Is It Over Yet?

This day -- I just want it to be over. Holy crap I'm tired. Flat out exhausted. I canceled everything I had scheduled today - except for my errands. Whatever is going on with my energy - it had better hurry up and work itself out. I've been here before - with the major mood swings - acting like I'm bi-polar or even a manic depressive. <-----This is not me, not at all. So it's coming from someone else. That hole in my soul - right smack dab in my heart chakra - still there.

I woke up with it and thought -- oh crap, what's going on? Then I opened my eyes -- for a spilt second I saw Michael hovering over me - like Ted used to. I blinked and he was gone. But Michael has been with me all day - watching.

On the way home from talking my son to school - I felt really light-headed, my solar plexus was on fire and my stomach was so upset. I knew someone was connecting to me - it was my Michael. I asked him what he wanted. He said he didn't know. He doesn't know why he's here - he can't see past the line. That's what he kept saying - help him see past the line. But I don't know what that means - unless the line is a barrier that doesn't allow him to see more than what he needs to.

In the visions I had today - they were with Bill or Ted - but in the background there he was, Michael - watching. Just watching. Not in a creepy way though - but like he's trying to figure things out. Since I still have that sinking feeling as I'm about to go to bed - I told myself I will not wake up this way tomorrow. Michael's going to get a visit this evening and something will be worked out.

On top of it all - my guides (Ethan in particular) keeps throwing his song at me -- I can't tell you how many times I've listened to it today -- and the funny thing is I had no idea this song existed until I stumbled upon it.

What About Now - Daughtry

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?


Now - have no idea why I have to listen to this song. I think the song is connected with Michael - but why? We have never met in this life - so of course there's no love affair to pine over. Crap like this just drives me nuts. I'd really like a straight answer. No more signs - just a straight answer please.

Plus no more downloading to my subconsious. Sheesh. A girl has to get a good night sleep. If I'm not getting laid then I want to be out cold to the world. It's just that simple.

Needless to say - I did not get anything done today on BT or OBE. Although I DID toss ideas around for BT. So I guess that's something.

I should have known better with my emotional roller coaster that I should have not watched the last eposide of ER. Bad - bad move.

I'm up early in the morning for Little Leguge. The tomorrow afternoon it's me - wine and BT.

Oh - one more thing - if you call my office phone and you don't come up on the caller id - I'm not answering. "Unknown Number" will not work.

Night!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Being Accountable, A WTF Dream And Keen!

If you still haven't written me the letter explaining why you've used metaphysical/spiritual advice and why you need that genre of advice - you still have time. It doesn't even have to be advice - it can also be alternative healing, color therapy or Feng Shui. I need them by April 5th -- please!

Keen is going well - I've been on Mon - Fri. A minor miracle:) I find I do well being on 10 am - noon. And then depending what's going on 1 - 2:30. I'm trying to condition myself to do the sex advice at Ingenio (http://www.ingenio.com/Allie%20T) from 10 pm - midnight.

For whatever reason - my guides keep having me watch "Under The Tuscan Sun". I can't get what the message is. I'm thinking it's that my life is going to transform like the lead character Francine's did. Although I wasn't nearly as devastated with my divorce as she was hers. It could be a new start, maybe a trip to Italy (I wish), could be meeting an Italian man (boy do I really wish) - or even standing at a crossroads. I'm sure after the 10th time I watch it something should kick in:) At least I hope so.

If you sent me an email - I know it's here. No need to remind me.

My dreams have been really wild the last several nights. The dream that really stands out is the one from Sat night. I can remember being in a room with a bunch of people - we were discussing my life and lack of love life. I come across 3 guys - all of who I know , 2 I can't remember who they were - but the 3rd was Sawyer. He's pissed at me - he's holding his baby in his arms (in real life Josh and his wife either just had a baby or they are about to) I ask him what's the matter and he says, 'Visions - you have visions? You never told me that.' Before I could say WTF - the guy laying down on the beige couch said 'And she writes in the blog!' The 3rd guy shouts out 'For everyone to read!' I walked away perplexed at why it would shock them now. They all knew about everything. So then I started thinking that I should password protect the blog and only give the password out to people who ask. This way I'll know who is reading the posts. But another thought popped in and said - but Bill, Will and Vincent won't be able to read it then - they'll never ask for the password.

SIGH - I woke up.

I'm having a difficult time coaching myself. I have a huge list of things that I have to do and I can't get anything done because the list is too big. I'm trying to prioritize - but for me it's difficult to do if everything that is on my list should have been done already. Maybe I should go with what is nagging at me the most - besides the scholarship applications I have to finish. That would be Black Triangle and the OBE book. BT has to be rewritten by May 1st so that I can enter it in 2 important contests. OBE book is a huge part of the path I am to take - so it is vital that I get it done. Or at least done enough to send off to a publisher as a book proposal. Time is of the essence with both because as soon as college starts on May 18th - any extra time will be spent studying. So how in the world do I whip my own ass into shape? I know that I do well when I have deadlines and I have to be held accountable to someone. So here's a thought....why don't I just report to you guys? Every day I have to post that I did something...even if it's more research for BT or outlining chapt 1 for OBE.

That would make me accountable. Anyone else out there want to do something that they are having a hard time doing because they are not accountable? Why not post here with me. Leave a comment every day after my posts to what you have done. So what do you think? This will go from April 1st - May 1st and no - the April 1st start is not an April Fool's joke. I like this idea. How can I help people if I don't practice what I coach?

After May 1st - we'll see where I'm at and what needs tackled next.

Off to make dinner!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Dreams And Changes!

Grab a drink and maybe a snack -- this one is long...

Wow - change is in the air - can you feel it? I know can! I have been a busy person for the last several weeks -- I think that this is the longest I've ever gone without posting. Sorry about that! I'll try to do better but I can't promise anything:)

For those of you born in the 60's or early 70's - can you feel the Saturn Uranus Opposition just kicking your tush? The tug away between structure and breaking free is especially intense for those in their late 30's and 40's. The dates of the tug a war are: Nov 4, 2008 - Feb 5, 2009 - Sept 15, 2009 - Apr 26, 2010 and July 26, 2010. With each occurrence pushing us closer to following our soul's path. This isn't much of a choice here - things will happen around you to push you. I talked about this in Monday's podcast --- no wonder I can't sleep:) Falling asleep isn't the problem - the constant dreams are starting to be.

Even when I ask for a break - I'm not getting it. This always means some major is coming up. My dreams - what I can remember of them (I'm honestly trying to forget so I can sleep which I think is making it worse) have either Bill, Ted or my son in them. Every night all 3 show up - normally in different dream visits - although Bill and Ted do show up occasionally. The last couple of days ex #2 has been showing back up. I think that I'm being pulled in his dreams. They all involve me and him getting back together - but not as a married couple. This last one he moves back into the house- but that's only because he has no where else to go. I move my office into my room so he can have the office. I remember this really ill feeling I had in my stomach at the thought of him living here. I woke myself up. Ex #1 showed up last week several times. The dream visits with him would dip into the romantic/sexual aspect. After the last dream visit last week - I put up my protection so that he would not get back in. I told my guides in no uncertain terms that I wasn't heading back into ex #2 dreams either. I have no idea why either one of them would be bothering me now. Maybe they drank out of the same water source?

Bill has been everywhere I looked. No matter what I've been doing - he pops into my mind. Or I see a picture that reminds me of him. With Bill, I can feel him figuring things out between us. In past dreams he has said that he got it - the connection - but that over thinking mind of his is still trying to put every piece in its place. Plus his soul and his guides are trying to send him down the correct path without him thinking it to death. On top of all this his emotions are all over the board. He's very sensitive. I feel sorry for anyone who pisses him off right now.

I have some good news to tell you in 2 weeks. But I can't tell you till then :):)

In other news -- I'm going back to college. I know - what a shocker? But it's true. When I left in 1996 I was finishing my junior year in Bus Admin. Going back I may be a senior to start - but now my major is Psychology. After graduation - Masters in Marriage & Family Counseling -- and if that much schooling hasn't killed me - Doctorate in Sexual Health. Yes - I'm going to be a sex therapist. That clicked in last week. Since then - things have been going much better. Not fabo - but better. Told me ex #2 - he laughed at me - ass hole. But that's ok - it'll just push me harder to prove him wrong. So during the day I'll home school my son - at night - college. Somewhere in there I'll fit in homework, housework and oh yeah - work. I opted out of the traditional foreign langue requirement and am instead taking Sign Language. The hearing impaired have sexual and marriage problems too - I bet it can get frustrating to go to a hearing person's therapy.

My son thought it was great that I'm going back to school. He is going to love to see his mom do homework:) I'll be back up at The University of Akron. My son did have a mini cow and worry that I wouldn't be writing scripts any longer. I told him - never you fear - I have to write like you have to play with your Hot Wheels. He liked that idea. Besides - just got a new idea for a TV show I have to write:) But 1st I have to finish a couple of other rewrites.

This is the 3rd day in a row that I've forced myself to go on Keen:) I figure if I keep forcing, it'll be a habit. If anyone wants some free minutes - email me.

I have this wonderful stone spirit called Wulfenite. It's not as flashy as the rest of my stones, so it normally doesn't get a lot of attention (since I overlook it). But lately it's been calling out. What this stone promotes is the acceptance of the existence of the negative aspects that exist in this crazy -mixed-up world in order to allow one to recognize issues and not allow roadblock to stop or slow down progress. It also helps on to continue on in spite of potential limitations. And yes - it came to my attention last week. So it's no surprise that I'm going back to school. This little gem also allows one to transition between the physical plane to the psychic and astral planes with a quickness. It's been wanting to go with me into my bedroom - but I don't sleep as it is. I'm afraid to see how much dreaming I'll do with it. But I may try -- just to see. In fact, I just went and put in my bedroom.

What else can this puppy do? It can help to bring forth the knowledge and skills needed for white magic. It promotes contact with the spiritual world in the form one manifests; to allow the attunement to those of ancient civilizations (in my case - Atlantis), to those of the near distant past or those of future worlds. It makes a strong connection and attunement to higher dimensions. It also stimulates a bonding between souls who are in the Earth plane and have agreed to meet again during this life time (hear me Bill, Ted, Will and Vincent)?

My guides also had me change my 3 stone pendant. Now it has Herkimer Diamond, Tektite and Moldavite. Now with the HD - I have 2 HD that were joined at one time. A larger one and then a smaller one that attached to the side. The larger one is for Bill - the smaller one is mine. Instead of putting the one that is mine in the pendant - my guides told me to put Bill's in. The HD has a ton of helpful properties. But the jest of it is: helps one to begin again in this lifetime,,, assists one in clearing the body-mind system of unconscious fears and repressions, allowing for total relaxation and expansion of the life energy. .. known as a stone of attunement.... stimulates clairvoyant and clairaudient abilities...it also facilitates and strengthens telepathic connections. What else is nice about this stone is that you can store information into this stone before you give it to another. Maybe I'm supposed to wear it now so that it stores my energy in it before I give it to Bill?

Tektite has a ton of helpful attributes as well. It's rather cool that it is from outer space:) It is said to a charm of great power, as well as bring wealth and fertility to it's owner. It provides one with encouragement to gather knowledge. It helps to sweep away any lasting impressions of undesirable experiences and holds onto lasting impressions of desirable experiences. Tektite balances the feminine and masculine properties of ones character. It also acts to strengthen ones energy field and to provide for increased contact during daily activities. It accelerates thought transmissions within the physical realm and between the physical realm and the location of origination of the stone. Using tektite can also draw one to another, or another to one, due to information provided during transmissions, or due to an attraction which is recognized by others who have the same transmission frequencies aligned in the ethereal body (me, Bill, Ted, Will and Vincent again).

Now Moldavite is a form of tektite as it is also from space. But this is considered a "gem quality" stone of ET origin. This is a powerful stone - one full of energy and purpose. It stimulates cooperation with those of ET's origin with those on Earth. It carries one beyond the physcial reality to a home that has long been forgotten - absent from the conscious mind - as it provides the visions of eternality and the energy to translate the visions into reality. It facilities strong, clear, and direct interdimensional interconnected-mess between ones consciousness and the higher planes of light. It expands the scope of vibrational energy/dimensions which one can approach, while allowing an easier path to those dimensions one has already been to. One will see more clearly and will see with an expansion of vision. it works well with the third-eye, throat charka and the crown chakra.

I have no idea what my guides have planned for me with this stone combination. But my intuition is telling me it's about connecting with Bill in the physical realm. He was the key that unlocked all of this - the dreams, soul mates, OBE, soul clusters - the whole kit and caboodle. He's the reason I started this blog. To be able to sit down and talk to him about everything would be a dream come true. I don't want anything from him but a nice long conversation. I'm just dying to compare notes:)

My mother almost died the other day - or should I say she should of died. But my grams had her back. She was traveling along 77 in Akron - during a busy time - when the SUV in front of her hit something - it flew into the air and scooped up under her car. She smelled something burning and was able to pull over to the right (this is a section of the highway where the on/off ramps are too short and normally cars are on it moving at a high speed). She tried to go somewhere - but the smell of tire rubber was too great. An hour later a tow truck picked up the car. Fast forward - the mechanic calls her in (my sister takes her to the garage)...he shows her what went under her car - a tire wedge that truckers use behind their wheels when they are pulled over or stopped for the night. It flew under her car and wedged itself in-between my mom's front driver's side tired and the tire well. What SHOULD of happened is the car would of stopped immediately (when she was going 65), flipped up in the air and rolled a few times. This would have caused the heavy traffic behind her to slam into her - causing more death and injury. It costs her $12.50 to get her car fixed. It wasn't her time to die. For that I am very grateful.

I think I MAY have figured out what type if disorder effects my son. It's called Sensory Integration Disorder (http://www.spdfoundation.net/).

"SPD can affect people in only one sense–for example, just touch or just sight or just movement–or in multiple senses. One person with SPD may over-respond to sensation and find clothing, physical contact, light, sound, food, or other sensory input to be unbearable. Another might under-respond and show little or no reaction to stimulation, even pain or extreme hot and cold. In children whose sensory processing of messages from the muscles and joints is impaired, posture and motor skills can be affected. These are the "floppy babies" who worry new parents and the kids who get called "klutz" and "spaz" on the playground. Still other children exhibit an appetite for sensation that is in perpetual overdrive. These kids often are misdiagnosed - and inappropriately medicated - for ADHD.

SPD is most commonly diagnosed in children, but people who reach adulthood without treatment also experience symptoms and continue to be affected by their inability to accurately and appropriately interpret sensory messages.

These "sensational adults" may have difficulty performing routines and activities involved in work, close relationships, and recreation. Because adults with SPD have struggled for most of their lives, they may also experience depression, underachievement, social isolation, and/or other secondary effects.

Sadly, misdiagnosis is common because many health care professionals are not trained to recognize sensory issues. The SPD Foundation is dedicated to researching these issues, educating the public and professionals about their symptoms and treatment, and advocating for those who live with Sensory Processing Disorder and sensory challenges associated with other conditions."

My kid is in overdirve 24/7 and has been misdiagnosised with ADHD. But - of course - I cannot find anyone in my area who I can take him to. The place in Stow Ohio doesn't exist any more and all other places are 1 1/2 hrs. + away. So I don't know what in the heck I'm going to do - but I have to do something.

I found this great place called: Day Spa For The Mind. From their site:
"Day Spa for the Mind is an online space where you can relax, unwind, and clear your mind to make room for positive change in your life. We all have busy lives and the thought of meditation or personal development, even though we all know the benefits, can seem all too daunting.

Day Spa for the Mind combines meditation techniques, hypnotherapy and guided visualization to help relieve stress, create deep relaxation and focus your mind towards attracting wealth, love, creativity, motivation, and inner peace."

I opened an account. Thus far I really like it. Try out their 10 min sample and see for yourself.

I'm sure I have typos in this entry - I'm tired. If you want, point them out, just don't be too rude about it please:)

For those of you that I owe email to - I know I do. I'm doing the best I can. I'm hoping to be caught up by the time I hit 42.

What else is happening -- I know there's more - but right now I'm brain dead so I think I'll stop and get some shut-eye.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Dead Date, OBE and Ice!

This has been an interesting week. I landed some more writing jobs, sold a lot of readings (because of the good deals I was offering) and a lot more of the healing/attunement specials from the podcast than I expected. I certainly have enough to keep me busy during the days I'm actually going to work between now and the 1st of the year. I told myself that when my son is home I'm going to chill more than work. This includes working on any of my books or screenplays. I've had plenty of dreams and visions that 2009 is going to be a very busy year for me - and even Iris agrees that I need to rest now. And hell - I'm not about to argue with her:)

But during my rest time if I'm not playing my new "Tomb Raider" X-box game (or getting my butt kicked by my son in Lego's Batman or one of the new racing games he got) or reading "The Toilet Paper Entrepreneur" - I'm working on my Goal Plan for 2009. Have you started your Goal Plan? Everyone needs one - even if you're not pushing forward with anything major - you should at least accomplish something. And this is where the plan comes in handy. Writing wise for myself - in Jan I want to finish both the OBE outline and the Bloody Mary one. Work wise I want to be on either Keen or Live person Monday - Friday, plus introduce OBE to two sex sites/blogs a week.

Feb will see me sending out book proposals for OBE and writing BM. Keen, LP and sex blogs still apply to this month.

And so forth and onward.

In 2009 I want to pay off a poop load of bills so that way in 2010 I can get the RV my son and I want:) If it happens sooner - wonderful - of not, 2010 is my goal. I need an RV big enough to haul me, the kid, Brodie (dog) and the monster cats. I wonder where I could stick litter boxes? I figure if we move to CA - I'd like to move and then live in the RV for awhile. Make sure things take off before buying real estate. Of course if it's NYC - I don't think an RV will fit:)

Today I did break down and Feng Shui my office. Not an easy task - the office was dusty & cat dust balls just tumbled across the floor. But I think that I have it all situated now. I moved a bunch of things around - cleaned - created better chi flow. There is still clutter that needs dealt with - but it's not as bad as before:)

In case you haven't noticed - I moved all of the OBE stuff to it's own URL: http://www.outofbodyecstasy.com/ I see that Samantha already found out:) OBE has taken on a life of it's own - so I thought it's own home was well deserving. Besides - cleans up GA a bit.

Christmas Eve - my son and I went out in the afternoon. We got out of the car and I told him - the parking lot is icy - be careful. In two steps he fell face first onto the pavement. Busted his lip wide open and loosened one of his front - permanent - teeth. As he was falling - reflex for me - I reached out to grab him and SLAM - right on my back. I wasn't hurt at all (or so I thought) - I just saw a bunch of blood pouring out of his mouth :( Got him into the store - ice & a towel. By the time we got home, the tooth hurt (and so did the lip) but it wasn't as loose. The dentist - being Christmas Eve wasn't in. Fingers crossed I let him go to his dad's and just begged him not to eat with his front teeth, Poor guy - had dirt embedded into his right tooth :( He came back that night - his tooth didn't hurt that bad. Christmas morning - he was fine. Me on the other hand --- as you may or may not know - I have a bad tailbone. Slamming it on the pavement did not help it at all. It also did not help my neck - which - in case you remember from a couple of years ago - I got whiplash from falling backwards in my chair. Yeah I know - who would have thunk? But damn it - if there's a way - you bet your sweet ass I'd find it:) So anyways - my neck was killing me. Next day - the kid is just peachy - and I feel like I'm 60. SIGH.

We actually had a thunderstorm this afternoon. A thunderstorm! Tommorrow it's supposed to be 61 - on Sunday - 24:) Gotta love Ohio. My son asked me the other day why it's always so gray looking in the sky. All I could do was laugh.

Seems like the dead is trying to date. I know when I was just a tiny chick, Dan Blocker (actor when westerns were "in") died -- but here he is again trying to snag a date: http://www.singlesnet.com/?setlocation=view_profile&setarea=view_profile&setselected=14765027
If he could hook me up with Michael Landon I'd appreciate it.

I have to tell ya - when I was playing "Tomb Raider" tonight - my son told me he'd never heard so many bad words come out of my mouth. He asked me if it hurt - lol! I forget that the reason I stopped playing TB years ago was that I'd get so pissed off. Oops!

I need to head to bed -- I am one tired pup!

Hope everyone has been having a wonderful holiday season no matter what holiday you celebrate!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Hotel Rooms, Ted And Will!

I cannot believe how tired I am. Seriously. I'm so tired that I could sleep for 48 hours easy. My dream travels are really kicking my butt. I'm back to the hotel dreams. Remember I had those before my divorce? Well this signals another major change on the horizon. Last time the hotel rooms were crowed, small and in disarray. Now they are large suites, plush, with all the trimmings. I'm hoping this means my very long phase of being broke is over. I could use the shift - as I'm sure many of you could use as well.

The dreams too for the last couple of nights, I would wake up and it would still feel like was floating about in the dreamscape. I don't know how to describe it really - I would wake up, but it didn't feel like I woke up. Almost like waking up in dream that was still a dream. But I could see what was going on in my room in real time.

BT was received well by my manager's boss. I had some minor things to change but that was it. Now it's off to make its rounds in Tinsel Town. Fingers crossed. No new words on Dreamers or GG as of now. Again - sometimes no news is good news.

I'm going to be kicking the OBE sex book into high gear this weekend. I've cleared the whole weekend to work on that and my yard. My yard has some serious leaves on it. I'm looking foreword to jumping in to the OBE book - my guide Robert is very eager to see that it is done. He has been hanging out lately throwing "Obe" in my face (so to speak) so that I get with the program. He and Ethan are very happy that the BT is done. In fact, Ethan let out a side of relief. I asked him if he'll be around more often and he said - no. But he's always near by if I want to chat.

So I asked Andrew, since he mentioned that having BT done would help things along with Vincent - has anything changed. His reply was that things are moving behind the scenes. If Vincent would wake up to the signs that are right in front of his face and now wait for a nuclear meltdown to realize what was going on - things would move faster. But it seems that he is a stubborn soul (gee - what a surprise) but he will come around . Just like with Will - you (as in me) will be put in front of them until they do something about it - even if it's friendship or a business partnership. Something will have to be done. But - Andrew says - in Vincent case, he won't be able to rest until a romantic relationship ensues between the two of us.

My only reply was - ok, just wanted to know if things were moving. I guess they are:)

Will surprised me today - I wrote about it in the OBE blog. It was nice to feel his energy so close again.

Ted's back --I can feel him. I'm sure something will come of this over the next couple of days. I sure hope he ditched that bitch of a wife. I don't say something normally so horrible about a person I haven't physically met - but her energy is heavy and just pure yuck. I hope he actually visits soon.

Better get back to work!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Spirits R Us, Busy Dreams And Major Frustration!

I'm not really excited about much right now - and for me - that's off. I don't think I'm depressed - usually when that happens I can't get a dang thing done and I have been working through my list. But it feels like that is what my life is - a series of lists to get done. I don't have fun - I mean really -my life has zero fun in it. I really need to change that, but I'm not sure how. It's not like Wooster is a happening town. And I can honestly say that I do not have one friend in this town - not one. I don't think I have one in all of Wayne county. That's sad, isn't it? SIGH. My closest two friends are over a half an hour away - both married with children and have very busy lives. My other single friends live over an hour away - so going out with them usually means spending the night and that is a hassle with my son and animals. So just one person in Wooster to go do things would be nice. Of course hoping on a plane and going to NYC sounds fabo too.

God I need out of this town.

I feel very boxed in and it's frustrating. This is probably because of that astrological phases that has something to do with Uranus that Maria Shaw said everyone from 1960 - 1973 is going through right now and it is set to peak tomorrow the 4th - with another peek at the start of 2009 and then towards the end of 2009. Grrr..I hate feeling like this...I just hope it doesn't feel as confining after this peek passes tomorrow.

Of course it didn't help me today that I had to go get Indy's ashes. I held it together until one of the workers put their arm around me and said sorry for your loss. DAMN. I sat in my car, in my garage for about 30 min when I got home. I get out and Raisin is sitting there just looking at me - like what in the hell are you doing? My son being the 8 year old he is wants to open up the tin and feel Indy's ashes.

Trick or treat was interesting on Friday. The streets were packed with kids and many houses were handing out candy which was a huge change from last year. My son was dressed as an Army guy and he had a ball. Earlier in the day I went to his Halloween party at school to help out. Had a cute clown (as in one of the kids parents dressed up as a clown) flirting with me. It was cute. And no - I didn't ask him for his phone number or offer him mine.

Oh - don't forget to vote tomorrow if you're in the states. The polls may be very busy - but your vote is still very important.

You know what the one positive thing is about feeling stuck? That I know I'll break through (eventually) and that is such a kick ass feeling to look forward to.

I have a been contemplating some things lately - although I wouldn't have a clue on how to fit everything in:

1) Weekly live radio show - something on BlogTalkRadio until an actual station wants to hire me. With this - I would need a co host. And no - I have no one in mind as of now.
2) Making my own line of gypsy perfumes - call it Gypsy Girl - fun, festive and mysteries scents.
3) Making my own line of gypsy ointments & remedies - based on gram's recipes and some of mine own. call it Allie's Alternatives (sound familiar KS?)

In part of my reading from Joann - she said that I had a healing side (which we all know) that is just dying to get though. She doesn't see me strictly with energy work, but working with herbs, oils and stones/crystals. And if you remember any of my previous visions with my healing center - that was exactly what I was doing. In the mean time I've had 2 separate people comment about me making perfumes and even more mention about the gypsy ointments, creams, etc...

But I also know that I can't spread myself too thin. So after I finish BLACK TRIANGLE, I'm going back to work on the OBE Sex book to get that done and published (I hope) by Valentines day - then we'll see about everything else - all depends where I'm at at the start of 2009.

I know one place I want to be - and that is giving OBE sex workshops - maybe 4 a year: Columbus OH, NYC, LA and either NOLA, Austin TX or Chicago. Robert, my guide, has been hammering at me today because I am not where I'm supposed to be with this -- and Andrew says I'm behind all together but not to worry because something will jolt me into freakish speed mode (whatever the heck that means) and all will be done. Has anyone here put together an in person workshop - maybe a weekend workshop - who can give me some tips on how to do just that?

Before I forget to mention it - Maria Shaw is in Venice/Greece right now so I will not be on the show this Wed. I'm sure we'll have plenty to gab about once she's back next week.

Both my son and I have been hearing Indy around the house tonight. His little whine or the pitter patter of his feet as they crossed the hardwood floors. Plus my Gram P (Dorothy form the séance) is also here - I smelled her White Rain hairspray in my bedroom -- and there was a man's cologne I couldn't place. Seems like this is a spirits stopping point this evening. I hope they let me sleep - I'm so tired.

And I'm that tired from my dreams being overactive. I mean - wow - active. And of course I have not been following my own advice and writing things down. I wake up - I swear - once every 90 min and all I want to do is to roll over and go back to sleep - which I do. A good chunk of the dreams are with Vincent - but I remember glimpses of Bill in other and Will in still other visit. Remembering the dreams is like I have a word on the tip of my tongue and I just can't remember what it is.

Which brings me to knowing I have to do something -but not knowing what it is. Which I do believe adds to the frustration I was talking about earlier. It's like I have to do this something in order to step into the flow of my life - but I don't know what it is that I have to do. I'm hoping that it eventually becomes obvious to me. Maybe it's BT or the OBE book? But I have no idea what - maybe even it's not something I have to do, but a last domino that has to fall in order for me to be in my fated flow. As a psychic you'd think I'd be able to figure things out - but it just doesn't work that way. Kind of like the way in CHARMED the sisters couldn't use their gifts for selfish means - it's like that. I can use my psychic self for others, but for myself when I try the message gets muddled. Which is probably why I like confirmations. Any ways - I can feel that last piece -- just hanging there.

I need to get my shower and go to bed -- I really need to sleep tonight.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Happy Birthday Bill, Dreams And An Energy Shift!

Another day of "where to begin".

I know -- HAPPY BIRTHDAY BILL. He's 50 today and just as sensual and as hot as ever. I connected to him to wish him a good day and happy 50th. We had some small talk - how are you, what have you been up to, etc....he then tells me that we'll cross paths again soon. I'm like - we will? How - when - why? He smiled (God he has a nice smile) and said that he doesn't know that details- only the overall picture. At that moment Will's energy came through - kind of like a "you're not talking to him without me around" type thing. I asked Will if he could excuse us and he said no. Just flat out no. I could feel my energy level really starting to ramp up. I could also fell Ted's energy attached to us all - but his energy isn't as strong as the others due to his drug and drinking problems.

So not I have these two really fired up energies - and Ted - connected to me. That's when Vincent comes in -- and that whammed my nervous system. Will and then Vincent were on "this is my territory" mode so their energy was high. Bill has been working extensively on his spirituality and has made significant improvements - so his energy was high. Because I had all of this energy zinging trough me - my body shook - and it was a steady shake for at least 20 minutes. During this same time I was wired and kept pacing around the house.

As I'm typing this out - it's all starting over again - all 4 are "right there" and my body is doing this all over again. Dang it all......

So Vincent and Will have been center stage all day. I keep trying to connect better to Bill - because I want to keep talking with him - and every time I do Will and Vincent converge. So I gave up - for now. Bill looks really good. His energy colors are balanced, he looks healthy inside and out. He has gotten himself into a really good place and I hope he can keep it there. Being 50 seems rather Zen to him.

It's now Monday evening - I have been trying all dang day to do this post. I don't know what'll kill me 1st - the kid or my pets. DOUBLE SIGH.

Okay - so Vincent and Will have been playing double duty all day. It's been insane. Will connected because Bill did. Vincent connected because Will did. Bill left because he didn't need the headache. So now Vincent and Will seem to be seeing who can hang around longer.

I think that this insanity started last night -- let me explain. Vincent and I are connected always (like with the other guys) but with him I do not have to manually have a telepathic connection - I don't have to seek him out - he's always there. But last night I decide to take up a notch. I asked Andrew how can I get Vincent over his apprehension about contacting me? Lord knows I don't want another Will when it comes to this. He told me that I have to make sure my light is the brightest. It always has to be on. If I'm feeling down - get rid of it by letting the light in. He'll be attracted to the light - there's no doubt about it. So I ask - won't the other guys be attracted too? He said yes, but none of them will do anything about it - Vincent will.

Okay - so that is what I did starting last night. Made the light brighter (and in turn did not fall asleep until 2:00). Then I manually connected to Vincent. And it was such an odd experience. When I was making the initial connection stronger - it was as if the world was spinning and there was a kaleidoscope of colors flashing through my mind's eye. Very cool. Then I connected. He was surprised. He kept saying he didn't know what to do. I told him that if he needs me for anything let me know. For some reason (even though I meant it) I kept saying - I won't let you fall -- I won't let you fall. It was important, for whatever reason, that he heard that. He reached over and kissed me - kissed me again. Then I say bye and broke the connection. The headache I had in my third eye was astronomical. It hurt just to exist.

Damn it - just had another connection to Will - and the shakes start again. This is just so weird.

So let's cut to now - the light from last night attracted everyone like I knew it would. And if I am to keep this pace up with the light - I have all 4 of them dancing about, I find it interesting that there is no sign of George. Andrew says he's in the other soul cluster and that's why.

Ohhhh...the dream I had last night. Sheesh - how could I forget THIS?

I'm in a restaurant in NYC - again I think it's that Frank's (I so have to go there in person just to see this place). I walk in - ask for a table for 1. I'm told it's going to be a few minutes. I ask where is the restroom and they point me to it. As I'm walking I hear someone say - are you Allie? I turn and it's an older woman. I say yes. She tells me that she listens to my show, read my book on OBE sex - etc.. and asks if she can have my autograph. I tell her that I don't have a pen on me. I hear a voice - here's one. I turn and sitting in a booth is Bill, Ted, Vincent and Will. Bill and Will on one side (Will inside) and Ted & Vincent on the other (Vincent on the inside). Despite the fact I almost had heart failure - I took his pen, signed the book (as I'm signing she's going on about Bill, Ted, Will and Vincent with what I have written about them - not knowing that they were all right there) and sent her on her way. I stood there for a second - took a deep breath - and turned around to give Bill back the pen. Vincent told me to have a seat. I told Bill to get out so that I could sit between him and Will as I didn't trust the two of them sitting next to one another. But before I could slide in I knew I was about to wake up. I look at Bill and say - my dream visit with you are either at a party, in a library or a bookstore. No matter what there are people and books. I look at Will - with you it's a river and a willow tree. If I see a willow - no matter where - I just start looking for you. To Vincent - you it's beaches, lakes, parks, trains. To Ted - with you it's parties and castles. I have to go now - but I'm sure I'll see you all later.

Will chimes in - we know you're giving a workshop tomorrow night. I look at all 4 -- don't tell me you have tickets? Vincent said - front row - right guys? All 3 are like - yep. I'm like shit -- you're my examples. My examples aren't actually there - that's how I can use them as examples. Bill smiles - get used to it.

And I woke up. All I could think was - holy shit they're hot. LOL.

I found my ex husband's (as in #1) dog tag today. I didn't think I had it any longer. My ex #2 made me throw out everything of #1 several years ago. He was still pissed I had held onto it from high school till my mid 20's. Funny enough as soon as #2 moved out everything that dealt with him was in the trash - everything - pictures,letters, cards, wedding crap, paintings, fountains etc.... Any ways - my son wants to be an Army Commando for Halloween so I went looking for the dog tag and it was real easy to find. It was where I last put it - in my jewelry box. I also discovered I had my pre-engagement ring that he gave me when we were 18 :) I was so proud of that ring when he gave it to me:) The one ring was the only thing someone gave me that I didn't pay for (I paid for my engagements rings and wedding sets - plus any other jewelry). He and - we were such stupid kids. Had we stayed in El Paso after he was discharged from the Army, we probably would have never gotten divorced.

I was amazed on how much anger I had towards him all these years. I don't have it any longer. I don't know when I let it go - but I'm glad I did. We could never go back - and if he were to show up again after all this time we'd never be romantic again (Allie does not move backwards) but it would be nice to be friends.

I haven't had any dizzy spells lately - which is nice. Now I just have some headaches:)

Off to get my shower and then to bed!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

OBE Sex DVD, Runes And The Universal Light Expo!

So I was trying to work yesterday and my mind kept drifting to the Universal Light Expo that I will be a part of in Columbus Oct 11 & 12 (Booth 894). I give a talk about OBE sex on the 12th at 11:00 am. Being that I am on a shoestring budget, I was trying to think how can I get the word out about what I do without spending a lot of money? Especially since the OBE sex book will not be done and out on time for the expo. Plus I want to get the word out about the in person OBE workshops I am going to put on in 2009. Yes - I decided to do weekend workshops (sat & sun) for couples and singles a like. Any ways - so I'm think away and later on I get an email from one of the ULE people that there will be a person there who will video tape our talks, edit them and put it in DVD form into their network of distribution for the cost of $0.00. Yep - I don't pay a dime. Divine intervention for sure. Now I have to make sure I put together a good 50 min workshop that gives an overview of what I want to teach, without giving too much away. And yes, I'll be able to sell the DVD's from my site.

Speaking of which - I'm also going to start selling the stones, crystals and herbs that I talk about all the time. I hope to have that segment up by November. Sooner if I can help it.

On a separate note - I just landed a gig writing adult video cards. So up my alley:)

It's been awhile since I've given myself a Rune reading to determine what cycle I am trucking through.

I drew:

Raido - reversed (journey) - Present
Berkana (growth) - Attitude to take
Uruz (strength) - Consequences derived from the attitude

For the present it appears that obstacles, road blocks and so forth are not there to drive me nuts - rather they are rerouting opportunities. Plus this is a time where personal relationships can rupture and fall apart instead of reconciliations. It's important to keep my sense of humor. Well let me tell you - my sisters and I have gone through a few spells lately that turned out in a way that I'm surprised we are still talking. Yet we are -- we kept our sense of humor. The road blocks deal more with my readings than anything else. I know that doing readings is not where I'm supposed to be - yet they are trying to pay the bills. And I say trying because only some things are getting paid. So I understand this rerouting time - I just wish it would hurry up and reroute. I think that I made some progress yesterday when I shifted my focus from readings to the OBE workshops. I know that my future deals with both the screenwriting and the OBE sex information.

For my attitude to take to make it through this cycle - it's all about growth. I have to step into the flow to allow things to transform instead of fighting against the current. I have to get rid of any resistance that may be in my way and then I have to push forward and accomplish my work. I have to be focused, clear with my indent and controlled in my work methods. I have been getting up earlier to rewrite DREAMERS, plus I have been working on my OBE stuff in the evening.

My consequences that come around because of my attitude is that of a fresh start - a new beginning. It's all about terminating the past and embracing a new future. My current life would be outgrown and because of this - I have to let it go so that a new life can take form. I have to keep my eyes open for an opportunity that is disguised as a loss - something to which I have an emotional bond to. It will take strength for this new beginning and I'll have to learn how to adapt to a very creative time. I was thinking about this - what could it be that I have to let go in order to embrace the new life - and it hit me: Gypsy Advice. I would have to give up readings all together - and probably the blogs. It could all be short term - but I know that there is no way to do the TV shows and all that I do now. So there would have to be some heavy cutting - and it would pain me to do so. We'll see what I can still handle when the time is right. It would al work out if I could shift what I do now into a radio show such as what is on Psychiconair.com now or XM satellite would be great!

Have a great weekend! I'll be writing all weekend long:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Dizzy Spells, Dream Visits And Bob!

What a holiday weekend -- my son's allergies and his congestion are pretty bad - but he's doing okay despite it. Me on the other hand - I don't know what's going on. Yesterday after we returned home from my mom's house, I got lightheaded and very dizzy. It was as if I had taken a drug and was feeling it's side effects. I tossed my cookies several times last night - but I found it was only after having to be up and walking. If I got up (and walked like a drunken sailor) and did anything - 30 to 45 min later I was hugging the porcelain God. This went on all Sunday early evening into Monday morning. So far this afternoon & evening I haven't had to run to the bathroom, but in place of it is a killer headache.

No one else that was at my mom's house is sick and my son is still going through what he had - nothing else new.

Which got me to thinking back to Bill & Ted. Any time something with them shifted or anything at all really in that period of discovery with gifts, soul mates, etc...I would get very lightheaded and dizzy. But it would only last a couple of hours tops - and it wouldn't be so bad that I had to run to the potty. So if something shifted in my life - what in the hell is it? Which of course had me think back during the day to see if any visions or anything happened that I should've taken note of. Which sent me back to my dreams fro Sat night/Sun morning. The last dream visit I had was with this guy I'll call Bob. He's been in my dream visit before - we're always very flirty in the visits. This time though he was sitting next to me and he was leaning in to give me a kiss. I told him that I can't do this because he's married -- that it's wrong. He said he knew that it was wrong, but he can't help himself -- the next thing I knew we were kissing - it was a great kiss. I broke off the kiss and the look he gave me - his eyes twinkled. There was someone going through the room and I thought to myself that we're partners, but now we're lovers too. And as I thought that he reached over and put his hand over mine - gave it a light squeeze. A jolt of energy went through my body and I shivered. Then I woke up.

During the day his face keep popping into my head - then the same scenario would follow in a vision: We were in a crowded room - we were all dreamed up, but not together. I'm talking with a group of people, I have a drink in my hand. I let my eyes wander the room for a moment when I see Vince staring at me - I stare back. For the rest of this event - I would catch him watching me, observing me. He was flirty with his eyes. Finally there's a point where I turn and he standing there next to me. He holds out his hand and introduces himself and then he says - we do know each other - don't we? And that's where it ends.

No idea. But we'll see if I remember any more visits with him during dream time.

I didn't get to the podcast today - I'll do it on Tuesday. I also have another long list of emails to return. Please be patient.

I need to get back to bed.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Catch Up Time....

MI was a bust - damn it all! I did though love seeing everyone. Our bunch of psychics that get together are a good bunch - what happens in the psychic tent stays in the psychic tent - lol. I wish that they all didn't live so far away - or should I say I wish I didn't live so far away. So I drove all the way there, spent $$$ on a really nice hotel room that I stayed in alone, stayed out in the rain for a spell and came back home. I could, though, have had the chance to pick one of several happy-go-lucky college students at the hoedown. I was propositioned many times over. It was a nice esteem boast:) No new hot men on Sunday. I honestly cannot figure out why I had to be there. But even the feeling I had Sunday morning and the tarot cards I threw down as a back up all showed the same thing - I had to be there and it was because of my love life. And that day was Sunday- not Saturday. Completely baffled.

When I got home I threw down the cards again and sure enough - whatever was supposed to happen did happen and things are moving in the direction they are supposed to. I asked Iris - what direction - she told me not to get bogged down by the details. Just that everything will work out. Okay super guide guru - I will take her word for it. The energy though was so charged this past weekend. I didn't sleep at all Sat night. Every time I did doze, I woke up 20 min later with Will on my mind. I'd fall back to sleep and do it all over again. Sunday it was if my nerve endings were on the outside of my body. My mind was going full tilt - too bad my body couldn't even come close to keeping up!

I just wish it didn't have to cost me so dang much to get up there to MI and then not see the fruits of my labor. That said - I am very grateful that we don't live in China or Myanman -- or even where all the tornados hit in the states. So I am grateful for many things....

Sawyer - he's so damn funny. For the last two years (I've lost count of the actual time frame) he has been visiting me in my dreams almost every night. I know he wasn't me to call him Josh - but I won't - just for the sheer fact it bothers him. That man has figured out all the buttons to push on my radar - so if I can push just one on him - I'm going for it. Every dream visit we start off by arguing - every single one. Then we're smart asses (gee - what a surprise) and finally we end up chatting like old buddies about some subject. As much as I really, really would love to turn him into a sexual fantasy (boy would I ) it doesn't feel right. SIGH. So to me he's my Sawyer - the southern sass. Eventually some day I'll figure out why he keeps showing up and what our connection happens to be. He just smiles when I ask him - says I'm the psychic so I have to figure it out. To which I point out -- so are you!

Heath is now good on when to pop in and out of my space. We had a chat and I told him that he can't just pop in whenever he felt like it. I like talking to him and going over the mysteries of life - the why, what and how of things - but there has to be some boundaries. I attributed it to him sitting at a table with Michelle or his daughter and a fan would come up for an autograph. Whatever mood he was in with his table mate - was stopped as soon as the fan arrived. Then once the fan was gone - it was difficult to get back into that mood again. He agreed. So now if I'm doing a reading or writing -- I can sense him show up, but he hovers in the background until I am done. Then he steps forward. Works much better this way.

Will. I'll be dammed if I can't figure him out. He has been right there since last week. So right there that his energy field was my energy field. Which - is the norm anyways - but I don't know -0- the energy fields were closer? I don't know know how to put it. But all my dreams (if they don't have Sawyer in it) they have Will in it. Not a bad way to dream if you ask me. But - I can't really remember the dreams - just that he was there. Now I had a dream visit or two or three with ex husband #1 and I remember some of them -- nothing earth shattering (besides the fact that he was in my dream to start with) just us sitting around talking. He and I were always better friends than anything else - and I always did like chatting with him. I do remember checking in on him to make sure he was okay.

Just got an email - I have to run, get my shower, put on coffee and finish DREAMERS if not tonight - then really damn soon. Wish me luck....I haven't done a real late nighter since college and that was 20 years ago.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

I'm Alive, So Much To Say And A Killer Headache!

I have a killer headache. But I wanted to at least say hi and let you know we made it back in one piece. The kid and I had a great time in NYC - simply fabo! There were a few times that I could of pulled my hair out -- but overall it was just a lot of fun. His favorite part was Central Park. I didn't have a fav part (except maybe the pizza and cheesecake - lol). We had a great time at the Empire State Building. Only the over stimuli of all the people wigged him out. At first I was like "Whoa" what the hell was that? He calmed down after a bit. Since I heard the ESB was haunted due to past suicides - I took my camera and took some shots. Side 6 that faces the GE building gave me a couple of orb shots. As soon as I have a chance I will post them. The kid didn't want to leave - and neither did I. I promised him we'd go back by September - sooner if I have a reason (cough, cough, hack). Got back late Sunday night - after wading through the 500+ emails, I fell asleep about 1:00 am. Too bad I felt so stinking tired when I woke up.

In fact - no matter what time I go to bed, I feel the same crap-o when I get up. I am exhausted. I know that Will has hijacked my energy - he's attached to me. Not sure why - maybe feeling remorse for not seeing us while we were in the city - who knows? But I can only keep this up for so long.

Good ole Sawyer has been a frequent dream guest and Heath Ledger is standing beside me (actually looking over my shoulder) as I type.

I am so tired and my headache is so out of control that I have to go lie down.

I hope to be able to do more of an update before I go to MI on Sat/Sun for the hoedown:) Thurs I am playing chaperone for my son's zoo trip. I hope I survive it:)

There's a lot to catch you up on - Sawyer, Heath and Will in particular. Behind Heath is Iris and Merlin. I can tell I'm in for something big to happen.

Oh - and Tom Cruise. I have no idea what he wants in my dream visits - but he acts like we go back a way. More later....

I know the headaches are a combo of Will being "in" my energy - and I mean IN. And me shifting - expanding - to another level. It's a drained headache (on the sides) combined with a third eye wham-o.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Séance, The Dreamer Whisperer And Ask Allie!

I had a first over the weekend - and I have few of those these days. A friend of mine was throwing a party and wanted me to come over and do readings for people -no problem. Then she asked - Allie, can you hold a Séance at the party? I thought - SWEET! And said, heck ya! After the readings were done, we all sat around the dining room table (there were 12 of us - 13 with me - in all). I had three candles in the middle (lit) and some frankincense burning - some nice music in the background.

We held hands and I took everyone through some energy exercises. I then said a short opening speech - inviting the spirits in that are for our highest good into the room. The temperature dropped. It was kind of freaky:) Then we went around the table one at a time and they asked a yes or no question - the answers came through me. We heard something knock over and I had to bring everyone's focus back to the table. Once we were done with the questions I told the spirits thank you for their aid -- to focus in on the flames of the lit candles and to go back to the other side.

We talked about our experiences afterwards. Each person saw images, movies, words in their mind's eye.

It was so much fun that my friend is throwing another party this summer and I'm going to go and do readings & hold another Séance. Whoo hoo!

I'm doing that at Maria Shaw's Cosmic Convention in Oct - holding a Séance -- it'll be a blast I'm sure!

I found a TV proposal that I wrote years ago -- it was for the Ask Allie radio/TV show. If any of you have ever watched the Howard Stern show, he had his radio show & at the same time their filmed it and placed it on TV. Like that. I would do listeners readings, have on guests to discuss different metaphysical topics, have a daily, numerology forecast -- etc... I forgot that I even wrote this so many years ago. Now I can add to it OBE sex, helping others improve their sex lives and so forth. I still think it's all a good idea:)

Next Monday - May 5th - I'm going to be raising all of my reading prices (and probably add a few new readings to the mix). So if you want the current prices - buy now until next Monday. If you want to buy a reading and hold it until later - that's fine - just let me know. Keep in mind that if you purchase the reading Thur - Sun that I will not be home (and I'm not taking the lap top, only the crackberry) so I will confirm your purchase on the 5th.

I slept ZERO last night. Every time I tried - I got pulled into an intense dream visit. I'm exhausted. This happened Friday night - Sunday night -- I have one heck of a headache. No time for naps. The dream visits were with people I don't think I know in the physical world - but each need my help about something. One was in an abusive relationship (where the wife was the abuser) and he didn't know what to do. She was there in the dream as well. I taught him how he can change his dream and lock her out. And suggested what he should do in the physical reality with his marriage. Another was on the verge of losing her home and having her and her 7 kids on the street. I helped her shift her dream from the dark despair of being homeless to money coming in and everything around her being bright.

Another person had ovarian cancer - I administered healing, another person was depressed after their boyfriend broke up - and the list goes on. I woke up after each dream visit - which is why I remember them. Just call me the Dream Whisperer!

Friday night/Sat morning - Heath Ledger was front and center. He was doing a lot of pacing -- man, and I thought Will could pace. I kept telling Heath he has to cross over - he kept saying that he wasn't finished yet - still had things to do. I told him what my friend Dave was to take him over - and Dave said he did - so what is he doing back here? Heath said that he did indeed go over - but he came right back. His soul hurts - he misses his daughter and Michele something fierce and he can't leave them. He has a lot of guilt.

So since he pulled me into this visit - I asked him what he wanted. He said he didn't know. Then he and I were in a 1960/early 70's big 4 door dark blue car with a white roof. And he's driving -- and we're driving it up this huge (length & width) staircase. And we were having a heck of a time getting it up the stairs. Heath's pissed -- and I asked him why is he doing this? He told me that he promised his dad he'd deliver the car.

Then it switched to a hotel. But Heath disappeared. So I went looking for him. Opened one hotel room - nothing, The next one was my room and I walked in - nothing. But my lap top was on the bed and my screensaver was on -- the screensaver was Heath. I remember thinking to myself - I wonder if that freaked him out -- seeing himself as my screensaver? BTW -- he is not my screensaver in the physical reality - in fact - the guy is not on my computer or in my movie collection at all. So I can't figure out why he's drawn to me.

Any ways - I opened the third hotel door and there was a woman lying in one bed, with her head at the foot of the bed - a man in the other bed - with his head at the top of the bed. I started to close the door when the woman stopped it. She asked if I was looking for Heath? I said yes. She replied that he had an appointment and was down at the shower room. I started to close the door - changed my mind and reopened it -- she said that she had a 9:00 am meeting and really needed to get some sleep. I closed the door.

Now I'm at the shower room - which is a large shower building where men & women can shower - each with their own stall. I see Heath running form one building to shower room and I yell out to him. Now - my son is next to me. Heath turns and looks at us - saying he has to be someplace at 5:00 and if I would come stand guard at the shower so that people will leave him alone.

I told my son that he too needed a shower and for him to hurry up - I put him in the stall next to Heath. I had to keep shooing people away from Heath - they wanted his autograph. Now how rude is that? The man is taking a shower! I peeked my head into my son's shower as it was 4:55 and Heath had to run. Heath flew out of the shower (fully dressed) and I grabbed my son. Heath said we'll talk later...

And I woke up.

When my son got up the 1st thing out of his mouth - I hate it when you make me take showers. I told him that he didn't have a shower last night. He says no mom, in my dream - in my mind you made me take a shower. Now stop it. I asked if he remembered anything else -- he said no.

The pressure just dropped in my office - Heath showed up. I asked what he wanted - he said he was lonely. I told him that if he would cross over he wouldn't be lonely any more. He rolled his eyes and left. SIGH. One thing that he did say before he left is that he is not haunting Michelle. I think she think he's haunting her when all he's doing is standing by to make sure she's okay. There's no haunting involved - he'd never do anything to scare her on purpose.

Will has been around - but at a distance and that's fine by me. He pops in - pops out. Kind of like telepathic pacing. I only wish he would make the decisions he needs to make and then take action. Him keeping himself in limbo is doing nothing but driving him crazy which in turn - drives me nuts.

Speaking of driving nuts. I've been trying to work on DREAMERS. And I say try because my internal critic has been being very naughty. Many negative comments which I keep countering with positive reactions. The negativity in me says to hang it up -- while the positive side remind me that I'm not a quitter. I push forward until it is obvious that I have to change my course. It's not obvious here except that I push forward. So I will prevail - there's no choice but that.

It's been 1 year since I found out my ex was cheating on me - one year that I had that feeling. It was an overpowering feeling too - way overpowering. On my b-day it'll be one year since I had proof of the affairs. And I say affairs as he had his online/phone woman for cyber & phone sex and then the woman he was screwing here in the physical realm. And wow - what a year this has been. My health, attitude, energy and overall well-being has improved 400% as soon as he moved out. What a year, what a year -- and this next year will be even better!

And on that note I need to eat lunch and then to the podcast:)

3 days till NYC - but who's counting:) Me - that's who:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Something Shifted...

Hi -me again:) I just noticed a shift - my career is in the forefront of my mind now and not love. Not that love is not important to me - as it is...but all of a sudden it was if a fog was lifted.

I can't really explain it - but things are much clearer now. I'm definitely more focused. Wow, what a difference.

Whatever happened - I'll take it. Something about Maria's reading for me did it. Boy am I grateful

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Have You Ever...

...Had a moment in your life where you had an idea or an opportunity and you knew if you had the courage to seize that chance - that it would alter your life forever?

I just had one of those moments -- and I seized it. Scared to death to do it -- completely outside of my comfort zone - but I went for it. I know that it just didn't pop in my head, but my guides placed it and I acted on it without thinking about the "what if".

No - I'm not going to tell you what it is - yet. But it hit me out of the blue and I knew it was something I had to do. I want to keep the energy concentrated to me and the other people involved for now.

I have a good feeling about it.

On another note - my son was talking to himself this morning or I should say to thin air -- so I asked him who is he talking to? He gives me that "come on mom" look and says - spirit guides and angels mom. So I asked - do they have names? He said Nick and then treasure. So I asked - are you sure you don't mean Trevor instead of treasure? He laughed and replied - I'm always screwing that up in my brain. LOL.

He appears to talk to himself all the time. I know he's not - but I was curious to know who it was he chats with. He's also doing much better in school - almost a 180 turn around. His grades are always good - but it's that attitude that has shifted. It was almost as if something clicked into place.

Back to work...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

What Would You Do If You Knew You Were Going To Die?

I watched this video of a 47 year old professor who had only 3 - 6 months of good health ahead of him - when he first gave this lecture. I was not there in person, how I wish I was, but watched it online later that day.

It's inspiring, uplifting and really gives you cause to think over things - to think over life. About what is important - what is not important. His story came to my attention again today - and I realized it was because I am supposed to pass it on. What he says matters and is relevant to all of us.

Watch the video - share it with others. It's well worth the 76 minutes.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Being A Dork And Busyness!

Sometimes I am such a dork. I know -- hard to believe isn't it? (Ha) But yet, that's what I am. Raisin (the outdoor cat) hasn't wanted to spend much time in this house because Darin keeps beating the snot out of him when I'm not around. I've tried all the keeping away - territorial stuff, but Darin just hates Raisin - it's just that simple. So I found my sons water guns and filled them up. Then (and here's the dorky part) I put on my son's play gun holster and put the water guns in. Yeah I know -- where's my fake sheriffs badge and hat:) So anyways - Darin went after him and I pulled out the guns and doubled gunned him with water. I felt sorry for him -- for an instant. He ran and hid. 10 min later he tried it again - so I got him again. He ran. From that point on every time he saw one of the water guns - he hid. Samantha also was bugging Raisin - but when I squirt her -- she just looks at me as if to say -- is this all you've got? This is the same cat who loves to jump in the shower with me every once in a while - so I should of known it wouldn't phase her - but every other feline - you betcha. So now I have one gun up and one gun downstairs in case I need them.

Is it May 1st yet? I'm hankering to get back to NYC:)

My son this week did as I feared - sucked out my brain power. I love spending time with him - but I'm amazed on how brain-dumped I feel once he goes to bed.

When I have too much to do I get overwhelmed and shut down. That is how it's been this week (plus the kid of course). I have my readings, coaching, classes, blogs, screenplay and OBE book to do next week - on top of the normal household things with animals, a kid and well - a house. I tell myself not to panic - I can do all of this as long as I plan ahead -- I'm a Taurus - I like plans. So I took my calendar, wrote everything down - spread it out -- took a look and laughed at myself. Heck - I figure that I don't sleep anyways....plus I would rather be busy than bored.

As I was doing my schedule for next week - Iris pops up and tells me to get used to it - the busyness of it all. I asked if anything eventually fades away into the background. She says - nope, not supposed to. In fact - she continues - there will be more on a daily basis. you feel crappy when you're not writing and crappy when you're not doing all of your metaphysical help -- so honey face it - you're to do both. You're not given anything you cannot handle as long as you focus. You want to play - you want to have a good time - that's fine by me and everyone else -- but when you sit at that computer - honey you have to focus. You want to drift off to Wills-ville -- do so on your own time, before you go to sleep.

Now I have to say something -- what about fun? Can I have some fun? Sure you can - she says - but there is a time and a place for everything. This is your year to move career wise - you've worked hard to get here - don't back off now. Remember this? She pulls out form behind her back the ruby sphere from my Cleopatra visions. Yes - what about it. Grab your ruby sphere you have in this life and carry it with you. The star ruby that the sphere was made from will help you. And with that she was gone.

I went and found my ruby sphere and I'll keep it with me until she tells me something different.

My son and I keep playing a telepathic guessing game (his idea) where we keep guessing what each other is thinking. It's fun and it helps build the telepathy muscle!

The song "Unforgettable" by Nat Cole keeps going though my head. If I'm so unforgettable to someone I wish they'd do something about it:)

I don't know why this dawned on me - but last year when my ex moved out, it was June 30th, one day before my son's birthday and the anniversary of my grams P death (died in 2001). Two very pivotal endings that opened new doors in my life. I wonder if anything pivotal will happen this June 30th?

I need an agent or manager for my metaphysical dealings. Know of anyone? Or maybe a marketer who specializes (or is knowledgeable about) metaphysical stuff? The person who I had before would just concentrate on Keen - and frankly - I'm not too hip on Keen. I equate cold call readings (meaning someone who gets a reading without an appointment) to a cold sales call. It just doesn't sit right with me no matter how many times I do it. If you know of anyone that could help - let me know!

And on that note - I've got to run and get back to the screenplay!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Psychic Scams, Dreams And Progress!

Wow I'm tired. I usually don't have a hard time keeping my peepers open (coffee to the rescue), but today it's a stretch. My mind is going 100 mph - my body just can't keep up. Could be a crash or two after the chocolate I ate:) I'm worse than my son with this because I SHOULD know better. Good thing Easter only comes once a year!

Speaking of Easter - Will had his ah-ha moment. I could tell -- it hit him out of the blue just as it hit me. Since Sunday morning my body has been reacting the same way as it did a few days before I met Will. No sleep, small tremors, mind ping ponging all over the place. It takes a lot for me to focus right now - but since I recognized the symptoms right off the bat - I took measures immediately so that I stay grounded.

THE BLACK TRIANGLE is moving along. My goal is to be done with this draft this weekend so that I can do my taxes:) Besides, I'm ready and open to moving forward with the writing career.

Since I've been repeating my 'open to receive" speech on a daily basis - I have noticed doors opening all around me. I've been invited to talk on a national radio show on an on going basis (a few times a month) starting in April - when I know more details I'll give you the scoop.

I emailed Oprah's show today to suggest doing a show on psychic scams. Scammers are everywhere milking hundreds of thousands of $$$ from people. I hope at least her producers consider it. I've had so many sad stories of people being roped into a scam when they were at there most vulnerable. Scammers know no boundaries - doesn't matter your age, gender, social status or education -- they go after anyone. So fingers crossed that they at least address the subject.

My dreams last night were funky. They started and stopped with Will - he wasn't the funky part. One dream in particular I was at a psychic fair - I was working that fair. We each had rectangle shaped cubicles where we could sleep (had a bed, dresser, TV and a computer) and have some quiet time - but in these cubicles we also did readings. I was next to a woman named Vicki. She was moving into the cubical that I was previously in -- seems that I got some spiritual advancement so I could move up one cubicle. Another dream had me in the midst of a crystal cave, that housed 6 crystal skulls. The skulls were talking to me. I've been trying to recall what they said since I opened my eyes this morning -- but I have no clue. Another dream had my son and I flying to NYC -- we seemed to travel to there every Tuesday and back here on Fridays.

Off to work on the screenplay!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Guide Change, New Cycle And Dream Counsel!

Last night I had a dream visit with someone who I'll call Dan. I was surprised to see him. I know "of him" but don't actually "know him" in any sense of the word. He's not part of my soul cluster, circle or family. But I did recognize him immediately. Maybe a past life connection?

I entered into a very dark room. I could tell someone else was there. I said - hello? Then I heard his voice - I thought you'd never get here. Then a light from above (?) shown down and Dan stepped from the shadows. He had on a crisp white long sleeve shirt, red tied, brown dress pants w/suspenders. No jacket. His hands were in his pant pockets. A definite frown on his face. I'm supposed to be here - I ask? You were waiting? He nods. I've been waiting for months.

I didn't know I was being called - or I would have been here sooner. He cracks a small smile -- why do you think "Elliot" (I made up the name) has been showing up all over the place? And when you didn't see him - you were drawn to seek him out (very true I might add)? I didn't realize it until now -- was my response. Well, I'm just glad you're here - Dan replied.

How did you hear about me? I wondered. We all know about you - he replied. Who's we? I asked.

He waves his hands around -- we -- us -- everyone -- souls. We know that you help people. Word gets out. You're very well liked and thought of on this side.

Oh, okay. That's good to know. So what can I help you with?

My wife. I don't know what to do with my wife. She hasn't let me touch her in years and I know about her string of affairs. Yet I can't let her go.

Have you talked to her about it?

He nods yes. But she won't let me divorce her.

What's more important -- your money or your life?

He thinks about it for a few seconds. My life - he answered.

Then give her your money and move on with your life. That's the only way you'll find the happiness you crave.

Now I have no idea what happened next...but somehow we got to this next part....

He was lying down on his side, fully clothed, and I knew he was dreaming. I slide into his arms and he wraps them around me. He mummers about how long it's been since he has touched anyone. I tell him that he's dreaming, my name is Alison (not sure why I said Alison when I usually go by Allie) and I'm not his wife.

Then I woke up. So it was like we were in a shared dream visit, then the visit ended and I astral traveled to where he was sleeping.

Ethan just showed up and now Edward. Get used to it - Ethan says. Souls from all over will be asking you for aid - Edward chimes in. Is this a good thing? I had to ask. Yes, Ethan replies, it's part of your soul path. Be prepared for things to start moving at a very rapid pace - Edward says. It'll be as if a strong wind sweeps you off your feet -- you will not be manhandled, but things will move very fast, and when this cycle is over you will be set down gently.

The hard parts behind you - Edward says - and because of this, our time with you is now over. I felt my heart sink. Ethan kisses me on the top of the head (I can feel a tingle in my crown chakra and some pressure) and says -- we're never far away. But who will be here then? I could feel them just go -- with a good bye.

Two show up -- Jezell and Brigit:) Behind them Galadriel. I hear Jezell say - welcome to some serious female power. Those three laugh. And I feel and energy surge through my body.

Jezell wants me to follow her -- not astral wise - but with my sight. I do and I can see myself and my son on a plane - sitting first class. He's playing with his iPod and I'm working on my laptop. Get used to this - Jezell says. Embrace who have you become - Brigit chimes in -- and let us glide (yes, glide and not guide) you -- Galadriel says. I keep hearing the word "healing".

Jezell says - we'll be back in a bit. When you're working on the BLACK TRIANGLE. And they were gone.

So - I headed BACK to my Runes because obviously something has changed since yesterday. Asked now what cycle am I in?

Perth - reversed (initiation) - Present
Gebo (partnership) - Attitude to take to make it through cycle
Sowelu (wholeness) - Consequences derived from the attitude

The old way has come to an end. Time to call in scattered energies and concentrate on myself at the moment. I need to keep my sense of humor during obstacles and rerouting opportunities. Also - keep positive while keeping my faith firm. A partnership is coming to me - love and/or business - and I have to be prepared not to lose myself in it. I have to remember that with this gift, that I have to remain separate and whole - no matter how easy it is to become one with the partner. This partnership will also lead me to the solidification with my higher self and with the Divine. There is no more doubt lingering. This union is where all my other gifts will flow though. With this I will continue to move down my soul's path. I have to remember to let the right action flow through me and it is brought to me for a reason. Don't fight it - just flow with it and all will work out as its supposed to.

Boy oh boy:)

I wanted to add - before I forget again -- that I got a couple of emails from people who are worried that I have placed Will, Bill, Ted and Matt on some sort of pedestal. Ahhh -- there isn't any worry here. They're men -- enough said:) Besides, we all have faults and limitations -- Lord knows I have my share of them:) At the core I am a very simple person who enjoys simple things (although I do like complex people) and I'm sure because of this -- my soul cluster is the same way. I wonder if we all sat around a camp fire - who would have the best ghost story? LOL.

Have a good day...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Dreams, Runes And The Stone Pendant!

Where do I begin? I seem to have a lot to tell and I hope I remember everything there is:)

Saturday night I had a dream visit with Bill. He and I were back in that library. I wanted him to sign a couple more of his books that I owned as I wanted to sell all of them on eBay and give the money to a children's charity. I felt sad at the prospect of putting his work on eBay to sell -- but I knew that it was something that I had to do. He was okay with it all. Then he said - someday you'll be living with it all anyways. I woke up. Probably some day I will be living with it all in the same house - but it's not for several decades to come. So I wonder why I had this dream visit now? Maybe this was his way of telling me it's okay. I don't know .

My guides wanted me to change my 3 stone pendant. Ethan kept nit picking until I finally agreed. I had no idea what stones they wanted me to put in there -- so I went around my office and picked up the stones that called to me. There was about 9 in all. When I have several stones - I have to mix and match until the combo goes into the pendant effortlessly and stays put. The combo that was required was: aventurine, amethyst, Herkimer diamond. This combo is to help heal and open my heart chakra, heighten my psychic abilities, and have a stronger telepathic connection. And yes - I do think that this has to do with Will. Not only because of type of stones - but each stone vibrates to a certain number. All 3 of these stones vibrate to a 3. My Life Path via Numerology = 3, & Will's - a 3. So there you have it.

Speaking of Will (and since when lately aren't I?) -- I had a hell of a time sleeping last night. It could of been my back because of the @hit load of snow I shoveled (with my neighbors help -- very thankful I am) or my constant worry that Darin was going to blind side Raisin again. But I spent more time awake than asleep. And I couldn't remember any dream visits with Will all weekend -- until 6:00 am this morning. And it wasn't Will -- but about Will and me. Let me explain.

My son was taking a bath. We were in some sort of communal house -- it was rather dark inside. My ex came in and was looking really lost. I told him Hi - how are you? And he still looked lost - like he had no clue who I was or our son. He disappeared and here comes Will's on again, off again girlfriend (in real life). I was shocked to see her. Her hair was done 1940's style - she had really red lipstick on and a flowered dress. She looked at me and says -- looks like we're in love with the same person. Then she leaned in and tried to kiss me. I leaned backwards and looked at her like - girl -- are you crazy? Then I said - maybe we do. She gave me a really odd look and walked away. Then this other woman shows up (no idea who she is) as my son and I are walking out the door into the blinding sunshine and she says to me -- he told me he loved you. I look at her and I say who - Will? And she says yes. I ask - how can that be if we only met once? She says - it took only one look - one look and he knew in his heart that you were the one. So be patient with him - he'll come around. She turned around without another word and walked away. My son and I walked out into the light -- and I woke up. I laid there for a bit going over and over that scene. I still get goose bumps when I think about it.

Snow. We had so much dang snow here that I'm sick of looking at the stuff. The refused to call it a blizzard (even though most of Ohio was shut down) because the winds didn't meet 35 mph. I am very thankful that my neighbors helped me shovel the heavy snow from my driveway. Then the washer blew up for its final time. Very grateful that I had enough room left on a credit card to buy a new one. Should be here by week's end - since it was a special order. I've noticed that Wooster doesn't carry a lot of energy star appliances.

I did a Rune cast for myself to find out what inner cycle I am currently experiencing. This is what I drew:

Laguz (flow) - Present
Sowelu (wholeness) - Attitude to take to make it through cycle
Uruz (strength) - Consequences derived from the attitude


Presently there are unseen forces at work. I am in the flow of my intuitive nature and am cleaning out areas of my life that are no longer needed. I am attuning to my own rhythms and bringing to me people, places and situations that are part of my self-transformation. The door to the past is shut completely and life is taking on a whole new dimension. I have to follow the path that my soul calls me to -- my reason to be here. I have to go with the flow and remember that what I am striving to become, I already am - I just need to realize it. I have to bring forth my essence and shape it creatively as the life force of the universe is here and available for my use. The result of this attitude will be a new beginning - a fresh start as my old life has outgrown its usefulness. There is positive growth and change - although since I have let go of people, places and situations - there will be lose. I will have a new perspective and new strength that will allow me to adapt to the demands of a very creative time. My soul and the universe supports my new growth.

Well I'll be dammed -- it's about time. If you look back on my blog entries - you're going to see that I have been letting go of many things in my life -- and I have been shifting things to embrace this creative time. Yay! I so deserve it:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Will, Ted And More Change!

I'm exhausted. What a week last week was. After I got all of the Will details fleshed out for the 27th - and energy shift occurred. This happens when there has been a change and my physical body tries to adapt to the shift in my energy body's higher frequency. So for over a week - sleep has been more pathetic than usual, headaches, body tremors, brain on hold -- the fun stuff. Luckily when I do readings it's something that just flows through me and doesn't really require any brain work. So to help with this shift I have stayed away from all extra spiritual work - no mediations, no on purpose dream visits, no anything. This is why I haven't written all last week - when I stay away from things - I stay away.

I don't feel too bad today which is why I thought it was fine to write. I have been doing a lot of shifting and putting things behind me over the last week. I resigned from Whispers Media. No - nothing happened, it was just time to move forward. I have nothing but love for that company. So no more sex toy testing for me - damnit:) But I do have over 60 toys as it is and frankly -- do I really need any more? Maybe a good glass dildo or two -- but that's it. I'm also going to be done with the L Word and I'm not going to do the sex talk show. Maybe some day I'll do the talk show - just not right now. I've decided to focus all of my extra time and energy to my screenwriting. I'm good at it. And with my manager's talent and fine-tuning ability -- there's no reason why I can't make it -- or at least make it to a point where something else opens up. No worries - I am still writing the OBE sex blog and book.

My guides told me to go out and by yellow for Will. I have to wear a yellow shirt when I talk to him. I have no idea why -- but they comment and I just follow their lead. 3 days till I see him. He's been in my mind a lot -- not intrusive like - but it's almost as if he's here to see what I'm doing and how I'm doing. Looking forward to Wed and I find myself nervous. Not nervous to see him - that'll be a piece of cake. It's NYC with my 7 year old - that's what makes me nervous. I have no idea what I'm doing, yet I have to act like I do. I have no idea how to hail a cab and the subway? I get hives just thinking about it. We'll be okay - it's just the big city and I'm a country girl:)

I won't be doing any readings this week - I'm scheduling for the next week and beyond. And it's filling up rather fast.

Watching the Oscars. I'm such a geek I never miss it. I've been watching since I was 10 years old. It's cool as right now they are showing the Kodak theater - and I've been in there. My sister and I went in once for a tour. Tommy Lee Jones and Jack Nicolson sitting by one another -- that would be a trip to be in that area and just listen to those two. I - of course - am going to cry when they show the stars that have passed this last year. I always do. This is the 80th awards and I remember having a dream once where this award show was significant for me. Not sure why. I guess maybe I'll find out afterwards.

My dreams have been jamming lately -- well, should I say -- still. They are just so darn busy. Will and Bill are always in them -- but I can't remember exactly what happens, I just know that they are there.

BTW...Ted finally did marry the vamp last week. Good luck to them both -- they are sure going to need it. I give it 3 years tops.

Back to Will -- as he's obviously on my mind. When we're telepathically connected - I can sense fear, excitement, uneasiness, love, impatience and longing. I think that we are bouncing it off of each other. I can tell that he is not 100% about having his life tipped upside down - even if it is for a good reason. Change is scary no matter if it's wanted or not. Add to this the unknown -- and it can make the most optimistic person a pessimist. This is where I lie - I sway between optimism and pessimism. I think that I put the pessimism in my thoughts so that if things do not go as I would like - then it won't be such a let down. Of course I am honestly not expecting much at all - more like this is a seed expedition. Planting a seed of curiosity. Will's a thinker - once that seed is planted, he'll work on it till he gets it worked out. A lot like Bill -- but Will doesn't overthink. We'll see what happens. But one thing is for sure - the following Monday will usher in a new time for me, regardless if NYC goes well or not. I'm ready for something new in my life. I'm ready for something good.

I will not have my computer in NYC - but I will have the Crackberry (AKA Blackberry) with me in case there is a need and/or time to shoot off a quick post.

Don't forget that Fri - Sun I'll be in Lansing MI for Maria Shaw's Cosmic Connection Covention. Stop out and say "Hi".

Off to keep on watching the Oscars and working on "The Black Triangle".

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Dark Dream, Will And Making Choices!

I really need to hire someone to come into my office and reorganize me. It's really very shameful. How can I Feng Shui my office if I have clutter? You can't have clutter with Feng Shui - the energy gets stuck. So somehow I have to put some time aside just to put things away. Yes, I realize that if I would just put things away after I use it (after all, that's what I tell the kid) then there wouldn't be a problem. SIGH. At least my super powered Feng Shui fountain is pumping and doing its job!

Of course the sex books that just arrived for my sex talk radio show (which I'm calling Sex With Allie) - needs to be put away. My son's birds and the bees talk will have to wait until anther day - preferably another year or two, three, five:) I think that I've fund a place to produce the live call in show - and of course I'll release it as a podcast too. I need to have a 1st guest for the show. Any suggestions? I'm also going to have a give a way each show - maybe a sex toy, or some erotic audio, a novelty. I'll have a fantasy contest where people send me their fantasy, and which ever one is the best -- will win the prize:) What else am I going to have? Sex toy reviews and either a sex position of the week - or maybe a sex game of the week. Maybe I'll alternate them? Plus sex in the news: sex health, sex topics -- etc... It's be a good hour show.

As I was taking my son to school this morning, we were discussing his behavior and how he is always on "blue" (behavior is color coded: green = good, yellow = warning, blue = big trouble, red = kiss your butt goodbye, you're going to the Principals office). He tells me that it's the other kids fault that he gets in trouble. I reply with that's not true - you and only you are in charge of your choices. Every minute of every day you are able to make a good choice or a bad choice -- but either way the choice is up to you. He really didn't have much to say about that. But as I was walking back home - I told myself - Allie, why not listen to your own good sense? You bitch every day because you don't have time to fit it all in -- and we've been down this road before. When all you have to do is make good choices. Thus far on any given day - your choices lean more towards the good choice - but the bad choices eat up for too much of your time. So what are you going to do - good choices or bad choices? I'm all for the good choices and that's where I'm concentrating now.

After all, I do believe I have finally conquered the thought process. When something bad comes into my line of though - I quickly scoot it away and bring in something else. I've gotten so good at it that I don't have to think about doing it - it just happens. So now I have to do the good choice, bad choice thing. Wow - shaping your life to live it in a positive manner sure is difficult. What made it this difficult? The media? Family? Society? or maybe a combination? But no matter what shifted us to that point of living more in the greed of darkness instead of the happiness of light - it's up to each of us to change our lives around.

I noticed that yesterday I kept seeing the number 99. So I decided to look it up in Angel Numbers: Get to work Lightworker! Your Divine life mission is needed now more than ever, and any contribution you can make toward bringing more light and love into your world is imperative. The preparation for your life's work is complete now. I found that to be very interesting as I had felt the same over the last several days. I felt a shift - a good shift.

Will has written one book. Well that book arrived yesterday - it's musing from his notebook over the years. It's a light read, but gave me a much stronger prospective of his conscious side as well as his ego. I like getting to know the whole person, not just the spiritual side and/or his soul, which I already know. Even in this books - he writes short blurbs about seeing spirits and about knowing that there is someone out there for him. Tired of a meaningless life - success hasn't brought him happiness. Tired of being alone and feeling old. His notes were from 76 - until 98, this being published in 99. I wonder if he published again - if his notebook musing would have taken on a different tone? Oh -- and he did mention that he wants sex -- lots and lots of sex. I had to smile at that one.

Speaking of Will, he and I had one wild dream visit last night. It was very dark. Not only in the tone, but it was dark in the dream. He and I are using magic to battle these odd looking creatures that appear to be half lizard and half cat.

It's wearing us out. No matter how many we take out, they seem to multiply. This feels like the continuation of a dream I had many months ago about he and I going off to battle (date: Nov 20th 2007). Our energy is low, the sky is dark, the air is dense and the earth is stained red. There's a part of each of us that just wishes to let them kill us so that we can just rest. All of a sudden, we hear a swishing sound behind us. The creatures scatter. What is coming towards us is the largest snake I have ever seen. It can take out buildings. In fact, it takes out a grocery store with people in it. We can hear the panic cries of them being devoured. Will and I both know that our energy is depleted - how can we take this thing on?

Will grabs my hand and we run into a near by cave. Sex he says - sex will bring our energy up to the highest level and reconnect us to the source. I assure him that I'm in no mood for sex and well - he assured me neither is he. You can go to the OBE sex blog to read what happened - and then come back here to read the rest.

We exit the cave and head towards the snake - which by now has gobbled up half of the town. People are running around in complete panic. I stand on one side of the snake - Will on the other. We utter words in a tongue I do not consciously recognize. Fire, water, strong winds, swords, bugs, -- we try everything we can on this snake and it only stuns him - doesn't kill it. Then I read Will's mind, we have to be inside of it. Not that I want to - but I know we have to. So we run into a house that is in his path of destruction and sure enough - up goes the house.

All around us the house breaks into toothpicks - as the pieces go down into the snake- so do we. The smell in the stomach was horrible - everything in there was being digested very slow. People, animals and things were all in different stages of decay -- almost as if we went directly to hell. Will and I gasped hands and yelled an incantation that would blow up the snake. It worked - and we were thrown through the air like rag dolls.

As I landed with a thud in the dream - I did so on my bed I woke up. And it's amazing - my body hurt as if I had just slammed into something. Cats were staring at me. I got up, drank a glass of wine - and went back to bed. It was something like 3:05 am.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Headaches, Change And Will!

I woke up again this morning with a killer headache. My dreams have been very active the last two nights. So much so that I spend most of my night tossing and turning. What bugs me is that I can't really grasp what I dreamt about (besides Will). There's fast moving water and fire. I can briefly remember running towards something as everyone else was running away. Other things that I can remember snippets are guns being fired, and a wave of peace. When this type of dreaming happens w/me waking up with a headache - some big change usually happens in my life. It could be good or bad -- don't know. I could use some good:)

Now if I can't sleep as well as having the above, then it's a change coming for a large group of people -- this is what happened to me before 9/11, Katrina and the 2005 Tsunami. So if the no sleep happens - I'll let you know.

Either way something is going to shift in my life. I've told myself to pay better attention to the dreams.

I noticed the clock this morning -- it didn't say 8:12, instead it was 8:05. Now 805 stands for: The changes that you're considering or experiencing are Divinely guided, and they help you to be more financially secure.

Hummm...I'm not considering any changes right now -- but if you take in account my dreams -- then the changes being made must be to give me a better financial foundation. That would be nice.

I know that I am trying to revamp things to give myself some more writing time. It's hard for me to do anything past 4:30 when I go pick up my son. I get him, do house work, supper, homework, some play time, his bath, bed and then some more house work. By this time it's 10:00 and I'm pooped. I do keep trying to get up sooner - but me and the snooze button are loving each other way to much. I think that I'll ask my guides for help on that.

Speaking of guides, as I was falling asleep last night, I was walking down my path toward my dream portal when I saw Edward and Ethan. They said that everything is going as it should and that I need not worry so much. Then Edward chimes in and says my worries take me away from my path. Ethan adds - they need to feel your light. My goal was to walk through the portal and go see Will. But as I moved closer to it, I could see him standing there waiting for me. I asked him what in the heck is he doing? He replied - you were coming to se me anyways - right? I nodded. Well, I though I'd save you the trouble of finding me and enter into our dreams side by side. I asked - how can you be here and enter into my portal and not your own. He smiled and said - I have so much to teach you. And we walked through.

I barely remember the visit since it was at the start of the night and then I had all of that activity (which Will might have been a big part of - I don't know). What I do remember is him showing me a large leather bound book that we wrote our "teachings" into centuries ago. The place we were at was our magic room on the astral plane.

Keen was a waste of time today -- as it had been all week thanks to that wonderful person who left me the negative feedback. If you can respond to my plea of help in the below posting -- that would be great. But I'm not going to leave it there very long - so if you look below this and there is no posting about Keen, then I erased it.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Psychic Pimps And Dream Visits!

Halloween during a Mercury Retrograde. Not fair - not fair at all! Why? Because I have always done a spell on Halloween night - usually around midnight. No matter what spell I've ever cast, it has come to pass. But not this year as magic during the MR can have a horrible outcome! Why? Because during magic what you are doing is communicating your intention to the Divine. Mercury is the planet of communication. When that puppy travels backwards - normal day to day communications go screwy and with magic -- ouch! Either things can turn out the exact opposite of what you want or it only happens 1/2 way. Either result is not good. So this year I will refrain from my magical Halloween fun until next year.

My son is so excited to go trick or treating tonight. Was I ever that excited to get gobs of candy? I know my dad was - lol. But I'm sure I loved my chocolate high as well. But we will be out and about around 6:30. He's going as Batman this year.

The yard work I did, ripping up all of the garden plants to prepare the ground for winter, almost killed my lower arms. I haven't even started on the front or side beds yet and the odds of me actually doing so are slim. But I will at least think about it:) BTW...I re-caulking of the bathtub was a complete success. No more leaks! Yay me!

I need you guys to be my psychic pimps again. Two reasons: 1) my dryer blew up and it's 11 years old. Putting $160 into it is silly when I can get a new dryer for about $250. The only problem I do not have either amount handy - so I need dryer money. 2) The other night I had the most amazing experience with Will (details below) and when I was lying in my bed saying "come on all ready" - my guides are telling me again - "you're not known enough." I have no idea what kind of well-known they want me - but the more people I help, the more my name will get out there - right? So this is why I need the pimping help. Thank you in advance.

My hat's off to single mothers with more than one child. I don't know how they do it. I'm busting butt with just one kid, 2 dogs, 4 cats, and a house. I can't imagine having two or more children and doing this. It's been what - almost 4 months and I'm still not down to a workable routine. I roll out of bed at 6:30 am, check email, do online banking stuff, and off to take care of the animals. By 7:30 my son is up, I grab him breakfast and I jump in the shower. By 8:45 we're walking to school. I work from 9 - 5 each day until I pick my son up from the after school program. From 5 - 6 I do house work & make dinner. From 6 - 8 it's me and my son time (and outside work time). 8 - it's his shower. 8:30 he's in bed and I read to him. 9 rolls around and I throw a load of laundry in (to hang around the house the next day to dry). 9:15 - 10:00 I try to catch up on email (lol - now that's a laugh, but I am making headway). By 10:00 I'm in bed ready to have a do over starting at 6:30 am.

On weekends I've set aside for writing. How much I get done depends on if my son is here or at his dad's. Of course when he gets back from dad's, he's a handful and a half. So I'm not sure it's worth him going over -- but he is crazy about his dad.

And somehow I'm supposed to date in the midst of all of this. No wonder my guides said - no - there won't be any real dating going on. Sex - yes if you want it - but no real dating. Did I tell you I canceled all of the dating sites I was on? SIGH - there's just no time. Maybe once I get my routine down, I may work dating in -- but it won't be for awhile.

Will. Now this man has been on the front lines for several days now. I can always feel his energy with me - always. And if I feel myself getting really upset about something I used to have to ask for his help, now he senses it and just shows up. Sunday I was just in a state - between my dryer breaking, my son coming home with a major attitude problem and finding out that my ex has his gf spend the night when my son is over there (hence the need I think for the attitude adjustment). And I could not sleep. The next thing I knew it was 2:30 am and I'm still awake. I could feel his energy come in and snuggle in behind me. I fell asleep immediately. Now Monday I felt horrible - I was sick yet again. So sick that I had to cancel my L Word chat. Now during Monday I could feel him all around me - saying let it go, it'll make you sick - let it go (the anger and frustration) and I wouldn't. I could feel him try to pull it out of me - but I held on - I was pissed.

Part of me was thinking to myself that I'm just "delusional" about Will (yes, from time to time if I'm in a pissy mood I do still think that way - thankfully I'm not pissy too often) and that I should just ignore it. That is when a client who knows who Will is emailed me about Will. I then knew - that no, I wasn't delusional. This was just another sign that I'm on track. Monday night as I very sickly laid down on my bed, I asked for an attitude adjustment by morning. Well, I got it -- and it was Will who helped.

In the dream visit we were at the beach - it was night and I could hear the waves crashing against the sand. He and I were walking, talking about some project when we stopped walking and rested on a large boulder. We were still chattering away, bouncing ideas off of each other. I could tell that we were both really excited about the ideas being discussed (too bad I can't remember the actual ideas). Who knows how it happened, but our faces were close and he said something and I lost my train of thought completely. He looked at me and asked if I was okay. I stumbled over my words, but I asked him to repeat what he asked as my thoughts escaped me. He repeated and I opened my mouth to answer -- and again I couldn't. I just looked at him. He mumbled something under his breath and kissed me. It was a good kiss too. I remember pulling back just grinning. He said that it'll all work out, and to stop worrying. I could hear my alarm off in the distance. He said - I'm not done with you yet.

And I woke up, in a decent mood - feeling better - a definite attitude adjustment. And he was right, he wasn't done. The telepathic sex was amazing. All still at the ocean and I could feel the coolness of the rock on my butt. More about this at the OBE sex blog.

My guide Edward just told me that there is no more email in the morning before my son gets up. It is a time for energy work and for reflection. If I put side the 15 - 20 min in the morning that was email time, I will find a significant change in my day. He hasn't been wrong yet - so starting on Friday (after the MR goes direct) I will start my retraining.

As I've been writing today's entry, I have been getting the biggest jolt of energy through me. It's the trembling thing when I know a shift has occurred. Edward tell same it deal with Will. It was a change on his side. He tells me that Will has my letter and is contemplating what to do next. Energy guys -- for those of you who know who Will is - please send him a dose of strength energy to contact me. For those of you who don't know who he actually is - Will is really his name and that alone will be very helpful to put energy to his name. Will found me - not the other way around, so I can't see why he will have problem contacting me. Thank you bunches in advance.

Bill and Ted are both on the outskirts of my energy. They are there - but they are not there. I think that I will try to help them focus more on the connection - to make it stronger. The connection is permanent already, but they have a habit of throwing up a semi-wall when they work and that makes the connection just a bit more convoluted. The energy connection can help them overcome their current personal and business difficulties.

Matthew jumps in and out of the energy field. He knows but he doesn't know what is going on. Eventually he'll catch on - I just have to keep sending him the group's energy.

I asked Edward about me going in and drawing the guys to me like a portal -- as I've done before. He says we're past that - they are alrady drawn to me. When I ask what I should be doing - he tells me to close my eyes and grab my healing wand. The 1st thing I saw was a blinding sun. I could hear Edwards's voice ask me if I knew what I was looking at. I said sure - the sun. What does the sun do - he asked? It gives off positive, life affirming energy as well as a life force - it helps things grow. Correct he said. Now put these on. I put on a pair of sun glasses. Edward tells me to look again at the sun and behind the radiant rays I can see me. Edward tells me that that is what I am to do - give off the positive. life affirming and life force energy. He tells me to look away from the sun and I can see all 4 guys, basking in the sun's glow. See Edward said - you be the sun and they will come closer to you. The morning energy raising and reflection - plus you getting more known will cause this to happen. You'll notice almost an immediate change in everything as soon as you start to follow the plan.

I think I may start tomorrow. I can hear him say - good idea, Retrograde or not, it will still work.

And on that note - time for me to get back to work.

Happy Halloween!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Gypsy Magic, Edward, Bill, Ted And More!

Can you say AMEN! The DREAM book is finally done and at the printers! Out of the 4 gypsy magic books - this one is the best. I love talking about dreams and astral travel! This is just in time for my divorce hearing next week. Remember, I kept being told in order to go to the next stage in my life, the books had to be done? And -- I had to be divorced? Well -- there you go. Robert - my guide - is such a happy little clam. Now he's pushing me to get going on my TV pilot DREAMERS. And I have to say - yes sir - on this one -- cause every fiber of my body is telling me to move it. I asked Robert -- what about The L Word or Tell Me You Love Me or even The Dead Zone -- what about writing for them? He tells me not to get a head of myself. Damn. At least it wasn't a no way:)

Bill is something else. I swear. Just sitting back, trying to get to the center of me - of my mind - on purpose. He has that need to be "right there". I don't mind it though, he's a creative soul and his muse just melds with mine. I had a really wicked idea for a story that involves Bill, me and other dimensions -- maybe add in the co-dependency of Ted. A supernatural, love, erotic story thriller with violence. It just flowed out from me to my notepad as an outline. The more I think about it -- the more I think about what a kick ass story this is. One thing at a time Allie -- get DREAMERS done 1st. Work on the OBE Sex book next. Of course -- the OBE sex book would flow well with the story. I'd call it an erotic thriller - the new story - not the OBE book.

I have to shift my focus.....

Will. He keeps popping in and out to say - hey - if you have a moment I'd like to remind you that I'm still here. I have something on the table and should be out the door next week in order to get a hold of him. Every fiber of my being knows that as soon as he gets it, he'll act on it. Maybe that's why I keep putting it off -- kind of like the oh crap - what do I do now? But now, it's not a crap - what do I do? I know what to do -- and I can do -- that is a very freeing feeling!

I've been trying to focus in on Ted the last several days -- but Bill won't let the connection last very long. So today I'm going to blast through (so to speak) and send Ted some energy. He's really low on the energy -- he gets this way if he and I haven't been connected in a while. He/we could have the on connection always like Bill and I have graduated to - but Ted still has some issues to work through before he can get to that stage. He close - so close -- but not close enough. It would help matters if he would just dump the soul-sucking vampire he's been with the last two years. But he hates to be alone. When I asked Ethan about this - I'm single now - if Ted knows this (and he does) then why doesn't he dump the negative entity and contact me? Ethan tells me that Ted knows there is no way in hell Bill would sit back and let this happen. And Ted's love for both you and Bill far outweighs the love he has for himself. That said, he prays that you both will allow him in your lives as a good friend.

I'm amazed on how much my gifts have grown over the last year. You might have noticed that I no longer have to do a session to get messages or see visions/images. I never had to do a session when it pertained to doing a reading for someone. But when it dealt with me and my life - I always had to hit a session of some sort in order to extract information. It's nice that I don't have to now. At least there's something in my life that I don't have to work so darn hard at any longer.

But that aside - I can feel the pull of a handful of guides - so it's just easier to go into a session.

As soon as I started, there was Ted, bigger than life. But he was back a bit - stuck in a haze or mist. I could hear Ethan tell me to raise my energy as high as I could get it. I just stood there and stared at Ted -- his energy aura around him was weak and what was there was a brownish black. It was heart breaking to see someone in such a stage - especially someone like him who has such a giving heart. Ted laid down on a bed (not his - he's not at home). With my feet planted firmly on the ground, I imagined a plank of energy going around me - slow at 1st and as it increased speed I increased the distance of it from my body. As the plank moved out - a white energy hugged the middle between us. As that moved out into the ethers - I placed myself in a glass tube, having it close to my body and started it to go around clockwise. Faster and faster it went - still relatively close to my body. On the outside of that tube - I took another glass tube and made it go counter clockwise. When my energy is being raised to this level - my tummy always feels really odd - like I'm heading down that 1st roller coaster hill. When I can feel my astral body wanting to go exploring - I stop the energy raising. I focused my energy to go out through my hands and into Ted. As the energy moved into him - he groaned and tossed and turned, finally resting on his back.

Not sure how I got there - but I was straddling Ted, with my hands on his chest looking down. His eyes flew open and it was as if he could look right at me. His green eyes seemed to grow wide and looked onto mine. He said "Oh God Allie" and I was whisked back out of there - back next to Ethan. I watched as my energy infused Ted -- making all of the brownish black drift away. His energy aura grew in size and strength. A blackness left his body from the middle of his back.

He got up and walked over to a pill bottle. He stared at it for a few seconds, opened a drawer and threw them in. I looked at Ethan and he said that they were tranquilizers. Ted walked out of the room.

I turned and there stood, Ethan, Robert, Jezell and Brigit. I asked what did I do to garner so much attention? Robert said that they were there to let me know how proud they are on the progress I have made. Brigit said that the 4 of them will be right next to me, helping me through the next step. It's time to progress further - Ethan commented. Jezell told me to turn around ,there there was someone new I had to meet.

I turned and was face to face with a man in violet. He had on a long - velvet-like violet robe, open in the front. Underneath he wore an outfit of white with a high, but open collar. His hair is pure white and very short/cropped - almost like a business man's hair cut. His face was chiseled - high cheek bones and dark blue eyes. He extended his hand and said that his name was Edward. I looked at him and replied - but haven't we met before? In this life? He smiled and said yes - I'm glad you remembered. He tells me to walk with him.

As we walk I can see Bill right next to us following us. I comment about Bill and Edward said that I'd better get used to it. Bill will always be on the outskirts of my energy just like I him - when we are not physically in the same room. It's our telepathic connection - it's an constant "on". I asked about the man I saw a glimpse of in all red. Edward tells me that he is Abraham and I will meet him next - when the time is ready.

We arrive in my magic room - the one where Merlin always is. And there he was - Merlin. I asked why am I being doubled teamed? Merlin laughed and said that Edward's the brains and he's the brawn of this operation. Merlin chuckled - Edward didn't.

I am told that the time is now for me to expand in to greater magical practice. Edward said that what I do - my purpose in this life - will affect everyone on the planet. Merlin jumped in and said that I must get a hold of Will - there is much to do. Will and I are to start to come here - consciously (as we have been for some time unconsciously) to our magic room and start to prepare. We are to do our magic on the astral level. I asked about the physical level - Merlin said that yes it would work - but the real power is not in the 2 dimensional physical world - but in the multi dimensional world of the planes -- which is accessed astrally. Is there anything I should do 1st? I asked? Get Will to call you - Edward replied. They didn't care how I do it -- but it must be done now. Time is of the essence. Will and I need to be in conscious, physical contact. It's not a need or a want -- it's a must.

I asked if this has anything to do with bring Atlantis back into the physical dimension. They tell me that in time all will be revealed. Don't get ahead of myself.

And with that the session was over.

Gee - nothing like adding the pressure on!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

I'm Still Alive And I Have A New Guide!

I need to put myself back into the land of the living instead of drowning in the - going through the motions. At least I have my wits about me and I can think with a clear head. Last week was horrible but not as bad as the week before and I'm going to bank on this week being better than last week. Just so you know -- I'm not in trouble with the law, I'm not being sued - I'm not in any deep water at all. My self-esteem and self-confidence is just fine -- I am just incredibly pissed off. But that's all I can tell you as someone who has had a hand in my life course diversion has been checking out this blog to see what I write. So until I know that my ducks are in a row and accounted for -- I am keeping my mouth shut. I had someone ask me if I was going to place a curse on whoever or whatever has done me wrong. No need to -- karma will take care of it -- this I know.

That said - I want to thank all of you who have sent me emails full of light, love and support. They have been greatly appreciated and I know that I would not be doing as well as I am right now if it wasn't for the love and the light that you guys have sent my way. I am eternally grateful.

I'm not one to ask for help unless I really need it so you know what I am about to ask I really need. I need money. It's not a want or a desire - but a very big need. I have a donation button here and on the main site. Or - please just spread my name around - what I do and my services - my URL. Anything for me to have work and to make money. I really wish I could tell you why I need the money so bad -- someday I will be able to spill all.

BTW...I have more emails that I have to return than I know what to do with. Please be patient and do not email or call me to find out why I haven't gotten back to you. I'll get there - eventually.

I've had a new guide show up through all of this. His name is Ethan. He is a very strong energy - a very wise energy. I haven't been able to get a good look at him yet. I ask why he has come forth at this point in time - he replied - I'm here to see you the rest of the way. I am your strength, your bedrock of fortitude. I am your wisdom when common sense eludes you. I am the light in your darkest hour. We are not two, but one - of one energy, of one holiness. Draw on me when you cannot take that next step. I will never be away from your side - you will never walk alone.

He shows me a very large and old book. But I haven't been able to read what it says inside. He says that it will come when the time is right. He also has told me that he is a connection between me and Will. He is a guide for both of us and that is no accident.

I'm tired -- today has been a long day. I have meds from the doctor to help lower my stress/anxiety so that my blood pressure goes back to the norm (114/65) instead of 220/110 - and so I'm not so pissed all the time (or should I say when I'm not working I'm pissed. Having work has helped me keep my sanity). But I'm trying to calm myself down. One way for me to do that is to go to sleep -- and I think that'll I'll do that right now.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Ted, Dreams And Change!

Okay, to keep my sense of humor today in the midst of a God awful pile of work, I sung Barry Manilow songs all day -- and lost my voice. Yep, that's right -- the Manilow made me lose my voice. My two favorites today - Daybreak and I Can't Smile Without You. With those two songs I'd actually get up and dance like I was on stage. America's Funniest Home Videos would have had a field day with me! So if I had so much work and the odds of me being tired are high -- why aren't I in bed? Cause it's LOST night silly -- that's why. The only time I would miss my man Sawyer is if I wasn't home or dead. And I guess if I'm dead I'm not home -- right?

But all in all I have been in a great mood today -- despite losing the voice, the work and the temperature changing from 75 yesterday to 20 today. I've got that feeling -- you know the one -- that feeling that something else just fell into place and that something is going to change because of it? It's right there -- just on the outskirts of my life -- just waiting for that moment when it can step in and change my life. I can feel it's energy - it's excitement to shift my life in a new direction. I for one told it to come on -- I'm ready!

I had that feeling today that Ted had stopped by the blog. Maybe not today or yesterday -- but it was recent. He knows he's Ted and that shit-ass grin of his is plastered on his face. Although he's not entirely sure how to approach me. Could this be the change I'm sensing -- that change that is waiting in life's wings? I honestly don't know -- but I hope that he's at least part of it. But in the mean time he is still in my dream visits.

Last night he wanted me to go to London with him. We were in, I think NYC. I asked why....he said he had something to show me. We arrive at a castle -- I know from past visions and such that this is Dunshine Castle. We walk inside and it is as it's always -- dirty and hasn't been used in forever. He announces that he wants me to move to London and that he'll buy this castle for us to live in. I replied that I have animals and a son and I can't just pick them up and move them over the pond to live in an old, drafty castle. He replied - aye - I had thought of that. He proceeds to tell me that he has plans on updating the castle and getting it in livable condition. I asked how -- this has to be more money than you have....it's too much. He shakes his head and said -- I sold me club. I knew what he meant -- and it shocked the hell out of me. I opened my mouth to protest -- and he said he'd do anything in the world for me. Then -- that kiss. Damn him -- even as I woke up my knees were weak! I could still feel his lips pressed to mine. Oh how I wanted to go back.....but no such luck...it was time to get up. But that kiss set me off on the right foot - that's for sure:)

So Ted's birthday is coming up and I sent him a present. I know he'll like it....call it an intuitional feel if you will:) But more important than that is that he will "get" it -- he will know why I sent what I sent. God I love it when a plan comes together!

There was something else in my dreams last night that I think are worth writing down. I'm in a class room full of kids. A good chunk of them are from the movie "Remember The Titans" especially Gerry Bertier (not the actual Gerry, but the actor playing Gerry - but playing Gerry) -- behind me was the principal which I didn't see, but that I think it was Will. Gerry wanted his pencil sharpened -- so I sharpened it with a manual pencil sharpener (you know the kind they have at schools or had on the wall near the door or chalk board). I made a comment about the point and he yanked it from my hands. Before I could say anything, the principal (which I think was Will) started to say something to him. I next remember looking at this bag of candy this girl had -- it was unusual and two of the hard candies were a light blue and a violet. It was commented that she was handing them out to the Hollywood stars as they drove by and usually they just pitch what people give them. But when they tried the candy they were hooked. It was homemade and simply delicious. I remember rthe light blue had a tropical flavor to it -- maybe pina colda. Next I was in an elevator with three other women. As the white elevator with a triangle top climbed - it liked to swing side to side -- so we had to hold on. Very odd.

Off to get ready for LOST -- have a great night!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Riding The Rapids And It Was A Test!

Bill has been reaching out all morning. I've been putting him off seeing that my energy is supposed to be elsewhere - but he is very insistent.

As soon as I start my session I am taken to a fallen log by a river. The water in the river is moving pretty rapidly and there are a series of rapids - starting small and getting larger - down the way a few yards. I can see the rapids end into calm water.

I sit down on the log and listen to the rushing water. It really does sound calming, yet invigorating all at once. Bill arrives and sits next to me. We both sit in silence for a few, just listening to the music of the water. Finally he speaks - how are you? I manage a weak smile - shitty. How are you? He chucks a bit and replies - the same.

I turn to face Bill. Why are you here? Why were you around all weekend? He reaches out to have his fingers lightly caress my left cheek. Because you need me -- and no matter what is said, if you need me than I'm here.

What I need is for you to pick up the phone and call me. What I need is to hear your voice - your physical voice.

What about me - will I do? - says a very familiar British voice.

I turn and there is Ted, smiling -- he sits down on the other side of me and gives me a hug. I tell him that his voice will always work:)

All three of us sit and stare at the water. I comment - the words 'Remember The Titans' are coming to mind. You don't think that ---

Ted says - what can they do?

Bill replies - keep us apart longer.

I bury my head in my hands -- I'm thinking to myself that this is all I need, more stress. I'm a pressure cooker as it is. Both guys rub my back.

Jesus appears in front of us, bathed in the most splendid of white lights -- he's almost blinding. We get to our feet immediately. He motions for us to sit back down and we do.

I ask - are we in trouble?

Jesus smiles - no child, he says, there is only love where you three are concerned.

Bill gets that "I get it" look in his eyes and says - this was a test, wasn't it?

Ted mummers something like a British slang or two under his breath......

Jesus nods. Yes, and you passed. We knew that your love for one another was stronger than anything. But you had to know it too.

I chime in -- and now we do.

Jesus smiles (he has the most healing smile that I have ever seen).

I continue -- but what about Will?

Jesus gets serious and responds - you need to meet him, that was no test but a must. Too many souls depend on your physical connection. And these two (he nods to Bill and Ted) are to help you by sending connecting energy to the two of you -- this will help to facilitate a meeting by the end of the calendar year.

And this water -- I ask -- who is it supposed to represent?

Jesus says - you. See how the water moves into the rapids and into the calm waters? I nod. This is you now (points to the part before the rapids) over the next several weeks your life will move through the rapids and arrive into the calm. A test for you in the show of strength is among you. You will persevere.

And with that Jesus leaves.

Bill looks at me and asks - did you feel a shift in my energy lately? I reply - yes, as soon as you said that you had to break contact -- it was almost as if you had an "ah-ha" moment. He nods - that's because I did. I had a vision of making a higher connection with you - I saw the energies intertwine around one another.

Ted says - and I had a vision of the three of us in some sort of ancient attire, at an altar and it looked like one person was marrying us to one another.

In the distance I can hear my husband calling me -- he needs my help. I tell the men that I will see them later.

And I was done.

I'm drained today -- I could really use a nap. Too bad I have no time for one. Off to help the hubby.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Dream Visits, Bill, Change And An Interview!

Sometimes I just don't know and other times - I don't want to know. Why would I even bring that up? Because my son in all of his 6 year old wisdom said mommy - I know too much and my brain is gonna pop out my ears. You too? I said - yep -- but think how much it would hurt if we knew everything. Sometimes we don't know something -- to which he replied -- I just don't wanna know. I told him I understood.

I have clients who come to me repeatedly in a short span of time or I have new clients to come to me after talking to another 4 intuitives first. I always tell people, sometimes knowing too much makes things worse not better. Your brain can only absorb so much information and after that - it just sits there muddling up what is already there. Sometimes people listen to me - other times the schedule another reading right away or tell me they are going to try another psychic (eventually, someone will back up what another said and tell them what they want to hear).

My Mini Cooper S is just jamming along. It's nice to be in a dependable care with airbags. The car payment is worth the comfort of knowing my son is safer -- plus since I am directionally challenged (when I say left I usually mean right) the navigation system is helping me stay on track with that all-so female British voice.

Bill's over there in London-- at least that is where he's supposed to be. Part of me feels though that he either keeps hoping over to France or he's in France hoping over to London. I hope that he and Ted are able to spend some time together. Speaking of Ted - did I tell you that he's dating the She-Devil again? I think I did - but it still makes my blood boil.

Whispers Media is launching on Tues, Nov 14th - the same day I'm going to be on LA's 2nd largest radio station - 1500 am KKZZ (http://www.1590kkzz.com/showdj.asp?DJID=32743) with Maria Sanchez at 8:05 PST - 11:05 EST. I get to talk about WM --really looking forward to this!

I've had a couple of interesting dreams. Let me start with last night. I am in a room, waiting to get a consultation from Bill. He is going to go over my books and tell me what I need to fix in order for them to sell more. Now since he is a publisher in real life -this isn't too far fetched. I remember him joking it up with a blond-haired woman about her book - he runs off some copies for her. She leaves and I go back. He sees me and doesn't know quite what to make of me. I know that he knows "who" I am -- I can see it in his eyes. I look down at his very messy desk and I see the cover of my healers book - the one I'm not going to write in real life. I remember thinking - now how did he get that - it hasn't been released yet? Hell, I'm not even going to write it! We sat next to one another, very close, tension just oozed between us. Not a tension where you want to beat the crap out of someone - but the kind of tension where you're just dying to have the other person say or do something. He sat there - so damn serious like.

Finally I couldn't take it any longer. I say - you know who I am, don't you? He bites his lower lip, raises his eyebrows slightly and gives me that slight turn of the head with a nod. Are you okay with it - I ask? He nods. We go over the book - he mentions that the love book is missing numbers and text - told him that I'm on up and have already had it taken care of. He says if I was one up I would have caught it sooner. (Smart ass - but he's right). I look down at this piece of paper he has on this mess of a desk (in a mess of an office - with the copier right out side his office in the small hallway and the waiting room w/assistant just beyond that. I keep thinking that it is all painted in a light green like my bathroom) and he has contact information - one for books and the other for music if there are any more questions. No - I have no clue what it said. Then I woke up.

The night before - I can remember being in a hotel with a bunch of people. I was pushing a cart towards room number 455 - where my husband and I were told that we were to stay, by the man in charge. But when I look down at my key it says 355. He tells me that we have to hurry up and go to the other floor and put our stuff away (a good chunk of it was in the cart I pushed) as we had to be downstairs at 5:55 for a meeting. The rest of the group all stayed on the 4th floor while my husband and I had to go to the 3rd.

I decided to look up the numbers to see what messages I was getting:

355 - the ascended masters are helping, guiding, and supporting you during this time of significant change, which improves your life in new and miraculous ways.

455 - the angels guide and support you through a significant and much-needed life change. Trust and follow their guidance.

555 - major changes and significant transformations are here for you. You have an opportunity to break out of the chrysalis and uncover the amazing life you truly deserve.

I knew something was coming down the pike. And boy -- am I READY!

Sweet Dreams!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)