - there is much to do. Will and I are to start to come here - consciously (as we have been for some time unconsciously) to our magic room and start to prepare. We are to do our magic on the astral level. I asked about the physical level - Merlin said that yes it would work - but the real power is not in the 2 dimensional physical world - but in the multi dimensional world of the planes -- which is accessed astrally. Is there anything I should do 1st? I asked? Get Will to call you - Edward replied. They didn't care how I do it -- but it must be done now. Time is of the essence. Will and I need to be in conscious, physical contact. It's not a need or a want -- it's a must.

I asked if this has anything to do with bring Atlantis back into the physical dimension. They tell me that in time all will be revealed. Don't get ahead of myself.

And with that the session was over.

Gee - nothing like adding the pressure on!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

I'm Still Alive And I Have A New Guide!

I need to put myself back into the land of the living instead of drowning in the - going through the motions. At least I have my wits about me and I can think with a clear head. Last week was horrible but not as bad as the week before and I'm going to bank on this week being better than last week. Just so you know -- I'm not in trouble with the law, I'm not being sued - I'm not in any deep water at all. My self-esteem and self-confidence is just fine -- I am just incredibly pissed off. But that's