Dirk, Kevin And Dreams!

Psychiconair.com and the Maria Shaw went went great today. Looks to be that I'm in the 10:00 hour every Wednesday. Today I chatted about the Orgasm Enhancing Oil form the OBE blog, but we called it Lovemaking Oil - just to be PC on CBS:) I also chatted about Thyme oil and some other oils that help to give you energy.

Kevin. This is a guy who kept showing up in my dreams last night. I remember telling him that he was awful persistent. He replied that eventually his charm would win out and I'd speak to him - lol. We were in a bar - there were a lot of people and I was helping a few of them with readings. Kevin kept walking back and forth. He was tall - probably about 6'2", thin (but not rail thin) with reddish-brown hair and glasses. He said that he was perfect for me. I laughed and told him that I wasn't looking for perfect - but for someone who is good to my son and I, is loving, kind, encouraging and a friend who has to be secure enough in themselves not to feel threatened by my success or my relationship with my soul cluster. He smiled and said - that's me - see I AM perfect for you.

And that's all I can remember except for him massaging my shoulders - which felt really good. We'll see if he shows up again in my dreams and/of if I remember.

From Kevin we go to Dirk. He's still hanging around. But since he's good looking I really don't mind:) He keeps a very respectful distance. His energy doesn't interfere in any way - rather like it was with Will when he first showed up. Will - BTW - is here but not really here. His energy is always merged with mine, but he's busy working - not sure on what expect that it's creative. Between working he's resting - his energy feel exhausted as if he had just run a marathon. As far as I know Tracey's work with Will is finished and although I emailed over the weekend and asked how everything went - have the guys visited - etc...I have yet to hear back. So once I hear something I'll let you know.

My dreams were so busy last night - so much so that I am exhausted today. I'm sure my son not being home contributed to the busy night. He actually stayed with his dad last night - 1st time since Oct 2007. Any time he's away from me I have a hard time sleeping - this happens as well when I'm traveling for the psychic fairs. I don't remember waking up in between dream visits - but I can remember visiting person, after person and trying to help them. Maybe it just so happened that many people needed help last night and it had no baring on my son being gone? Or -- maybe I've hit that time where things are about to change in my life. We'll see tonight, If I'm exhausted again in the morning then there's more going on than me helping people -- change is in the air.

My son and I had fun on his birthday yesterday. We went to his favorite eatery and then to see WALL-E (which was a cute movie).

I doubt if I'll write again here in the blog this week with the 4th on Friday with my family coming down to visit. But if anything exciting happens, I'll be sure to update you:) I'm also not too sure when I'll get to another issue of the "Numerscope" or if I'll even get any "Ask Allie" columns for the next week done. It's major do stuff around the house time.

And on that note -- I have to go mow the lawn:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Dirk, Dreams And The CIA!

I'm trying to get some readings done this late morning, do the podcast and THEN write in this blog. But the powers that be keep bugging me to write about Dirk. Okay, I hear you - who's this one? Dirk is someone I met when I was 13 and it was (until my son was born) the #1 best moment of my life. Now Dirk shares spot #2 with Will. I've tried to move Dirk to #3, but it doesn't feel right to do. So there he stays - until Will calls, then maybe he'll move to #3:)

So Dirk is handsome - wonderful blue eyes, nice smile, very charming. Nothing ever romantic here - but I have always thought he was pretty darn hot. Age wise, he's now in his 60's - but again, he's still hot. Periodically over the last 28 years I've thought about him - nothing too intensive and usually not more than maybe a day at a time. But Sat., something happened that triggered my memory of him, and he's been right there ever since. Yesterday I realized two things about Dirk: 1) he influenced the way on why I do not eat out very often, once calling restaurants (especially fast food) as drive-thru cancer centers and 2) influenced my two trips to Montana (he lives there) and although I was with my ex - two of the next vacations I have ever had. I LOVE MT - even more than NYC or Calif.

Okay - why now - why is he "right there"? I don't get it. I keep getting flash visions of he and Will sitting there chatting and me being very nervous, yet flirting with both. I don't know why he's here - but Ethan said it was important for me to mention him in the blog, Iris is here too agreeing with him and saying for me to breathe deep. Why? Is something going to come out of left field? Quite possibility. Another vision I keep seeing is Dirk and I with papers around us discussing creative ideas.

I so wish visions came with a guide book -- not just the guide:) And I don't know how Dirk fits in with the whole soul cluster, soul group thing. He fits in some way - I just do not know how. Wow - what a sizzling energy I had zap through me (the kind that makes your skull tingle). If I find out anything else, I'll let you know. And Dirk, when you stop by this blog (and someday you will), let me know what you get of our connection.

Before you ask - Dirk is his real name. I was told to use it and that it would be okay to do so.

Dreams last night. One was me standing in line at the bank, trying to make a deposit - but there was only one teller working. Another one was messing around. She finally came over and another guy with 2 small kids cut in front of me. I looked over at him and said "excuse me" - he took a step back. I handed the woman the check and the deposit slip. She looked at it and said she'd be right back. The Bank Manager (a woman) came over and told me that this was a rather large check and would I met her at her desk. Okay -- I go over. We sit down and she proceeds to tell me that this is too much money to place in one account. That it would be good to put some in a savings, IRA, etc....I assured her I'd think about it after I deposited the check and paid off things. With what's left -I will spend some on fun stuff and put the rest away. I assured her that this was not my last big check so I wasn't worried about running out of money.

In this next dream, I was in a research facility. I had to go into someone's dream to help them out of a coma. But first I had to pass the "Dream Keeper" - a very scary looking dude in orange & black armor - you had to pass him in order to get into the Dreamscape. He was like a dream gatekeeper. He knew my energy signature, so they did not want to send me in 1st, Someone else had to go in and distract the DK. I keep getting this was in CIA. Anyways -- a woman put on a special dream helmet and laid down. She went to sleep and on a flat screen TV, it showed us what she was dreaming about. We could hear what was said, what she did -- and with the DK coming towards her (with a very loud and deep voice) I had to turn off the TV, as I was concentrating too much on DK - to do so would alert him that I was around. I didn't need a helmet to enter into this dream world - I sat back in a recliner - Will came over and told me to remember not to think about DK at all, or he will be drawn to me. I tell him - okay - he tells me to be careful -- and I go into the dream.

I am in a very dark area. I don't nee a flashlight as I can see quite well in little light. There are rocks, and smoke everywhere - the land is barren. I'm using all of my brain power on concentrating on this person I have to find. I can see a white light glowing up head to my left. I can hear crying - but I ignore it - moving straight towards the light something catches my eye over to the right. I look and it's Bill. I ask him what's he doing here? He replied that he thought I might need the help. As soon as he said that - it alerted DK and it showed up behind him - I screamed at Bill to wake up NOW. I woke myself up.

As I was lying there in my bed - heart pounding a million miles an hour...I wondered if Bill was lying in his bed doing the same? And would he remember what just happened? That was really interesting -- although DK scared the crap out of me.

Off to the store -- the kid is driving me crazy.

Okay - it is now dinner time and I'm finishing this up for now. I had to get caught up on my readings. My podcast - I hope - will be later tonight. The dinosaur show up in Cleveland was a lot of fun on Saturday and his party on Sunday was a blast. Tomorrow it's his actual birthday so I'm taking him to see WALL-E. We seem to see a Pixar flick every birthday. Then on Friday the family gathering with fireworks that evening.

I did see orange kitty today - I was relieved. His paw/leg still isn't healed - but it does seem to look better. Mr. Client Guy called today too - didn't have a lot of time to talk with the kid's phone radar, but at least we chatted - so that was good.

As of today the kid and I have been on our own for a year! Yay! I always knew I could do it - but knowing and then doing are two separate things. I give great thanks that the Universe has always had my back - and will continue to do so! It hasn't been easy - but I am very grateful for the experience. Besides - I'm much better off today (mentally, emotionally and spiritually) than I was a year ago.

Have a great evening!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Odd, Ends And Me Bitching!

I hope my brain doesn't fall out over the next two weeks. Seriously - I hope not. The kid is home with me for the next two weeks and if they go like this last week did - I'm in trouble. He's really pushing those boundaries and that mouth --- talk about having to count backwards from 100 so I wouldn't kill him. And he's grounded - from everything that he loves (that usually keeps him out of my hair as I work) - which in turn is punishing me. But - I can't give in -- and I won't.

Phase one with Nickelodeon is complete - and the project passed. Now we have to go to phase two and pass through a test in person (not me in person but my Rep's) - and this will not happen until everyone is back from their vacations. We're looking at the week of the 14th. Fingers crossed for that:) I've done my own tarot reading on it and it looks really good. Hopefully I didn't put too much of "me" into the reading and skewed the results.

I feel like I'm in a big void of nothing. I have all of this stuff that I need to do - but no excitement to do it. All of the waiting I've had to do for a variety of things has zapped my "want to do something" mood. I need something to shake loose somewhere. Whether it's my non-existent love life (yes folks, I do believe I have scared off another person and this one already knew all about me), stalled career or beyond hilarious - getting me very stressed out - money situation - something has to move forward. I know something will have to move because change is inevitable - but come on already. Frustration doesn't do well for my complexion.

Yes, I do believe another man has gone running in the opposite direction. SIGH. And no, I have no idea what happened. One second everything was fine - the next nothing. I guess that I'm just not supposed to be with anyone for now. Maybe someone WILLed Mr. Client Guy away? I have no idea. But it doesn't set well with what self-esteem I do have left. I just can't wrap my head around my good for nothing ex having a happy love life - when I can't seem to get a guy interested for more than 2 weeks. UGH!!!

Okay - enough of me whining -- moving on...

The kid and I are heading up to Cleveland soon with my mom to see a dinosaur show up at the "Q" (which is where are Cavalier's play) in a couple of hours. Should be a nice outing. Hopefully the weather won't be too disagreeable and make driving a big hassle. Tomorrow is my son's kid party - should be fun.

Will's been around more than usual the last couple of days. It's been nice to see his face in my mind's again. The two scenarios that keep flashing through my mind are he, my son and I walking into a building where there is a doorman and he knows my kid and I as we live there -- he also knows that Will is a frequent guest. The other scene I see is Will, the kid and I in a small Italian restaurant sharing a pizza -- we're laughing about something. Both scenes are uplifting and positive. I rarely ever have a bad scene with Will in it. Even the fight visions I get aren't that bad because the make up sex is well worth the fighting:)

Speaking of sex - with Tracey's healing on Will the sexual energy clog that he's had is certainly cleared up. His energy has let me know that he's feeling much better.

Either Bill or Will has been doing a lot of blog checking lately. Not sure which one as both of their energies are strong right now. Could be both - don't know.

An odd last dream last night/this morning --- I was in my house, and my cats were chasing something. It looked like a small dragon - but I thought it was a frog - it had red spots. My cat Cera really kept bothering it. I finally got all of my cats into my bedroom and shut the door so that I could find this little creature and put it outside before it was eaten. I find it -- and what is it - but a tiny cat. Like it got put into a shrinking ray or something. It's a long-haired white cat with reddish & black spots. It looks at me and just lets out the biggest meow! I picked it up and it sits in the palm of my hand, just being as vocal as can be. Now I'm thinking - what in the heck am I going to do with this cat so that my other cats don't kill it? I put it in a an open dresser drawer and think about getting a very large bird cage to put it in. I call my mom to ask what I should do and I wake up.

I just went outside to let my dogs do their business when that butterfly who tried to run into me before - tried it again. It sees me and it's like I'm a magnet. Very strange. I saw orange kitty a few days ago - his front left leg was looking really bad -- and he hasn't been back since.

Off to go get some writing done and then heading up to Cleveland!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Psychiconair.com, Atlantis, Crystal Skulls And The Guys!

My weekly segment on the Maria Shaw show on CBS Psychiconair.com & AOL, went great! I was on right about 10:00 am EDT and stayed there till about 10:15-10:20. Good times!

I can feel it -- change is in the air. And it's strange - because when I can sense there is a change, I get a metallic taste in my mouth. I think my son can sense it too because he's been all over the board with his emotions and we're both getting headaches. Neither one of us has has one in awhile. Of course they could (and his super surplus of energy) can also be a byproduct of Tracey's healing on Will. What affects Will effects me -- and what affects me effects my son since he is an energetic sponge. Both the kid and I are back to not sleeping too -- something else that happens when change is near.

So change already! Of course I really mean it if it's a good change and only kinda mean it if the change is bad. But either way change is bound to happen at some point in time.

Between my hyper son, the storms, animals, writing and work -- it hasn't left me a whole lot of time to write in my blogs or even work on my screenplays. Hopefully with my son going with his dad a few hours tonight I'll be able to buckle down on some writing!

Speaking of my son - again - I can't believe that he'll be 8 next Tuesday -- 8! It feels like yesterday that they yanked him out of my body:) He brought up Will the other day. We were talking about NYC and how we both really want to go back sooner, rather than later. And he mentioned something about Will and going with us to the Central Park Zoo. I can't remember what my comment was, but that sent us to talking about Will having a girlfriend. The kid went off the charts talking about that. He was so pissed that Will may or may not (you know, the on again off again stuff) still have his girlfriend. I tried to explain that Will's can have a GF, just like Bill or Ted and his wife -- even I can have a BF. He wasn't going for that either -- kept going on about how Will and I are supposed to be together and how no one else will do -- etc....it took me about 30 min to calm him down. Again - not sure how we got from Central Park Zoo to that -- but I will be mindful not to go down that path with him.

And before you ask - I am still smitten my Mr. Client Guy. Too bad we're not in the same state right now.

Remember all of my tomatoes and peppers that I planted? Most of them are gone -- killed by the hail storm last weekend. Dang it all!

Since Will has been getting the healing/attunement energy from Tracey - he has been popping in often - but he doesn't stay long. It's in - saying he's sorry - and them leaving again. Yesterday he popped in and said he's sorry and then said that I'm hard headed, stubborn and won't give up. I replied - hell no I'm not going to give up - I do not want to repeat the same lessons again. And that's what's going to happen to all of us if you don't snap out of it! He smiled and said - I'm working on it, thank you for not leaving me. And he was gone.

Leave him -- like I could ever do that? Like I would ever want to do that -- no matter how insane he makes me. Same goes for Bill and Ted. No matter when, what or why - if they ever need me - for anything I'd be there for them. Psychically, spiritually or both. They are right on the outskirts of my energy - always are - when I have a lot of work to do (and they do this too) I keep them at arms length. Once they're "in" (so to speak) they are there for awhile -- and then it's hard to work. I am still learning how to tap into their energy as a muse. Especially Will. He's my muse.

My dreams last night were really funky. As soon as I finally dozed off about 1:00 am they started and continue until I got up at 5:45 am. Ted and I were in a multi-level building that he and I had been in several times before. Cars drove up and down steep ramps. Offices were all along the sides. He and I were fighting about getting him into a treatment center. He was drunk off his ass - being a bully and expecting me to back down. I told him that I loved him and that I wasn't going anywhere. Something clicked right then and there and he started crying -- big sobs -- on how screwed up his life is and he can't find the road back. I told him that he can see the light, because he sees me. And to hold onto that light. I won't let him go and neither will Bill or Will -- but he has to trust us. Ted said that he doesn't even trust himself so how can he trust us? I replied - because we're your eternal partners and we love you unconditionally. Something happened in the background as he was gone and I was off to the next segment.

Which brought me to Bill. He was in the center of a HUGE library -- reminded me of the NYC library my son and I saw. Any ways - Bill grabs my hand and takes me to a far corner. He moves a few books around and a secret door opens. Without waiting for me to say anything - he yanked me in and the door shut behind us. I smelled an overwhelmingly scent of mold - like I was stuck inside of a 200 year old basement. The air was stale and heavy. I asked where were were and Bill flips on a flashlight - puts it under his chin to illuminate his face and raises his eyebrows up and down (what a goof). He then shines it around and I can see shelves of very-very old books and a dusty old table in the center of the room. He is looking at the title on the shelves and pulls out a leather bound book. I recognize it immediately as the book he carries in my Atlantis visions. I say - so this is where you found the book? He replied, it's tucked away in a secret location and only the ones who should find it will find it. I look more closely at it - and the ink is very faded, the pages so darn old I don't know how they've survived this long. There's mold on the book - Bill says he is taking it with him and will try to get the book restored so we can use it. I ask if I can look through it -- he said that Will needs to hurry up - I tell him that Will is not here and let me see than dang book.

I carefully flip through the pages and one with skulls on it catches my eye. There is a map, looks to be through a pyramid, and it illustrates the places where one would find a skull embedded into the walls - you are to follow the pattern until it dead ends. Then there are numbers like:

3 9
7 21
9 981

We hear a noise, Bill takes the book, shoves it down the front of his pants - I joke and ask if he's sure he has room in there for that? He gives me that smile and he's gone. On to the next segment.

I find myself among large Redwoods. I stare up in amazement of their size and sheer beauty. I can't help but go over and lightly rub my hand on the bark. A voice startles me -- they're beautiful aren't they? I turn and it's Will. I comment that they are magnificent. He replied that he envies these trees - they are strong, mighty and have survived regardless to what us humans have done to the world around them. I asked him, why did you bring us here? He sits at the base of the tree and pats the ground in front of him. I sit in front of him. between his legs - he wraps his arms around me and pulls me to his chest. For this -- he said. All I want is to do this. I smile and completely relax in his arms. I don't know if it's possible to fall asleep within a dream, but I swear we did for the next thing I know he was gone, it was dark and I see a light in the distance -- so I go towards it.

Now I'm with a group of people I don't know in a bar, drinking some serious beers down. A friend of mine shows up and we decide to go out for pizza. On the way out we run into a group of wealthy people - one looks like the actor Richard Hatch (Not Survivor - think Battlestar Galactica) - but it isn't him. This guy is much taller (6'5") and very thin. This guy for some reason takes a liking to me -- but his friends want to go so they all leave. My friend and I head out for pizza, but instead wind up at this huge house that has been in my dreams before. She tells me that she can't go anywhere because -- then all of this stuff falls out of her butt, onto the ground -- well, of a small problem she developed. So she leaves to clean up - I'm in this bathroom -- and I decide to go potty. So I sit down to poo, but I don't take my panties down until I'm 1/2 done and then I remember - duh! So I do and I shake out meatball shape/size, rock solid, poos from my panties and dump them into the toilet. As I'm doing that and finishing my business, someone stops into say hi - we chat and they leave. I still have poo to remove and as I'm dumping them into the toilet, it turns into a bathtub -- and launches me into this OBE sex experience.

When I was done in the tub, I'm running down this double wide staircase to the 1st floor, running behind the staircase to a bedroom when the front doorbell rings. Next to me is the same person who was talking to me as I was on the toilet. I tell her to get the door - she's like no way, it's for you anyways. So I run to the door, putting my t-shirt on as I go. When I open the door, there's the wealthy man from earlier. I smile and become all flirty. He does the same. Then oddly he hands me this big set of keys that are on a variety of key chains, all connected. I asked why? He points to this green bear (looked like a small emerald bear) keychain and said if I ever need the key, here it is. The key to what - I was baffled. He said - the morgue. If I ever need to get someone out, this is what I need to use to gain access. The rest of the keys - he said - I would have to figure out on my own, but they were all important. With that he was gone and I woke up.

What an odd series of dream visits. Why would I have to get someone out of a morgue? And the green bear pendant on that keychain was so green and vibrant.

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Ted, Bill, Will And Tracey!

Finally -- I woke up this morning with this email waiting for me...

Hi, Allie. I went to bed and set the intention for a dream visit. I had a dream visit with Bill. We were on an airplane together. He had all these papers he was working on - lots of paperwork. He said, see how busy I am and yet I have time to meet with you. I said yes. He told me he was pissed at Will because he is not answering him - not responding. He said he had a solution to that - he would just get in his face until he answers.

I asked him where we were going and he said where else? NYC. I said okay. He told me he was going to keep on bugging Will until he got mad - angry - cried or something.

So, the plane lands. A limo is waiting and Ted is leaning against it waiting on us. He comes over and helps Bill with his bags. He goes to take Bill's brief case thingie and Bill says no let me keep this.

We get in the limo and Ted says, want a drink? Bill says no! And, we need to talk about the drinking. Ted rolls his eyes while making himself a drink. He tells Ted that he cannot take watching him kill himself. Ted says he's going to be around forever and not to worry about it. Bill tells Ted he needs to look in the mirror as he looks like shit - looks like he's aged 10 years. Ted says he's not stopping and doesn't want to talk about it or else they will just fight. Bill says okay.

We get to this hotel. Its a really nice one - we check into the hotel. Bill asks me where my bags are and I said I did not bring any as I did not think I was staying. He says, no problem, here is my credit card. Get some stuff from the shops on the first floor and meet us in our room which is room number 311. I say okay. I go to the shops down there and buy some clothes, toiletries, etc.

I go into the bathroom and get in a stall and call you on your cell phone to tell you what is going on so far. You tell me not to let Bill go off on Will as Will is not going to respond well to it anyway and they will just butt heads and nothing will get accomplished. I say okay. I hang up. I go up to room 311.

I get there and Bill is on the phone arguing with someone about speaking to Will. Ted rolls his eyes at me and says are we having fun yet, wanna go to the bar? Bill is half listening and he shakes his head no - to me - so that I say no. I tell Ted no, lets just stay in and have a drink. He says okay lets go on the terrace.

Then Bill hangs up and comes out onto the terrace and takes our drinks and empties them over the side of the terrace. He says to Ted - I mean it - STOP. Bill goes into the bathroom. Ted grabs my hand and starts pulling me out of the room. I am thinking to myself how do you say no to these guys! So, we go down to the bar. We are sitting there a few minutes and Will walks in.

He sits next to us. He says call Bill and tell him to come down here. We can talk here as long as he can be civil.

We call Bill and he comes down. So, he tells Will that he's not going to yell or argue but that he is angry with him. He's angry because he's not answering his calls and angry because he did not show up for the meeting - he's angry because he's hurting Allie.

Will says that he is sorry that his actions are hurting Allie, that it is the last thing he would want to do. He tells Bill the truth is he is freaked out - not sure what to do - he's angry and upset because Allie is seeing someone. He's deeply hurt by it and he feels that perhaps Allie is happy without him.

Bill cuts him off and says - save it Will - go get the girl - get over yourself - what are you, a pus? She met someone - so what - go and get her - stop pouting like a baby! He tells him that he does not blame Allie for seeing someone since Will is afraid of his own shadow and will not come forward. He tells Will he needs to deal with his fears and insecurities and stop thinking and start acting.

Will says that he's struggling right now with all of this - and Bill say boo hoo - Will - do something or everyone loses - this is on you!

Then Will says no it was on you and you did not do anything and now you want me to and I am just trying to process my feelings and decide what is best for me!

Bill says - you are so stubborn and hard headed - and analytical - and just annoying - and Will says well look in the mirror -everything that annoys you about me is within you!

Bill laughs. Will says he has something he wants Bill to look at and Bill says funny I have something I want you to look at. So, we go back to the room. They are comparing information from your website but I can't see what it is. Then Will says - right, that makes sense. That's what I will do then and I will see you next week. He leaves. Bill smiles and Ted and I look at each other like WTF?

I wake up.

I can vaguely remember talking on my cell in the dream and that it had something to do with Will - but I don't remember who I was talking to. I can also remember Will walking across a hotel lobby and Bill with a stack of papers. Seems almost as if I was looking in on it - but I really don't remember any of it (maybe because I wasn't supposed to be in the meeting?)

I looked up 311 in my angel number book and it says: The ascended masters are helping - and urging - you to keep your mind focused on creating and manifesting at the highest level of light and love. Avoid addictive behaviors as they mask your desire to create.

Interesting message to the 3 men - don't you think?

I know that Will is upset with my new interest, but it's not like I'm marrying the guy tomorrow.

I can feel that a dam is about to break - in a good way - but I'm not sure if it deals with my personal or professional life -- or both. I'm just ready for something to move forward:)

Off to get moving on the day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill And Will With A Sprinkle Of Ted!

I'm not mechanically inclined. Try as I might -- I just can't figure out how things go together unless the instructions are ironclad. Well, the direction for my fan were not that straight forward. What would have taken my ex maybe 10 min, took me almost 40. But -- I did get it together - so for that I have to give myself a pat on the back.

I also have a horrendous tooth ache I'm battling. Getting my 1st cavity at 38, I'm not used to mouth trouble. But this tooth is just killing me! Well, it's not just a tooth, it in loves 1/2 my jaw. Now I realize part of the problem is that I clench my teeth as I sleep and I've used one of those store bought guards for awhile (a dentist made one is way out of my price range) -- but dang. I think part of my filling came out. They couldn't get me in to see he dentist till next Thursday. So until then I'm a crying and popping Tylenol. But Goddess..this thing REALLY hurts!!

With my tooth and the "kick me in the ass" pain - I can't eat. It hurts to eat or drink - unless everything goes through a straw. Plus - it hurts to talk. That's a bummer on so many levels. Not exactly sure about the podcast tomorrow - if I do one it may be really-really short.

(The above I wrote on Friday)

Today - Tuesday - I'm going to the dentist -- they had a cancelation!

(Below - This dream visit I tried to write about on Sunday)

I had a dream visit last night with Bill, Will and Ted. I entered the dream in a long hallway with high arches. Everything looked to be made from moonstone and marble. There were quartz crystal sconces on both sides of the hall - no visible flame or light bulb, but they glowed anyways and lit the way. Bill came running out of a doorway - stopped - looked at me and flashed me his million dollar smile. What are you up to? I asked? Nothing at all - he replied.

But I knew he was full of it -- something was up.

Bill commented - You're going to love NYC! I'm sure I will - I replied - any idea when I'll be there? He laughed - sooner than you think. He grabbed my hand and started to pull me down the hall. I'm like - where are we going? He said - any place but here.

Which of course made me think - why?

Then I knew why -- Will came out of a door. Will looked down and us and shouted - Hey!

I gave Bill that "look" - like shame on you.

Then those two started yelling at one another - oh good lord the cuss words. Finally I said (and I remember this line crystal clear) -- both of you shut the fuck up!

Startled they both looked at me -- I kept yelling: what do I look like - a piece of property you two can barter over, decide who I will be with -- talk to me as if I wasn't here when I'm standing right here! That's it -- I pick Ted.

The look on their faces was simply priceless. You can't do that -- Bill said. And who in the hell made you team captain? I yelled back. I'm the oldest soul Bill replied - that's why. Wrong - oh wrong -- I said, Will is. You're wrong - said Will. Am not - I said. Yes you are - we're the oldest soul - Will said.

Roll of the eyes -- whatever. I pick Ted. And when I roll over morning, noon or night and look into those scrumptious green eyes -- I will not be thinking of either if you.

He's married - Will said. Today he is -- but it's Ted, give him a few more months, a year tops.

Where's Tracey - Bill said. Not here - I replied -- and I'm outta here. Bye boys.

A look of sheer terror came over them.

I woke up and smiled. They have no clue who they're messing with -- but they'll catch on.

And on that note - off to the dentist I go...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Bill And Tracey Part 2!

I told you I was waiting for an email from Tracey. With as much sleep as I did not get last night I just knew they were there with her. So I emailed Tracey and told her she was killing me keeping me wondering what's going on. Here's her reply:


How in the heck do you always know what will happen. I have not had ONE WINK of sleep tonight! Not one!

So here is the break down.....

11:30 PM - Bill pops in - are you available? and I say yes! He says good. He is going to get with Ted and make sure he can meet us at 12:00 PM - he wants me in my meditation room.........

12:00 PM - Bill again! Ted is there too! No Will! Bill says, okay - here is the deal - I need to talk to Will but I need you there for the energy support - and I need Ted there for moral support and to calm me down if I get crazy again! Ted says, me? I am crazier than you! Bill says, this is serious - Ted says, I am serious - Bill says stop drinking the rest of the night - Ted says how about pot? Bill - says nothing! Ted - says - I can't do that! Bill says grow up - Ted say no! (I feel like I am watching a ping pong match with adolescents) Bill says brb let me get Will in here.....

Ted asks me what I think of Will. I tell him I like him but I want him to come forward for Allie. Ted says he does not really like him for you (Allie) but if she (Allie) wants him then he will help. I said well thats what is important then.

12:10 PM Bill is back, Will won't be ready until 2:30 AM, Ted rolls his eyes, Bill gives him the finger and I just say okay see you then.

2:30 AM Bill is back, Ted is back, no Will - Bill and Ted have select words - Bill says Will was involved in something important (didn't say what) and that maybe he was running late - he would meet back at 2:45 am Ted says this is such b.s.

2:45 AM Bill is back, Ted is not there, Will is late by 5 minutes - Bill apologizes for his outbursts, Will accepts apologizes for his - Bill tells him someone needs to come forward - Will agrees - He says that he is not sure he is ready - tells Bill this is a lot to digest - to understand - to trust - and that he's having a hard time with it all - and has been feeling like he's crazy, second guessing himself - the whole situation - is nervous, scared, skeptical - Bill asks him to meet with he and I and possibly Ted once a week this month about this and Will says okay - Bill asks him if he thinks by the end of this month if he will know one way or the other what he will do - and Will says yes he thinks so. Bill says fair. Then Bill tells me that he is going to take Will to the places we have already been - back in time - and throughout the various meditation visions - the ones with me, the ones with Allie - and that he won't make me go again. I say thanks! :) He and Will shake hands - Bill puts his arm around Will - and they kind of step over something I cannot see and they are gone.

5:00 AM - Bill is back - Wanted me to know Ted passed out drunk and high.....I said that figures - lol - and he said - well, it was okay anyway, I say yes. He says Ted will meet with us....and he will coordinate the when each week - and that next week it may be tuesday or thursday....I say okay let me know - he says he thinks Will will step up. I say good. He says when I get your bill its going to be big! I say no its free but can I go to sleep now? He said yeah and that he thought he could sleep now. He kissed me on the cheek, gave me a hug and he was gone.

And there you go...the saga contiunes.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Bill and Tracey!

My lower body is fricken killing me. And no, I didn't get lucky last night. I had karate yesterday - twice. My private lesson and then the lesson with my son. In the morning I was flipping people and learned a new kick - had a blast. In the evening my son flipped me a few times and he learned the kick I did that morning as well as both of us learning a few moves. Last night when I went to bed - no problems at all.

Getting out of bed proved to have it's own set of problems. I was like - WTF? Wow -- what a difference a day makes. My son and I are taking the summer off from karate - he thinks it's to give us a break - but actually its to pay for his eye therapy and other things he wants to do this summer. Plus his 8th birthday is July 1st (I can't believe he'll be that old!).

Of course this morning I couldn't believe how old I felt! HA!

I woke up at 2:58 last night and couldn't go back to sleep for about an hour. Will and Bill are rummaging around and keeping me awake. When I woke up I knew I had just come from seeing them - but I don't know what happened. I asked Iris to clue me in and she said that it's better if I don't consciously know what was said. To me that sounds like I'd be really pissed if I knew. But I was awake, and trying to fall back to sleep kept bring up images of those two fighting. I finally feel asleep in time to wake back up again.

I emailed Tracey Monday night and told her to watch out for the two of them - I just had this feeling....she emailed me back and said that Bill already visited her Sat night in the midst of a Reiki session and then woke her up with a start Tuesday morning at 5:00 am CDT. I write back to say that I woke up at 6:00 am EDT with a start - we both knew it was Bill. She told Bill to go away both times, as she was busy -- I told her he'd be back. She wrote me back twice yesterday:

Well, Allie, I went back to sleep and I guess I must have been in a coma because I just woke up. So, surprise no more because they both visited me in my dream.First, Bill and I are in this office with a long table. We are sitting at the end of the table. There is a large window at the end of the office.

Bill tells me that has pissed off because he stepped back to allow Will to come forward and the bastard (his words not mine) has not come through. So, he wants me to sit in on a meeting with Will. He tells me he has called him in under the pretense of talking to him about a business opportunity. I say okay - so what am I to do? He says, you are my assistant - here....and he hands me a laptop. I say okay?

He says the plan is confrontation time. Either he will come forward with Allie or I will. I am tired of waiting around on this. I tell him okay. (Its obvious he's in charge)

It was ten minutes to eleven in the dream and Will was to be there at eleven. At ten minutes after eleven we get a call on the speaker phone that he's on his way to the conference room. At eleven, eleven he arrives.

He comes in and shakes Bill's hand and Bill introduces me and Will shakes my hand and stares at me for a long time and says, okay, what's going on? He is looking at me!

Thankfully Bill says, Well, Will, (very condescendingly) here's the deal. I stepped back from Allie. to allow you to move forward and you are not coming forward so to put it bluntly ...... WTF is your problem and are you going to show up or not?

Will, looks stunned - and then he says, you know, Bill, (condescendingly) I don't owe you an F'ing explanation. Bill says I think you do! I am the captain of this team!

Will says well, then I quit! Bill says you can't quit, you idiot! Will says well, I am not sure what I am doing. Bill says, clearly! (condescendingly)

Then Will goes silent - and Bill does a lot of yelling - with lots of F words...........Bill tells me to leave the room. I feel like he's about to get physical with Will.............so, I leave.........

I hear all kinds of fighting - finally Will pipes in with some choice words!

Then Will leaves and slams the door. He kisses me on the cheek and walks down the hall to the elevator and gets in.

Bill opens the door abruptly - and looks at me laughs and smiles and says, I win - and I wake up!

Tracey was confused as to what it meant to "win" here. I told her that one or the other would be back to give her more of a clue. I also told her that indeed Bill and Ted stepped back awhile ago to let Will in. Later on I got my second email:

Well, I could not stay awake. I took another nap.

This time I just got Bill - he said that he has worked out things with Will - he says the issue with Will is that he does not understand all of this fully! (geesh)

So, Bill said that he and Will have to calm down and sit down again. He thinks that he may have let his anger take control and then things got out of control. He's going to let me know when - he's sick of everyone being busy. He feels like he cannot get through to everyone he wants to talk to. He said he wants Ted there too.

He feels like you (Allie) have pulled back and he does not like that because he's afraid that you are giving up and he's afraid you are right that if someone does not step up everyone loses. He also wants you to know his girlfriend is dispensable and he smiled.

He seemed much more calm. He said he is going to stop drinking caffeine again (while he was smoking) and he's going to take a nap. He has not slept in over 24 hours. He's also going to create a less intimidating place to meet. So, he told me to be on the look out for something different and unique!

I had told Tracey that once one of them showed up to tell them that one better step up and soon or no one will need to bother making all of us have to repeat this lesson in the next life -- and let me tell you if that happened I will make sure they have to really - really work to get to me.

Now I'm just waiting for another email from her as I'm sure they showed up last night. The poor girl - she is going to be soooo tired.

Speaking of tired - DREAMERS still isn't where it needs to be. It's the dialogue -- I can't get it. To me it sounds natural - but to everyone else it doesn't. Maybe I just talk weird:) Back to the drawing board on that. Still working on that treatment for the Nick show. Fingers crossed here for me guys -- some light to help me unlock any creativity that is stuck would greatly be appreciated.

I'm on Psychiconair.com and/or AOL today on the Maria Shaw Show in the 11:00 hour to talk about OBE sex and some love magic. Tonight I will be on Global Psychics http://globalpsychics.com from 8 - 9 pm EDT to discuss gypsy magic and do on air psychic readings!

And on that note -- I'm back to work!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Dreams, Death, The 1920's And The Crystal Skulls!

This is the 2nd time I've tried to write this post. The first time - when I was almost done - my computer crashed and I lost it. That's how my day has been moving along. Two steps forward and three back. So being pissed at losing my last entry - I took a long break before I tried this again. Plus -- all day I have not been able to post to my blogger account. I've had to switch to the blog being hosted on blogger and then switch back to it being hosted on gypsyadvice in order for anything to show up. What I've been trying to do today is find another blog template for Allie's Two Cents. This one bores me to tears. I wasted half the day looking around and trying to find one that would work with blogger & my site (and yes, I did a search for blogger templates - but they have to be the classic style and not XML) and I gave up. I have been thinking of switching it al over to Word Press since it is a better platform all the way around. It's just going through all the steps of setting up the blog and then transferring all of the current content over (as I say a little prayer).

The last dream I had this morning was my ex husband #2 and I in an airplane that looked like the Enterprise from Star Trek. In the "captains" chair sat a man - I have no idea who he was as I never saw his face, only heard his voice. The windshield of the plane has a shield over it so we could not see outside. It felt like we were flipping back and forth - the man told my ex that he has to get over there and fly the plane. He said no - he can't do it. The man said that he had to - my ex was frantic - couldn't fly the plane. I could feel us spiraling down, he still wouldn't take the controls. I tried talking him into it - but he never would listen to me, so he didn't here either. Next thing I know the shield slid open and I could see the rapidly approaching runway. The inside of this plan was now a Cessna - with someone in the pilot & co pilot seat. Behind them sat my two sisters, behind them my mom and my son, and lastly - my ex and I. I hear the instrument warnings go off. I glance out the window and see the runway under us. I brace for impact -- which was rough and bounced the plane all over the place. I heard a voice yell to slam the brakes as the end of the runway was coming up. I leaned so that I could see and we were at the end of the runway. My son reached his hand back, I grabbed it, We all ducked and closed our eyes. I could feel something go through us. The pain - also went right through me. I could hear the fire trucks coming towards us. My dog Brodie barks and wakes me up - I yell at him to shut up and I fall back to sleep. I open my eyes to see what's going on and I'm outside the plane. The plane is totaled. It's smashed. I know I'm dead. I look around and no one else from the plane is with me - so I figure they are all still alive. As I I move towards the plane, time speeds up so that when I get to the plane everyone is on a stretcher and being carried out. They are trying to revive me. I sense someone next to me -- they tell me that I have to go back. I don't want to. She says that I must -- then she adds in, do you want your ex to raise your son -- good point. You still have a lot of work to do - you need to assemble the council. The council? I ask. She says - you'll figure it out. Next thing I know I'm opening my eyes in my body - I do feel the pain now -- and that pain causes me to wake up.

Now - I laid there for awhile and thought about this dream. The first part felt like I was in my ex's dream. My family was his family for so long that it doesn't surprise me that he would have had them in his dream. When the dog woke me up I glanced at the clock - it would of been time for my ex to wake up for work. So when I feel back to sleep his dream had shifted to my dream. I wish I could remember who the woman was -- I feel she was Iris, but when I ask Iris, she doesn't say anything. It wasn't a dream that worried me or scared me when I finally woke up - just the opposite really. I got the message that I have something important to do and no matter what comes my way - I have to do it. Push ahead and persevere.

I just got an email with the subject heading "Update your penis". Snicker. What would I do if I had one? Stick the tip into the USB port and download something new and amazing? LOL. Spam -- it cracks me up.

Monday night I had a past life dream of the 1920's. It took place in NYC (as all of my past life 1920 vision have) in a Speakeasy. I was in a far corner at a table with two socialites - we were discussing money - main I was giving them a reading on how to advance their fortunes. Bill and Ted were a couple of tables over. An alarm went off - the Feds were here to raid the place. Within seconds the booze was gone - I heard a bunch of bottles drop. I knew that they were swimming in the sewer system. By the time the Feds got in, it looked like a respectable diner. After they came in, Will pushed through the crowd. He might of been a Fed - but just the feeling I got was that he played both sides of the fence. He walked right over to me and grabbed my arm. Bill and Ted stood up. I had a flash vision of this place being turned into a blood bath - so I quickly told the guys to sit down, I'll go with him. As Will lead me from the place -- I woke up.

Both nights I can remember fragments of dream visit with the crystal skulls. In each dream the skulls were present, as well as a very large waterfall and a crystal & stone temple. I can see myself going into a cave, crossing an underground river. But I can't remember any more than that.

Also Sawyer showed up -- we argued about what we were going to go see. I wanted to check out some island - he said he had enough of those - lol. So I suggested going back to the past and looking around - oh no, he wanted to move to the future. I suggested another planet - he wanted another galaxy. So what did we end up doing? Sitting at a bar during the 1940's and drinking some strong shit.

I'm surprised lately how much of an effort Ted is making to telepathically communicate with me. He's been asking - are you there? Have you left? When can I see you? Ramblings on about how crazy his wife is (hell, I could have told him that). I've told him not to be such a stranger and he promises that he won't be. He said that he feels stronger when his energy is connect to mine - I tried to explain why, but he was gone.

I had a moment yesterday where I felt Will link to me and through his eyes I could see him looking at my business card. It gave my energy field a nice rush:)

What else happened? Oh - yesterday I was sitting on the potty doing my thing, when an upper tooth on my left side started to ache (again - an ongoing problem) I asked for some help here - I have no time for pain. I sensed Archangel Michael on my left - then my friend Dave showed up. He told Archangel Michael that he's take care of this. I got so emotional when Dave showed up - I have no clue why. But I could feel his hand over my left cheek with my left cheek getting very hot. It was all very cool (so to speak). He and I chatted a bit - told him thanks. And I could of sworn he tried to hug me but he went right through -- a very funky feeling. My tooth did feel much better.

Off to hopefully get my shower and then call it an early evening. I got my changes back for THE BLACK TRIANGLE and I have some work to get going on starting tomorrow.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Where Do I Begin?

This week has been well -- a learning experience to put it mildly. My son's pediatrician called me and asked me if I knew about the letter that he got from the school. I said that yes, I knew that they were sending one out. But have you read it? The Dr. asked (mind you this man has never called my house). I said no - I had not. He said - well I'll have my nurse make a copy - you really should read it. Okay - I'll stop down after I take my son to the eye doctor. Fine.

Now at the eye doctor I thought this was going to be a routine examine and he would need glasses. He had complained that he couldn't see the board. But oh no - nothing routine about it. Come to find to that they think he has: Convergence Insufficiency. Which means (doc definition): a sensorimotor anomaly that affects the binocular visual system and is characterized by an inability to adequately coverage or sustain coverage for visual tasks at near. So -- my son has to work 10x as hard to read what is in front of him than the normal child. When I told the doc that he is at a 3rd grade reading level she couldn't believe it. Usually children with this do not like to read and fall way behind. I always knew he was smart:) So -- I have to take him in for a series of tests and then start him on visual therapy.

Moving on...

Stopped at the pediatricians' office and got a copy of the letter. It is two pages of what kind of monster my son is. And I mean monster. Two pages of rotten, horrible things that have been taken grossly out of context and not one kind word about the boy. Labels were stuck all over him without actually putting a label on. I'm not exaggerating at all - I showed this to a few people and they couldn't believe it. The doctor said this was the 1st of its kind in his office in over 40 years of practice. My kid's an empath with a heightened sense of awareness. But no one here gets that. So......just to rule out that his brain isn't @ucked up - now he has to go see a neurologist for a consult. If it warrants it - then testing. But I am really going to have to be convinced before any tests are run.

SIGH. Which brings me to...

School. I don't want him to go back there. If that is how they view my boy - the hell with them. I talked to my son about home school. He jumped all over it. In fact - he's been wanting me to do that since Kindergarten. I told him that he wouldn't see his friends at school. He said mom, you're my only friend. That broke my heart. Then he launched in to how the kids make fun of him and call him weird. We all know how cruel children can be -- and my son is ultra sensitive - doesn't help him being a Cancer. So I looked into home schooling and discovered that Ohio has a public school online. It's a virtual public charter school. It costs me nothing - and they send the school books, supplies and a computer if we needed it. Plus he has teachers online and I would be a teacher assistant. This follows the K12 program which is supposed to be top notch.

Last year Tracey did a reading for me which in it said that once Will was in our lives that my son would not be learning in a conventional manner. It doesn't matter where in the world we are located - we just have to log into the computer on a school day before 11:59 pm to complete the assignments. So for traveling - this is great.

But how do I take care of my home, animals, child, myself - everything that is involved there - plus work and home school? I'm going to lose my mind. I'm strong, I can do a lot -- but I'm not sure if this is over the top or not. But what I do know for my son's sake is that I have to try to make it work. My ex about had a cow when I told him about everything including the home school. I'm like - it really doesn't matter what you think because you don't do anything anyways!

Like little league starts on Saturday. My son is sooooooo excited. My ex is supposed to take him. Well, wouldn't you know him and his GF are going away for the weekend. So I'm taking him and the kid is heartbroken -- again.

If there was ever a time for Will to pick up that phone - this would be it. I could really use a pair of shoulders right now. Mine are too heavy and tense to move. Really - really could use that shoulder.

So that's that for now.

On May 11th I'm going to now be in Detroit at the hoedown:) Maria Shaw is having a booth there and several of us readers are showing up to do well -- readings. I wonder if I'll remember to eat between 11 am - 7 pm? LOL. I need to find a place to crash Sat night - any suggestions for a safe and economical place in Detroit?

I have been experimenting the last couple of weeks with vitamins and specifically with calcium. Calcium "600" (from oyster shell; Vit D3 - 600 IU, Calcium - 1200 mg & Sodium - 15 mg) made by Solgar. I have found that if I take the correct dosage (2 pills) right before I go to bed - my dreams are much more lucid AND I remember them better. Much...MUCH better.

Now yesterday (April 17) was Ted's 49th birthday. In 20 years I haven't forgotten his birthday until yesterday. It dawned on me before I went to bed. Luckily for me, I had a chance to make it up in the Dreamscape: Ted and his wife were sitting at a round table with a white table cloth enjoying a birthday dinner. He kept looking at me and vice versa. Finally he came over and introduced himself and asked if we knew one another - I said of course we do. He said how? I told him to think about it for a bit - that door has closed on him and he needs to think about it in order for it to reopen. He went back to his table and talked to his wife - she glared at me (oh please). I could tell he was really thinking about it and it dawned on him -- a "oh shit" moment. I took that moment to go introduce myself to his wife and to assure her that I was no threat to her marriage. I'm not meant for Ted - at least not now.

She bitched about something and was getting really drunk. He told me to wait at my table and he would be back. I assume that he put her in bed at a hotel - because it didn't take long and he was back. He really looked good. His hair was really light - he was tan, the hair came down to his shoulders - almost. He was scruffy and he just looked soooooo good. Anyways - so I told him happy birthday and that I was sorry I forgot. He smiled and said that was alright - he had forgotten everything about me - about us - until now. He wanted me to walk with him...so we go outside.

Walking through what reminded me of a royal garden - he looked at me and asked - who's left? I replied - Bill, we need Bill. He kind of frowns and I say - Ted -- you're the only one he'll take a call from. He nods and goes on with -- tell me more about our soul cluster. So I fill him in on me, him, Bill and Will. He asked where Will was -- I told him that I'm working on it. He smiled and said - lucky bastard. I asked - if you can help out from this side of the dimensions - I'd appreciate it. He said - I'll see what I can do.

The visit was very light hearted and friendly. We talked and we talked about past lives, soul clusters - he and I - he and Bill, me and Will and so forth. Finally I told him that I had to go to the bathroom. He said - you'd better wake up and go then. I said - but I don't want this to end. He said - no worries, we'll do this again and now I won't let anyone make me forget about this. He kissed me on the forehead and said - I love you Allie - now go pee. He chuckled at that last part and I woke up. And sure enough - I had to go - in a hurry too.

He was so tense around his wife - and so much at ease around me. It was sure nice to be with him again. I hope he's right and that we'll have another dream visit soon.

Back to work I go! I hope next week is more of a move forward week - with little stress instead of one with learning experiences! Because of the week I've had -- I am wayyyyy behind in email- just to let you know.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, His Energy And Dream Visits!

Holy Toledo Batman!

That's how it felt this morning when Will has some kick ass breakthrough. I have no idea what happened or how it happened. But the energy surge that went through my body about took me to my knees. And his energy was/is not only strong - that baby is on fire. It was more of a WHAM than when Bill or Ted had any of their breakthroughs -- had I not known better I would have sworn it was me who had the wall come down - but I knew it wasn't. After I said a few cuss words to myself - I through out a few tarot cards to find out what happened: The Tower, Wheel Of Fortune, Lovers. Which for a long story short means the man got blindsided but something that shook his world all over the dang place but it opened up a window of opportunity. It's up to him whether to take it or not - but it's a choice that needs to be made and if he doesn't make it -- and/or choose the wrong answer (wrong meaning the wrong path that will not take him to his next destiny marker) than he'll have the chance again to make that choice. Each time that choice will be presented to him - it will be a harder choice to make -- as going in the correct direction will not be as easy as it is today.

So lets all pray that he makes the right choice now - sooner rather than later.

Last night I had a dream visit with a few of the readers from the Maria Shaw psychic fairs. Joanne was the one I remember the most -and I'm pretty sure Betty was there as well (both are just awesome people) - but we were looking at a class that someone was teaching -- it said Learn The ____ Tarot. The name I don't remember - but it started with an "O". And no - I don't think it was the orgasm tarot - lol:) But if so -- sign me up! Any ways -- I commented on how I could teach that class too -- and then mentioned teaching the OBE sex classes.

The readers and I were in a school. Next thing I know - I'm in a class room, with Will, in this same school. We had just started to date. He was shy, very loving, very kissy. We were taking a class - there were a lot of adults around - when he left, he gave me a kiss and said he had to run. He had on a white t-shirt and when he turned and walked out ahead of me, I could see a red haze around his lower back - reminded me of a coiled snake.

When I got into the hallway, it's packed with adults all walking to and from class. I look over and there's Will - but it's not Will. Same white t-shirt though. I asked - you're not Will. He smiled and said no I'm not. Who are you -- I asked? I'm Will's twin - Carl. This Carl was very loving - but very stern and matter of fact. He wanted to know about me. I told him that I owned my own home, paid my bills - I do not have any collection people after me. I'm not dating anyone - talked about my son. I have pets - 2 dogs and 4 cats. He tapped his lips with his index finger. I asked if that was good - the 4 cats. He said - oh yeah, that's good.

I told him that there is no way in the world that I'd ever hurt Will on purpose. He asked if I would die for Will and without hesitation I said - of course.

Then I woke up:)

At 1st I thought - Will does not have a twin. But then I remembered he's a Gemini -- so astrological wise, there are 2 of him - 2 half's. The red coil - my thought, because where it was located and the BAM from his energy I felt today, it could be his kundalini energy. It must of risen today -- or is getting dang close to doing so.

Taxes? Did you get them done? I'm finishing up mine tonight. I figured I owe - why hurry?

I did a good topic today on the podcast about Open Living -- which is the opposite of Closed Living -- being closed off from what we need - what we deserve. Since I have put into practice what I talked about - things have been working for me. For many months I had a hard time picking out what topics to cover in the podcast - but once I started ask my guides what I should cover -- it's been a piece of cake:)

17 days until NYC - but who's counting?

And speaking of counting - it'll be time to get my son before I know it. Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Will, Ted And A Disturbing Dream!

I woke up Thursday morning with the most horrible dream image in my mind -- my first thought was why? I was at my mother's house - but it wasn't my mother's house. It looked like mom's - but she didn't live there. I came out of the front door, and there hanging from a wooden pole was a 4 year old girl. She had a rope around her neck, her hands were groping at the noose. She had shoulder length dark hair and a red velvet dress on that came down to right above her knees. White stocking, no shoes. I'm shocked when I see her, I turn make a move towards her and I hear a gun engage. I turn around and it's my ex father in law (who is deceased) pointing a rifle at my head. He says if I go near her, he'll blow my head off. I push past him and go back inside the house - pass my ex husband and ask him what in the hell is going on? Where's our son? Why did he let that girl get hung? All he said was that she was bad. I grab the largest knife I can find and head back outside. As I approach the father in law, the ex yells that I have a knife, he turns and points that rifle at me again, I brush past him and head outside. I can tell that this girl is still alive - barely and that I have to get her down.

I walk down the driveway and there is my son. I grab him and tell him to walk with me in the road. In this road there are hundreds of people walking in front of this house, with a plain view of the little girl. I told my son that his grandpa has a gun pointed at us and for him to keep moving. Don't look over and don't look back- no matter what. He asked what the girl did wrong? I then had a vision (in the dream) about her grandpa (my father in law) tickling her and her laughing. He makes a move on sexually and she cries. Then he stops and starts to tickle her again. She laughs -- and that is when he puts the noose around her neck. The girl's name is Danielle. I told my son what I saw -- as we approach the end of the property - there is a huge deep ravine there that I have to master to get to the girl. I push my son to go on and no matter what - don't look back.

As I turned to go to the ravine - I woke up. That disturbing dream stayed with me all day. My ex is an idiot , but he wouldn't let someone else harm a child and my ex father in law was a bastard and a half - but no child molester. And I know no Danielle's. So I am baffled by the dream. Her hanging there in the dress just kept haunting my day. I tried to get back to the dream last night, but couldn't.

Will hit me head on yesterday, It started about 11:30 am and lasted until 4:00 pm or so. His energy was very erratic - a lot of pacing and wringing of his hands. I could feel him rubbing the top of his head and having an overwhelming fear of rejection. He was very in my face - extremely clingy and needy. But at the same time would become very distant - then right back again. The sexual tension was off the boards and I'll write about it a bit later in the OBE blog.

But I wrote Tracey to see if Will went to see her again. Here's a copy of her reply and my original email:

Sent: Thursday, April 10, 2008 4:39:21 PM
Subject: Re: Will


Hi Allie, Good afternoon. I laughed when I signed in to discover that you sent me an email with the subject Will.

I just woke up from a nap with a horrible headache and its all Will's fault. LOL

In the visit - he was pacing a lot - moving back and forth and talking. He was saying that he was feeling a bit worried that he was being too presumptuous that you would be accepting of him and want him in your life. There are feelings of insecurity about the leaps of faith he is taking in his life to prepare for you entering into his life. He is fearing that you will say no, that you will reject him. He really seems to be distraught and questioning himself and what he is doing. He was talking so quickly - and he was not listening - its like I would try to get in a word and he would talk over me. I tried kind of interjecting things when he breathed but I realized that there is a part of him that needed to do this ranting and raving - like he was releasing while he was going on so I stopped trying to battle him. When I started listening rather than trying to help guide him he seemed to slow down more and to come to some positive feelings and thoughts. However, his fear would sort of overshadow those and he would start talking about being rejected again and questioning everything he was doing, the connection and so on. Then he got kind of frustrated and said oh - man - I have to go to work......and that was it - I woke up from my nap with this horrible headache.

I am drinking a venti mocha frap. from Starbucks in hopes it will help the headache and not throw my diabetes into a coma state. lol


In Divine Love and Service,
Tracey


Sent: Thursday, April 10, 2008 2:09:20 PM
Subject: Will


Hey Tracey,

Has Will come to visit you lately? It seems as if today he has broken through someone sort of wall (not sure if it was mine or his) and is very touchy - feely. But I also get that there is a worry of being rejected by me. So I was curious to see if he showed up to you for more advice/talk or if he went elsewhere.

Thanks!
Allie :)

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Now when I emailed her last night to see how she was -- she still had that horrible headache. I emailed her this morning - about 11:30 that Will was back and his energy was about the same - and for her to hold on. I got an automated reply from her email - meaning she took the day off. Her headache must be killing her.

I kept getting a lot of flash vision yesterday and today. Mostly of my son and I in NYC in May. We are in a coffee shop, or maybe a restaurant and I hear my son's name called out -- we turn and it's Will sitting there with a woman. We have some small talk, I introduce myself to the woman. I can tell that they were not having a very good chat before we arrived (it was his recent ex girlfriend) - so I dropped hints about what my son and I would be doing the next day:Central Park zoo. We excused ourselves and sat at our table. I could feel his eyes on us many times. At one point the woman stood up and threw her drink on him - marched out. My son got right up (before I could stop him) and went and got Will and brought him to our table.

I had a vision of us at the zoo. My son had to go to the bathroom and Will took him. I'm out looking at the ostriches when a man approaches me and we strike up a convo. He's handsome and interested. He sees Will and my son approach and he gave me his card and left, Will knew what the guy wanted and that I put his card in my pocket. Later on I make a point of cleaning out my pockets in front of Will, and throwing the card out.

Will reading my son a story.

The two of them playing army with Nerf guns.

And several more fast glimpses.

I can understand Will's freaking out about consciously discovering what has been going on - our connection etc....I did a total freak out when I discovered the connection with Bill and then Ted. I even freaked with Will. There's a lot of internal dialogue going on - am I imagining things? Is this wishful thinking? Does he/she know to? If not, will they? What will they do? Am I crazy? Can he/she hear me like I can her her/him? And the list goes on and on. It took me over a year after discovering Bill to mention it to another person - a whole year. Hopefully it will not take Will quite as long. I don't think it will since me - being the other part of the connection - is very open and accepting of it.

I wonder though if I will have to teach the man how to dial a phone?

Bill and Ted have both been sitting on my energy. They are both very much there without being THERE like Will.

Humm...so many thoughts to ponder!

Time to go pickup my son!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

What Would You Do If You Knew You Were Going To Die?

I watched this video of a 47 year old professor who had only 3 - 6 months of good health ahead of him - when he first gave this lecture. I was not there in person, how I wish I was, but watched it online later that day.

It's inspiring, uplifting and really gives you cause to think over things - to think over life. About what is important - what is not important. His story came to my attention again today - and I realized it was because I am supposed to pass it on. What he says matters and is relevant to all of us.

Watch the video - share it with others. It's well worth the 76 minutes.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Ted And Psychiconair.com!

My day completely got away with me. This morning everything was going along as planned - on schedule and all. The Maria Shaw Show on Psychiconair.com went great. We talked mostly about OBE Sex. I emailed Maria to thank her and this was the email she sent back " you were great! The big boss was listening and said it was great!!!! We will have you on again " so that was very encouraging to hear. Had I wrote this when I wanted to this morning - you would have known that if you missed me at 9:15 am EST - you could have heard me at 9:15 pm EST as they repeat the program at night. At the end of this blog entry, there an 8 min file of my radio program (thanks David) - the whole talk isn't there - but there's a snippet anyways.

One of my son's classmates died over the weekend - his name was Kristopher and he was only 7. All I know so far is that the little guy got a virus and died. They're doing an autopsy on him. His poor parents - I can't even imagine. My son was friends with him. He's doing "okay" with it -- if he thinks about it he's 1/2 sad and 1/2 mad. The school had a crisis team to talk to the children. We couldn't have started to see the psychiatrist at a better time starting tomorrow. Timing is everything - isn't it?

Speaking of which, I had to go pick my son up at school today. He has been getting headaches now for a couple of months and they seem to be getting worse. Today he had to go lay down at the office so I went and got him. Nothing wrong with his noggin - thank Goodness - so I have to keep a headache journal so we can try to determine if they are stress/tension related or migraine. He sways both ways right now. I'm sure the death of one of his friends hasn't helped his head much.

I turned in THE BLACK TRIANGLE over the weekend to my manager - yay me:) So that is now out of the way -- for the time being. Now to do some rewrites on DREAMERS and when she's done looking at BT - I'll be back on it again. Just got the rewrites for DREAMERS - more than I thought there would be. But that's o