Soul Cluster, Dreams and The Next Best Author!

I know - it's been awhile. No I haven't been off having the time of my life. Instead I've been neck deep in a pile of homework  - both for the U of A and for the Sex Coach Institute. Plus for U of A I am helping with a couple of research projects. I get to study for finals my birthday weekend - oh goodie - and then after final's week I'll have 1 week off and then it's time for summer classes. Don't get me wrong - I LOVE school - I only wish I had more time in the day to get everything done.

My kids show idea that H'wood likes but won't take a chance on - I decided to make it into a book series. I had thought about it before - but pushed it aside in hopes it would make it to TV. When that fell through - my manager suggested the book series. I decided ok. The only problem is my muse is on vacation.

It's been that way since I kept the guys at a distance. Then when I cut them off completely I kissed the muse goodbye. I don't like it - but it is what it is. I need them. It takes a lot for me to admit that. Because I not only don't want to need them, I don't like it. After Bill and Will slammed the collective door in my face - I really have wanted no part of them. But yet here I am.

Gloria, my guide/ascended master, has been encouraging to let my soul cluster back into my energy. I asked her - if I was supposed to cut ties of those who were holding me back - then why am I supposed to let them back? She answered - who ever said they were the ones who were holding you back? Ahhh...errrrr.....wasn't it my former guides? Or you? She said no - not exactly. While it was mentioned to cut ties it was not specific in who that should be. I said it was them. So I cut the ties.

Did I progress after the ties were cut? No. So they weren't the problem. Damn. Gloria then chimes in and says the problem is with me (dang it). What am I supposed to do - cut ties with me? Can you even do that? Yes she says (I'm like WHAT). But the ties you must cut are not to yourself - your soul. But to the ties of every negative thought - deed - action that has been done towards you. Every defeating blow - that is what you have to disconnect from.

I had to ask -- how in the world do I do that? Do I ask a guide/angel to do it? She says no. What I am to do is to call on my Star people for in their light  there is no wrong. That's exactly what I did. As I asked for them to remove all of the defeat I feel a tingling sensation (like pop rocks) start at my crown chakra and work it's way down my body all the way to my toes. It felt very energizing and soothing. One of the nicest things though when I did this is I saw Ted's face just as clear as could be in front of me. I've missed him.

I wrote the above before I went to school yesterday. Today (Tuesday) I'm at school again - but I'm watching over a research lab - this way I can finish the post!

Yesterday in class Will made his presence known. Wow! This would be something for the OBE blog (if you don't see a link to OBE - that means I haven't written it yet). Let's just say that he was back with all of the energy he's been holding back since I pushed him away last year. It took all I had to pay attention in class. He certainly shot up my sexual energy - good God! But at the same time what happened -- my muse came back. Which is what I needed.

Bill and Ted have also made an appearence - with Bill sticking around longer than Ted. I had a quick vision with the two of them - we were in a room with a lot of people. I had just got done yelling at Bill. I turned to leave the room and Ted said - Please don't leave. I stopped for a moment - then took a step towards the door. He said - Please. I turned to look at him  -- he steps in front of me, puts his hands on my shoulders and says - I didn't know. You can't punish all of us for something they did. It's not fair. Looking into those sexy green eyes of his must of gotten the best of me. Because before I knew it we were hugging. Vision ended. Vincent also showed up for a few seconds here and there during the day. It's like he pops in - checks on me - and leaves again.

On the way back from school last night I was thinking.....in past lives; Will has sacrificed himself a few times to save me. He has loved me completely and selflessly; Bill has loved me, treasured me and took care of me; Ted has devoted himself to me with love, selflessness and friendship; Vincent has loved me whole heartedly, has protected me and has always showed me the lighter side of life. In this life I'm starting to think that I have chosen to take it alone - void of them in the physcial sense - so that I realize what a lucky person I am to have these wonderful souls in my eternal life. Sure in some lives they've tried to control me, kill me or have me killed. With my attitude I can't say that I blame them - lol. But overall I have been extremely blessed. I do wish though that I would be able to tell them (physcially) in this life - but maybe it is just not to be.

Lately I've been having some odd dreams about my pets. Three nights ago it was Gimli running around the house like a mad dog. Just round and round and I was so scared that he was going to run out into the road. Two nights ago is was my cat Trouble. I had to put him in his carrier to take him to the vet. The landscape was all frozen. Snow and ice everywhere. Somehow Trouble has gotten outside. I looked and I looked and I couldn't find him - I was just beside myself. There were people around but I couldn't get anyone to help. Then last night is was all about Gimli again. Someone had opened the front door to my house (but it wasn't my house but my mom's) adn he ran out. There were a bunch of guys in the driveway and I asked them if they had seen Gimli. They're like - what? I'm saying a hyper blond lab - you can't miss him. No one knew where he was - I was heartbroken. Now Trouble has been to the vet several times - he seems to be ok. Gimli I never let out of my sight for very long when I'm home. So I don't know what's up.

T from MI - before I totally forget -- got your phone message - all kicks ass:) Hope to see you on Oct and good luck in May:):)

I would appreciate your help! I've entered my "Out of Body Ecstasy" book into "The Next Best Spiritual
Author" contest a week after everyone else. Could you please vote for me? And ask a few friends to do the same? The authors with the most votes are the ones who move to the next level. Each author is allowed
one vote per ...person per round. So far I don't have the votes needed to move to the next round. The phase ends on May 2nd (someone who you know and love - it's their birthday )
 
Link: http://www.nexttopauthor.com/profile.cfm?aid=2917
 
Thank you for your help!
 
Since I asked the Star People to help out and remove all of that yucky stuff I didn't need - I haven't had one bad, self-defeating or negative thought. It's been great!!
 
Yes - if you sent me email - whether it's one of my normal emails or on FB - I know:) I'll get back with you as soon as I can.
 
That's about it for now. Since the guys are back - I have a feeling more stuff is going to be happening!
 
Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Guys, A New Guide and Attachments!

I'm tired today - but not as bad as I've been. Last night I slept like a semi-rock. I say semi because I don't think I've slept like a "rock" without waking up at some point since 1996 or so. Any ways - I think it's in part to the question I had asked about Bill - I got my answer.

My Question: Will Bill honor our soul agreement in this lifetime?

Monte's Answer: I feel that he's on a different path than you are and even though he loves you, I don't see that meaning that your path and his will be be forever...not in a relationship of love...but more of a Spiritual kind-ship...He's not satisfied with his life right now and wants more than you do so he's looking a lot more down the road....You're looking more in the now and you both need to be looking at what life offers for each of you along the same path, not what you get versus what he gets....What I'm saying is; Your priority should be to want the same thing or negotiate them to a conclusion so you each know what's most important.

My Response: Unfortunately for Bill and I the balls in his court and has been for the last 5 years. I have no way to contact him in the physical realm - but he stops by my blog to check in on me and he has my phone number. There's so much more we could accomplish for the world together than separate. It's frustrating. Especially since I know he's not satisfied with his life and he's looking for more. The nightly dream and daily telepathic contact is nice but....

Monte's Answer: ***This is holding you back as an attachment so 'Let Go, Let GOD', everything has a purpose so don't allow this BIG issue of yours distract you from where you need to be Spiritually....I do understand and feel your frustration at the lack of of an acceptable reason for Bill to be with you on your path, but he has work to do before he can accept a partner in his life just as you have your work to do....Release him with love and let Guidance take it from there...

He went on to tell me about his experience which was similar to mine. He told me about removing attachments and because of that one of his guides left and a new one arrived. This got me to thinking -- I haven't had a new guide in a very long time. Maybe before my divorce. Before I got divorced, I must of been doing some major growth because I had a lot of guides come and go.

Last night I decided to ask the universe to remove anyone or anything from my life that wasn't for my highest good. When I went to sleep I felt lighter. I don't remmeber Bill or Will being in any of my dreams.

In the shower this morning I remembered something that Monte said - he consciously removed the attachments. So as I was rinsing off I brought to me each of the guys - said "Go in peace, do what you have to do, and then come back." Next was my 2 exes. For them I said:  "Go in peace and never come back." Each one I sent out into a brilliant white light. All of them were rather easy to let go of but Ted. My heart chakra felt heavy, then had a vibration and a tug. He looked horrible as I let him go - but I knew I had to.

As soon as the last one was gone - some of my current guides took a bow and left: Ethan, Edward and Robert (all 3 said they would be back at some time) and Iris (who said she's not coming back). Then I heard a high pitch sound and saw a very vibrant golden light. I heard a female voice say that she was here now. I recognized the energy immedately from a past life regression I had 3 or 4 years ago. If I could figure out how to transfer the regression session from a cassette tape to here I would. Anyways -- in the regression session this soul/light came through me to talk to Cindy (the regressionist). This light was part of my star past.

I asked her name. She said it was a sound - close to what we could say is a "C". She told me to give her a name if it made it easier. So I called her Gloria. She told me I was one of the Star Children - Ted and I. This was something I already knew. Then she said that my son is also a Star Child - he was Ted and I child - and becaue he is a star like me, it's one of the major reasons he and I butt heads. His soul is almost as old as mine and like me - he's a leader not a follower.

Gloria then went on to say that I sabatage myself because I'm not like everyone - and I want to be like everyone. So I do what I have to in order to remain - normal. Well as normal as I can be :) She then showed me a diagram...went something like this:


STAR PEOPLE (1% of all souls)

                               MOST OF THE SOULS (98% of all souls)

                                                                        DARK SOULS (1 % of all souls)

She went on to explain that if I deny who I am - then the scale tips in the Dark Soul's favor. Especially since Ted and my son have no clue about their light - yet.

I asked if we're all stronger when we're connected - then did I do the wrong thing by releasing the attachments to the guys? She said no. Even though on the physical plane the attachments were cut, on the spiritual plane we're all connected. On the physical plane they were (unconsiously) draining the light from me. In order for me to "shine" then I have to refuel and allow my light to shine through. When the guys are all strong enough on their own - that means they completed their tasks - and they will all be back (with the exception of the exes, of course).

I ran a few plans past Gloria and she liked them. When I go to impliment them into GA or OBE, I'll let you guys know:) Since our convo this morning - she is off my right side - the light is constant and strong. I know there was much more said during our talk, but right now I don't remember all of it.

Off to the side of the blog I put links to my Twitter page and my new Facebook page.

It feels nice to be writing in the blog again.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Will and Vincent!

I have a headache. I think it's from the lack of good quality sleep. Once my head hits the pillow I'm out. But it's not a resting sleep. Oh no. I have to keep traveling. The dream visits I had last night seem to be a continuation of the dream where I couldn't find my physical body. There were three of us in a room - I think it was me with Bill and Will -- and our astral bodies were standing over our physical bodies - that were laying on green slabs of rock? Maybe concrete? We couldn't get back into our bodies. We felt so heavy - like lead. I still can feel the panic I felt. None of us knew what to do. We knew that there was someone in another room that wanted something with us. It was important for us to get back into our bodies, so that we could wake up and get the heck out of there. Bill and Will were arguing on what to do. I kept trying to tell them that if we worked together we'd all get back in. But they wouldn't listen. They were both too wrapped up in being "right". I was so frustrated that I screamed and screamed until I woke up. I then laid there pissed off. Damn those two. I just know that this is going to come back again and again until we get back into our bodies.

Last night I also heard Iris talk about Vincent again and how he's supposed to be the one. I asked her to stop talking about him. If it was that dang important for him to be in my life - then he'll get here - but I'm not going out of my way. She'd tried telling me that I have to go out of the way. Something about me being the light and all. SIGH. I'm not sure what to think about all this. I know that whenever I get a reading from someone - they always pick up on Vincent. Always. But then they can't tell if it's actually supposed to be Vincent or someone who is like Vincent. I'm open to whomever the universe sends me.

I got my Census 2010 in the mail today. In big bold letters it says "Your Response Is Required By Law." Oh really? What's going to happen if I don't return it? Is the gov't going to spend more of our tax dollars on the Census police? I just shake my head.

There have been some strange happenings going on here while I'm wide awake. I don't know if you remember a year or two ago, I would have a black mist/energy/spirit show up in my office. Same thing again. But this time with the shadow - I also have flashes of light. Everything is right in the corner of my eye - I look - and it's gone. It happens all over my house - but in my office it's the worse. I'm not scared or anything - I just wonder who it is - and what do they want?

Gimli has been seeing a ghost in my neighbor's house. Gimli will sit outside of Bob's house and just wag his tail like crazy looking at his house. He paces - barks - looks around the side of the house -- all when Bob isn't home. I think that it kind of freaks Gimli out because I've had a hell of a time getting that dog to go outside to the bathroom. He just stands and stares at the house.

Time to get ready for bed. I'm exhausted.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Dreams and Astral Travel

Bill. This man. Double super SIGH. Okay, so I've mentioned before that he is in my dreams every night. Now we don't always interact in the dreams. Most times one of us is in the background of the other's dream. I know - strange huh? But when we do interact, the dream stands out vividly. The other night my dream took me to my next door neighbor Bob's house. Now Bob in reality has a very big tutor house that he lives in all by himself. In the dream somehow our houses were connected. All we had to do was slide a door over and we could wall to and from the houses (like connecting rooms in a hotel).

Bob's house was under construction. He was cutting the ties with my house and making us have two separate structures with a driveway in between (how it actually is).

So I'm in his house looking up at this massive staircase in the center of his entry foyer. I look over to my right and there's Bill. He's in a t-shirt, jeans with a tool belt. I remember thinking to myself -- should I talk to him? If I do, should I act like I know him or act like a stranger? I decided on being friendly with him -- I figured hell, he's in my dream.

I asked how he's been. He tells me that he's been stressed. That's why he's here - to help out and hopefully burn off some of the stress he's carrying inside. We talked about what a nice house Bob has - Bill comments that someday he'd like to buy it. I say - of course - that means you'd live next door to me. He smiles and replies - I know.

The house is crawling with construction workers. I asked Bill if I could show him a wall that needs fixed. Next thing I know we're in my staircase and I'm showing him where the floor the closet (which is the closet in my office) has buckled out the wall. He agrees this is a problem (in real life this is a problem). He wants to see my closet.

As we go into my office I think to myself - Oh God, those two portraits of Bill and Ted are up, I wonder if he'll see them? Sure enough - he glances over by my desk and spies the pictures of him and Ted. He walks over and say - OMG - you're the one who had these drawn? And I say yes - did you like them? He said that he loved his. (note: in real life I did have 2 spirit portraits drawn of Bill and Ted - and sent to them. No copies are in my office).

I ask -- when are you going to get off your ass and honor our soul agreement? He replies - I don't know if I can. Bull shit - I say - you can do anything you want to. You're just a chicken shit like Will. Unbelievable - two men who really do not like one another in this life yet you two are both too scared of the possibilities. For the record - I think you're both a pain in the butt and I wouldn't want to be involved with either of you. But I do think that we could do a lot more good for the world together than separate.

What does he say to that? You belong to Vincent in this life. The look I gave him made him take a step back (must of been the evil PMS I'm gonna whip your ass look) and I yell - I belong to no one, I don't care what life I'm in.

Then I made myself wake up. Why oh why does he drive me insane? After I had this dream, I contacted a psychic I didn't know - never met - but came highly recommended and asked him if Bill is ever going to live up to our soul agreement. I'll let you know what he says. Because quite honestly I'm curious -- if you make a soul agreement with someone, can you use free will to brake that agreement? Or does it happen no matter what? I think I will talk about soul agreements in Monday's podcast.

I found a cool way to force myself to concentrate: when you're feeling rather spacey or scattered, take a nice white ball of light, have it enter your head via your third eye. Let the ball of light bounce around inside your head for a spell. It's more important to feel the ball of light moving about than to "see" it. When you feel more "crystal clear" have the ball exit your back - third eye chakra (aka back of your head).

The dream I had last night also incorporated astral travel. It was a whacked out experience. In my dream I hurt my leg. Well I should say that my leg was hurt so bad that I was being rushed into surgery in order to save it from being cut off. I was crying hard as they wheeled me into the OR. They wanted to give me drugs to put me to sleep so that they could operate. I told the nurse that if I fall asleep my soul is going to get lost. She thought I was silly and proceeded to put me under.

I felt my astral body pop out of my physical body. Off to the right I saw a light and went towards it. This was not the light of heaven, but a light to another dimension. As I was moving to the light - I looked over and saw my son and my mom & sisters waiting out in the waiting room. My son all of a sudden jumps up and tells me to come back.

I'm in the light and come out in Atlantis. It is so peaceful. I walk around talking to people. I asked where is Bill and Ted - they say they are not here, but Will is looking for me. I go off towards a temple and find Will on the steps. I ask him what he's doing here. He replies that he was waiting for me. I ask if he was hurt too? He says no.

In the background I can hear faint voices from the hospital. Something about me not waking up. Will tells me it's time to go back. I tell him no - I like it here. He says - in time. Now go home. I say no.

The next thing I know I'm off in some sort of white haze. I'm telling anyone who will listen that I've lost my way. I can't find my way back to my body. They keep telling me to think of my body and I'll go back. I keep trying and it's not working. I begin to panic.

In the background I hear my alarm go off. Next thing I know I'm falling, I slam back into my body and I turn off my alarm. I laid in bed for awhile trying to make sense of it all - and I couldn't.

For the next week I'm on spring break (YAY ME). During this time I'm going to start to tackle my gobs of email. And wow - do I mean gobs. I'll eventually get back to all of you - be patient:)

Have a wonderful weekend!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Little Bit of This, That and the Other Thing.

Well hi there! Long time no talk. I hope everyone is having a happy holiday season. Thank you for all of the holiday messages that arrived in my inbox, FaceBook and here on the blog.

Humm....where should I even start with this update? Better grab a cup of coffee and get settled in -- I have a lot to chat about.

College - ended up getting 3 A's and 1 B+. Landed on the Dean's List again (yay me)! Classes are out until Jan 10th. Another year of full time classes and I should have my BA by this time next year.

I'm also going to be enrolled in the Sex Coaching Instutite. I know - I know -- seriously, how much can I cram into a day? No worries as my son is going back to his public school on Jan 4th. He had to realize that being with me all day long was not a good thing. I'm a lot more strict than the teachers. Now that he realizes that being with mom is not the best thing in the world, he won't act up (on purpose mind you) in school so that I have to take him out and homeschool him. Fingers crossed that my plan has worked:)

Brodie has had some really rough days. I feel horrible for him - but he doesn't want to give up yet - so I'm not putting him down for the time being. Gimli on the other hand is eating my house one piece at a time. The carpet, wooden floor, couches....SIGH. He's just luckly I love animals.

My dreams have been so active and really messed up lately. This has been going on the last 6 months or so - but over the last 2 months it's really intensified. In my dreams I'm working for a secret gov't agency. We interagate people in their dreams. Now I'm good at shifting my dreams when I want or need another dream enviroment. But with this - I bounce right back to gov't work. I'm very good at what I do for the agency and I'm told (in the dreams) that I'm not going to be going anywhere any time soon. I'm too valuable. SIGH. So I've bene waking up just as tired as when I fell asleep. When I try to shift the gov 't dreams - I keep landing in Atlantis. All I want to do is stay there - but even Atlantis can't keep me in Atlantis.

The bathroom dreams are also back. Big rooms full of toliets with no walls - hundreads of people around going to the bathroom. But  this time in these dreams - I find the one private bathroom there is -- and everytime I enter I'm told that this is where I belong. Seperate - yet connect - to the world.

Now - in the waking world it's also been very interesting concerning Atlantis. I could be in the middle of something (like driving) and all of a sudden Atlantis is there. I'm not "in" it - but I can reach out and grab it (so to speak). It happens all the time now - even when I'm in the middle of a conversation. I have to stop what I'm saying (I loose my train of thought completely) and restart. The last couple of weeks it's been really intense.

The reason it's so intense - I think - is that an old friend has come back into my life. This is a friend that I'd walk through fire for in a heart beat - but everytime we've been together (in the past) he has broken my heart in a million pieces. I have a wall so thick around me where it concerns him (and really anyone else who has hurt me) that it's difficult for him to get through. BUT -- he has an abundence of spiritual gifts that are just fabo - and he can still break through this fortress without even really trying. He's come to me for help in understanding his gifts. Like me - he's a logical thinker by nature - and he's trying to logically figure this out (something Bill has been trying to do for years). There's no logic to this -- I've tried.

In order for me to really help him, I have to let my walls down completely. I know this - he knows this. Iris is being very forward about me doing this -- that I have to. I know I have to -- but I'm scared. He can get to places within me that no one else but Bill can. The difference my friend wants to be in those places where Bill has said no way.

So anyways my friend - Kevin - thinks he's Vincent. He's not - but what is so interesting about him saying Vincent out of all of the men I'm connected to is that at the ULE I got a couple of readings. All described Vincent as being in my energy - but it wasn't Vincent. It was someone LIKE Vincent. Someone with the same protective energy as Vincent - someone who can love me in ways that no one else can. So is Kevin the Vincent that the readers mentioned? I try to figure it out, but I know I can't figure it out. I have to go with the flow and see where I land.

Kevin says that I have an enormous power within me -- like he does (I said the like he does - he didn't say that) -- that has to be tapped into. I'm only skating on the surface. By allowing myself to be fully immersed in my gifts - I can help more people (which is what I love to do).

I can feel the guys closing in ranks around me - not wanting to let Kevin close to me. Between my wall and the guys - it should be damn near impossible for Kevin to get through - yet he still does. Since I saw Kevin last night - I can't stop the energy tremors. What he and I need to do (I feel) is spend some time alone without the outside pressures of life - if only for a day. This way we can get a handle on what's going on.

I'll try to keep you updated.

Starting at the start of the year, I will no longer be offering free follow up questions for the readings. I just cannot keep up with them all. I'll talk about it more in today's podcast.

Also in the last couple of weeks I started to watch (and got caught up with) Heroes. I was going to watch it when it 1st came on TV - but my guides told me no - I wasn't ready. I wasn't sure what I had to be "ready" for -- but I think it has to do with the acceptance of who I am. The ability to focus in on my gifts and use them to make a difference in people's lives. I know that so far I've only scratched the surface on what I can do -- and it'll take a big leap of faith to see what else I'm capable of.

But isn't like that for most people? That we only scratch the surface of our possibilities - scared or fearful - to go outside of our comfort zone? To push our limits. When we push - when we tap into what we're capable of -- our world changes. It can't help but change. For the most part people just do not like change. It doesn't matter if it's you that doesn't like the change or the people around you don't want you to change - if you change then you push them outside their comfort zone.

I'm going to be making some more changes in 2010 (I think). No more Gypsy Magic or Gypsy News blogs. I'll leave them there but no updates. No more monthly Numerscope. OBE blog, this blog and the podcast stays.

Major changes to the OBE site on the horizon. I can't tell you about it now - but will as soon as I can. I know you'll like the changes:)

Mercury is in retro until Jan 15th. 

I know there's more to update you on -- but I have dogs that need to go outside.

Hope all of you have a wonderful and safe New Years Eve. Here's to a loving - prosperous 2010 for all of us!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Mark, Karma and Iris!

I was going to write about Mark last night -- but by the time I got done with my work it was 2:30 am. I was pooped. I still am.

Tuesday night's dream continued into Wednesday's nights visit. Mark and I were sitting at a picnic table - one in the middle of a park. No one was around. he and I were drinking black coffee -- it was very strong as if it was brewed a week ago and it just sat there until we drank it. I remember thinking that he and I needed this leaded coffee so that we could keep going -- the difficulties are before us.

Mark asked me how to stop the train. I told him that everything was already in motion and there was no stopping things. He sighed - looked really sad - and said that he wished things would be different. That he didn't have to go through the pain he will have to endue in order for him to move forward in this life. He added that he was happy that I was the one who would help him through this -- and in return he would fix his karmic debt to me. I asked him what had happened in the past in order for him to have this karmic debt -- and this must be a major debt as he needs to clear it in order not to have to come back as a human. He smiled (he has the most amazing smile I have ever seen) and said - yeah, I fucked up a few times. With me - I asked? Unfortunately he replied. What did you do? (I just had to know). I don't have a clue - was his reply to me. I wish I could remember. The thing is Al (he called me Al) is that in order for me to fix the past, you have to open up and let me in. Can you do that? I stared at him - slammed my hands on the table -- woke up.

Last night it continued.....

Mark's at my house -- he's looking around -- you need new carpet - new furniture - and a different car. I nod and say it'll all come eventually. He replied - let me get it for you. I answered - no. Al...he said...I have more money than I need....let me help you. Why? I asked. So I can owe you? No, he said, because I owe YOU.

So this is how you'll pay me back..with material crap? No - he cups my face in his hands - but it's a start. I turned from him and say that Brodie needs to go outside potty. He yelled at me -- don't shut me out. The dog and I go outside. Once outside Brodie was not there -- and I'm in the middle of a forest.

I turned around and Mark was there -- on the ground is a tent, camping equipment and a burning fire. You still like to camp - he asked? I turned away from him and was about to walk the opposite direction when he appeared in front of me.

I'm not Bill, Ted, Vincent...and I'm sure as hell not Will. I'm not them! I found you. Who do you think put the thoughts in your head for you to find me?

Yeah -- just like Will did -- and where did that get me?

NOT like Will -- it took you months to figure out that he was calling you - it took you a couple of weeks with me.

But you've been in my energy since 1979. A lot longer than Will or any of them. So actually - it took you 30 years. I turned again to get away from him and he grabbed my arm - yanked me to him.

I'm not one of the bad guys.

Time will tell -- I yanked my arm away.

All of a sudden this blast of light and wind made us both stumble -- it was blinding.

Iris!

Stop acting like children! Mark -- you need Allie and Allie you need Mark. Allie -- do you want to go through these same lessons with relationships - AGAIN? Mark -- do you want to live through the same pain that you are about to experience -- do you want to come back AGAIN?

More important -- do you want me as your guide AGAIN?

We stay silent.

Iris glared at both of us -- and fades from view.

I look at Mark - he looks at me. Without a second of hesitation - he grabbed me -- kissed me -- very soft - seductive -- very nice. He pulled back - smiled. I could hear an alarm in the background. He said -- it was time to wake up.

So we did.

Mark and our karma is going to be harder than I thought.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Quick Dream With Mark

Ok - so Mark was in most of my dreams last night. I know this because I kept waking up and thinking - there he was again. Of course I didn't write any of it down - I was too tired all I wanted to do is go back to sleep.

What I do remember though is him being very agitated. Change was all around him and he wasn't happy about it at all. He was stressed. He slid behind the wheel of a moving truck - I was in the passenger seat. I knew that because he was pissed that I should put my seat belt on and I did. He didn't. He drove like a crazy man - way too fast, taking corners at a dangerous speed. Then he slowed down and went at a crawl - not wanting to get to his destination. He looked at me and said - I can't stop this...what do I do?

Then I woke up.

When he spoke to me - he had this tortured look on his face - like someone who is about to lose a loved one to an illness and they are powerless to stop it. His energy has been with me since I rolled out of bed.

Off to take Brodie to the vet - then it's time for my son's schooling.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Ranting, Bill And A Visit From Grams P!

I'm on another rant - oh yes I am. What is it with these readers/psychics charging up to $39.99 a minute for their service? I kid you not -- $39.99 per minute! That's $2399.40 an hour -- an hour! I thought my previous WTF was outrageous at $20.00/minute. SIGH. I'm not sure what baffles me more - the balls of the readers/psychics to think they're worth that much or the clients need to pay them big bucks for peace of mind.

I've found myself completely unmotivated to do anything. Absolutely nothing interests me. I'm working on changing that as I can't stand just sitting here.

Gram P stopped by to say hi to my son and I. Lights all over the place were flickering - it was rather cool - my own light show. I'm glad she and I decided on this signal before she passed on. I've also been getting visits from my deceased friend Dave. The ex fireman is kind enough to make the smoke detector go off when he says hi. He really has to quit stopping by at 5:00 am. I know he gets a kick out of waking me up!

Bill stopped by last night for a dream visit. We were (of course) in a library. Very tall, deep dark wood bookcases lined the walls. Brass trim - big red leather chairs to sit in. He and I were discussing my college classes. I told him how I've been doing - he said he knew how well my classes went and that he was proud of me. I couldn't understand how he knew my grades. He smiled and said: Have you forgotten our connection? I always know what you're thinking. He turned around, grabbed a book and headed to another floor. I found him later in a corner chair with headphones on reading a book. I decided not to disturb him.

Off to go watch a movie with my son!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Sawyer, a Robin and Slavery

So what do all three of those have in common? They were all dreams. The 1st two from me, the 3rd from my son.


Any dream with Sawyer in it (AKA Josh - and yes, that's Sawyer from LOST) is a good one. Even if we're fighting like siblings. This time around he and I are arguing about something stupid (the norm really), I hear "How in the hell should I know" coming from him - he has his back to me - and I grab his butt. We're talking a two handed, double squeeze. LOL. He turned around and gave me the dirtiest look and asked: "What the hell was that?" I shrugged my shoulders. He made this next point very clear: "That is off limits". I said "Ok, ok...I won't do it again. It's not like I wanted to sleep with you or anything. I just grabbed your ass." He smiled a bit, "I could scream sexual harassment." My reply with a smile, "Yeah right." Then I woke up.

This next one with the robin was disturbing. I'm on a highway - no idea where. When I pull over to the side of the road. There's no one around for miles. I'm in the middle of this 2 lane road when I look down and I see a robin staring up at me. It was stuck in the road - literally. I could see it's legs from the mid-shin up. Her feet were below the asphalt. I could see it sitting on the hot tar and sinking in - then the tar hardening. Cars and trucks ran over it every day - not thinking twice about a robin stuck in the road.

So I started to chisel away around it's feet. I'm wondering how this bird has stayed alive with no food, water and the sun beating down on her. I'm also curious if a car is going to run us both over as it comes around the curve. So I stop what I'm doing, move my car so that it's parked behind us with it's flashers on - this way people will hopefully go around (as opposed to plowing right into it). As I'm chiseling away at this asphalt - a woman shows up. No idea who she is - but I show her the robin and tell her what's going on. I chisel down all the way so that I can free the bird -- and she has this stickiness (reminded me of sap) on her feet/legs. She tries to spread her wings and falls right over on her side. I go and grab a pillow - me and this woman are going to lift the bird up and place it on the pillow. I'm scared to touch the bird, so this lady said she would. As she was going to move the bird, I was calling the Dept of Wildlife to find out where we should take it. I woke myself up at this point - because the image of the robin struggling to survive was too disturbing.

I have a mama and papa robin who come to my house every year and nest in my big pine tree. I like my robins. I have no idea what that dream meant. In the gypsy world - robin's bring good luck. But this robin was hurt -- and i had to really work to free her. Maybe it means that I have to work hard for luck to shine on me. But if that's the case - haven't I been doing that? I don't know.

Now this last dream about slaves, my son told me about yesterday morning. Before I go into the dream - a touch of background - my son (almost every stinken time I ask him to do something) has yelled at me that he wasn't my slave. He said it out of the blue once - never knew why he said it. When he told me about the dream - I kinda understand.

He said that he was a black child working in a coal mine. He had a Master. His job in the mine was to shovel all of the loose coal that landed on the floor and put them in the little track carts. He said that he didn't get hardly any food or rest. But his Master liked him - so he had a treat of candy every once in awhile. He was a very hard worker. That's really all he said about it - but I found it interesting.

I was on Keen last night - and was so disgusted with the amount of money I lost that I refused to log on tonight.

I'm soooooo tired. Heading off to bed.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

My Birthday, The Passion Zone And A Dream!

What a weekend! Had a blast. It all started off on Friday when my son and I went to his school's carnival. Each class had to put together a themed basket to be raffled off. His class did reading. It was a really nice basket full of tons of good books. Guess what? My son won that basket. He (and his teacher) were so dang tickled:) He's never won anything before - so this was double great.

Saturday I went out with my mom during the day - went to on local restaurant for lunch - did some shopping (books - I'm a bookaholic) and then to another local restaurant for dessert, This dessert was sooooooo good. It was a dark chocolate cream custard thing (yeah, no clue on the name) that hit the spot. Then later that night my friend Sheri and I went shopping (yes, more books. Seriously, can you ever have enough?) then out for Mexican and margaritas! Back to Sheri's for movies and some more margaritas. Let's see we watched: Saw (I liked this one), Yes Man, Slumdog Millionaire and Appaloosa. It was a nice relaxing weekend.

Of course just a few seconds ago I realized that my car registration had expired - as it does on every birthday. But I still forgot. I didn't get to read any "If Today Is Your Birthday" horoscopes. I couldn't find any online. Maybe I wasn't looking in the right spot. But Maria Shaw said what you are doing on your solar return will set the theme for the following year (till the next birthday). This must be a good year then since I had a good birthday.

College classes start in 2 weeks. I signed up for World Civ - Middle East and the Psychology of Women for Summer 1. Summer 2 - no idea yet, but I'm thinking Sign Language 1 and Humanities in the Western Tra. I'm almost done with my gen ed (AKA piss ant requirements) - thankfully.

While I was spending the night at Sheri's house - I had a dream where I was running away from some bad guys. I'm in this house and I sneak out the back through a greenhouse to the back yard. When I get in the back - some search lights pop on and I see guns drawn on me - I stop. For some reason this didn't bother me - I think the guys with guns were there to help me. Any ways - when the lights popped on - who comes running towards me but my cat Darin. He does that -- if I'm not at home spending the night, he seeks me out in my dreams. I'm sure when I'm in Lansing this weekend he'll come see me again.

Which brings me to Maria Shaw's Cosmic Convention at the Hampton Inn off of Canal Rd in Lansing MI. I'll be there Friday - Sunday doing readings. On Friday the 8th from 4:30 - 6 I will be talking about:

"Your Chakras, Your Sex Life": How to attune your chakras so that you can have a vibrant and active life, translating that also in positive sexual energy. Sexual energy is one of the strongest vibrations we have. Learn how to harness, balance and work with your sixth chakra (sacral, sex) to improve many areas of your life, including lovemaking!

Please stop by the talk --- I'd really love it if I had a full house. I look forward to seeing everyone there -- I've met a great bunch of people in MI and I love going back to do these shows.

I want to thank all of you who stopped by The Passion Zone on Wednesday night on Empoweradio.com. Had fun. We skated over a few bumps in the 1st 15 min - but then it seems everything else flowed. My producer Jason - I have to think of a nickname for the guy. Don't forget to stop by this Wednesday - same time, same place. We'll be chatting about sex candy, dream sex and sexual positions. I'd appreciate if you told 10 of your friends about the show. Also if you know of anyone who'd be a good guest for the show, let me know - give me the link to their site. I'm looking for people who will talk about sex and/or relationships.

Watching SAW over the weekend gave me some good ideas about my horror script. I loved the ending - not something you would expect - which is what I loved - I liked to be surprised. It doesn't happen very often.

Last night Bill and Will were both dream visiting with me. I don't remember much - but with Will I had to act like I'd never met him before. Then I had to act like I didn't give a crap who he was. This was something that Will wanted. Bill asked me why - I said I didn't know. Bill mumbled a few words under his breath and walked away. He asked me to go with him - but I said I had to figure out what's wrong with Will. This ticked Bill off. I didn't mean to have him stomp off - but I couldn't just leave Will without trying to figure out why he was being so distant. I never did figure it out - I woke up. I had no problem ignoring Will, but it bothered me that I HAD to.

My son and I finally finished the last of The Dead Zone TV series. He was very upset that there is no more Johnny Smith. So he's acting out a new episode in his room -- I can hear him -- he's cute:) The way they left the Dead Zone - they could make a feature film and wrap things up.

I'd better get going -- I have some pre-planning to do for Wednesday's show.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Quick Post!

Well, let's see - what did I get done today? My college essays, Gypsy Magic, Gypsy News and some changes on DREAMERS. No BT or OBE. In fact - after BT I have to jump in an write my horror script. I already have people who are interested in reading it:)

Tomorrow I'm getting a new head shot taken - Wed it's off to OARDC (Ohio State's Agriculture Division) here in Wooster to be a chaperon to my son's class. We get to spend the day looking at bugs:) This weekend I'll be in MI again visiting some friends.

Dreams are still ((*&^% insane. I wish they would either reveal or cease.

Easter was good. Went to PA to my uncle's house. At some great food and had wayyyyy too much chocolate!

You have to watch this video - if for nothing more than to see Simon stunned. I must admit - I did get tears in my eyes.....this woman rocks.

Susan Boyle Sings on Britain's Got Talent 2009 Episode 1 @ Yahoo! Video

Time for me to head to bed -- early!

Crystal Sunshine!

Allie :)

A Little Of This And That

Can you do less than nothing? I'm thinking you can. That was my Thursday. I tried to work. But my son sucked my brain power. It was unreal. Every step forward got me 10 steps back. For every brain cell used, I lost 20.

I'm thinking that if I drink enough wine tonight - I might get some brain power back - lol.

Needless to say, I didn't get anywhere with BT and OBE. I have gotten some work on BT done today - working on a couple of early scenes. No OBE work. This weekend I have to write my scholarship essays - and go to PA for Easter.

I have decided that relationship wise - I want a man like Agent Pierce on 24. Seriously - I do. The character is loyal, honest, trustworthy, a good friend, steadfast in his beliefs, can defend you against bad guys and would take a bullet for you. I probably have watched too many seasons of 24. I can't help myself - the dang show is like a drug. Male friend wise - someone like Walter on Fringe. Brilliant and completely whacked out. Never a boring moment with that guy.

Somehow I have managed to get canker sores (still) in my throat. I'm sure it's because of stress. I can't blame it all on the kid....I have piles of things that I have to get done and there never seems to be enough time. It does make it hard to talk at all. I've been avoiding the phone all together.

Dreams are back to being very busy and chaotic. I toss and turn all night. It's crazy. My dreams seems short (maybe 35 min), I wake up, turn over and fall back to sleep again. Even Darin has given up laying next to me (although I'm sure this is temporary. The cat's obsessed with me).

Time for me to try to get some shut eye. Talk with you all later!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Is It Keith or Kevin?

I hope I can remember most of my dream visit last night. I was with two other people in a car - a guy, girl and myself. We parked outside of a two story office building. The guy got out and mentioned that the empty store/office in front of us had bullet proof glass. I called him either Keith or Kevin - and said that he should rent the place and be a private investigator. Even though it was never said - I knew he was an ex police officer. He saw the woman who owned the building and went after her. I turned to the other girl in the car and mention that she could turn this into a sandwich shop. She mentioned something about what a sandwich shop is called in Brazil. I wish I could remember what she called it - I know it started with a "C". The shop we were at was a place where Kevin/Keith's friend had a business that went belly up.

Next thing I know - we're in a park. I find out that Kevin/Keith is Polish. He wanted to take me to a lake that is on church property. The lake was called Fast Lake. Keith/Kevin was about 6'2" broad shoulder - strong arms. His hair was short, blondish and in tight natural curls. He had on a yellow t-shirt and blue jeans. We got a long like we've known each other forever. I told him that he was not like anyone else I had ever met. He smiled and said - neither are you. There's a connection with his family and Birkenau. I don't know what - but there was something. There was also a mention about he and I meeting once I finished with BT. Not a clue on this dream - but I did wake up in a good mood.

Right before that dream, myself and a guy (have no idea who) were having a tour through this very elaborate house. A pool room was enormous - it was stupid big with a waterfall and all - which took us to the changing room - complete with private hot tub and sauna. Through the back changing room door was entrance to a private court yard. The previous owners lost all of their money and the house was foreclosed upon. It had something like 14 bedrooms, 25 bathrooms - 3 kitchens -- it was just HUGE! I have no idea why I was being shown around a massive place like that. Far too big for me!

My mom's cat Ben died today. He was a great cat - a mancoon. Ben was a stray that my mom came upon who had just been hit by a car and left for dead. That was 7 years ago. He lived to be 12. He cheated death many times - just like my Indy.

Working on a scene for BT. It's coming along well. Structured some OBE stuff. Nothing major - but I did do something with it:)

I did remember to post the podcast to iTunes today:)

I cannot believe that we're supposed to get 3 inches of snow tonight. I thought spring had sprung?

As I said today on the podcast - my heart goes out to those in Italy who were affected by today's earthquake. Tons of energy sent their way!

Off to make supper!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Is It Over Yet?

This day -- I just want it to be over. Holy crap I'm tired. Flat out exhausted. I canceled everything I had scheduled today - except for my errands. Whatever is going on with my energy - it had better hurry up and work itself out. I've been here before - with the major mood swings - acting like I'm bi-polar or even a manic depressive. <-----This is not me, not at all. So it's coming from someone else. That hole in my soul - right smack dab in my heart chakra - still there.

I woke up with it and thought -- oh crap, what's going on? Then I opened my eyes -- for a spilt second I saw Michael hovering over me - like Ted used to. I blinked and he was gone. But Michael has been with me all day - watching.

On the way home from talking my son to school - I felt really light-headed, my solar plexus was on fire and my stomach was so upset. I knew someone was connecting to me - it was my Michael. I asked him what he wanted. He said he didn't know. He doesn't know why he's here - he can't see past the line. That's what he kept saying - help him see past the line. But I don't know what that means - unless the line is a barrier that doesn't allow him to see more than what he needs to.

In the visions I had today - they were with Bill or Ted - but in the background there he was, Michael - watching. Just watching. Not in a creepy way though - but like he's trying to figure things out. Since I still have that sinking feeling as I'm about to go to bed - I told myself I will not wake up this way tomorrow. Michael's going to get a visit this evening and something will be worked out.

On top of it all - my guides (Ethan in particular) keeps throwing his song at me -- I can't tell you how many times I've listened to it today -- and the funny thing is I had no idea this song existed until I stumbled upon it.

What About Now - Daughtry

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?


Now - have no idea why I have to listen to this song. I think the song is connected with Michael - but why? We have never met in this life - so of course there's no love affair to pine over. Crap like this just drives me nuts. I'd really like a straight answer. No more signs - just a straight answer please.

Plus no more downloading to my subconsious. Sheesh. A girl has to get a good night sleep. If I'm not getting laid then I want to be out cold to the world. It's just that simple.

Needless to say - I did not get anything done today on BT or OBE. Although I DID toss ideas around for BT. So I guess that's something.

I should have known better with my emotional roller coaster that I should have not watched the last eposide of ER. Bad - bad move.

I'm up early in the morning for Little Leguge. The tomorrow afternoon it's me - wine and BT.

Oh - one more thing - if you call my office phone and you don't come up on the caller id - I'm not answering. "Unknown Number" will not work.

Night!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Sometimes I Wonder....

...what the (*&^^&* is wrong with me. SIGH. I worked on BT a good part of the day. More research - I found a survors network that may give me some insight to the Gypsy Family Camp at Birkenau. But as you know, working on BT stirs up a whole lot of emotions within me. Siince my son will be with his dad this weekend - I already went and bought some wine to drink as I'm working on BT.

Not a lot of work on OBE - but I did manage to get myself booked on a couple of radio shows in April & May. So that's cool.

Now as I'm working today - I keep having these visions of Bill and Ted. They are in an outdoor cafe with some friends. They're all talking when I walk up and say "excuse me". Without even looking at me - Bill blows up. In my hand I have Bill's rock. I place it on the table and mumble to myself "I can't do this anymore". Tears fall down my face. I look over at Ted and say, "I'm sorry - I am so-so sorry." I turn to leave and Ted grabs my wrist.

I look at him and say "Telling you won't do any good - you have to know. Seeking out the answers can't stem from your brain as curiosty - rather it has to come from here (I touch the middle of his chest), your soul. The stiring must come from your soul."

I stare at Bill - get close to his face - "I wish you'd pull your head out of your ass. I refuse to do this life over again." I yank my arm from Ted - and walk off.

Now to top this off - once I had that vision - I had to go watch the scene in a movie that reminds me so much of Ted and a past life we had together. What did that make me do - yep cry. So I'm crying today because of BT - which led to the visions and then me crying because of Bill - and that led me to the scene, Ted, and more crying. No wonder I'm tired.

And boy am I tired. Another night without any restful sleep. Whatever my subconsious has to learn - I wish it would hurry up.

Off to get my shower - and I hope - get rid of this sinking feeling I have in my soul.

Talk to you later...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Being Accountable, A WTF Dream And Keen!

If you still haven't written me the letter explaining why you've used metaphysical/spiritual advice and why you need that genre of advice - you still have time. It doesn't even have to be advice - it can also be alternative healing, color therapy or Feng Shui. I need them by April 5th -- please!

Keen is going well - I've been on Mon - Fri. A minor miracle:) I find I do well being on 10 am - noon. And then depending what's going on 1 - 2:30. I'm trying to condition myself to do the sex advice at Ingenio (http://www.ingenio.com/Allie%20T) from 10 pm - midnight.

For whatever reason - my guides keep having me watch "Under The Tuscan Sun". I can't get what the message is. I'm thinking it's that my life is going to transform like the lead character Francine's did. Although I wasn't nearly as devastated with my divorce as she was hers. It could be a new start, maybe a trip to Italy (I wish), could be meeting an Italian man (boy do I really wish) - or even standing at a crossroads. I'm sure after the 10th time I watch it something should kick in:) At least I hope so.

If you sent me an email - I know it's here. No need to remind me.

My dreams have been really wild the last several nights. The dream that really stands out is the one from Sat night. I can remember being in a room with a bunch of people - we were discussing my life and lack of love life. I come across 3 guys - all of who I know , 2 I can't remember who they were - but the 3rd was Sawyer. He's pissed at me - he's holding his baby in his arms (in real life Josh and his wife either just had a baby or they are about to) I ask him what's the matter and he says, 'Visions - you have visions? You never told me that.' Before I could say WTF - the guy laying down on the beige couch said 'And she writes in the blog!' The 3rd guy shouts out 'For everyone to read!' I walked away perplexed at why it would shock them now. They all knew about everything. So then I started thinking that I should password protect the blog and only give the password out to people who ask. This way I'll know who is reading the posts. But another thought popped in and said - but Bill, Will and Vincent won't be able to read it then - they'll never ask for the password.

SIGH - I woke up.

I'm having a difficult time coaching myself. I have a huge list of things that I have to do and I can't get anything done because the list is too big. I'm trying to prioritize - but for me it's difficult to do if everything that is on my list should have been done already. Maybe I should go with what is nagging at me the most - besides the scholarship applications I have to finish. That would be Black Triangle and the OBE book. BT has to be rewritten by May 1st so that I can enter it in 2 important contests. OBE book is a huge part of the path I am to take - so it is vital that I get it done. Or at least done enough to send off to a publisher as a book proposal. Time is of the essence with both because as soon as college starts on May 18th - any extra time will be spent studying. So how in the world do I whip my own ass into shape? I know that I do well when I have deadlines and I have to be held accountable to someone. So here's a thought....why don't I just report to you guys? Every day I have to post that I did something...even if it's more research for BT or outlining chapt 1 for OBE.

That would make me accountable. Anyone else out there want to do something that they are having a hard time doing because they are not accountable? Why not post here with me. Leave a comment every day after my posts to what you have done. So what do you think? This will go from April 1st - May 1st and no - the April 1st start is not an April Fool's joke. I like this idea. How can I help people if I don't practice what I coach?

After May 1st - we'll see where I'm at and what needs tackled next.

Off to make dinner!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Dreams And Changes!

Grab a drink and maybe a snack -- this one is long...

Wow - change is in the air - can you feel it? I know can! I have been a busy person for the last several weeks -- I think that this is the longest I've ever gone without posting. Sorry about that! I'll try to do better but I can't promise anything:)

For those of you born in the 60's or early 70's - can you feel the Saturn Uranus Opposition just kicking your tush? The tug away between structure and breaking free is especially intense for those in their late 30's and 40's. The dates of the tug a war are: Nov 4, 2008 - Feb 5, 2009 - Sept 15, 2009 - Apr 26, 2010 and July 26, 2010. With each occurrence pushing us closer to following our soul's path. This isn't much of a choice here - things will happen around you to push you. I talked about this in Monday's podcast --- no wonder I can't sleep:) Falling asleep isn't the problem - the constant dreams are starting to be.

Even when I ask for a break - I'm not getting it. This always means some major is coming up. My dreams - what I can remember of them (I'm honestly trying to forget so I can sleep which I think is making it worse) have either Bill, Ted or my son in them. Every night all 3 show up - normally in different dream visits - although Bill and Ted do show up occasionally. The last couple of days ex #2 has been showing back up. I think that I'm being pulled in his dreams. They all involve me and him getting back together - but not as a married couple. This last one he moves back into the house- but that's only because he has no where else to go. I move my office into my room so he can have the office. I remember this really ill feeling I had in my stomach at the thought of him living here. I woke myself up. Ex #1 showed up last week several times. The dream visits with him would dip into the romantic/sexual aspect. After the last dream visit last week - I put up my protection so that he would not get back in. I told my guides in no uncertain terms that I wasn't heading back into ex #2 dreams either. I have no idea why either one of them would be bothering me now. Maybe they drank out of the same water source?

Bill has been everywhere I looked. No matter what I've been doing - he pops into my mind. Or I see a picture that reminds me of him. With Bill, I can feel him figuring things out between us. In past dreams he has said that he got it - the connection - but that over thinking mind of his is still trying to put every piece in its place. Plus his soul and his guides are trying to send him down the correct path without him thinking it to death. On top of all this his emotions are all over the board. He's very sensitive. I feel sorry for anyone who pisses him off right now.

I have some good news to tell you in 2 weeks. But I can't tell you till then :):)

In other news -- I'm going back to college. I know - what a shocker? But it's true. When I left in 1996 I was finishing my junior year in Bus Admin. Going back I may be a senior to start - but now my major is Psychology. After graduation - Masters in Marriage & Family Counseling -- and if that much schooling hasn't killed me - Doctorate in Sexual Health. Yes - I'm going to be a sex therapist. That clicked in last week. Since then - things have been going much better. Not fabo - but better. Told me ex #2 - he laughed at me - ass hole. But that's ok - it'll just push me harder to prove him wrong. So during the day I'll home school my son - at night - college. Somewhere in there I'll fit in homework, housework and oh yeah - work. I opted out of the traditional foreign langue requirement and am instead taking Sign Language. The hearing impaired have sexual and marriage problems too - I bet it can get frustrating to go to a hearing person's therapy.

My son thought it was great that I'm going back to school. He is going to love to see his mom do homework:) I'll be back up at The University of Akron. My son did have a mini cow and worry that I wouldn't be writing scripts any longer. I told him - never you fear - I have to write like you have to play with your Hot Wheels. He liked that idea. Besides - just got a new idea for a TV show I have to write:) But 1st I have to finish a couple of other rewrites.

This is the 3rd day in a row that I've forced myself to go on Keen:) I figure if I keep forcing, it'll be a habit. If anyone wants some free minutes - email me.

I have this wonderful stone spirit called Wulfenite. It's not as flashy as the rest of my stones, so it normally doesn't get a lot of attention (since I overlook it). But lately it's been calling out. What this stone promotes is the acceptance of the existence of the negative aspects that exist in this crazy -mixed-up world in order to allow one to recognize issues and not allow roadblock to stop or slow down progress. It also helps on to continue on in spite of potential limitations. And yes - it came to my attention last week. So it's no surprise that I'm going back to school. This little gem also allows one to transition between the physical plane to the psychic and astral planes with a quickness. It's been wanting to go with me into my bedroom - but I don't sleep as it is. I'm afraid to see how much dreaming I'll do with it. But I may try -- just to see. In fact, I just went and put in my bedroom.

What else can this puppy do? It can help to bring forth the knowledge and skills needed for white magic. It promotes contact with the spiritual world in the form one manifests; to allow the attunement to those of ancient civilizations (in my case - Atlantis), to those of the near distant past or those of future worlds. It makes a strong connection and attunement to higher dimensions. It also stimulates a bonding between souls who are in the Earth plane and have agreed to meet again during this life time (hear me Bill, Ted, Will and Vincent)?

My guides also had me change my 3 stone pendant. Now it has Herkimer Diamond, Tektite and Moldavite. Now with the HD - I have 2 HD that were joined at one time. A larger one and then a smaller one that attached to the side. The larger one is for Bill - the smaller one is mine. Instead of putting the one that is mine in the pendant - my guides told me to put Bill's in. The HD has a ton of helpful properties. But the jest of it is: helps one to begin again in this lifetime,,, assists one in clearing the body-mind system of unconscious fears and repressions, allowing for total relaxation and expansion of the life energy. .. known as a stone of attunement.... stimulates clairvoyant and clairaudient abilities...it also facilitates and strengthens telepathic connections. What else is nice about this stone is that you can store information into this stone before you give it to another. Maybe I'm supposed to wear it now so that it stores my energy in it before I give it to Bill?

Tektite has a ton of helpful attributes as well. It's rather cool that it is from outer space:) It is said to a charm of great power, as well as bring wealth and fertility to it's owner. It provides one with encouragement to gather knowledge. It helps to sweep away any lasting impressions of undesirable experiences and holds onto lasting impressions of desirable experiences. Tektite balances the feminine and masculine properties of ones character. It also acts to strengthen ones energy field and to provide for increased contact during daily activities. It accelerates thought transmissions within the physical realm and between the physical realm and the location of origination of the stone. Using tektite can also draw one to another, or another to one, due to information provided during transmissions, or due to an attraction which is recognized by others who have the same transmission frequencies aligned in the ethereal body (me, Bill, Ted, Will and Vincent again).

Now Moldavite is a form of tektite as it is also from space. But this is considered a "gem quality" stone of ET origin. This is a powerful stone - one full of energy and purpose. It stimulates cooperation with those of ET's origin with those on Earth. It carries one beyond the physcial reality to a home that has long been forgotten - absent from the conscious mind - as it provides the visions of eternality and the energy to translate the visions into reality. It facilities strong, clear, and direct interdimensional interconnected-mess between ones consciousness and the higher planes of light. It expands the scope of vibrational energy/dimensions which one can approach, while allowing an easier path to those dimensions one has already been to. One will see more clearly and will see with an expansion of vision. it works well with the third-eye, throat charka and the crown chakra.

I have no idea what my guides have planned for me with this stone combination. But my intuition is telling me it's about connecting with Bill in the physical realm. He was the key that unlocked all of this - the dreams, soul mates, OBE, soul clusters - the whole kit and caboodle. He's the reason I started this blog. To be able to sit down and talk to him about everything would be a dream come true. I don't want anything from him but a nice long conversation. I'm just dying to compare notes:)

My mother almost died the other day - or should I say she should of died. But my grams had her back. She was traveling along 77 in Akron - during a busy time - when the SUV in front of her hit something - it flew into the air and scooped up under her car. She smelled something burning and was able to pull over to the right (this is a section of the highway where the on/off ramps are too short and normally cars are on it moving at a high speed). She tried to go somewhere - but the smell of tire rubber was too great. An hour later a tow truck picked up the car. Fast forward - the mechanic calls her in (my sister takes her to the garage)...he shows her what went under her car - a tire wedge that truckers use behind their wheels when they are pulled over or stopped for the night. It flew under her car and wedged itself in-between my mom's front driver's side tired and the tire well. What SHOULD of happened is the car would of stopped immediately (when she was going 65), flipped up in the air and rolled a few times. This would have caused the heavy traffic behind her to slam into her - causing more death and injury. It costs her $12.50 to get her car fixed. It wasn't her time to die. For that I am very grateful.

I think I MAY have figured out what type if disorder effects my son. It's called Sensory Integration Disorder (http://www.spdfoundation.net/).

"SPD can affect people in only one sense–for example, just touch or just sight or just movement–or in multiple senses. One person with SPD may over-respond to sensation and find clothing, physical contact, light, sound, food, or other sensory input to be unbearable. Another might under-respond and show little or no reaction to stimulation, even pain or extreme hot and cold. In children whose sensory processing of messages from the muscles and joints is impaired, posture and motor skills can be affected. These are the "floppy babies" who worry new parents and the kids who get called "klutz" and "spaz" on the playground. Still other children exhibit an appetite for sensation that is in perpetual overdrive. These kids often are misdiagnosed - and inappropriately medicated - for ADHD.

SPD is most commonly diagnosed in children, but people who reach adulthood without treatment also experience symptoms and continue to be affected by their inability to accurately and appropriately interpret sensory messages.

These "sensational adults" may have difficulty performing routines and activities involved in work, close relationships, and recreation. Because adults with SPD have struggled for most of their lives, they may also experience depression, underachievement, social isolation, and/or other secondary effects.

Sadly, misdiagnosis is common because many health care professionals are not trained to recognize sensory issues. The SPD Foundation is dedicated to researching these issues, educating the public and professionals about their symptoms and treatment, and advocating for those who live with Sensory Processing Disorder and sensory challenges associated with other conditions."

My kid is in overdirve 24/7 and has been misdiagnosised with ADHD. But - of course - I cannot find anyone in my area who I can take him to. The place in Stow Ohio doesn't exist any more and all other places are 1 1/2 hrs. + away. So I don't know what in the heck I'm going to do - but I have to do something.

I found this great place called: Day Spa For The Mind. From their site:
"Day Spa for the Mind is an online space where you can relax, unwind, and clear your mind to make room for positive change in your life. We all have busy lives and the thought of meditation or personal development, even though we all know the benefits, can seem all too daunting.

Day Spa for the Mind combines meditation techniques, hypnotherapy and guided visualization to help relieve stress, create deep relaxation and focus your mind towards attracting wealth, love, creativity, motivation, and inner peace."

I opened an account. Thus far I really like it. Try out their 10 min sample and see for yourself.

I'm sure I have typos in this entry - I'm tired. If you want, point them out, just don't be too rude about it please:)

For those of you that I owe email to - I know I do. I'm doing the best I can. I'm hoping to be caught up by the time I hit 42.

What else is happening -- I know there's more - but right now I'm brain dead so I think I'll stop and get some shut-eye.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Atlantis, The Meadow And Dream Time!

Grab a drink and get situated -- this one's kinda long....

This week just has not gone as planned - same as last week. Hell - the whole month of February has been a huge problem not only for me, but for my poor son. He now has the flu - the nasty flu with the high fever, body aches, headache, nausea...I am just praying to anyone who will listen in the universe for me not to get this. I'm trying to push through with the bronchitis I think I have - thank you very much. I don't need anything else.

But what I've been doing with my congestion and nasal snafu is sending white ball of energy to help speed up the healing process. For my lungs I imagine a nice big ball of white light going into my lungs, through the back, and back in again out the front. I do the same with my throat and my sinuses. Anytime I do this, I feel much better afterwards. So I'm trying to send the light through several times a day.

I don't quite get 2009 yet - what it has in store for me. It hasn't gone as I thought it would. Thus far all scripts and what not have been turned down. I'm about as creative as a barn door - which isn't very helpful in the rewrite process. Readings aren't there - readings on Keen & Live Person haven't been going very well - the people I do help (not very many) that don't know me or how I work - give me bad marks. Those that have used me before for a reading (not just an email exchange) - I've been fine with - they know how I work. The one thing that has worked - I guess - is the Wake Up Your Orgasm podcast. My Ask Allie podcast gets about 500 - 600 faithful listeners a week. The WUYO podcast gets about 3000 - 5000 a week. I know - how crazy is that? It's normally in iTunes "Top Audio Podcasts" for sexuality.

I did ask my guides to show me what direction I should be heading into -- and it looks like sex advice is it. Although they are telling me not to give up on my scripts either - that I have to keep pushing that right along with my OBE book and the WUYO podcast. But since I know I can't concentrate on two things at once - I have to pick - book or script rewrite. They pull on me the same.

Which brings me to a radio show. I want to do one radio show, once a week to start with. Now since sex seems to have caught on - do I have it be a sex advice themed show? Or since the majority of people I know work in the metaphysical/healing fields - should it be more like Ask Allie? Or - should I mash them both and do a "Allie Theiss" show that encompasses all of it. But I think that would be too wide spread - don't you think? I like the being a sex psychic and I like promoting that part. It's easier , I think, to bring the psychic part into the sex than it is to bring the sex into the psychic part. Does that make sense? I know it'll be clearer the closer I get to actually doing this. But I should would appreciate some clear cut answers every now and again. Answers that are extremely obvious and leave to room for interpretation.

All of the visions I have of me giving workshops in a large arena deal with the Wake Up Your Orgasm theme. So again, I suppose, that's another sign. I can see the whole thing - a large gathering with me giving a WUYO talk 3x over a course of 3 days. Then there are smaller workshops that people can sign up for and get the know on different kind of fetishes, toys and of course OBE sex. There are also a host of vendors there to sell their fetish products, clothes and toys. Wow - I just got all of that. Pretty cool.

I keep getting a push to go back to the meadow. For those of you who don't know what the meadow is - it's a place that Bill, Ted and I used to meet quite a bit several years ago. Then the woman who actually owns the meadow in the physical world - we had a major falling out - and we've only been back once since then. I'm getting really bothered by it right now. Oh hell - I'm going to grab my healing want and see what happens - hold on.

Okay - first of all when I grabbed my healing wand and closed my eyes - it felt so strange in my hands, like is was bendable - like one of those bendy kid straws you see. As I was at the meadow - it felt like I was bending it, reshaping it, but when I was done at the meadow it was feeling very solid again.

Now at the meadow I was greeted by both Bill and Ted. They looked pretty good - run down, tired, but overall good. The meadow was lush, green and full of vibrant energy - like it had once been. Several hundred feet away I spied a woman. I knew immediately that she was the woman I/we had the falling out with - the one who owns the meadow. I didn't want to go anywhere near her. But then Jesus showed up (this seems to be a favorite place of his as well) and told me that I have to walk over and see her. We need each other right now - I/we need the meadow to move forward in our lives and she needs us in the meadow so that she can move forward with her life.

I told Bill and Ted to stay put and I walked across the grass - felt very velvet like on my bare feet. I was close to her and I just stared at her. She held out her hand, but I didn't take it. She repeated what Jesus had already said - we need to make peace in order to move forward. I shook her hand - but I told her to stay away from us. She nodded in agreement - and she was gone.

I went back to Bill and Ted and let them know that we should be able to come here again without any problems. The large oak tree that Bill and I used to travel up in to reach the heavens had a white glow up top. I could also hear some angelic calling. I looked at the guys and said that they want to talk with us. Now Ted had never been up there with Bill and I. And he didn't want to go. He said he wasn't ready - such a look of fear in his eyes. I told him that if he wasn't ready he wouldn't be here. He didn't care - he said he'd do this later. With that he disappeared.

I looked at Bill and asked if we really needed to go up? I could feel the tug so I knew it was important - but like Ted I just didn't feel like it right now. Bill said no - it can wait until tomorrow. We laid down under the oak tree, I wrapped myself around Bill, he put his arms around me. I said that I missed these visits - he agreed - he did too. I mentioned that the powers that be will snag us in our dreams. He laughed and said - of course they will. And with that the connection was broken.

What does this all mean? Specially I don't have a clue. But I'm sure it has to deal with the increased time I have been spending in Atlantis during my dream time...

Each time I have visited Atlantis over the last week, I have been clothed in a very deep purple or violet flowing robe or maybe it's a dress. But it's very light feeling, like I have no clothes on. Bare feet with nothing on underneath this dress. There is a gold belt or sash around the middle. My hair is up - I have no jewelry on. But I do notice a star tattoo/birthmark inside my left wrist. The star is a light red/purple in color - too light to be a tattoo I think. Maybe times I go from person to person, giving them some sort of clear liquid from a crystal vial. They open their mouths and I pop a few drops in. It's like their daily wellness drops. Then I'm at a clinic of sorts. When people come in, they put their palms on a crystal scanner - after they are scanned, they are allowed into the next section of the clinic for treatment. I'm told that this security was put in because people from other sects were trying to sneak in and have us heal them. Seems that the other sects already began to fall to the dark side ( I feel like I'm in Star Wars) and our sect was one of the few remaining that was all light.

Last night though - it was interesting when I walked deep into a cave. There were no lights in the cave, but I made my way without missing a step. I emerged into this large cavern that was aglow with thousands of crystals (although this was not the Crystal Cavern I've talked about before). In here, were dozens of people from not only our sect, but many others, engaged in an orgy. But it wasn't an orgy like you would think about now a days - it didn't have that negative aura surrounding it. During the time of Atlantis, love was given and received freely - pleasuring one another in a group setting was the way we spread the love (so to speak). I kept hearing that we were vessels of love. That having a physical body to make love to was a new experience for a handful of us who were born just as energy - myself included. When we came to Atlantis through the portal - that is when we received a physical body. Although the pleasure derived from merging energy with energy was greater - the physical aspect of connecting proved to be not only interesting but fun. I could feel though that this form of sexual expression would frustrate me at times as I always wanted to strive for that orgasmic punch I had when I was pure energy.

Anyways -- more on the Atlantis orgy at Out of Body Ecstasy.

It just dawned on me - -just now. Why I'm here - one of the main reasons. Oh hell - sometimes I am just so slow. The more times souls spend in the physical body - the less they remember what it felt like to love outside the physical body. That is what I'm here to do (in part) is to have people reconnect with love & sex outside the physical body - to help them get in touch with who they truly are - their soul - and not that physical body they're in. For the most part, very few people can remember the orgasmic qualities to being pure energy and having sex. Hence - here I am. To help people with their sex lives by using their energy bodies. Also to get sex out of the closet. It's not a dirty thing - it's a wonderful, necessary process for our souls. I guess this just answered my radio show question - didn't it?

Can you believe it's been a year since I met Will? God how time flies. What I wouldn't do to meet him again. How I wish he would've called like he said he would. I wonder what part of me scared him? Was it that I knew him in a different light than everyone else did? Maybe he was worried that by knowing me he'd mess up his current relationship? He could be fearful of change? Whatever it was - I only wish that he showed the same faith that I did when I hopped on that plane to see him with my son. Just a little bit of faith - that's all. Which makes me wonder how Vincent will act. And even if I want to risk being rejected by him.

Today starts the Telepathic Connection e-class. If you haven't signed up yet, you still have time to do so!

BTW..I'm still not HOT yet with the Start Up Nation's Mom Contest <--- Keep voting please!

Kirk - email me - I can't find your email address anywhere.

I need to know from the people who read this blog if any of you would be interested in being a moderator for a GA board I'm starting. I need someone for magic/spells and another one for OBE (astral travel, not sex), dreams and telepathic connections. If anyone is interested - email me . I can't pay you, but it will be exposure for yourself and if you have a business.

I know that there's more to tell you - but right now I haven't got a clue to what it is:) Besides - I think that this is long enough!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

My Son, Bill And Ted!

Okay.....

First of all the good news - my son doesn't have an aneurysm! Very - very good news.

Then the not so great news: he had an adverse reaction to the sleep meds. On top of that, he caught a flu bug.

Do what has been happening is he's been very tired - so much so I can't get him to stay awake for very long (he slept for 22 hrs on Tuesday). Frequent vomiting (from the sleep meds), diarrhea (from the flu), body trembling & muscle cramps (sleep meds), headaches and a low grade fever (flu).

So Monday it was the Cleveland Clinic in the day - ER at night. Tuesday - ER. Wednesday - Many doctors. He's had blood drawn, IV w/fluids. There's a fear that his pancreas could be damaged from the sleep meds - so more blood was drawn yesterday.

I have pills to stop him from throwing up so that I can get him to drink Gatorade. Problem is - all he wants to do is sleep. All he does is sleep - all I do is stay awake. To say I'm tired would be an understatement.

The ex though, I will admit, has pulled his weight through this whole thing. Cleveland Clinic, ER visits and watching our son so that I can get some running around done.

I'm so behind on everything that I could scream - but I am slowly - oh so slowly - getting caught up. I "hope" to get the podcast done today - and the WUYO podcast done tonight. It would be great to post something on the OBE site - I'll try that later too. Email - as you can imagine - is a nightmare. Don't be surprised if you do not hear back from me until sometime late next week. Oh - and for some unknown reason I cannot get to Facebook. Every time I try - my computer freezes.

The meeting with ABC Family is postponed to next week. This is actually good news as the last second some changes were suggested to make it different from Disney or a Nickelodeon show. Had the meeting not moved - we wouldn't have been able to make the changes and ABC Family would have said no.

I'm throwing this in here - Kirk - got your voice mail:) I knew you were going to call - a little birdie told me - glad to hear your news. Sorry too that I can't come to NOLA at the end of the month :(

The small time I did sleep this week - I had a great dream visit with both Bill and Ted. Lately they both have been in the same dream visit - it was so cool. The atmosphere was very peaceful and calm. Ted sat in front if me and I knew I shouldn't bring up our soul relationship - that I was there to help him and I had to do so without giving him more information about us. He and I were discussing his marriage and the shambles its in (gee - I'm shocked). Bill had gel in his hair and it made it all spiky. I have no clue why I remember that part - except that he did look really cute. He kept walking past me and either giving me a quick hug or a kiss. The guy was all smiles. I also knew not to bring up the soul connection to him either - but I also knew that knew already and it could go unspoken. In the midst of all this - I was on set of an Indy film I wrote (I'm guessing the one I am working on now). Steven Spielberg was there reading the script (he was directing). My assistant called him Steven Spiel - Berry! I about had a heart attack. I corrected her immediately - he didn't even look up from the script. Will Smith came up behind me as I was watching the start of 'Men In Black" - I looked at him and said: You did make the suit look good. He was like - huh? So I explained to him about his line in the movie about the suit. Then I woke up.

My son and I are back on the home school kick. Today I was supposed to be ganged up on in the office again to talk about his behavior. I personally have had it with that school. Lucky for me he's still sick and I had an excuse to cancel. God I need to get him and I out of this town.

I added a new Soul Awakening Healing service as well as an email option to the Full Scale readings.

Next week, starting on Tuesday, I should be back to Keen & Live Person. Well - I should say Keen as I've been doing Live Person.

Going to go check on my son - you guys have a good weekend and thanks for all of your love, light and support.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

CJ, KS and Allie's Vision of Dying!

Another - I don't know where to start - blog entry. I would love to sleep -- for days if I could. It'll never happen. But I would like to get some much needed shut eye. I had two other energies move into my field and since then I might as well kiss sleep good bye. I can't get to bed before 1:00 am - no matter how hard I try - I just can't get there. When I'm in bed I go right to sleep. But sleep is just a facade as I dream travel all night long. It's exhausting. Between every dream visit I wake up - roll over - and go right into another visit. By time my alarm goes off at 6:30 am, it feels like I just laid down. I haven't increased my coffee - so my headaches are pretty strong during the day. SIGH. It makes it difficult to think. Luckily - when I do reading I don't have to think, I just let the information flow.

My son -- not only do I have to worry about his MRI/MRA on Monday - but now the kid got a one day in-school suspension. Seems him and another kid were playing "army" and my son said that they should "kill" another kid. The school took that as a threat and they have a zero tolerance policy. He's grounded until further notice with no X-Box, computer or iPod - plus I took all of his Nerf guns away. He doesn't "get" that what he did was bad - since he was just playing. I tried explaining it to him -- at least he's majorly embarrassed. Sheesh - the kids 8 - at least I waited till I was 15 before I had my 3 day in school suspension.

Darin (the cat) went to the vet on Monday. He was pretty sick, poor little dude. He was a trooper though and let the vet poke and prod him - give him fluids and shots. He's even being cool about me giving liquid meds 2x a day. Right now we're guessing that somehow he caught a virus from Little Black Kitty. Not sure how -- but that's the only explanation.

The script I wrote last week won't be done in time for the contest it was intended for. Although the foundation was solid - the execution was a train wreck. Yep - felt pretty stupid on that one. Oh well -- this weekend at the latest I'll get back to it and hopefully write something that doesn't sound idiotic. Now that mercury is direct, I'm sure I can.

Oh the readers comment about Sawyer on the last post (I think) -- oh yeah -- that man is hot:) He can be without a shirt all season if need be!

Maria Shaw just informed me that on Feb 13th, she and the guys will be back on CBS Psychiconair.com on Friday nights only from 6 - 8 pm ET. It'll be great to hear the 3 of them even if it's just for once a week.

Finger crossed - the show that was intended for Nickelodeon is making it's way to ABC Family. A meeting happens next week.

Now for these new energies. I have no idea what kind of baring they have on me - some sort of karmic tie I would suppose. The first one is CJ. He's a big guy, very loving, kind - yet extremely opinioned. His energy is romantic and sexual. In a way like Vincent's - that he wants to protect me - but not as rock solid as Vincent - if that makes any sense. CJ is also full of fun, creative and a lover of the outdoors. He's very sexual - but sex isn't something that's important to him. He feels that actions, outside of sex, shows a person how much you care for them. Sex is something that feels good - but is used for making babies.

Now for KS. He's energy is very high strung. Teasing - protective - loving - yet angry and can be violent. He loves deeply and when hurt it wounds him for life. His energy towards me is brother-like. Nothing at all sexual or romantic. It reminds me of a brother and sister who tease each other - beat each other up - but if someone attacks either one of them , the other would give their life to protect them. His energy also reminds me of a phoenix - someone who can reinvent himself and one who will also surprise people. Kind of like Madonna in the 80's & 90's.

So these two have been be-bopping around my energy field since last week. They take turns. I personally have had just about enough of both of them. I'd like to keep all energies at arms length for awhile.

I had the oddest vision the other day when Brigit stopped by on Imbolc to say Hi. She wanted me to stop working, close my eyes and pay attention. So I did just that. What I saw was CJ and I walking towards an elevator in a hotel. It was the penthouse elevator. Before I got to it I stopped, looked at him and said: You didn't. He's like - what'd I do? And I started rattling them off: Bill, Ted, Will, Vincent, George....they're up there, in the penthouse. He denied it - I knew he was lying. I refused to go up. We argued about it - my body was shaking and I couldn't control it. He led me into the elevator - we start to go up - when I blurt out that I didn't tell him everything. He said what -- I said - when we're all together I'm going to die. He hit the stop button on the elevator. I had to explain to him that I've had visions of me having a heart attack and dying once we were all in the same room (and I actually have had this vision plenty of times). It's vital that as soon as I have the heart attack - Will, Ted and Bill place their hands on me - while he performed CPR. Vincent and George needed to have paper and pen in hands - because as soon as I come back - I'll have information for everyone. Plus - make sure they keep yelling for me to get back into my body - because I'm not going to want to. He thought I was nuts. I asked him not to let me die -- and no matter what - he can't give up trying to bring me back nor can the guys take their hands off of me. He agreed.

As soon as we stepped out of the elevator I met everyone. 30 sec after I hugged George - I had the heart attack. I see myself going down - CJ jumps into control and tells everyone what they have to do. Everyone is doing everything on cue. I can't see my soul anywhere - but the feeling I had is that I knew I was close by and talking with someone. 2 - 3 min later I saw my body jerk like my soul fell back in and I sat up. I rattled off this place with white pillars and a large pool of water. Next thing I know - I see my grandmother - she tells me that everything has changed and not to be scared.

Grams leaves and then George's Aunt shows up (she's dead as well). We're having a convo - I'm told no one else can see her but me. We talk - I give George some info - then she hands me a red rose to give to him. As soon as I have it in my hand - it materializes in the physical sense. I'm shocked. Someone else who is deceased comes along - hands me something - as soon as I take it - it becomes real. This kept happening over and over again.

Then Brigit said I'd seen enough. I asked what does that mean? She said that my gift of manifestation will be in full force when I come back to life - somehow my NDE gives it extra power. And that was that....I sat there for awhile after this one thinking - WTF? The manifestation twist was a new one to me. And I kept thinking how could that ever be possible - if it's possible. Once something leaves a spirit's hands into mine - it becomes solid. That's just wild.

And on that note - I have to get back to work.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)